Needless to say, "Fantesi" was scrapped.

Reason told Zhang Xin not to be angry, because Hua Lin had a last resort, and she didn't want such a tragic death on this tape;

Emotionally, Zhang Xin is still very sad: it was intact when he lent it out, but when he returned it, it became a residue, no matter how it was, he would not be so angry, and he was depressed for a while, Zhang Xin couldn't help but complain with a black face: "Your dad is insane." ”

Hua Lin lowered her head, unable to justify, speechless and shameless.

Hua Lone's cowardly appearance made Zhang Xin even more uncomfortable, she naturally saw that the old wounds on Hua Lone's face were not healed and filled in the new ones, presumably Hua Lone's situation the night before was very "dangerous".

She also knew that Hua Lin couldn't afford to pay a new box of tapes, and she didn't care about the compensation, but she was angry.

It's not so much that Zhang Xin is angry with Hua Lone, but that she is angry with Hua Lone's father.

She didn't understand why her father's shot could be so ruthless, and she picked on the girl's face to make marks, and this was a very small thing in Zhang Xin's opinion.

For a few days between classes, Hua Lin didn't talk to anyone else, trapping herself in an enchantment.

As long as a classmate takes out a special issue of essays, whether people are really reading it or not, she can't help blushing, as if people's attention is about to focus on the essay that makes Hua regret not being at the beginning.

She hoped that time would pass sooner so that more people would forget about it.

It's another physical education class, free and easy.

Cheng Xian noticed that Zhang Xin was chatting with Cen Lin, and he didn't see Hua Lonely left and right, so he called Zhang Xin and motioned to come to the side, and the two of them met on the side of the bamboo forest.

"Isn't the flower lonely?" Cheng Xian asked first.

The sensitive Zhang Xin smelled the smell of gossip and looked Cheng Xian up and down.

Cheng Xian in her eyes, in terms of good-looking, is far inferior to Lu Yinuo, she can only say that her appearance is not enough height to make up, it is average; In terms of communication skills, it is much stronger than Wang Lei, at least he will not be disgusted when he goes there, and his grades are quite good, and he usually has to rely on him to output science answers in exams.

Zhang Xin's eyes rolled, and he asked mischievously, "What are you looking for Hua Lone?" ”

This atmosphere is a bit strange, Cheng Xian felt that he was taking the initiative to give away someone's head, and unconsciously laughed out loud to relieve the embarrassment, and then said: "I'm not looking for her, I'm looking for you." ”

"Huh?"

"Hua Lin was beaten by his father?" Cheng Xian asked very directly.

The topic was a bit heavy, and Zhang Xin hesitated to know whether to say it or not.

And this kind of silence in Cheng Xian's eyes basically acquiesced to the answer.

"Why?"

"How do I know which nerve is wrong with his dad?" Zhang Xin criticized with personal emotions.

Seeing that Cheng Xian was silent, Zhang Xin sighed and added some details: "It seems that I didn't do well in the math exam before." Then, she borrowed my cassette tape and said she wanted to listen to Jay Chou's new song. I guess it was discovered, and now the tape was dropped by his father anyway. ”

Well, that's true.

This problem seems to be very unsolvable in Cheng Xian's opinion, because it is a family matter.

Seeing that Cheng Xian was leaving, Zhang Xin hurriedly threw out her question and waited for the answer to take the bait: "Why do you care so much about Hua Lone?" ”

"Classmates."

"~ I didn't see you care about other classmates."

As he was talking, he didn't expect a basketball to fly over, and looking at the basketball, Zhang Xin rolled his eyes angrily, turned his head and left.

It turned out that Wang Lei was chasing the ball with his fart, and when he ran over, he still had a silly smile on his face, which was deliberate at first glance.

At the moment of playing, Wang Lei found that Zhang Xin and Cheng Xian were talking intimately under the bamboo forest alone, the key is that there is still a flower silence next to him, and he is afraid that the taste is not right, and he is really afraid that others will think the same as himself, so Wang Lei deliberately stirred up a ball, specially ran over to interrupt, and took Cheng Xian's shoulder, as if he had caught some secret, and deliberately tempted: "Brother Xian, what do you want to do!" You don't play ball and talk to girls, do you? ”

Cheng Xian broke away from his hand, only smiled politely, pretended not to hear Wang Lei's words, and joined their playing team.

And where is the flower loneliness at this time?

Because of her frustration, Hua Lin walked alone and walked into the woods near the school's wetland park, which she once praised as Alice's Wonderland.

However, due to the seasons at the moment, after autumn and winter, there are many dead trees in the dense forest, and every step is a heartbreaking sound in the flowers.

There is a gazebo in front, and Hua Lin wants to walk over and sit in it in a daze.

When I walked in, I found that there was already a figure in the gazebo.

It seems that she is not the only one who wants to be in a daze.

Liu Shitong inside heard the footsteps, and got up directly to leave without knowing who was coming, and when she saw that it was Hua Lin who was coming, she probably felt that it was not an outsider, so she sat back again.

"Why are you here?" Hua Lin didn't pay attention before, and she didn't move freely on the playground.

Liu Shitong didn't speak, but Hua Lin was actually used to her way of expressing words less, so it was not surprising.

The two of them sat down on both sides of the pavilion, only to see Liu Shitong facing south, and the area of the water area of M City connected to the wetland park was in a daze.

Hua Lin also cast his gaze, and from a distance, the south-facing waters rose hazy water vapor, and the entire sky was gray and lifeless.

"My brother is right there."

Hua Lin was startled, she didn't expect Liu Shitong to suddenly open her mouth and say something mindless, at this time, the wild birds in the forest rose from the branches, and "quack" called a few times, adding a little penetration.

"What did you say?"

"My brother, my brother, is there."

Hua Lin looked at the waters over there in confusion, not understanding what Liu Shitong meant.

"That year, I was only 10 years old, and I took it upon myself to take my brother to play in the water over there. Then my brother drowned there and didn't swim up. After we had no brother, my dad left us and didn't care about anything but some money. My mom was devastated and committed suicide, but thankfully she was able to save herself. I always wonder if today would have been different if I hadn't taken my brother to play that day. Or, why didn't I stay under that water? For my brother to live. ”

In Hua Li, the huge accident was narrated by Liu Shitong very plainly, without any emotional ups and downs, just word by word, as if he was talking about other people's things.

“……”

"My dad has another woman, and everyone in the society knows that the palatial bathing city proprietress was never my mother."

Hua Lin has long believed that Liu Shitong is a classmate with a story, and she has always felt that Shitong is like the cool and ruthless wild cat downstairs in her house, showing her teeth and dancing in despair.

But she didn't expect that she suddenly had to open the conversation box to herself, and she didn't know how to cooperate with Liu Shitong's confiding, and she didn't know which angle to ask questions to show that she was listening.

Liu Shitong didn't mind Hua Lone's dazedness, she slowly told Hua Lone, what really bothered her.

"Now, my dad and she have a child, it's a boy, do you think he can be counted as my brother?"

Liu Shitong leaned against the pavilion, and she was in a strong contradiction all this time.

She hated that woman so much, although that woman didn't do anything harsh to herself from beginning to end, how many times she got into trouble, this woman never expressed her opinion, and she didn't stop her father from giving money, but she just hated her for taking away her father's love for her mother, hated her appearance for making her grandparents talk so much, she once thought about uniting a few gangsters in society to find trouble with that woman, but in the end it failed, after all, her father is the person who really has something to do with society, she is hitting a stone with an egg.

Now that this woman has given birth to a child for her father, Shitong was even more angry, but she didn't expect her mother to be happy Her mother shed tears and said to her personally: "Tongtong, he will be your brother in the future." ”

It turns out that for so many years, the departure of her son and the departure of her husband, this stupid woman pretended to be ashamed of her husband's "childlessness".

No, how is that possible? Her brother was the only one.

She really misses her brother, loves her brother very much, and how she longs to go back in time and have the opportunity to take care of her brother. But now that her mother suddenly reminded her that it was her brother, could she treat him as her own brother? Can he? Does she deserve it? That brother, will you hate yourself?

"......" Hua was stunned, and Shitong's heart knot was far more complicated than her own self-pity.

In the distance, there was a faint bell for the end of class.

Hua Lin knew it was time to go back.

But Shitong has no intention of leaving, she doesn't care if she skips school or not, but she understands that Hua Lonely can't do it.

"Let's go, let's go back to class. I'll stay a little longer on my own. ”

Hua Lone's body was running mechanically, and all the way away, he kept asking himself how Shitong should choose.

She didn't expect that the sorrow hidden under a rebellious soul was so huge, and she couldn't imagine what kind of fear and loneliness Shitong faced on the day she was 10 years old.

Walking through the muddy ground, almost to the school playground, Hua Lin lowered her head and stepped on the messy and withered yellow earth, and found that one or two fresh green shoots were still stubbornly probing, she couldn't help but lower her body and gently caress this fragile new life.

Hua Lin suddenly remembered that she was still that literary girl, and remembered a poem.

"If you believe,

Your life is a wildfire that burns inexhaustibly, and the spring breeze blows and grows again.

If you want, really start all over again,

Sincerely, sincerely, live again.

Then please tell me,

You have set yourself free from the past.

- Sanmaozuo"

With a twist of thought, she immediately turned around and ran back towards the deep pavilion to stand in front of Liu Shitong.

Liu Shitong's eyes were asking, why are you coming back?

"Leave yourself alone, Tolstoy said, 'Everyone has to live for hope, because with hope, you have the courage to live.'" ”

At this time, Hua Lin actually dropped the bookbag.

"What, Tolstoy?"

"It's not important, it's hope. I hope you can try to accept him and see this as if you have another chance. Because, I believe, treating him as your brother, loving him will make you happier than hating him. If you wanted, you could really start over and free yourself from your past experiences, okay? ”