I rubbed my hands together, feeling anxious and unsettled. In fact, at this time, I only need to say "I am sure" to prove that I am resolute, but I can't say anything about just three simple words.

If I put it a few months ago, my life plan for me was to become a person like Shen Zhongping, to hang a pot to help the world cure diseases and save people for the rest of my life, and use my own strength to make everyone's life better. But the reality now is that even if I can "live and die with flesh and bones", there are very few people who can be saved because of this. In such troubled times, people's lives and futures are long, but there are countless dead ends. In the face of airplanes and artillery, the effectiveness of the scalpel is better than nothing. More often than not, those who came back from a circle before the ghost gate closed, only to find that they had lost a leg or an arm, so even the courage to survive was gone.

I muttered, "It used to be clear, but now it's not." I wish I had been born a man and could go to war to defend my country. I think I finally understand Mr. Lu Xun's mood back then, the reason why he wanted to abandon medicine and pursue literature is because in this era, what really needs to be treated is not external injuries but inner feelings. ”

The head teacher was very surprised, this surprise was all written on his face, which was completely different from his usual calm and introverted personality. It took him a few seconds to deal with his emotions before he said: "Choosing a major is already an imminent matter, I understand your feelings, but life events are not sloppy at all." At the beginning of the next semester, you will have to fight for further education, and you must think carefully about what kind of school and what kind of major you will be admitted to! ”

I understood his hard work, so I solemnly assured him that he would definitely decide on the direction of his studies during the spring break.

After saying goodbye to my homeroom teacher, I walked towards the dormitory. I still have breakfast in my hand that I have painstakingly brought from home, and I think that it is just right to share it with Wei February. The dormitory building once again fell into the sentimentality of parting, good friends hugged each other and said goodbye to each other, some of them wanted to follow their families to the rear, some wanted to go abroad through Hong Kong, and the classmates who had been together for several years did not know when the next meeting would be.

I was gently tapped on the shoulder, and when I turned my head, Xiang Wen Xuan looked very delicate and lovely with red eyes, which was completely different from her usual cold and unwelcome appearance. In fact, since the last time she generously lent her dress to Wei February, we have become close to her, in fact, she is really a typical example of cold on the outside and hot on the inside, and she is actually very soft on the inside.

I couldn't stand her looking at me with "affection" for a long time, so I stretched out my empty left hand and put it on her shoulder: "What's wrong?" ”

My friendliness made her even more excited: "Huiran, I'm about to transfer to Hong Kong, and I don't know when I'll see you today." Besides, I don't know English well and I don't know anything about Cantonese, so what should I do? ”

I tried to comfort her: "Don't you see that a large number of businessmen and scholars have taken refuge in Hong Kong, and people from all over the world in the past naturally can't speak Cantonese." You can rest assured, there are more students like you, and the school will definitely find a way to make you adapt. ”

Xiang Wenxuan still didn't seem to be at ease: "You also know that I have never been very good at dealing with people, and now I am going to a strange place by another person, and I feel sad to think about it." ”

I was very good at saying bad things, such as "I've been with you for two and a half years, and most of my classmates are strangers to you" or "It's not worse than the current situation anyway", but then I thought about it, I have never been familiar with her, and if her little heart is not so strong, it will leave a psychological shadow. So I had to change my tone and said kindly: "Don't worry, the people who go to Hong Kong with you are all people who have the same disease, and there will definitely be a lot of common language at that time, and they will definitely not be as lonely as you think." What's more, the world is so chaotic now, and although there is a concession in Shanghai, there is no guarantee that the Japanese will enter one day. How many people want to go to Hong Kong, relying on the big tree of the United Kingdom, life is really stable. ”

Xiang Wenxuan seemed to be moved by my words, and the frightened and worried look on his face dissipated. She talked to me a lot, and in the northerners' parlance, those were "heart-wrenching words." Thanks to her closeness, I naturally said a lot. It's like what I talked to the head teacher, and I also told Wen Xuan. I told her that maybe it was only when we got to Hong Kong, away from the war, that we could regain our original ideals.

A few days later, the final results were announced. No matter how unwilling the students were, they had to be separated on this day. The good classmates went to the photo studio to take a group photo, and I was naturally not exempt from vulgarity. In the photo, I and a few friends sat around Wei February, from everyone's smiling faces can not see the sadness before parting, maybe this is youth, all negative emotions can not affect a positive attitude towards life.

After the photo was washed out, we each kept a copy. These photos were scattered all over the world as the friends separated. In the midst of the displacement, I lost this precious photograph. Many years later, when I saw it again thousands of miles away, I suddenly felt like I was in a different world. Some of the people in the photographs are gone, some are alive but will never see each other again, and time and war have completely torn us apart from the past. I survived the war, but I also put a heavy shackle on my back, and from then on, those old friends who died will appear in my dreams every day.

This year's Spring Festival did not have much flavor of the year, and in the fiery atmosphere of the whole country fighting to the death with the same hatred and hatred of the Japanese, Shanghai's singing and dancing Shengping originally had the flavor of whitewashing the peace. New peaches and couplets were posted on the streets, and red lanterns were hung on the French plane trees on both sides of the road. But even the people who came and went and walked in a hurry did not have much joy on their faces. At this time in previous years, the Wang family's mother and housekeeper Lao Xu had already prepared New Year's goods, the women had prepared the family's new clothes and gifts, and even the men who were away from home had left their busy things to go home to reunite with their relatives.

But this year, this atmosphere of reunion has disappeared. The father and eldest brother are in a different place, at most they can make a phone call to report their safety, but the second brother does not know life and death, and he can't even see a shadow. As the backbone of the family, my grandfather, although there may not be any danger to his life, this year is destined to be spent in a cold hospital filled with the smell of disinfectant.