①

Time: Summer 2002.

Location: Mengguji, Central Primary School.

The row of poplar trees behind the lab was already tall, standing there quietly, bringing a little coolness to this summer. The sound of the cicadas was shattered, and it was left in the wind to form a nursery rhyme, but no one could understand it.

Gu Jue sat in the classroom, listening to the teacher's lecture. The weather was already very hot, and even the air was piping hot. Gu Jue wanted to close his eyes and fall asleep, but he couldn't listen to what the teacher said, so he simply held his cheeks with his hands and squinted his eyes to look out of the window. Through a window, the sky is still so blue, and the leaves are still so still.

Lan Jin, who was at the same table, gave him a disdainful glance and muttered, what a natural bastard.

Gu Jue didn't listen, turned his head, suddenly smiled evilly, and muttered to Lan Jin, I guess, Shen Baocheng must not have combed his hair after taking a nap. You see, the lock of hair in the back is all up.

Lan Jin didn't even look at Gu Jue, and sneered and said, It's about your birds.

Gu Jue was used to being ridiculed by her, and stretched out a yawn for nothing, but was beaten hard by Lan Jin. Gu Jue said, why are you beating me?

Lan Jin glanced at him and said provocatively, your arm is out of bounds!

When I was in elementary school, the desks were all one table and two holes, and two people shared the same table, and a line was drawn in the middle of the table, which was an insurmountable gap between the two people.

Gu Jue snorted dissatisfiedly, and muttered, "Woman's opinion."

Lan Jin ignored Gu Jue's complaints, and just stared at the blackboard with good eyes and listened to the lecture seriously.

This is a geography class, and Shen Baocheng sits at the podium table and is dancing about Tibet's high sky and clouds, as well as all kinds of strange phenomena.

Gu Jue couldn't help but follow the teacher's description, imagining standing on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau, looking up at the ice-blue sky, shouting out someone's name to the reckless mountains, doing whatever he wants, summoning the wind, it should be another indescribable beauty.

Gu Jue was whimsical, and suddenly on a whim, he secretly passed a note to Lan Jin. Lan Jin opened it and looked at it, and there were only four words: Do you want to go to Tibet?

Lan Jin asked on the paper: "What for?" What evil are you plotting?

Gu Jue wrote: I heard that the summer there is quite cool.

Lan Jin wrote: No, there is no ice cream in Tibet.

Gu Jue: You are a girl, why are you so greedy?

Lan Jin: It's about your birds.

Gu Jue looked at the four words "about your birds" written by Lan Jin on the paper, and couldn't help sighing, thinking in his heart: A girl not only speaks so vulgarly, but even writes so ugly, she is really a little demon who doesn't know how to practice.

Lan Jin suddenly whispered, what are you muttering there?

Gu Jue said: It's about your birds...... The four words you wrote are really beautiful.

Lan Jin's language froze, and her expression suddenly changed unpredictably like the wind and flying clouds.

②

After class, Gu Jue walked on the playground at the back of the classroom, his hands in the pockets of his pants, and he hummed a song softly in his mouth, using a voice that could not be articulated:

"The vines and plants crawled all over the count's grave, and the castle was barren and overgrown with weedy dirt. The fat witch who can't ride a broom, reciting the incantation lala-woo in Latin, her black cat laughs like crying, lala-la-woo, uses a crystal ball to divinate people, and she says that the angle of the sun shining into the church at three o'clock in the afternoon can tell if you were a werewolf or a bat in your previous life. The owner of the castle, Wilhelm II, had a beard and liked to start snoring after sucking blood, and the butler was a French-speaking pig with elegant manners, who would make up for it by reciting the Gospel of John before sucking blood...... It's hard work, the whole family is afraid of the sunrise......"

Quietly, time overflowed the school wall, the frost looked at the eyes, and the leaves turned yellow in a blink of an eye, and there was no reason for the fall. In this uninvited late autumn, how do migratory birds endure it?

Autumn is coming, but Gu Jue likes autumn very much. Looking at the murderous yellow leaves in the wild sky and the boundless and transparent sky, there is a very unbridled and free impulse. He always fantasized that he would go to the end of the world one autumn, flee his entire youth, and wander all his life from then on, and his soul would never return to his roots.

③

Guo Huaiyu, a Chinese teacher and head teacher, was chatting about the story of whose family again. He always likes to look back on his past, talk about his eventful years, and talk about the happy grievances in the past. In fact, he just wanted to tell us that he was really bullish back then.

Gu Jue muttered underneath, cut, if you are really a cow, you can give a nunchuck, you can't play, you can sing.

Suddenly, Lan Jin passed a note, which made Gu Jue very excited. In the past six months, he has tirelessly passed countless notes one after another, but he still has not been able to impress this Tarzan-like tablemate. It's rare that she will take the initiative to pass a note to herself today, and she must have been moved by her indomitable spirit.

When I opened the note, I saw that the words were still such ugly words, but the feelings were very rich, and the deep feelings contained between the lines almost penetrated the back of the paper. Although there are only ten words and two punctuation marks, the meaning is profound and tear-jerking, and the note reads: If you don't mutter in class, you will die.

Gu Jue was disappointed, and felt like crying, so he replied with two words very aggrievedly: No.

Lan Jin wrote again: Today is my birthday, tell me a happy birthday!!

Gu Jue wrote: How did you get born in such a barren autumn?

Lan Jin wrote: It's about your birds.

Gu Jue sighed and said, "It's about you birds" every day, I'm really afraid that you won't be able to marry in the future.

Lan Jin turned white and snorted, but never made a sound.

When it was time for class to end, Lan Jin said, "You haven't told me to wish me a happy birthday?"

Gu Jue said, you are really thick-skinned...... Or I'll sing you a song.

Lan Jin was very happy and said, "Okay."

Gu Jue coughed solemnly twice, and the emotions that had been brewing for a long time were brewing, and Lan Jin was also ready, looking forward to Gu Jue singing the song "Happy Birthday to You" to herself.

But after a long time, when the daylily was cold, I heard Gu Jue humming softly to Lan Jin, lady, lady broke a willow every day. Where are you? At the mouth of the stream outside the village, waiting for me silently, lady......

Lan Jin interrupted Gu Jue's song, blushed and said, You are a hooligan.

Gu Jue smiled wickedly and whistled to be complacent.

④

It was a fine night, and the village wrapped in sticks was lulled to sleep by the gentle whisper of the moonlight. The wind blew through a cloud in the sky. Gu Jue ran to the roof of his tiled house and sat down, looking into the distance, one roof after another, like rolling mountains. Halfway through the village, he looked out at a certain courtyard in the distance, and half of the cotton tree overflowed the roof.

The scent of plants from the countryside wafts in the air.

"Happy birthday to you."

The little young voice said to the courtyard in the distance, smiling slightly, and the starry sky was reflected in his eyes.

4S

Autumn is getting deeper, and it is difficult to hear the cicadas anymore, Gu Jue sighed and said, I really want to catch the crawlers.

Lan Jin said, this is the time to catch the crawler, when the crawler is catched, people are still wearing short sleeves.

Gu Jue suddenly realized, oh, I'll wear short sleeves tomorrow.

Lan Jin's eyes looked like a fool and said,......。

⑤

In autumn, the fields begin to be colorful, red sorghum, yellow millet, and green cobs, separated by ridges, like a painter's palette.

There is a sweet potato field behind the school, and the sweet potatoes are ripe, and the sweet fragrance wafts in. Gu Jue couldn't help but be greedy, climbed over the wall and ran to the ground to steal, dug out several in one go, quickly pocketed it with his school uniform, and ran back to show off to Lan Jin.

Lan Jin reprimanded him with righteous words, while looking for a stack of wheat straw, and later came back with a large hug of wheat straw, and went to the corner of the playground to roast sweet potatoes to eat.

Hey, it's only five sweet potatoes in total, and you've eaten four and a half of them, so keep one for me.

Boy, I'm helping you sell your stolen goods, and I don't even say thank you.

Gu Jue was so frustrated that he could only swallow his saliva vigorously, and suddenly Lan Jin stuffed half of the sweet potato into his palm, and without even saying a word, he quickly ran away.

Finally her conscience was discovered. Gu Jue was overjoyed, and as soon as he took a bite of the sweet potato, he saw that a cloth shoe had entered the line of sight close to the ground, followed by another cloth shoe. When I looked up, I saw the headmaster coming in a tunic suit.

Gu Jue was suddenly choked by the sweet potato, and said with a burp, ...... Headmaster, I said I was here to ...... You're here to put out the fire, you...... Can you believe that?

⑥

In the blink of an eye, it's winter again, and the New Year is approaching.

It's time for the annual midterm exams again.

In those years, the primary school examinations were only Chinese and mathematics.

After sending the Chinese test paper, Lan Jin held her answer sheet and felt the urge to cry, with a score of 68, ranking second to last. Gu Jue was humming a little song and gloating on the side, Lan Jin glanced at him and said, I am so bad in the exam, you are still laughing?!

Gu Jue saw that he was exposed, so he quickly turned his face away, and tried to brew tears, but it was useless, so he had to rub his eyes with his hand and squeeze out a tear, before the tears dried, Gu Jue turned his head and said to Lan Jin seriously, Actually, I am also sorry for you.

Lan Jin was very moved and said, even if you kid has a conscience, by the way, how many points did you score?

Gu Jue spread out his hands, shrugged his shoulders, and said, I haven't seen my paper yet, and it may have been left by the teacher as a full-score textbook.

Lan Jin took it seriously and glanced at Gu Jue with envy.

The class bell rang.

Guo Huaiyu walked into the classroom and said that the students' test papers had already been obtained, and this time the test was not bad, with a passing rate of 99 percent, and only one person failed, with the highest score of 98 points and the lowest score of 18 points. I have a test paper here, which is shocking, and I will give you an analysis and analysis, so that students can see what it means to be a peerless master.

The students pricked up their ears and looked attentive to the teaching.

Guo Huaiyu opened the test paper in his hand and said, there is a question here, what is the original name of Mr. Lu Xun, the greatest contemporary writer in my country? It has been said in the textbook that Lu Xun, formerly known as Zhou Shuren, is a native of Shaoxing, Zhejiang. And our master only answered Mr. Lu Xun's surname correctly, but the name he answered also rhyming, his answer was, Jay Chou.

The class fell silent, and then ......

Guo Huaiyu waited for everyone to finish laughing, and said, fill in the Tang poem, "Since ancient times, no one has died, and the flow has gone straight down 3,000 feet." "Young man, are you trying to commit suicide by jumping off a cliff? Also, when did Mencius become a member of Mengguji, his old man was obviously from Zoucheng. The most hateful thing is that it is not allowed to copy the lyrics in the writing essay, let alone the lyrics that the teacher can't understand. "If there's anything wrong, just say it." Don't nest in the corner and refute if you're upset. "I've wanted to beat you up for a long time, and I have something to say to the medicine box." Once again, I declare that it is not allowed to threaten the teacher with lyrics!

Lan Jin whispered, which scoundrel wrote an essay?

Gu Jue also pretended to be disdainful, trying to draw a line with the word "scoundrel", and said contemptuously, yes, how can this be considered an essay.

Guo Huaiyu said in a straight voice, Gu Jue, eighteen points, come up and get your volume.

Gu Jue was very embarrassed, and then pretended to be very innocent, and said, Teacher, you are wrong. Here are my exam papers.

As he spoke, he picked up Lan Jin's scroll and held it up. Guo Huaiyu was too lazy to talk to him, and said, look for me in the office after school.

Lan Jin smiled maliciously and said, Oh, it's good, the composition written by this peerless master is quite hanging.

Gu Jue turned his head sideways and said very innocently, it's about me.

The next section is a math class, and the math paper has also been sent, Lan Jin has 76 points, not good or bad. And Gu Jue was empty-handed, and he didn't see his test papers.

Gu Jue began to panic, he wouldn't be so old today, right?

Lan Jin hummed a little song and gloated on the side, and said with a smile on her face, Actually, I feel sorry for you too.

Gu Jue was depressed for a long time, moved his lips, and didn't say a word.

The class bell is ringing again!

Shen Baocheng walked into the classroom step by step, every step was very strong, every step was on Gu Jue's heartstrings, Gu Jue knew that Shen Baocheng walked so slowly, which meant that he was very angry.

The students held their breath and sat still.

Shen Baocheng had a gloomy face and said, I didn't take the exam very well, only two passed 90, but there were a large number of those who failed, I wondered, is this year's question so difficult? I'm really disappointed, and I'll tell you that the teacher is angry and the consequences are serious! …… I have a copy here, which is shocking and typical.

When Gu Jue heard the idiom "shocking the world" again, his psychological endurance had really reached its peak.

Shen Baocheng said, this is the answer, Gu Jue.

Then, the expected laughter filled the classroom, and for a moment the laughter was heard all over the place.

Shen Baocheng was unexpectedly startled and said, what are you laughing at? You're jealous! Pure jealousy!

Shen Baocheng paused, and then said, Gu Jue, this time I scored 100 points, which shocked the world.

Gu Jue finally calmed his heartbeat, returned to the dantian, and the spiritual platform was empty, in his eyes, Shen Baocheng was more than a mortal, and the blackboard behind him was also glowing with golden light, lining the teacher's tall and incomparably tall, even the teacher's dark face became oily, and a crescent-shaped birthmark faintly protruded from the center of his eyebrows.

⑦

This night, the north wind blew all night. It's freezing and the roads are icy and slippery. The wind howled in the fields like a ghost crying, and the hairy moon was vague and almost invisible. In the second half of the night, heavy snow fell, and the next morning, the whole village was white.

Mengguji Village is so big that you can see the end at a glance. If you light a cigarette and walk from the west of your house to the east of your home, everyone will arrive, and the smoke will not be finished.

Gu Jue was wrapped thickly, leaving only two small eyes exposed, all the way to the school. There were many people in the playground having snowball fights, Gu Jue didn't go to join in the fun, but crouched in a corner to avoid the strong wind, picking up a stream of trees and scribbling on the snow quilt, and gradually became in a trance, involuntarily.

Suddenly, I heard a girl sigh softly in her ear, "You really like Lan Jin."

Gu Jue was suddenly startled, and when he woke up, he saw that "Lan Jin" was written all over the snow, written diagonally, positively, and backwards, all of which he couldn't help but write as he wanted.

The girl standing next to her was called Ah Ye, Gu Jue's classmate, and she saw Ah Ye's face full of gloom, and said, I didn't expect that you are still an infatuated seed.

Gu Jue smiled awkwardly, and denied it, I ...... I...... Sumire owes me that...... She owes me five cents, and she hasn't paid it back for half a year, and I'm thinking about how to ask her for it.

Ah Ye blinked his eyes and said, What you said is true?

Gu Jue stepped on the words on the snow quilt, destroyed the corpse, and said, of course, by the way, you must not tell others about this matter.

Ah Ye said, well, I will never tell anyone.

Gu Jue believed Ah Ye's words and was relieved, so the entire school knew that Gu Jue had repeatedly written Lan Jin's name on the snow within half a day. Since then, Gu Jue's heart is known to passers-by. Gu Jue couldn't help but sigh, women are all liars.

From then on, Lan Jin no longer dared to whisper to Gu Jue, and when she met Gu Jue on the road, she also passed by with her head down, Gu Jue ate the bitter fruit and cultivated for thousands of years in vain.

From then on, Gu Jue always held the Yi alone, staring blankly at the sound of the wind outside the window that never thawed, one person did not speak and thought about what was wrong, one person sat on the ground listening to Jay Chou's song, one person strolled under the gray and white sky and had nothing to do, one person sat in the wind like a beggar, it turned out that this winter can also be very cold.

Time is like water, and countless seasons have passed. At the end of winter, the ice rumbled and broke from the river, and the snow faded far from the meadow, but the gap between Gu Jue and Lan Jin never dissolved. Spring came as promised, with a warm wind, but it failed to warm a heart.

On this day, Gu Jue found that the other half of Lan Jin's desktop was carved with the tip of a knife with the word "wait", and the strokes were quite ugly, which was Lan Jin's handwriting.

Gu Jue was at a loss and didn't know what to mean, and she also learned to use the tip of a knife to engrave on the table, but she never dared to write her name again. Since then, whenever Gu Jue thinks about it, he quietly engraves it on the table, and the number of words is increasing. And the other half always has only a lonely "etc."

The vicissitudes of life, I can't escape the judgment of the last days, take a deep look, who has cultivated for thousands of years.

Sometimes, Ah Ye would also come over to talk to Gu Jue. Gu Jue always replied without a word, ignoring her, and really hated this talkative girl in his heart.

One day, Ah Ye gave Gu Jue a novel for him to read, Zhang Ailing's "Love in a Fallen City". Gu Jue politely flipped a few pages and returned it to her in the afternoon.

And during class that afternoon, Gu Jue cautiously glanced at his tablemate, Lan Jin was still listening to the lecture carefully, not paying attention to her flame-like eyes. This made Gu Jue feel lonely, looking at the sunset outside the window, his thoughts were surging, so he gently carved a sentence on the table: "The most painful thing is not the loneliness you said, but that I am waiting for the sunset alone."

Gu Jue stroked the words on the table, and seemed to hear the sound of heartbreak. This is already the eighth sentence written, and looking at the idiotic words one after another, I can't help but feel painful.

"I was under the eaves, gently drawing sand, and the wind carried over the treetops, and the wind chimes were as hoarse as a demon."

"Chisel through the frozen love words, pretend to be silly and laugh, who is really like listening to a fairy tale?"

"How to put her down, I don't understand, I just said that I was young at the time, and I was shaking at the end of the world."

"With my childhood guitar on my back, no one cares about her, so I pretend I've forgotten about her."

"Your smile has not poured into the kingdom but it has poured into me, and I am not your kingdom."

"The promised oath has flowed into the veins, and it is fate that has broken my blood."

"If it's my fault to even think about you, I'd rather make a mistake again and again."

"The most painful thing is not the loneliness you said, but the fact that I am waiting for the sunset alone."

But since that day, Gu Jue has never written on the desktop again. Because the next day, Lan Jin transferred to another school and left. Some of the students said that their whole family had moved to Shanghai, to that faraway city.

Gu Jue was stunned, she didn't even pay attention to herself when she left for the last time, she didn't say a word, and left decisively.

After spring, summer comes with a long footsteps. The six years of primary school have finally come to an end.

Gu Jue packed up his books and left the campus where he had stayed for six years, but he did not continue to go to junior high school, but chose to go out to work, and the direction of the part-time job was the distant Shanghai.

It's just that he never came back.

⑧

Gu Jue came to Shanghai alone and found a small restaurant to wash dishes, and the boss said that when it came to the Chinese New Year, a piece of salary would be counted.

In fact, Gu Jue doesn't care about the salary, as long as he can see her again, even if it's just once, he will be very satisfied. But meeting a person in such a large city, this probability is tantamount to a once-in-a-century comet sweeping the moon.

When the first snow of the year fell in Shanghai, the hotel closed down, the boss rolled up and ran away, Gu Jue didn't get a salary, he didn't have a penny on him, and he slipped around in the wind and snow in a thin winter coat. When he was hungry, he endured it, and when he was sleepy, he slept on the street, and his thin figure swayed under the street lamp, he was afraid that his family would be worried, so he didn't dare to call home.

He didn't learn to be strong, he learned not to care. He felt that nothing mattered, and in his opinion, a rich country was no different from being poor.

This night, the north wind was blowing, Gu Jue shrunk his body and slept coldly under the street lamp, and returned to the elementary school classroom in his dream, the summer days were long, and the leaves were blowing in the breeze, like the tinkling sound of wind chimes. The clatter of chalk across the blackboard. The sound of flipping books. The sound of cicadas. Lying on his desk basking in the warm sun, sitting next to him was Xiao Lan Jin, who was eating snacks and clicking in his mouth.

But then Lan Jin disappeared, the sunlight disappeared, and even the entire elementary school was hidden, and everything was shrouded in darkness. This dream was so long, as long as a lifetime, when he woke up from the dream, Gu Jue found himself lying on the bed, a priest in a black priest's robe standing aside and praying for himself.

Gu Jue struggled to support his body and asked, what is this place?

The priest opened his eyes, his face was full of devotion, and he said, this is the Christian church, thank God, you have finally woken up.

Gu Jue said, thank you.

As he spoke, he got out of bed and was about to leave.

The priest said, "God saved you, but you don't have to thank me."

Gu Jue thought for a while and said, "Father, take me to God to pray."

When Gu Jue knelt in front of the cross and prayed, he suddenly felt so quiet in his heart, it was a kind of silence that had never been before, and the whole church was like the whole world, far away from the hustle and bustle of hell.

Gu Jue said, I am willing to kneel here for the rest of my life, pray, and die.

⑨

Gu Jue reverently flipped through the Bible, page by page carefully, when he was halfway through, Gu Jue had also grown up, this year, 2012, Gu Jue was twenty-one years old.

Gu Jue was wearing a wide priest's robe, standing in the temple where there was nothing but extremely prosperous, his face was quiet and his expression was peaceful.

In the beautiful church, Gu Jue interprets the Gospel of John for all beings, he has become a young priest, looking at the full house of believers, he talks about the Old Testament, and his heart is like water.

Gu Jue said quietly that Moses led the chosen people of the Lord, the descendants of Abraham, to call all the people in the name of God to leave the wand of the Egyptian elders, and the Red Sea was diverted from it, and the road was unhindered, and drinking water gushed out from the rocks, and God watched over his chosen people, and made the Ten Commandments for the people to keep.

In the empty church, Gu Jue's voice echoed infinitely, as if he came from another country.

After dark, Gu Jue used to go to the square in the center of the city every night, sitting on the edge of the stone and playing the guitar and singing, full of neon lights, full of crowds.

Gu Jue could suddenly feel a kind of quietness in the bustling streets, a kind of quietness from the soul. He always sang a song repeatedly, and Gu Jue called this song "Waiting".

Sometimes there will be a lot of people standing there listening carefully, and sometimes they just feel alone in the heavy snow, in the moonlight, in the wind and rain quietly singing. Many people think that Gu Jue is a street singer, so when he finishes singing a song, he has accumulated a lot of money in front of him, but Gu Jue doesn't look at it, and every time he leaves silently with his guitar on his back, letting the coins drift in the wind.

This night, the moonlight was quiet, and when Gu Jue walked back to the church with his guitar on his back, he saw a decadent old man wandering outside the church, like a lonely ghost.

The old man said that he wanted to go into the church and kneel in front of the creator to repent, Gu Jue said, the priest has already slept, I don't have the key, why don't you come tomorrow during the day.

The old man let out an "oh" in disappointment, and gradually walked away with a slow pace. Gu Jue looked at his distant back, but there was a kind of sadness of a rabbit and a dead fox, Gu Jue prayed silently in his heart, tried to restrain this sentimentality, climbed the wall and jumped into the church courtyard.

The next day, during the day, the old man did not come.

After dark, when Gu Jue came back with his guitar on his back, he saw the old man floating outside the church door.

Gu Jue asked, why are you here at this time again?

The old man did not speak, only sighed deeply, and gradually departed.

On the third day, late at night, Gu Jue saw the old man hovering on the stone steps again, pitiful. Gu Jue couldn't bear to be disappointed every time, so he climbed the wall and went in, took the priest's key, unlocked the door, and let the old man come in and pray.

The old man knelt before the cross and repented softly until tears flowed down his face.

Gu Jue didn't know what sin he had committed that made him so remorseful?

When the old man had finished praying, he slowly stood up and said, "Can I come here every day to pray?"

Gu Jue said that if it was daytime, it would be possible at any time.

The old man muttered to himself, but he didn't know what he was saying, and a trace of loss flowed in his eyes.

Gu Jue said, the supreme God is everywhere, you don't have to go to the church to pray, as long as your heart is pure, no matter where you pray to God, God will approve it.

The old man realized a little and said, thank you for your advice.

Gu Jue blessed and said, May God be with you.

On the fourth day, at night, Gu Jue sat by the fountain and sang softly with his guitar, waiting for the stars to fall.

Suddenly, a person sat next to Gu Jue and asked, do you often play the guitar here?

Gu Jue saw that it was the old man who pious evening prayer. Gu Jue said, every night, I will come here.

The old man asked again, what is your name?

Gu Jue said, Gu Jue.

The old man sighed and said, I want to talk to you, say something that has been holding my heart for many years, would you like to listen?

Gu Jue said, I have been listening.

The old man paused for a long time and said, "Have you heard of Castle William?" It is a Gothic building full of ghosts, and the owner of the castle is Wilhelm II. Wilhelm II was a vampire, but he possessed unpredictable magic and could manipulate thousands of creatures with spells, and I was a pig cursed by him.

Gu Jue was taken aback and asked, was you a pig in your previous life?

The old man said, not in the past life, but in this life. I was originally a pig, but William II enchanted and became a vampire, in William Castle I am William II's butler, because William Castle is the condensation of all the magic of William II, so he can never leave the castle, he transformed me into a human form, and wanted me to search for him to search for the living people outside the castle to drink blood and fill his stomach. He liked to lie in the grave and snore after sucking blood, and slept until the next day, after sunset.

One day, while I was cleaning the cellar, I stumbled upon an old book, dusted it off, and wrote the word Bible in French, and since then, I have always recited a passage of the Gospel of John before sucking blood, I thought that after reading the gospel, I could atone for my sins, but when I read that the Lord Jesus was crucified for the salvation of all mankind, until His Blood was drained and became the atonement sacrifice of mankind.

I realized the magnitude of my sin, and that I was a foolish pig, but I was also a creature, and I should fear the Lord Jesus. So I chose a moonless night to escape from Fort Wilhelm and drift away from all over the world. Ten years of abstaining from blood, ten years of starvation, until today.

Gu Jue said, no wonder you don't dare to go to the church to bow down during the day, it turns out that you are afraid of the sunrise.

The old man said, yes, vampires are nocturnal and nocturnal, unlike people. I learned some simple witchcraft from Wilhelm II, and I could travel through time and space, but it was too costly.

Gu asked curiously, what is the price?

The old man said that if you want to go back to the past life, or go back to the pre-A.D. era, you should recite the "Pharaoh's Black Sutra" three times, and after passing through the treacherous night forest, you can go back to the past. But if you want to go back and come back, the Night Forest will present nine hundred and eighty-one tribulations, and each calamity will become a catastrophe that no one can experience, so those who want to cross are now all trapped in the Night Forest, and they can't wait for dawn, and they haven't returned. I also wanted to go back to my past life, but I didn't dare to take risks.

Gu Jue said, recite the "Pharaoh's Black Scripture" three times? Is it the "Sutra of the Sun" carved by the ninth pharaoh of Egypt into the black basalt with a snake staff?

The old man said, "Yes, but you must not think backwards, so as not to avoid endless calamities."

Gu Jue was skeptical and said, I will pay attention to it in the future.

Suddenly the wind whipped up the long night, and the old man went with it, and he did not come again the next day, nor on the third or fourth day, as if he had never come at all.

The story is the same as always, during the day, Gu Jue will still stand quietly in the church and humbly read a certain passage of the Bible, and at night, Gu Jue will still sit by the fountain and play and sing the same song quietly.

During the day, flocks of white doves coil over the church and do not disperse for a long time. And when the night is dark, the tide of blood bats spreads their wings in the moonlight, and they are hungry fiercely.

In the evening of this day, Gu Jue closed his Bible and knelt down in prayer sincerely. Then he carried the guitar and came to the square, sat on the edge of the stone and sang quietly, and made himself amorous to the bloody sunset.

Gu Jue sang the consistent song "Wait" in a voice that was almost tearful: "I was under the eaves, gently drawing sand, the wind carried over the treetops, and the wind chimes were as hoarse as a demon. Chisel through icy love words, pretend to laugh silly, who is really like listening to a fairy tale? How to put her down, I don't understand, I just said that I was young at the time, and I was shaking at the end of the world. With my childhood guitar on my back, no one was concerned, so I pretended that I had forgotten her. Your smile has not poured into the country but it has poured into me, and I am not your country. The promised oath flowed into the veins, and it was fate that broke my blood. If even thinking about you is my fault, then I'd rather be wrong again and again. The most painful thing is not the loneliness you said, but the fact that I am alone waiting for the sunset. ”

Although the lyrics were written casually when he was young, and the words written were quite naïve at the time, they were a bloody legend.

A young girl stood by the fountain and listened all the time, and when Gu Jue finished playing a song, she said, The lyrics you sang are quite poignant, which makes me feel a sense of déjà vu.

Gu Jue raised his head, the girl's long hair danced in the evening breeze, the shadow was stretched so long, standing there smiling shallowly, Gu Jue felt a long-lost kindness, and couldn't help but pound his heart, and said, Are you?

And the maiden said, My name is Anly, but what about you?

Gu Jue sighed in disappointment, silently put away the guitar, and turned to leave.

Anly followed closely behind Gu Jue and said, Hey, where are you going? Leave before you can answer me, you're so rude.

At this time, a boy called Anly's name, Anly, Anly.

Anly smiled softly and said, "My boyfriend is calling me, by the way, what do you do?"

Gu Jue said, I am a priest in the church.

And Anly said, Thou art a priest? I'm getting married next month, and I really want to go to church for a wedding, can't you be my main marriage?

Gu Jue didn't nod or shake his head.

Anly smiled and said, okay, I won't tell you, my boyfriend is tired of waiting.

Gu Jue watched her happily run to her boyfriend, watching them hug each other and giggle, as if they were saying something funny. Across the air so far away, Gu Jue stood alone, and suddenly a small piece of jealousy took root in his heart.

The moonlight was bright this night, and Gu Jue lay on the lawn with his arms on his pillow, quietly looking at the starry sky. Whenever he is lonely, he will always watch the colorful starry sky like this, and he feels that the starry sky is the most heartwarming scenery that belongs to him. But tonight, the originally calm heart swelled, and the girl's shallow smile still lingered in her mind. It's just a one-sided relationship, why is there such a concern?

Gu Jue couldn't help but think of Lan Jin ten years ago, those stories from ten years ago seemed to be still in front of him, in fact, those stories had long been engraved in his bones, but he couldn't remember her voice and appearance clearly, even if it was a photo, it would be yellow after ten years, and it was a memory.

It turns out that it is not a certain person who is obsessed, but a certain period of time.

Legend has it that there is a kind of blue rain that will transform into elves when it falls on the tiles, interpreting one memory after another, forming the most beautiful mirage, until the blood of the remembrance is dried up, and finally the people living in the memories will be turned into bats, stretching their wings around the church. It seems that thinking about this kind of thing is something that mortals can't afford to spend at all.

Gu Jue was looking forward to a blue rain that would suddenly fall over the city, and then sit on the rooftop alone, watching how those elves interpreted the indelible memories of that chapter ten years ago, and interpreted the original beauty of that chapter flowing in the blood.

The next day, in the evening, Gu Jue was still carrying the worn-out acoustic guitar, alone and lonely through the empty alley, the sudden wind invaded the bone marrow, Gu Jue wrapped the neckline of the black windbreaker, and couldn't help but look up at the sky. The parched sky was cut into a parallel line by the tall marl buildings on both sides of the alley. Everything seemed so pale, as if it had returned to Shanghai in 1943, dissolved into an old black-and-white photograph.

A group of wind-chasing teenagers rode bicycles whistling past, Gu Jue looked at their backs, as if he saw the blue elf interpreting himself ten years ago, flying and jumping out of restraint, and he spent ten years along the trajectory of great joy and sorrow, and finally understood not to be sad or happy. But what about their future? Is it the sorrow that underwaters into a river, or the bliss of ten miles of prosperity?

The upper reaches of the square were sparsely populated, Gu Jue sat on the edge of the stone, like a beggar, white doves flew around him, the sun was thinning, and the outline of everything gradually faded.

Day after day, the unforgettable bones have slowly softened into a faint longing, no longer like before reading a certain volume of poetry and suddenly breaking the liver and intestines, no longer singing a certain paragraph of lyrics burst into tears, but learned to smile secretly distressed, learned to face the sky and the earth cracked without a word.

When the stars fill the sky, the heavens and the earth are infinitely quiet, just as they were at the beginning of the world.

Gu Jue was stunned for a while, packed up his guitar and got up, and walked away slowly, when suddenly a blue Porsche spun out at the bend of the road, which was as popular as electricity. Gu Jue couldn't dodge and was knocked to the ground hard.

When Gu Jue woke up again, the first thing that caught his eye was a pink wall, as well as the pink bedding spread on his body, and the smell of disinfectant water in the room, only to react that he was lying in the hospital ward, vaguely remembering that he had suffered a car accident, and then fainted.

At this time, a girl knocked on the door with a fruit basket in her hand, and the girl's face was familiar, clean and innocent, it was Anly.

Anly said, "You're finally awake, but it scares me to death."

Gu Jue said, you sent me to the hospital?

Anly smiled awkwardly and said, not only did I send you, but I was also the one who accidentally hit you while driving.

Gu Jue just let out a soft "oh" and didn't care.

Anly explained, it's all my boyfriend's fault, who made me cry, and let me drive on the road in anger, angrily stepping on the accelerator, I cried while driving, with tears in my eyes, so I didn't have time to see you, so I ......

Gu Jue still let out a soft "oh", not shocked.

Anly said, you can recuperate here, and I will pay you another sum of money when you are discharged from the hospital.

Gu Jue frowned and did not speak.

Anly peeled an orange for Gu Jue and said, by the way, I don't know your name yet.

Gu Jue said, my name is ......

Before he finished speaking, a man knocked on the door again, carrying a large bag of nutritional supplements, and apologized after entering the house, saying, this gentleman, I'm really sorry.

Anly snorted and said, you still know to come.

The man was extremely doting on Anly, and said with a smile that he had rushed over after the board meeting, and he didn't delay for a minute.

After speaking, he took out a handful of money from his purse and said to Gu Jue, please take care of it, the money will be used first, and it will be talked about if it is not enough.

Gu Jue was indifferent, and said lightly, you put the money away first, and then talk about it later.

The man agreed, then took out a business card and said, My name is Hua Yang, and this is my business card.

Gu Jue glanced at Hua Yang, general manager of Zhongyun Financial Co., Ltd.

In the afternoon, when Anly and Hua Yang came to the ward again, the bed was empty and empty, and the table was full of items sent by Hua Yang, and it was untouched.

Anly hurriedly called the nurse and asked where Gu Jue had gone.

The nurse said he had been discharged from the hospital and left.

Anly said, but the hospitalization fee has not been paid.

The nurse said, don't worry, he has already handed it in himself.

Anly was very angry and said that the stinky boy was really playing a score.

Hua Yang smiled lightly and said, I like his unscrupulous personality.

When Gu Jue returned to the church, the sun at three o'clock in the afternoon just shone into the church, Gu Jue knelt and prayed in front of God, his back was attached to the ground like a stubborn bat, and after reciting the prayer respectfully, his heart was like water, and his soul was infinitely peaceful.

The next day, the priest said that this morning Zhongyun Group sent someone to donate 3 million to the church.

Gu Jue let out a faint "oh", not surprised.

In the afternoon, a cheque with three million dollars was delivered to the priest, who said that they hoped that the wedding of our general manager, Hua Yang, could be held here next month.

The priest said, "God will bless you."

A month later, the day before Christmas.

Hua Yang and Anly's wedding was held as scheduled in the Church of Our Lady, Gu Jue was wearing a priestly robe without dust, his eyes were clear, and his expression was clean.

Anly was wearing a white wedding dress and waited quietly for Hua Yang to kiss her on the lips gently, with a happy face.

Hua Yang wore a well-tailored tuxedo, walked lightly on the red carpet, holding Anly's hand, tender as water.

They kissed each other devoutly in front of God, without a little evil thought, and Gu Jue instantly felt that they were really beautiful, wishful thinking, and made in heaven.

Gu Jue lowered his head ashamedly, opened the draft declaration written by the priest in his hand, and recited clearly word by word: Huayang, are you willing to marry Lan......

Gu Jue suddenly froze, the reading manuscript fell to the ground, and he screamed hysterically, roaring like a beast, Gu Jue said, Lan Jin? Aren't you called Anly?

Anly smiled and said, yes, Anly is my English name, and Lan Jin is my real name since I was a child.

Gu Jue nodded with tears, suppressed the surging pain in his heart, and read word by word from between his teeth, Huayang, are you willing to marry Lan Jin as his wife? Young or old, unswerving?

Hua Yang said softly but firmly, I do.

Gu Jue's heart suddenly twitched violently, and he couldn't help but feel pain. Every time he pronounces a word, it is equivalent to gradually cutting off the girl he has loved for ten years with his own hands, until he has nothing to do with himself at all. Every time he read a word, it was like being deeply stabbed, and after receiving the punishment of Ling Chi of love, Gu Jue was already covered in bruises.

Gu Jue glanced at Lan Jin deeply, but she was looking at Hua Yang deeply, her eyes were weak, and her veins were like water. Gu Jue ruthlessly killed the tears that were about to pour out, but still read clearly word by word, Lan Jin, are you willing to marry Hua Yang? Whether rich or poor, never give up?

Lan Jin said without hesitation, I do.

And so they hugged each other tightly, as they had embraced each other since time immemorial. has long been connected by blood, and no one can be separated.

Gu Jue quietly left the church, and when he passed by Lan Jin's side, he took a serious last look, and a glance was a lifetime. Then he decided to leave, as if he had left his own shadow.

The child holding the wedding dress behind Lan Jin said in surprise that his brother was crying.

Lan Jin turned around suddenly, and Gu Jue had already left. Lan Jin asked the priest who he was.

The priest said that he was just a priest named Gu Jue.

Lan Jin's brain was dizzy, and she almost couldn't stand, but when she came to her senses, she rushed out of the door desperately, letting her white wedding dress stain the dust on the ground.

At a turn, Gu Jue was walking without looking back, and Lan Jin said, you stop for me.

Gu Jue stood still, like a lonely sculpture. Gu Jue smiled faintly and said, I have been waiting here for ten years, and I finally saw you as I wished. Today, I'm very happy.

Lan Jin cried and said, why didn't you tell me that you liked me in the first place? Don't you know that I've been waiting for you to say?

Gu Jue suddenly realized that Lan Jin ten years ago engraved the word "wait" on the table, which was deeply meaningful, and even so.

Lan Jin burst into tears and said, I never left you, it's just that time has left us, we missed ten years, and we deserve to bear this result.

Gu Jue's heart was like a knife, he held back his despair and couldn't say a word.

Each other has become each other's saddest memories, and the wall of the elementary school has encircled the sadness of the bursting embankment. It's just that he was young at the time, but in fact, he was already deeply rooted.

Lan Jin saw Gu Jue gradually walking away and asked, where are you going?

Gu Jue said firmly and vaguely, ten years ago.

On Christmas Eve, Shanghai was brightly lit, thousands of couples were holding hands on the street and cheering Christmas Eve, the snowflakes were falling, Gu Jue was far away from the crowd, walking alone on the edge of the city, gradually passing by the brilliant street lamps, Gu Jue looked up under the street lamps, smiled miserably, silently recited the Pharaoh's Black Scripture in his mouth, and walked towards the endless darkness in front without hesitation.

When the recitation is repeated three times, the street lamps behind him suddenly all go out, the heavens and the earth are overturned, the wind and clouds surge, and a stone tablet is erected in front of him, and the tablet is written in the ancient Egyptian monk's script: This is the polar night tablet, and the fearful turn back.

Gu Jue stepped further, and then the sky and earth were dark, he couldn't see his five fingers, there was no color, no sound, no temperature, Gu Jue stumbled all the way in the dark night forest, as if fleeing.

⑩

It's really back to the day ten years ago.

Meng Guji, Central Primary School.

The sun is warm, the spring flowers are blooming, and that is the taste of happiness. Spring carefully stepped on the branches of the oak trees, and the wind was very light, and it seemed that there was none.

Through the glass window of the classroom, the young Lan Jin stayed alone in the classroom, thinking deeply, his fingers stroking the ugly word "wait" on the table, but muttering to himself: I've been waiting for you to speak, don't you know?

Gu Jue's soul was struck by lightning in an instant, and he couldn't help but tremble, shaking off a lifetime of tears. Gu Jue walked into the classroom and approached Lan Jin warmly, but Lan Jin was still in a daze and didn't notice herself.

Lan Jin suddenly picked up the pen and wrote a few words on the paper, folded it and sandwiched it into a book on Gu Jue's desk, her eyes were full of longing. Gu Jue felt the same way, and wanted to love her deeply, so he couldn't help but stretch out his fingers to grab the tips of her soft hair, but he couldn't hold it.

Gu Jue was stunned, and tentatively touched the desk, but he didn't feel anything, his fingers had no physical contact with the desktop like air, it turned out that he was a transparent body in this space, which had nothing to do with this time.

Browsing the story of ten years ago, but I am just a bystander, watching a decade of loneliness, those joys and sorrows, those blessings and misfortunes, what should have happened has happened, what should have been missed has been missed, and what is deduced in front of me is a tragedy that has long been doomed, and I can't save it at all.

There are more and more people in the classroom.

Suddenly, a familiar figure walked in, it was himself ten years ago, the young Gu Jue sat in his place, left and right, picked up the book on the table, and looked at a cheongsam woman on the cover.

Lan Jin couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed when she saw Gu Jue playing with the book, she was really afraid that she would be embarrassed when he found the note in the book in a while, so she went out.

Gu Jue told himself loudly on the side, ten years ago, open the book, stupid!

But the young Gu Jue didn't hear the call ten years later. At this time, Ah Ye came over and asked, Gu Jue, what do you think of this "Love in a Fallen City"?

The young Gu Jue said lazily, it's not good-looking at all, and I want to give it back to you.

Ah Ye snorted and said, if you don't look at it, you don't understand literature at all.

After speaking, he took the book angrily and returned to his seat, Gu Jue was completely disappointed, so he could only follow Ah Ye, always paying attention to the book "Love in a Fallen City", because he wanted to see what Lan Jin had written.

After waiting for a long time, Ah Ye finally opened the book, Gu Jue's heart was about to jump out, Ah Ye really lived up to his expectations and accidentally found the note, unfolded it, and saw that it was written: Wait for me in the playground after school.

Ah Ye's eyes shone brightly, and he secretly glanced in the direction of Gu Jue, unable to hold back the joy in his heart.

It was obviously a whisper written by Lan Jin to herself, but Ah Ye took it as an agreement she told her, which shows that tragedy is inevitable. Maybe it's the so-called fate.

In the evening, the people of the school were almost gone, and there were only two people wandering around the playground, Lan Jin and Ah Ye.

Ah Ye couldn't stay with Gu Jue, and seeing that it was getting dark, he bit his lip and went home.

Only Lan Jin was left standing alone under the poplar tree, waiting for Gu Jue, in fact, Gu Jue was standing beside her, looking at her seriously, but Lan Jin couldn't see Gu Jue, because it was Gu Jue ten years later.

Lan Jin said faintly, tomorrow I will leave, I will go to Shanghai, in the future, we will be separated, and we may never see each other again in this life. But if you tell me that you like me, I will wait for you, when we grow up, when you marry me, but why don't you come to see me for the last time? Why don't you come and tell me you like me?

Gu Jue was silently sad for a long time in the sky, raised his head and wanted to make a loud trumpet uncontrollably, but the voice that came out was silently hoarse. Like a beast of despair. I want to cry but I don't have tears, because the transparent body has no tears.

There is a kind of regret called heartbreaking, there is a despair called the aftermath, and there is a period of time called ten years ago.

Turning around, it was pitch black, trapped in the edgeless night forest, no more dawn, no more dawn, no more way back.

Gu Jue simply sat in the long polar night, a fantasy, sitting for ten thousand years, waiting for the fireworks at the end of time.

10,000 years later, Gu Jue said, I still miss the tears of that year.

Tears are just a kind of thing used to commemorate love, and after crying, you know what it means to be irresistible.

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"If there is no next dawn, will I still hold on to the beautiful sunset of the last days and wait for your instant smile that will captivate the country and the city?"

"I would look up under every street lamp in every city, leaning on my acoustic guitar, leaning on my body, my trench coat swaying to the ground, through my last night dark, and the moment I looked up, I had a miserable smile and a slow-paced heartbeat. My world no longer has the luxury of having the dawn of that day again, because of my obsession, because I have learned and will not forget. ”

- ENDS

Postscript:

It's been ten years since I graduated from elementary school in the blink of an eye, and I can't afford to waste time. Everything has to have a 10th anniversary, and I think this story is a commemoration of my elementary school days. However, only this elementary school in the story is real, and the rest of the things are all nonsense. Otherwise, if I tell you that someone has really traveled back in ten years, you won't believe it. If you have to believe it, recommend a doctor to you, your disease is not curable.

During this period, I used to constantly try to think about my tablemate, but I can't remember who it is, let alone the name and appearance, it shouldn't be a woman, because I have never been a girl. I am always so forgetful, and I hope that teachers and classmates can be equally forgetful, otherwise there are too many childish things I committed in elementary school, and it is a black history that cannot be mentioned. (If you have the opportunity, you will kill your former classmates one by one.) [em]e400826[/em]Haha just kidding, I can't even afford a knife. ）

My own business has no taste from beginning to end, but fortunately I have Gu Jue who has all five flavors. No matter how unbearable Gu Jue is, at least there is a little Lan Jin who likes each other, and I will only play with secret love for nothing. The stupidest thing, and finally forgot the name of the crush, which is really embarrassing. Gu Jue went from being a chatter with a little happiness at the beginning, to a taciturn teenager, and finally to eternal captivity, maybe just because I was too jealous of him.

A few days ago, I went to the elementary school to walk around, the trees are still thick, but the classrooms are very old, the buildings are peeling off the walls, bats are flying, and the desolation is like a temple with no incense. But it's such an old little yard that fills most of my childhood memories. If you go to an inconspicuous corner, you can pick up a lot of past events. I heard that this school was going to be demolished and rebuilt, and I was a little reluctant after all, and I couldn't reunite with it for a long time in the future. Alas, there is no way, the school is not my family, and I don't count if I say it.

The story of the vampire comes from Fang Wenshan's "Fort William", and the Bible passage mentioned in the article is a Baidu search. I have studied Western history first, and I have learned about Moses, but I hope it is not wrong. Although I have always been ignorant, I wrote with a pious heart, and I would never dare to blasphemy, hoping that I would not violate the taboo of Christianity.

As for Arashi, the fictional character, I've never met this kind of girl. She has so many shortcomings, but I think she is very good, and she should be happier if she marries Huayang. If she follows Gu Jue to live another extreme life, she will always have to suffer a lot, and the future firewood, rice, oil and salt will be redundant and romantic. Love is useless. Therefore, girls nowadays are getting more and more money, not necessarily to maintain the stability of the happiness index, everyone has the right to chase happiness.

And Gu Jue, in order to relive a moment of happiness when he was young, finally ended up being imprisoned in the Night Forest forever. If people really have the opportunity to make this choice, no one should choose to do such a stupid thing - to suffer infinite calamities, just to catch the moon in the water. Someone as stupid as him does not fit into Darwin's theory of evolution. Natural selection, survival of the fittest, shouldn't human beings become more and more indifferent and self-interested?

For (how come Gu Jue and Lan Jin don't know each other ten years later), smart people will think it's incredible, but people with stupid brains like me often forget what a person looks like, I thought they would be the same stupid. In addition, from childhood to adolescence, it is the period when the changes in appearance are most obvious.

There is also Mr. Shen Baocheng, a character in real life, with a chapter of export and a humorous style, and he is definitely a joker today. It's not reflected much in the novel, it's because I'm not talented enough. But my respect for him is sincere. I haven't encountered it since elementary school, and I miss it.

I remember that Mr. Guo Huaiyu had a very good temper, and he liked his class very much, and I also liked to listen to him talk about "I want to be like a cow back then." "Hehe, it's not sarcasm, I really think he's an interesting adult.

I admire the teachers at that time, who were all all-rounders in the field of education. Physical education teachers, geography teachers, ideological and moral teachers, and Chinese teachers can be the same teacher. The school really gave full play to the light and heat of this salary. So when we meet the teacher, we always say "good morning, Chinese teacher, geography teacher, physical education teacher, and ideological and moral teacher".

When my classmates grew up, they all went their separate ways, and I rarely went home, and I was used to the worldly days, and campus life was just a dream, and when I woke up, I was a little skeptical that it had really happened. After all, you can't buy a ticket stub for the return trip, but there is no need to always look back and chase the past, and you will break your neck if you look back.

Finally, to borrow a quote from Shakespeare: "Some people only kiss the shadow, so they have only the illusion of happiness." ”

—June 8, 2012.