Although the Blue Dragon Club is the longest gang I've been in so far, we didn't have much equipment at that time, and the gang was good. At that time, we were obsessed with daily dungeons every day, and occasionally we would organize some gang activities when our interests came. At that time, Murong Su and Li Lao's goal was to build the Blue Dragon Club into the most leisurely entertainment gang in the rivers and lakes. At that time, I thought we would be together forever.

The battle between Xiange and the Blue Dragon Club finally subsided, and Bu Milk and quickly integrated into the gang. Their YY hangs on the gang's YY channel every day, and they don't come down alone even when they type the book. At first, I thought they would get tired of it after a long time, but later I realized that these people turned out to be so easy to integrate into the world of gangs.

Murong Su returned home from work and moved a lot of things in his hands. He saw me staring at the screen in a daze, and stayed for a long time. Walking up, the slender finger waved a few times in front of me, and smiled when I looked at him.

"What are you doing?" He asked me, and then pulled a random chair and sat down next to me.

I shook my head and rubbed my eyes.

Maybe I'm a little tired, and my eyelids start fighting. I glanced at the coffee table behind him, which was full of work supplies in a square cardboard box. I asked him what it was, and he just smiled faintly and told me that he had resigned.

Murong Su has been working in the mainland from Taiwan for half a year, and he has changed jobs twice in this half year. And I stayed at home because of his care.

He looked a little tired, and his eyes were not full of energy. His hand reached out and held mine tightly. He asked me, "Am I useless?" ”

"Why did you quit?" I asked him rhetorically.

"I'm so tired," he said in reply, as if muttering to myself.

He stood up, turned and walked towards the coffee table. He bent down and picked up the square cardboard box. His back looked a little lonely, and he sighed and smiled bitterly. He stood with his back to me, hesitating for a long time.

He said: "Tutu, it's been half a year since I came to the mainland. I'm really happy to be by your side for half a year! When I was in Taiwan, I always looked forward to the day when I could fly to you. When it actually came to that day, I got a little carried away. I thought we would be satisfied, but we weren't at all. When we are thousands of miles apart, we can still shiver a few words on the phone every day. But now that we're together, we don't talk more than ten times a day. It's been half a year, and we haven't gone out to watch a movie together, gone shopping together, and had a couple meal together. Tutu, are we missing something? ”

I was stunned for a moment by his words, I didn't know what I was thinking. For half a year, I and he have lived day after day. In the morning, he made breakfast and went to work, and in the evening, he would play games with me and take a shower and sleep. I never thought about what two people needed to have a holiday, like when I lived alone.

Squatting there and silent for a long time, I saw Murong Su with a disappointed face. He waited for me to reply to him, but he didn't wait for a word. He nodded, and turned around with the heavy thing. He looked me in the eye and tears flowed from his eyes. He asked me, "Tutu, do you love me?" ”

"Love?" I question.

I don't understand what love is. What I lacked was not only motherly love, but also fatherly love.

I smiled awkwardly and crouched in my chair and hugged my legs. I said to him, "Don't you think the word love is too heavy?" To be honest, I don't really understand what love is. Since I was a child, my mom left me, and my dad didn't care about me. When I was in a good mood, I asked my stepmother to give me some money. In a bad mood, they whipped me up and told me to die. I had a high fever and lay down in a bed for a day. If it weren't for my aunt, I'd probably have been in the wilderness long ago. ”

"Murong Su, do you know?" My tears unconsciously flowed down with the words, and I looked at Murong Su uncomfortably, and I choked up, "You are the best person I have treated me except for my aunt so far." I am so grateful for your kindness to me, and sometimes it makes me feel as if I should have lived in this happy world since I was a child. You ask me if I love you, and I don't know. All I know is that if one day you disappear, I'll be sad, sad. ”

"Tutu," he put down what he was holding, and crouched down in front of me. His eyes were red, and his hands caressed my cheeks. His voice was gentle, tenderly touching my heart. He smiled a little and then said to me, "I'm sorry, I want to put away my thoughts." I've come all the way from Taiwan to the mainland, and I'm still afraid of something. But when I see you, I can't help but think, can I give you happiness in the future? People are selfish, and so am I. It's really hard to get the love you give and not get it in return. ”

"There are a few people who can be reciprocated for their love." I laughed at myself, and Murong Su thought I was laughing at him.

In the emotional world of two people, there is always one person who pays more, and the other person deserves to enjoy. In front of Murong Su, I never showed an expression that I liked very much. He always told me how much he liked me and how much he wanted to marry me. He planned his future in an orderly manner, and even my future life was planned in his life goals.

He's like a planner, planning it all.

I've always been in a state of confusion, how long it will take for us to plan successfully.

I thought he was just tired, that's why he said that. I was a little tired, so I got up. I went to take a shower and washed myself from start to finish. Squat under the unkempt head and let the water soak your clothes.

I don't know if I'm crying or laughing, I can always feel the rough breathing in my ears.

In the evening, I didn't play the game. My grandmother called me several times, but I didn't get through.

Sitting on the balcony and looking at the branches outside in a daze. After staying for a long time, I saw Zhou Chen who appeared downstairs in an open-top car. He looked up at me, said hello to me, and got out of the car.

Zhou Chen's visit made me not different. Since the first time he came to my house, every time he came after that, he looked like he was going back to his own home.

Naturally, he walked into the living room and walked to the refrigerator to pull out beer and fruit. When he saw me sitting on the balcony blowing the cold wind, he walked over. He sat next to me and glanced around.

"What about Murong Su?" He asked me.

"I went out shopping," I replied.