Chapter 268: It'll be fine with me
But the more he was like this, the more sad Bai Qianqian felt.
She actually wanted to ask what happened back then, how could her mother suddenly disappear?
This question has been trapped in her heart for a long time, and it is good not to think about it before, but once she thinks about it, she will find that she is so eager to know.
But looking at the weak appearance of his father who had just woken up, the words that came to his mouth were finally swallowed back.
Li Cheng covered Bai Anhua with a quilt again, looking very considerate.
Bai Anhua was only talking to Bai Qianqian just now, and at this moment he noticed that Li Cheng was also there, looking at this like the appearance of the husband and wife complementing each other, the smile in his eyes couldn't help but become a little stronger.
"You're also here, did you accompany Qianqian to come and see my old man?"
He looked at Li Cheng and asked.
Li Cheng nodded: "As soon as Qianqian received a call and heard that something had happened to you, she hurried over, and she didn't dare to delay half a minute on the road." ”
Bai Anhua patted the back of Li Cheng's hand lightly: "You are a good boy, with you by Qianqian's side, I am also relieved, I have not done a good job as a father, I have not done my duty, I hope you don't treat Qianqian well like me, so that I can rest assured in a hundred years." ”
He spoke lightly, sounding as if he were talking about the most ordinary thing.
But Bai Qianqian until, this is a father entrusting his beloved daughter to another man.
Seeing this scene, Bai Qianqian's eyes were a little sour.
She suddenly couldn't help it, pushed the door and went out.
The moment the door was pushed open, tears welled up in her face.
Li Cheng clearly saw that the woman's body was trembling slightly, and Bai Qianqian closed the door very quickly in time, but he also clearly saw that something was wrong with her.
The man hurriedly responded to Bai Anhua's instructions, and immediately chased him out.
After searching for a while, I found the thin shadow in the small garden downstairs of the hospital.
The woman sat on a stone bench in the garden, wearing a man's fat coat, and looked a little thinner under the vague and very unclear morning mist.
It was as if the wind could blow her away along with the mist.
Looking at Bai Qianqian like this, Li Cheng's heart was indescribably distressed.
Obviously, she is by her side, but Li Cheng always feels that sometimes she is far away from her, as if she will leave at any time, and she will disappear at any time.
He walked over slowly, sat down beside Bai Qianqian, and gathered the wide coat on her body for her.
The woman looked at the rising sun that had just come out of the mist, revealing only a small dot, bright but hazy.
Li Cheng didn't know what she was thinking, he gently wrapped his arms around the woman's waist, let her lean on his shoulder and asked, "What's wrong?" Is there something on your mind? ”
Because the light outside was not bright, he didn't notice anything wrong with Bai Qianqian just now.
At this moment, when he turned his head like this, he realized that he didn't know when, Bai Qianqian had already burst into tears.
This discovery shocked Li Cheng's heart, and he hurriedly held her face and asked very worriedly: "What's wrong Qianqian, is something happening?" If you tell me anything, leave it to me to deal with, and don't keep it in your heart, okay? ”
Bai Qianqian shook her head, biting her lip with her teeth, and didn't say a word, just silently shed tears, like a haggard rag doll.
The more she was like this, the more worried she became, and the man silently took out a handkerchief to help Bai Qianqian wipe away the tears on her face, her movements were gentle and slow, as if she was afraid that touching this porcelain doll would make her hurt.
It's just that the more Bai Qianqian doesn't speak, the more anxious he becomes, wanting to know what happened.
"What's the matter, Qianqian, can you tell me? Anything can be left to me, you can rely on me, I'm your man, if you have emotions, you can vent on me, okay? ”
People are often very sad, when they hear the comfort of people they care about and trust, the grief in their hearts will burst out even more.
Bai Qianqian is exactly like this, the woman who was just crying silently turned into a howl after hearing Li Cheng's words.
Tears seemed to be unable to hold back any longer, like a flood that burst its banks, gushing out in a steady stream.
Her cry was heartbreaking, as if she had suppressed countless pains and the sadness that had been blocked in her heart for many years, and she was completely vented one by one at this moment.
Li Cheng patted the woman's shoulders and back, and calmed her down little by little, and the man didn't say a word but quietly listened to her cry.
Because the man knows that at this moment, no matter how much he says it, no matter how comforting he is, it is useless, this is a knot in Bai Qianqian's heart, only if she vents it by herself will she be comfortable, and the door of her heart will be open before she is willing to say the words that have been put in her heart.
I cried for I don't know how long, until Bai Qianqian's voice was a little hoarse, her nose was red, and the whole person looked very fragile.
Li Cheng wiped the tears from her face for her, and said softly: "Can you tell me now?" ”
Bai Qianqian didn't nod, didn't shake her head, didn't say yes, didn't say no, just spoke silently, as if telling the story that she had been keeping in her heart all these years.
"You know what? When I was very young, my mother disappeared, not because she couldn't find her, not because she was gone, but because she had disappeared into the world without a trace, and I couldn't find it. At first, I still thought about going to her, thinking that living alone in the world, no matter what, there will be traces, as long as I am patient and willing to spend time and energy, I will find it one day. ”
Speaking of this, the woman took a deep breath, paused, and continued: "But then I found out that I was wrong, I searched for a long time, and I went to many places, and asked many people, including my father, but no one told me where she went. Not even a single person knew anything about her, she was like a gust of wind that had been blown away, and then disappeared without a trace, and I couldn't find it, but I think my father must have known something, but he wouldn't tell me.
I have been running away from it before, because I know that if a person has not been found, and there is not even a trace, then the possibility of this life is getting lower and lower, after all, how can there be a person living in the world? But what if it doesn't leave a trace of life? I know that my mother is probably like that, disappearing into thin air without leaving a trace, probably forever and forever in this world, right? But I didn't dare to face this result, so I kept running away, and I didn't even dare to mention it, for fear that the result would really be what I was afraid of, but when I saw my father today, I suddenly didn't want to run away anymore, I wanted to know what caused my mother to disappear back then, and whether she was alive or ...... now"
Bai Qianqian didn't say the last few words, she was afraid, afraid that she would become a prophecy.
Li Cheng listened to the woman's fluttering words, and his heart hurt very much.
She has carried these alone for so many years, she must be very tired.
"Okay, I'll go with you, let's go and ask him what he was like back then, don't worry about being here, no matter how good or bad the result is, as long as it's worthy of his heart."
Bai Qianqian seemed to be tired, she looked very unenergetic in the arms of a man, and when she heard Li Cheng's words, she only nodded slightly, like a rag doll that had been completely drained of her strength.
Li Cheng knew that she was tired, after all, she had been busy all night anyway, and she had never rested since last night, even if she was an iron beater, she would be tired.
The man hugged Bai Qianqian in his arms like a child, patted her back gently, and coaxed her in his softest and deepest voice: "If you are tired, go to sleep, even if there is no one in the world to protect you, you still have me, I am your world, even if the world does not exist, I will build a world for you." ”
The man's voice seemed to have some kind of magic, bewitching Bai Qianqian to relax, and before he knew it, he fell asleep like this.
Looking at the woman in his arms, the corners of Li Cheng's mouth hooked up a smile, and then he took Bai Qianqian to the hotel next to the hospital.
Bai Qianqian slept for a long time, so long that she had a very long dream, in which she seemed to go back to her childhood, when her father was there, her mother was also there, and she lived a very happy life.
But one day everything changed, and her mother suddenly disappeared, and she cried and begged her mother not to go, but her mother ignored her and just walked forward.
She wailed and ranched, desperate to keep everything that belonged to her, but the world is impermanent, and some things often backfire.
In the end, her mother was gone, and her father left her, and she was the only one left in the world, lonely and alone, she looked at the desolate world, and finally couldn't bear this despair, stood on the edge of the cliff, and jumped down.
Bai Qianqian was woken up, and she vaguely heard someone calling her in her ear, and her voice was urgent and a little worried.
She slowly opened her eyes, and in front of her was Li Cheng's enlarged handsome face, and Li Cheng was full of worry and concern under the eyes of the two.
Bai Qianqian felt a little headache, there were still undried tears on her face, the pillow was also wet, and her hair was full of sweat, which made her feel sticky and very uncomfortable.
Only then did she realize that something was wrong with her, but she had just been woken up, and she was still a little dazed.
"What's wrong with me?"
Li Cheng casually pulled a tissue from the cabinet next to her and wiped the cold sweat from her forehead for her.
The man said with concern: "You have a nightmare, you have been crying, it seems to be very painful, can you tell me what you dreamed of?" ”
Bai Qianqian sat up from the bed, and Li Cheng thoughtfully brought her a pillow to cushion behind her.
The woman seems to have experienced a lot of things, and although she has just woken up, she still feels very tired at the moment, but not physically tired but mentally tired.
"I just had a long, long dream, I dreamed that when I was a child, I dreamed that my parents were there, and then my father left, and my mother was gone, and I was the only one left in the world, so I ended my life......"
Her words were fluttering, even if she cried so badly just now because this dream was too real and too painful, but at this moment, she could still tell it as easily and naturally as if something had happened that had nothing to do with her.
But Li Cheng knew how much pain her heart should have to say such a thing, and how much strength she used to endure these pains.
He hugged Bai Qianqian and comforted: "Don't worry, no, such a thing will not happen, you have me, as long as I am here, you will not be alone, and you still have a father, don't you?" He's not gone from you, he's by his side. ”
Bai Qianqian took a deep breath, hugged the man back and nodded: "I know, it's just a dream, it's not true, then nothing will happen, I want to go see my father." ”
She fell asleep last night without warning, and she and Li Cheng never went back after leaving, it was already noon, it was time to eat, and she should go to eat with her father.
Hearing her say this, Li Cheng naturally would not disagree.
He nodded and said, "Okay, then you get up and clean up, and we'll go to the hospital." ”