Chapter 610: I Don't Know Myself
Listening to Chen Xiaomo talk about "going home", Xia Mu still had a little sadness in his heart.
Is this the end of this relationship?
From his own point of view, it is really a little difficult to give up, but from the perspective of another self that does not represent himself, Xia Mu is really a little shameless, and he actually has his heart in his heart, completely forgetting the existence of Shi Mulin.
In fact, only Xia Mu himself knows that this is not a betrayal, nor is it a forgetting, but Xia Mu wants to heal his inseparable attachment to Shi Mulin.
It's a pity that Chen Xiaomo is about to leave, and his little caution has not been achieved at all.
……
"Are you really going back?"
"Why don't you go back, are you here to be your stumbling block, to be a third party between you and Mu Lin?"
Chen Xiaomo's words were very clear, and there was a sense of relief in his tone.
"Xiao Mo, what do you say?"
Xia Mu was stunned, not knowing the meaning of Chen Xiaomo's words at all.
Chen Xiaomo didn't want to beat around the bush anymore, and said directly:
"Let's be honest, Mu Lin will come to you soon, so my existence is a mistake, I will go back and forth from where, otherwise it will be really a big sin."
"Mu Lin...... You're coming to me?! ”
Xia Mu expressed surprise, because from the moment he left the city, he hadn't thought about Shi Mulin coming back to find him at all.
I don't know it, my face was full of confusion at that time!
"What nonsense are you talking about?"
Chen Xiaomo smiled lightly, patted Xia Mu's shoulder, and said mischievously:
"Xia Mu, Xia Mu, don't you really understand a girl's heart? I can find you, of course Shi Mulin can come to you, and she must be more urgent than me, you can't be unaware of this, right? ”
"Even if that's the case, so what?"
Chen Xiaomo couldn't compliment Xia Mu's stubbornness, shook his head and said:
"I'll tell you the truth, I've already spoken to Mu Lin on the phone, and she's already getting ready to go on her way and come here to find you."
As he spoke, he looked at Xia Mu with curious eyes and asked:
"You really can't imagine that Shi Mulin suddenly chose to quit the entertainment industry, it has nothing to do with you, right?"
Chen Xiaomo was speechless and helpless in admiration for Xia Mu's kung fu pretending to be stupid.
At this time, Xia Mu couldn't pretend to be able to put it down, and looked at Chen Xiaomo in surprise, and didn't know what he felt in his heart, so he asked Chen Xiaomo in a hearty manner: "Did you tell her the specific location of my hometown?" ”
"Does it matter?"
Chen Xiaomo asked puzzled.
is really a little helpless about Xia Mu's focus.
Could it be that the man is still avoiding what is about to happen?
"Xia Mu, can't you see clearly, your fate with Shi Mulin is endless, should you be a natural pair?"
Chen Xiaomo was so anxious that he was about to go up and reprimand Xia Mu fiercely, and his brain really turned into an elm pimple in this matter.
Xia Mu didn't know how to answer, and avoided Chen Xiaomo intentionally or unintentionally.
But Chen Xiaomo was reluctant, when she was about to leave this time, she would definitely let Xia Mu see all this clearly.
Otherwise, she won't be at ease when she's gone.
"Xia Mu, what are you thinking, don't you like Mu Lin very much, don't you love Mu Lin very much? Now that she has given up everything to come to you, are you still avoiding this relationship and being cowardly like a coward? ”
It seems that this is a question that has remained unchanged since Xia Mu fell in love with Shi Mulin.
And the whole body was asking him that question.
Xia Mu was upset, and he was a little impatient when he heard this question.
"I really don't know, every single one of you has to ask this kind of boring question. Don't you like me, why did you suddenly help Mu Lin ask such a weird question again? ”
Chen Xiaomo didn't expect Xia Mu to ask this question directly so impatiently, and he was a little caught off guard at that time.
"Hmph" sneered, looking at Xia Mu very seriously.
"Yes, I like you very much and want to be with you, but I'm not stupid, and I won't paralyze and deceive myself like you."
"Look at you, it's Mu Lin who is full of love written on her face, all you think about is Mu Lin, and your heart, it's all her who is hypocritically hidden, do you tell me to ignore all this to be with you numbly?"
Chen Xiaomo's words ruthlessly exposed Xia Mu's lies.
Lies that belong to oneself, deceive oneself, and deceive the whole world.
"I ...... I didn't! ”
"You just deceive yourself and deceive everyone."
Hearing this, Xia Mu suddenly felt dazed, and actually remembered the self who had just graduated.
At that time, it seemed that this was the case, I didn't know why, I made a big lie for myself, and even pretended to be myself.
Afterwards, I always feel that you are a white lie, but when you really pierce it, you find that a lie is a lie, even if it is so realistic that you believe it to be true, it will not help, no matter what its purpose is, the moment you pierce it can't change anything, what should be lost will be lost, what should be sinned is still sin.
Xia Mu was frightened in his heart, followed Chen Xiaomo's words, and suddenly felt that he was back at that time, could it really be as Chen Xiaomo said, he began to deceive himself and the people he loved again, and make a big lie?
The sudden awakening made him feel like he was on the edge of the abyss, his face was pale and weak, and his eyes were empty......
"Xia Mu, it's time to wake up, Shi Mulin gave up all options to come to you, she has nothing left, only you Xia Mu is left, do you still have to deceive yourself with ridiculous lies at this time, paralyze yourself, and ignore the person you love the most?"
Xia Mu was said to be confused.
"But ......"
"What are you?"
"In the past, you were afraid that Mu Lin would affect her career and future, but now that Mu Lin has given up all this, what are you still afraid of?"
Chen Xiaomo broke everything, and Xia Mu really followed her words to think: What are you still afraid of?
"But now I have nothing, do you want me to bear to watch her suffer and suffer with me here?"
When Chen Xiaomo heard this, he sneered ruthlessly.
At this time, Xia Mu was like a clown, Chen Xiaomo didn't know that Xia Mu had such a ridiculous side.
There is no self-confidence, no self-esteem, not even the slightest obsession to pursue what you want.
Pitiful as a walking corpse, horribly helpless and lonely.
"Xia Mu? Is this the Xia Mu I know? ”
Chen Xiaomo seemed to be mocking, like blaming, and even had a feeling of disappointment.
Xia Mu didn't know why Chen Xiaomo was like this, but he also seemed to feel a little cowardly.
This kind of cowardice doesn't know when the terror will strike, silently encroaching on his heart, causing his current self to lose himself, and he doesn't even know himself......