"Age imposes a lot of things on me that I don't need, and it doesn't care if I can bear it, so it sweeps over me like that, leaving me unable to move in it, and I can only passively accept it... When it was gone, I tried to pick myself up again, to re-examine myself, and think that nothing was missing..."

"But it takes away innocence, strips away happiness, empties faith, and leaves me with... The exhausted and empty body is replaced by a sorrow full of sorrow and scars engraved in consciousness. And that scar can't be wiped off, can't be erased..."

Lu Dongzhi was in a low mood, and for a long time, he raised his eyes to look at Nalanhua, and his eyes lost their former brilliance. This made Nalanhua very touched.

'Erasing a single moment in my life, I can't be who I am today. This sentence is very cruel and helpless! Nalan Hua looked at Lu Dongzhi, handed her a glass of water, and said, "Originally, I planned it, but I won't tell you in the end... But I don't want you to be so miserable! ”

"I understand why Shu Liang passed this on to me through you..."

"He's worried that I'm embarrassed for you..."Lu Dongzhi seemed to have made up his mind, lit a cigarette and said in a daze: "Big flower..."

"You are not allowed to call me that! This title belongs only to him! Nalanhua interrupted unceremoniously, and after thinking about it, she couldn't bear it after all, so she tilted her head and stared at Lu Dongzhi: "Are you..."

"I don't allow you to look at me with such sympathy!" Lu Dongzhi stared at Nalanhua's eyes: "Don't destroy the little bit that we have accumulated with great difficulty... Empathy! ”

"Do you know how Shu Liang interprets staring into the abyss?" Nalanhua wanted to change the subject, looked out the window and whispered: "Emotions can make people lose themselves and fall into the world they deliberately render." What kind of emotions create what kind of world, and you can't extricate yourself from it. There's no beauty there, just like the stories that lurk there..."

"We are all similar, we all have similarities..."Lu Dongzhi plucked up the courage to point to himself and said, "You have more courage than me... At least you dare to say what you want to say! I didn't say that..."

"You don't know... What if you say that? It's not the one you like, no matter how much you do, it's useless..."Nalanhua suddenly wanted to cry, she raised her face and tried to calm herself down a little.

"I admit I killed them, but I didn't know they... It's really going to die..."Lu Dongzhi extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand and poured a few mouthfuls of water: "The original plan wasn't like this..."

"What do you say? I'm like... Hear your plans? Nalanhua asked as if grasping the key and grasping the life-saving straw: "What's going on?" Please be clear! ”

"Before they go to the top of the mountain..."Lu Dongzhi covered his face in pain, and his shoulders trembled slightly: "Before they went to the top of the mountain, I saw them once... I also had a fight with Shuliang... At last... Force them to die! ”

"You..." Nalanhua moved Lu Dongzhi's shoulder, her voice trembling.

"Listen or not!" Lu Dongzhi knocked her hand off.

“...”

"While I tracked them down, I kept looking for the person who saved me when I was a child, and I never gave up for so many years. I can't forget his eyes, but I just can't find him! For so many years, I have chased his footsteps, and the funny thing is that even if I miss the side of the opposite walk, I don't necessarily know him... I overestimated my own abilities, or rather, I underestimated his professional abilities..."

"When I was investigating the case, I was overwhelmed by the resistance of many parties, and I was tired of dealing with the gods of all parties... He was the one who guided me, and the occasional clues they left made me think I had discovered them myself, and eventually I realized that they were helping me... has been helping me, including one of the escapes in the 216 overseas mission, they were all helping me..."

"Do you know how many of them are lurking in the Imperial Army's intelligence?" Lu Dongzhi lit another cigarette, handed one to the outstretched Nalan flower, and lit it for her. The latter choked on tears, still clumsily continuing to swallow and refuse to throw them away.

"The superiors lied to me and asked me to find out Pepper's hidden ordnance and all the information collected in other countries in exchange for their death pardon..." Lu Dongzhi stared at the fireworks in his hand and shook his head: "I hated them at that time, I wanted to kill them with my own hands..."

"He... They... I didn't hurt the citizens of the Empire! Nalanhua's tears fell in strings, hitting the cigarette in her trembling hand, and the fireworks were extinguished unconsciously, and she asked, "Why do you always entangle with them?" Why? Just because he killed He Dong? ”

"You don't understand... In the face of national interests, everything can be sacrificed ... Actually, He Dong is not dead! Nalanhua didn't really hear it, she had heard too many things she couldn't believe today, which made her mind a little out of pace.

"He Dong is not dead! It was only after they went up the mountain that I learned... He Dong is a fake death! That's what he designed on purpose! Lu Dongzhi clenched his fists: "He played everyone..."

"Why? He... Will they not know? Nalan Hua trembled and pointed at Lu Dongzhi in disbelief: "He has done so many bad things!" You... I've been protecting him! ”

"How could they not know that they are so smart..."Lu Dongzhi rubbed his hair, and straightened them out and hung them behind his ears: "It's all a trap!" We're all in there... He Dong's death is fake, and it may also include the two of them..."

"You say..."Nalan Hua jumped up, pulled Lu Dongzhi and asked excitedly, "You mean..."

"Yes, you heard it right! It's very likely that they didn't die..."Lu Dongzhi shook his head again: "But... Dead too! ”

Nalanhua was dizzy, covering her mouth, not knowing which sentence to believe. She stood dumbfounded, smoked by the smoke in Lu Dongzhi's hands, rubbing her eyes incessantly, crying and laughing.

"I said they didn't die because I didn't find their bodies in the end..."Lu Dongzhi lay on the sofa and said weakly: "What they drank was indeed a special medicine I gave, and the effect of the medicine was 48 hours..."

"It's me who's stupid... When I figured it all out, I saw their bodies... On the top of the mountain, they snuggle up to each other... So... It's so distressing..."

Nalanhua couldn't stop crying. She knows that it is one thing for things to happen, in one state of mind, but to listen to the person in question tell it, it is another thing, another state of mind. She forced herself to calm down, forced herself not to be angry, her lip was bitten by herself, and she didn't ask another question after all. At the same time, a strange thing suddenly flashed in her mind, and she didn't dare to say it, especially in front of Lu Dongzhi.

"Later, the department's forensic doctors checked several times, and they were very firm, they had no vital signs, and the blood test results collected at the scene... It shows that they are taking drugs, and the active ingredients and dosage have not changed, and finally... relapse and death..."

"I said they weren't dead because three days later, I went again and didn't find their bodies... Beasts could never eat so cleanly! ”

"What about He Dong? Where did he go? Why not catch him? Nalanhua couldn't figure out the key to it, and she didn't dare to think about it.

"He Dong is in Daning No. 7 Psychiatric Hospital... Diagnosed with a torn personality! Aunt Jiang said that he had separated at least 19 personalities! There is no way to sentence such people, and... There is not a penny on Tanigawa's account, and all the funds are overseas ... After the intelligence was summarized, colleagues from the Economic Investigation Department initially estimated that there were at least 200 billion... Euro! ”

"And the password is known only to him... After he transferred the funds, in order to get out ... Leaking their whereabouts, and forcing them to death under the pretense of using my hands, one ring after another, I calculated just right in terms of time control..."

Lu Dongzhi burst into tears: "Until a few days ago, I didn't know... It was pepper that saved me... I fell off a cliff and hung on a tree, and he climbed the cliff... Carried me off..."

"I just remembered... The 'little girl' who had been following him at that time turned out to be Shuliang... His original name was Yu Xiaoyu, and he was sold when he was four years old! ”

"This... There are books in the notebooks... But I... I still can't help but feel distressed! Nalanhua was sad, she beat Lu Dongzhi, crying: "Why didn't you find out earlier... Why are you so stupid! Why..."

"Do you think I'm getting better? It's even more sad to find out! There are some things, the clearer you know, the sadder you become... That torn wound won't heal! I... I... Killed the person who saved him with his own hands, the boy who laughed so sunny! I killed my childhood! It's all because of me... The sooner I came out, the sooner I faced them (He's), it wouldn't be like this..."

"I want to leave here..."After a long time, Nalanhua was tired of crying, slowly got up from Lu Dongzhi's arms, and said coldly: "I don't like it here... Didn't like it at first! ”

"Do you want to... Know anything about pepper? Lu Dongzhi lowered his head.

"I don't want to..."Nalanhua raised her face.

"Take care of yourself!" Lu Dongzhi hesitated to get up, touched his face casually, put his uniform on his body, and went out.

"Goodbye!" Nalanhua whispered to the figure of Lu Toshiba.

A week later, the Reich broadcast the news that Fu Jinghai, a former high-ranking officer in South Vietnam, had died of a heart attack while in prison....

A month later, Lu Dongzhi resigned, took over Tanigawa, and changed his name to Dongggyi Group... On the same day, she received a letter with no sending address and only one word, "stupid"

On the same day, Nalanhua received a letter forwarded to her by Anne, which also contained only one word, "home"

Nalanhua hugged Anne in disbelief, jumping, crying, laughing...

....... "The End of Part 1".......