That night, Yu Dagou left with a light rain on his back. In the early morning of the next day, they arrived at the train station in the city of Tianzidu. He was ruthless and decided to send the child farther away, and if he couldn't find the best, then he might feel better in the bottom of his heart.

Yu Dagou squatted at the station for a long time and struggled. He bought food for Xiaoyu with only 2 yuan for the whole family. Xiaoyu was very happy: "Dad, whatever you want to eat in the future, I'll buy it for you!" ”

"Good baby, in the future... You have to protect yourself... Don't let others bully you anymore! ”

"Dad, why are you crying?"

"Happy Dad, you've grown up..."

"Then why are they smashing our house! When I grow up, I will be able to protect you and my mother! ”

"Hmmm! Yes! Yu Dagou touched Yu Xiaoyu's head: "Baby, don't hate your mother!" Later... Hate me! ”

"Dad, I don't understand what you said!"

"Remember! Just hate me..."Yu Dagou glanced at the woman standing next to him, his heart was like a knife.

"Hurry up!" The woman urged.

"Be sure to remember! Your daddy's name is Big Dog! It's a bad breed! ”

"My dad is not a bad breed!"

"Let's go! I'm running out of cars! The woman urged again.

"Hug!" Yu Dagou burst into tears: "You must remember!" Your dad is a bastard! ”

"My dad is not a bad breed!"

“…”

The sky was bright, the winter sun was angry, it blushed and pushed away the heavy clouds, staring at this vast land, contemptuous of the common people...

Yu Xiaoyu was carried onto the train by the woman, and he turned his head and waved happily. The green car roared and moved. Yu Dagou knelt on the ground, looked at the Xiaoyu who was taken away, and cried loudly:

"I call your grandmother! The surname is Yu... What kind of world is this! No... It's been liberated for so many years..."As if he suddenly remembered something, he hurriedly got up and chased after him, and fell down before he could run far, and then got up and chased again, and fell again....

Yu Xiaoyu was taken away by a kind-looking woman, and under her double offensive of teasing and sugar gourds all the way, Yu Xiaoyu quickly fell. He had never seen such a delicious thing, where had he ever seen such a long car, and he only cared about the strangeness of looking at and touching in the carriage. No children from the village threw stones at him, no children smashed his windows and eaves, no hateful stares and insults...

He was tired of playing and fell asleep, and he was very happy on this day.

The next morning, Yu Xiaoyu was woken up, he happily opened his eyes and looked around, only to find that this was not the home that the kind woman promised him to reach after sleeping and opening his eyes. At this moment, the novelty and excitement of his first train ride were replaced by panic and helplessness, it was a completely strange place, the bed, the room, even the taste was different. He closed his eyes and opened them again, trying to confirm what the woman had said again, this time covering his eyes with his hands, and carefully moving them away, seeing everything completely unfamiliar. His instincts told him that it was very insecure...

"Where's my father? Where is this? Yu Xiaoyu found that after opening her eyes several times, they were still the same, and tears were rolling in her eyes.

"What? This is my family, and you will be my baby in the future! A yellow-faced man approached and yelled.

"This is not my home, I want to go home!" Yu Xiaoyu hurriedly got up from the bed.

"Home? Syllable! The yellow-faced man slapped Yu Xiaoyu in the face, he was frightened and covered his face in confusion.

"In the future, this is your home, and I am your son!"

"You're not!" Yu Xiaoyu retorted.

"Smack!" Yu Xiaoyu was slapped again, but he still said no.

"Smack!" Yu Xiaoyu also said no.

“...”

Yu Xiaoyu was stunned, and her left cheek was red and swollen. The yellow-faced man was angry and turned around the house: "Coax me! This is obviously a monster, and he dares to lie to Lao Tzu! ”

He discovered Yu Xiaoyu's secret and was very angry: "He actually coaxed me..."

"The baby I received last night cost 300 yuan, that's... That's a few of them! An old lady with gray hair in the house sighed, not knowing whether she was worried about money or children.

"What then? With so much money, how can this be passed on to the next generation? The yellow-faced man was anxious.

Three hundred yuan was not a small amount at that time, and sometimes a village could not necessarily make it up. The yellow-faced man must be angry, he has to pay back this money for the rest of his life.

"Alas! Wow! The old lady wiped away her tears.

"Mother! Why don't we sell it again? The yellow-faced man asked.

"Who are you looking for to sell? When you get close, you don't know anyone, but you don't know anyone when you're far away...", said the old lady.

"What then? I'm going to find the village chief! "The yellow-faced man went out.

"What a wow!" The old lady was half covered in the quilt, leaning against the wall and lamenting.

At noon, Yu Xiaoyu woke up, his face was hot and painful, he covered his red and swollen face, stared at the old lady on the other end and didn't speak. He understood, he was sold by his father, and he had been awake just now. It's just that he doesn't understand, why all this?

"Baby, don't blame us, we can't help it, my family is poor, and I can't marry a daughter-in-law, the incense of this Wang family can't be broken..."

"His father died early, and I was paralyzed and couldn't go to the ground, so I was counting on Dawang!" The old lady babbled and found a reason for herself to be at ease:

"Wait a minute, you'll have a full meal, and I don't have any good things in my family, and everything I can sell has been sold..."

Late at night, the yellow-faced man Wang Dawang came back with the village chief and walked outside with Yu Xiaoyu, who was eating corn paste. Yu Xiaoyu didn't struggle anymore, he understood the old lady's words, they were the same as his father Yu Dagou... I'm going to sell him.

At Ludong Railway Station, two yellow-faced men are bargaining with traffickers. Yu Xiaoyu looked at them and didn't squeak. This was the first thorn in his young psyche.

Two days later, Yu Xiaoyu was taken to southern Anhui. He was trying his best to eat all the way, he probably wanted to remember some tastes, and he didn't dare to close his eyes along the way, he probably wanted to remember something. However, can you remember such a long journey?

"Dog! This is a baby who is neither male nor female! The old man withdrew Yu Xiaoyu's pants and scolded.

"What? This..."The old lady has no master: "What can I do?" Old man? ”

"Don't scream! Dead, blind you! The old man kicked at the old lady beside him: "Change hands!" ”

Starting from Wangjia Village in Ludong, no, from the day of Tianzidu Railway Station, Yu Xiaoyu carried out a two-year 'upheaval of displacement'. It can't be called displaced, it's an inappropriate word, it should be sold and sold, and it is frequently sold and sold. South Anhui to Yuzhou, Yuzhou to Jingzhou, Jingzhou to Zezhou, Zezhou to Suzhou, and then to Daning...

Two years, that's 24 months. A young child was handed over one after another, and countless abuses and beatings were made. It's all because the family who bought him found weird, closed and ignorant, and couldn't stand the cynicism and ridicule of his neighbors. If he stays, he will have to withstand the same pressure as his biological parents, as well as the two or three hundred yuan that he scraped together.

In the end, in order to prevent the money from going down the drain and making their personal fortunes, those families had to transfer them to their families and sell them around like livestock, until they were transferred to a circus troupe that made a living from street walking...

Yu Xiaoyu has not said a word for the past two years. He had almost forgotten who he was and where he came from. He may still remember some of the flavors he remembered along the way, but the thorns that were pierced into his heart were more and more, enough to distort people's minds, enough to make people's hearts turn upside down. It was a seed, a seed of evil, and if that seed wanted to germinate, no one could see what the result would be.

The circus owner was very happy and bought a child for only 50 yuan. Any child in his team can earn a few cents a day for him, and he is the one who makes a living from this kind of livelihood. After receiving Yu Xiaoyu, he happily calculated the market, and if he collected more, he would make a fortune. The more he thought about it, the happier and happier he became, and when he went back, he poured inferior wine into his blackened tin wine jug, and smiled at Yu Xiaoyu while drinking, laughing so much that he wanted to vomit, and he was disgusted for a while.

"In the future, Lao Tzu will be your father! Whatever Lao Tzu asks you to do, you will do it obediently! The circus master blushed and shook his body.

"In the future, what will Lao Tzu ask you to do, if you don't do it? See where you don't..."Yu Xiaoyu saw him pointing to a corner where a skinny child was lying, motionless.

"He was killed by me, you go and touch it, see how it feels..."

“...”

"I'll let you go, you just go obediently, the whip in my hand is very hard!"

“...”

"To go or not to go? Hurry up! ”

Yu Xiaoyu was pushed and walked closer, but he didn't dare to touch it. It was a gut feeling, a fear. In the end, he was forcibly pressed to the ground and lay on the thin corpse. Yu Xiaoyu felt cold, cold to the bone, his teeth chattering, and his eyes wandering. The circus master laughed, walked back to the table, and continued to eat.

The rest of the children were also skinny and disheveled, standing in a row in the corner. Yu Xiaoyu hurriedly got up, trembling dazedly. The circus master pointed to the buns on the table and said:

"Come, eat steamed buns!"

“...”

"Come here!" The circus master suddenly yelled with red eyes.

“…”

"Yes, eat hard, I'll see how much you can eat!" The circus master poured another glass of wine and looked at it with a smile.

"Don't eat it!" A child standing in the corner reminded.

"Shut up! Let you speak! Itchy skin? The circus master glanced at the talkative child: "Come here!" ”

"Makes you talk a lot!" The circus master kicked the boy and put his foot on his mouth: "Die!" ”

"I... Don't eat... Don't fight... He! Yu Xiaoyu put down the bun and said tremblingly.

"Eat your food, leave it alone!" The circus took the initiative to do non-stop, and the children under their feet couldn't stop howling.

"Please, don't fight... Don't fight..."Yu Xiaoyu hugged the leg of the circus master, crying and begging.

"Mouthy is like that... Will you talk a lot in the future? ”

"Please... Don't fight..."Yu Xiaoyu cried, he wanted to pull up the beaten child.

"Okay, you plead, Lao Tzu is in a good mood, forget it... Throw him farther away," said the circus master, pointing to the corpse in the corner.

"I said throw it away, do you hear me?"

"Listen... Arrive... up.." Yu Xiaoyu pulled up the beaten children on the ground with bloody faces, and they supported each other and walked to the corner.

They laboriously dragged the corpse into the field. In fact, they lived in a makeshift broken shed, "rebuilt" in the corner of a decaying earthen wall, which can be regarded as wild, and can only be said to be thrown a little farther.

Yu Xiaoyu and the child were squatting on the ground, covering their ears. In the distance, several wild dogs that had shed their hair were biting each other, and the sound of gnawing on the bones of the corpses made their hearts palpitate. That voice, Yu Xiaoyu can wake up from a dream...

Yu Xiaoyu was very scared, this was a throbbing from the bottom of her heart. This irregular heart beating is a "timed Z-bomb" buried in the subconscious, which will induce uncontrolled behavior through external stimuli, which is an unhealthy emotional catharsis.

He finally knew that there were people who were more ruthless than on the road to reselling...

Is this something that people can do? Is this human? Conscience is the rubbed insole, and conscience is here the hairless wild dogs that have eaten the corpses, and the dog urine that has been spilled wantonly. Perhaps, worse than those...

The evil of people, once the evil in the hearts of people is aroused, it is really cold-blooded and ruthless, bloody and cruel to the point that it is not as good as beasts. The development of society has not made human nature progress, in fact, human nature is declining...

Yu Xiaoyu entered the circus class on the first day, and his first meal was steamed buns, which may be full. He spent the first night in fright, he dreamed of wild dogs, and the rest did not remember.

This damn fate, it sometimes jokes, without considering the other party's ability to bear it. It is intentional and ruthless, and its teasing is to treat life as a joke. It arranged for all the ruthless and shameless people in the world to test him one by one, over and over again...

The circus has never been an easy place to live, and they make a living by selling their dignity and lowly power. They come into contact with filthy 'sexual' people. In this way, not only is it more tiring but also underfed, because there are many people who watch juggling, and there are few people who are willing to give money, and there is not enough income to spend on the mouths of this large group of food.

Due to the invasion of the imperial borders and the preparation of war in the south, their income was almost cut off. The circus owner is in a bad mood, and he has to get angry when he is in a bad mood. This group of blue-faced and malnourished children was the only one he was angry with. He was able to stick himself with sticks for all kinds of shameless reasons, and the children he often beat were covered in bruises and wailing, and he often rolled on the ground covered in blood and begged for mercy. He fights when he is drunk, when he is popular with outsiders, when it rains on a cloudy day, he has no money to buy something to eat, and he fights even more when he has no alcohol to drink...

Yu Xiaoyu was beaten the most, because he didn't know anything and had no skills to make money. The rest of the children can also somersaults, step on stilts, and hold their breath in the water tank. He won't, the class owner asked him to take off his pants to attract those curious people, Yu Xiaoyu was numb from being beaten at that time, and lost the ability to think, he didn't know, this was a shame, just like the people he saw at the beginning, his eyes were wide open, puzzled, and puzzled. But slowly no one looked at it anymore, and he slowly learned that it was a shame...

When their income is completely cut off, they are beaten even more. But Yu Xiaoyu never said anything, even if he fainted in pain, he would never beg for mercy. His resistance made the circus master feel very frustrated, and he became even more ruthless and angry, and beat him more and more frequently. These young children are like the animals kept in captivity by the circus owner, battered and powerless to fight...

This more than a year of circus life, no, it can't be called life, it should be survival, survive under the perverted torture of that beast, survive in hell, struggle by the devil's side...

The cruel treatment made Yu Xiaoyu's young mind gradually numb, cold and completely closed...

For more than a year, he watched as several children who were killed by the circus owner's hands, just like the day he first started, were casually discarded in the wilderness and allowed to be eaten by wild dogs...

This year, Xiaoyu was 7 years old. The circus troupe has lost its income here and has to migrate. There was a war going on in the south, and the head of the class said that he was going to a big city, saying that there were more people, more money, more food, and that as long as he performed hard, he would never go hungry again. The children were very happy to hear it, and after being abused for a long time, they no longer have the ability to think, only instinct remains. They still believe the nonsense of the circus masters, because they understand the word "full". Children can't think of anything else, they can't think of...

In the summer, they need to cross the river. The children had never seen such a wide 'river' before, and they were very excited to chirp. Yu Xiaoyu, who was huddled in the corner, was in pain because of seasickness. He struggled to restrain his protest from the cold stomach without a single scrap, and his head felt like the world was spinning, and it was about to crack painfully. At first, he tied himself to the large wooden box used by the circus to hold his belongings, so that his thin body would not be squeezed into the water by the crowd.

Flatbed ferries converted from dilapidated fishing boats rise and fall with the swells in the river, slowly and laboriously sailing to the opposite shore.

In the center of the river, a gust of cross wind swept the big waves towards the dilapidated ferry, the hull swayed from side to side, the disrepaired ship board began to loosen, several waves in a row, the dilapidated wooden sampan finally could not support, skewed in the waves, and was shot away...