Chapter 14: Rather
Bai Cang is like a thunderbolt, her name is Ning Ke? It is so similar to Ning Ke's name! Ning Ke's favorite profession is also a prosecutor!
She left, but another one of her appeared, could it be that this is the so-called chance of that mother-in-law?
He couldn't recover for a long time, staring stiffly at the girl in the hospital bed. And she was smiling at him, even in such an environment, her smile was so brilliant and vivid, illuminating the pale ward, like the first rays of sunlight that appeared on the canopy in the early spring morning, bright and hopeful.
Something moved in his heart, he felt ripples in his heart, this feeling made him ashamed, he immediately turned his head away, no longer dared to look into her eyes, silently checked her body, and then fled.
He immediately went to apply for a change of doctor, he couldn't go under the knife on Ning Ke's body, this was his weakness.
The hospital did not reply immediately, only said that it would consider taking a look.
He didn't know how much hope he had, but he was afraid to see those eyes again, eyes so similar to hers.
The day before the operation, the hospital categorically rejected his request on the grounds that there was a shortage of manpower and that he had to perform the operation himself.
He was a little dazed, but he didn't seem to resist so much, maybe this was fate, an opportunity he couldn't avoid.
Before getting off work, Ning's mother came to the office and knelt down without saying a word.
He was frightened and hurriedly helped her up, "What are you doing!
"Doctor, please save Xiao Ke!" Ning's mother cried and refused to get up, her face was full of tears, "She is still so young, she works so hard, and she is so positive and optimistic...... She wanted to be a prosecutor, but ......"
"You get up first!" Bai Cang was most afraid of such a situation, and he was a little helpless at that time.
Mother Ning didn't get too entangled, nodded and stood up, she wiped a handful of tears, and continued to beg, "Doctor Bai, Xiao Ke wants you to help her with the operation, I don't know why, but since she asks for this, I, as a mother, can only accommodate her, Doctor Bai, please help me." ”
At this point, what else could he say?
As a doctor, he shouldn't have refused, and that's not what a good doctor should do.
After a long silence, he sighed and nodded, "I will do my best for this operation." ”
"Thank you, Doctor Bai! Thank you! Thank you!" Ning's mother burst into tears and laughed, and said an unknown number of words of thanks, which was enough to show a mother's deep love for her daughter.
Bai Cang looked at her, and thought of Ning Ke's mother again, and he remembered that after Ning Ke left, he didn't seem to have officially comforted her parents.
Now that surgery is coming soon, he should go there.
After getting off work, he went directly to Ning Ke's house and did not call in advance.
But Ning Ke's mother seemed to know that he was coming, and made dinner early and waited for him.
Even, there was an empty pair of chopsticks next to him, which belonged to Ning Ke.
"Auntie......" His heart was sour and painful, and he almost had no face to see them again.
At the beginning, Ning Ke wanted to return to that dynasty, he knew, but he didn't tell them. If he had confessed at that time, would the ending have been different?
"Xiaobai, hurry up and wash your hands, it's time to eat. Ning Ke's mother affectionately called him "Xiaobai", pulled him to the kitchen to wash his hands, and didn't let him continue.
He pursed his lips and didn't say anything for a moment.
Let's wait until after eating!
At the dinner table, Ning Ke's parents were very indifferent, and they didn't have the grief of losing a daughter as he imagined, but just a faint trace of sadness.
Ning's mother kept serving him vegetables and told him to eat more, like a mother who cares for her children.
He couldn't refuse, and he didn't bury his head in eating until there was no more food in the bowl.
The food must have been fragrant, but he couldn't taste it, his heart was full of guilt and indebtedness, and he blamed himself for not coming sooner.
But he couldn't speak, he felt like a villain.
Ning Mu seemed to see his thoughts, and smiled softly, "Xiaobai, what's the matter? I'm too tired from work, or is it unappetizing?"
"No, no, no, it's delicious, I love your cooking. He hurriedly explained, for fear of the slightest offense.
Mother Ning was still smiling, hiding the sadness in her eyes, and she asked, "Do you want to drink some wine?"
"Yes, yes. He was very grateful to Mother Ning for her understanding, at this time, he really needed to drink to strengthen his courage and give him courage.
Ning's father didn't speak much, he looked very deep, Ning's mother brought red wine over, and Ning's father said that if he changed a bottle, he would ask for home-brewed sorghum wine sent by distant relatives in the countryside.
That's spirits.
When the mood is high, it is best to drink spirits.
Bai Cang usually doesn't drink, he has a reason and self-control that ordinary people can't match, and in order to keep a clear head, he almost doesn't smoke or drink. This time, he urgently needed to numb his overly awake brain.
Father Ning didn't pour him much, but he was a full cup, and Father Ning explained, "You have to have surgery tomorrow, so it's better to drink less." ”
Bai Cang's hand holding the wine glass trembled, and his body stiffened, as if he had been touched by an unknown wound, painful, but unable to speak.
"Xiaobai. Mother Ning put down her chopsticks and looked at him seriously, "Auntie understands your feelings, Ke'er and her...... You may not be able to do a transplant, but you have to think that this is her wish, and it is a good thing. Even if you are struggling, try to overcome it. ”
"But Auntie ......" Bai Cang was slightly stunned, and then a touch of sadness appeared in her eyes, "Even if it is her wish, I can't be calm, when I think of her, I ......"
"Auntie knows your difficulties, but this is also something that can't be helped, isn't it?" Ning Mu's tone revealed a hint of grievance, and gradually lowered her eyes.
Bai Cang realized that he had made a low-level mistake, they should be the saddest people, how could they comfort themselves instead?
Ning Ke's departure should be a bigger blow to them, but they almost didn't show anything, how could they be so sad and sad in front of them?
What a sin!
He was even more remorseful in his heart, and lowered his head in shame, "Uncle and aunt, I will do a good job, I will not live up to her wishes." ”
"That's good, that's good. Ning Mu smiled faintly and didn't say anything more.
Bai Cang's mood didn't get better, he had a few drinks with Ning's father, and finally Ning's mother reminded him that he would have surgery tomorrow, so he gave up.
When the three of them sat together, he hesitated several times, wanting to tell them the truth about Ning Ke's departure, so that they could feel better, but he couldn't say anything.
Because he already knew it at the beginning, but he didn't say it, and now that she is gone, what's the point of talking about it?
stayed until ten o'clock in the evening before Bai Cang proposed to go back, and Ning's mother sent him downstairs.
Mother Ning also seemed to have something to say, and after several times she wanted to speak, Bai Cang didn't dare to ask more, for fear that if she asked, she wouldn't be able to answer.
It wasn't until he got in the car and was about to leave that Ning's mother looked at him outside the car window and asked in a low voice, "The girl who accepted Ke'er's heart..... Do you have a picture? I think...... Look. ”
"Yes!" Bai Cang actually wanted to show them for a long time, but he didn't have the courage to speak, since she mentioned it, he was naturally willing.
He took out a picture of the girl standing under the tree and smiling brightly from his pocket, and when he handed it to her, he introduced, "Her name is Ning Ke, and there is only one word difference between her name and Ke'er, and she also wants to be a prosecutor, and she has just graduated from college." ”
Mother Ning looked at the girl in the photo deeply, and the emotions that had been well restrained suddenly appeared, she burst into tears, and muttered in her mouth, "Ke'er...... How can you give up ......?"
"Auntie......"
Bai Cang got out of the car and hurriedly took a tissue to wipe Ning's mother's tears, "Mourning! Although she is gone, she has saved so many people with her body, she is not leaving, she is still there!"
"I know, I know!" Ning Mu cried, "But I just miss her so much!
Bai Cang's heart ached, he wanted to say something more, but what was the use.
Comfort is the most useless thing, especially after something that has happened, and no one can heal the wound with words.
After crying for more than ten minutes, Ning's mother calmed down, she wiped away her tears, and said a little embarrassed: "Auntie is out of shape......"
"It's okay aunt, I'm not an outsider, I'll ...... in the future Even if I am your son, I will come to see you often. Bai Cang said seriously.
This is Ning Ke's wish, and it is also the one he is willing to make up for.
Mother Ning looked at him in a daze for a while, her eyes turned red again, "Ke'er, this girl...... Why are you so stupid, you don't cherish a good person in front of you, you have to ......"
She didn't say any more, but Bai Cang heard something strange.
"Auntie, you ...... just now"
"Xiaobai. ”
Ning Mu took a deep breath and interrupted him abruptly, she looked directly into his eyes, and the corners of her mouth raised a faint arc, "Actually, we all know why she left, her heart is not here, she went to find her happiness......"
"Auntie, you know everything?" Bai Cang's eyes widened in astonishment, if they knew, why didn't they stop it?
Ning Mu saw through his mind and showed a bitter smile, "Do you think we don't want to stop it?" But you also saw it, although she woke up, her soul is no longer here, she is the person named Chu Junyue in her dreams, why should we bother her?"
Yes.
She had known all this for a long time.
As a mother, how can she not know what about her own children?
At first, Ning Ke was always shouting that name while lying on the hospital bed, and she thought it was just a person in a TV series or novel, but later after Ning Ke was discharged from the hospital, she was always absent-minded, and she became suspicious.
Even though she shouldn't be superstitious, she still went to the famous local Daxian to ask, and the Daxian said that Ning Ke is the fate of the mother's world, and there is no way to keep such a rich and noble character here.
Once again, she verified the sentence "Mother Yi World", and she had to believe it.
So, she began to secretly look through Ning Ke's notebook and computer, began to follow secretly, and even sat on the edge of the bed and listened to her dreams when Ning Ke was asleep.
After a long time, she can also guess eight or nine.
Until a few days before Ning Ke left, everything began to be abnormal, people who had never cooked much actually began to cook, and their cold temperament began to warm up, and the family of three looked so harmonious.
But she knew that this was Ning Ke leaving. This is a sign of parting.
Sure enough, that night, after she pretended to be asleep, Ning Ke came to the bed and said those words, and she was sure that this daughter was ...... She really couldn't keep it.
Since the heart is not here, it is useless to keep the body, so it is better to let her find her own happiness!
After Bai Cang listened, he was stiff from head to toe, he thought that only he knew, but he didn't know that his parents' love was so open-minded and tolerant, even though he knew that he would lose her, he still chose to fulfill it.
Perhaps, that's why Ning's father and mother don't look as sad as the loss of their daughter. Because Ning Ke is not really dead, she just went to another world with her soul, and she is still alive and happily.
So, what about those who are still alive in this world?
"Xiaobai, don't feel guilty and sad, in fact, the person who should say sorry is us, you were so good to her, but she left, and left a mess for you. Mother Ning held his hand and said earnestly: "Auntie hopes that you can also be happy and don't live in the past." ”
The white nose was sour, and he didn't know what to say.
"Okay! It's not early, go back early to rest, I have to have surgery tomorrow!" Ning Mu laughed, there were tears in the corners of her eyes, but the smile was real.
Bai Cang slowly raised the corners of his lips and smiled, "Well, Auntie will also rest early, and I will come to see you on the weekend!"
"Okay, I wish you a smooth operation. ”
I also wish you happiness and wellness in this life.