I don't like this world without you...

Shuliang leaned on Pepper's back in a bright sunshine, she closed the medical book she was reading, smiled, Pepper asked:

"Laughing at what?"

"Do you know how people know if they're dead or not?"

"I don't know."

"The intelligent organ will tell the sensory organ to make the sensory organ react, and these reactions will be fed back to the sensory organ, and the intelligent organ will receive it."

"You mean, the brain made them do it?" Shuliang nodded.

"It's so boring."

"How is it boring, the brain doesn't know whether the person in sleep is dead or not, it can only test it like this, this is the safety mechanism in the subconscious of the human body's functions, the detection of the body, don't you think it's very interesting?"

"What's the point? What do you want to say? ”

Shu Liang thought for a while and said, "Even if it detects a bad result, it has no power to change it, you see, what if it finds that the body is dead, but it is not dead?" Isn't it desperate? ”

“...”

“... We... Get out of here, I... Don't want to be passive..."

Pepper reflexively, grabbed her shoulders, and brought her head closer: "Wait for me to come back this time..."

Shu Liang nodded slightly...

Pepper is distracted, he has lost his mind several times in the past two days, and he can't control himself more and more, since when did it start? He walked slowly with the book on his back, starting from seeing her on the corner of the street, looking at the girl? He couldn't be sure, and he couldn't find any basis, but he just couldn't help but churn in the bottom of his heart, sour and uncomfortable...

"Love... I've read so many books, but I still can't find the emotions like ours in books, and no one has ever taught us what love is! We... Is this called love? If so, why don't I dare say it, why can't I say it..."

"Your sensitivity, your body's strangeness, haven't you always been repulsed? How did you get to me, and suddenly become a girl... I've been involved in your upbringing, but I don't dare to look at your beauty after all..."

"Shuliang, I can see that you like her, I'm happy for you, but why is my heart so uncomfortable..."Pepper kept walking, thinking silently, tears flashing from the corners of her eyes.

“... It's all my fault, it's that I don't have the courage to face it, the closer I get to you, the more you make me feel dirty inside... Am I stupid..."

“... I'm afraid... I'm really afraid... I'm afraid of losing again, I've lost all my loved ones in a row... I can't afford to lose you anymore, I have to take extra care of you... I can give you everything I have, including my broken life..."

“... I also want to come back to see you safely and completely, how I want to see you, but sometimes, I can't control the situation..."

"I love you with me... I know that such thoughts are selfish, cruel, hurtful, and unfair to you... However, because of this, I have the courage to look at you secretly, to feel your concern unscrupulously, I... Love the feeling... Forgive me for my selfishness and perverted obsession..."Pepper waded through a narrow stream.

“... You secretly went to study nursing, you, I took you to the college to listen to the class, but you were extremely reluctant, and you were willing to take the initiative to go... Shuliang, I owe you... I can't pay it back..."

"Remember here, I thought you had been hit by a wild boar, and it scared me, and I was going to kill one head after another..."

"There's something in my heart that I can't tell you, and I have to do it, I have to do it... I miss you every night I go out, and sometimes I can't control myself during the day, and I want to hug you well, just like when I was a child, and tell you everything I do, tell you what I'm going to do... I teach you to practice knives, I don't want you to be hurt in the future, I want you to live like a normal child, in the sun, in the spring, without worry..."

“... It's so fast, you've grown up, you beautiful... Butterfly, I gave you your name, and it can light up the night sky just like mine... I'm intoxicated with the feeling of being with you, and how can I be willing to leave you..."Pepper let the tears fall.

"I want to tell you everything, I'm so depressed, but I don't dare say... I am humble in front of you, and I dare not touch the softness in my heart, even though it is so sour..."

"FS and B in Soviet Russia, DI and A in the United States, MI and 5 in the United Kingdom, all of them are stacking bounty amounts... In order to accomplish what I have to do, I am almost the enemy of the whole world, and where is there a place for me..."

“... Until now, I know what my grandfather means when he says I'm 'unworthy'... I consider myself a Chinese, and I am proud to be Chinese! But Lu Dongzhi can't tolerate me... I'm from South Vietnam, but I can't go back to South Vietnam, I've hurt too much there, my hands are stained with the blood of my compatriots, and the debts there can't be paid... Every day I feel like I'm being pricked with a needle... It hurts..."Pepper thought sadly, shaking her head self-deprecatingly.

"You didn't ask me where I went, I'm afraid you asked me... How shall I answer you? I said I'm going to take you home... We... Where is home? ”

"You, don't say anything, I can tell... My greatest wish is to make you happy, and I will do whatever it takes to make you smile beautifully... The price, however, we have come to the present, after all, we have returned to the place where we started, and we have taken you around for so many years, and ironically, we are back... We... It's destined that you won't be able to get out of this mountain..."

"Then I'll take you away... I'm selfish once, I let you see the most real me, once in my life..."

Pepper discerned the direction and turned into a mountain road, maintaining an even stride, reluctant to move his arms.

Shuliang tilted his head, lying on his back obediently, his eyes flickered, looking at the familiar mountain road blankly, recalling carefully, and silently telling in his heart:

"When you saved me, I knew you had a lot of things to say, and you were worried that I would think wildly, that I would have low self-esteem... But I've always had low self-esteem, and I feel very humble around you... I'm afraid I won't be able to do well, I'm afraid you'll be angry with me, and I'm even more afraid that you don't want me anymore..."

"In order to make me nutritious and get better quickly, you were almost washed away by the river, and in order to catch game for me and have meat to eat, you almost fell off the cliff several times, I saw it all... I've been behind you... When you come back, I can only pretend that I don't know, and I don't dare to say it, I'm afraid that you will be angry and I will run around..."

"We are in the Dalongtun clan, they say I am Nuwa Niang, I thought Nuwa Niang was very beautiful, you might like it, I just looked at Xitan and fantasized about becoming her, and I have been with you... Always accompanying... Until you get tired of it..."

"You taught me to practice knives, and I want to learn too, I just want to protect you one day... Don't be afraid to be the enemy of the whole world! ”

"I wanted to catch wild boars for you to eat, and who knew that a herd of them came... I'm crushed under the boar carcass, I can't move it, I want to help you... I'm so sad to see you covered in injuries and come to save me... Watch you fall in front of me covered in blood... Pepper, do you know, my heart is broken..."Shuliang has long been teary-eyed.

"We went to school together, and they laughed at us for being weird, for being poor, for wearing dirt... Because you like to learn things, I'll accompany you, I actually don't like it there at all... I won't tell you, then I went to medical school to listen to lectures and read books, that's what I wanted to go, how they laughed at me, I wasn't angry, it was my own volition..."

"How do you know I'm afraid of thunder? Every time you hold me, in your arms, I'm not afraid at all..."

"How did you remember to teach me how to fish? Where did you get a set of fishing gear? I like to see you can't help it, throwing stones into the river, silly..."Shuliang arched his arms around Pepper's neck.

"We are in the southeast mountains and forests, raining together, starving and freezing together, but I am very happy in my heart, because with you, I am not afraid of anything..."

"The water of Qinghai Lake is so beautiful, I have never seen such a beautiful place, you teach me to swim, I will no longer be afraid of water..."

"What kind of car did you teach me to drive, but you vomited mess yourself..."

"You take me to the South China Sea, point to the west and say you want to conquer there, I don't even know what you say later, I'm seasick... You fool..."

"We ate hot pot together in Chongqing, do you remember the owner of that house? His condiments are obviously unpalatable, and no one is allowed to say that he is fiercely carrying a spoon to chase us... You actually took me to eat a overlord-king meal! ”

"The book we read together? Why are you laughing at that male protagonist? Aren't you that kind of person yourself? You don't even dare look me in the eye..."

"I'll send you to the southernmost side, together in the terraces of Simao, I deliberately splashed you with my foot, I want you to see me more... Take one more look... I really can't get enough of you..."

"Do you know how lonely I am after you are gone, so many dark nights, and long... You know I'm scared of thunder, you know how I survived? ”

"I received the code from you, you know how worried I am about you, how anxious... I'm so sad that I want to be with you right away, but you won't let me get out of there... I listen to you..."

"I thought you didn't want me anymore... I can't wait for you any longer... I wrote you a poem, and I hid it in the mezzanine of the factory..."

"Do you remember Big Flower? That's the girlfriend I chose for you, and one day when you hate me, let her stay with you..."

"I left all the introductions you collected about the He family to her, if she is very smart, she should find out, but I don't allow you to get close to her..."

"You also said that I should go to see the cherry blossoms by myself, I don't want to go at all, I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to watch you..."

"You don't know, I don't like the world without you, I don't like this world except you..."

"Why did they do that to you, you never hurt anyone here... You don't let my hands get bloody, but I can't wash off the smell of blood on my hands, you can't bear it, I'll do it for you... Finish off the hateful and filthy them for you... Those idiots who are trying to embarrass you... Why can't we hide from those obnoxious people, those vulgar ridicule..."

"I've been carrying on these memories, and that time I was on your back, and I was looking at neuroscience, and you asked me what I was laughing at, and I actually wanted to tell you that I didn't want to stay any longer... I can't stand myself to be in front of you like that, absolutely can't stand it..."

"I'm waiting for you in the hospital, why did Jiang Yan show up... I could feel her feelings, but I couldn't accept it... She's so pretty... Why don't you come back a day early! Why, you idiot pepper..."

"In the past two days, I have always wanted to tell you that I like her too, the day you came to pick me up, I hid and watched her look for me, I really almost ran out..."

"Pepper, I'm so tired... I want to sleep for a while..."

Pepper has a pair of deerskin boots hanging from his waist, and Shuliang's exposed feet are white and smooth, wrapped around his legs, swaying with his steps...

Pepper hummed the song of the Dian land, taking every step with tenacity and strength, in order to make her comfortable, he was reluctant to move his arm...

She tilted her head and lay on Pepper's shoulder, and strings of tears slipped from the corners of her eyes, dripping on Pepper's shoulder, and she was wet...

They all shouted in the depths of their hearts, they obviously loved each other so much, their hearts were tightly entangled, and they could no longer tell each other. But they were too humble to come too close...

They are willing to do anything for each other...

They are willing to give their all for each other...

They only have each other in their eyes...

They can only sigh in despair in their hearts, is their world only like this...