Li Jingyan looked at her and continued: "Mu Shihuan ......"

"Shut up!" Mu Shihuan scolded fiercely.

Breathing rapidly, her chest heaving, and her hands clenched into fists at her sides, she stared at Li Jingyan, full of resentment.

After a word, she almost jumped out from the depths of her throat: "What, do you want to say that I am stupid, I don't know people clearly, I was deceived and used by others, right?" ”

Li Jingyan's thin lips were pursed, and his handsome face was expressionless.

"No," he denied, reminding, "not to mention the past, it was too much of a coincidence that he appeared with you a year ago. ”

He paused.

"Mu Shihuan, there are no coincidences in this world, there are many coincidences, they are deliberate, you can tell the difference."

You can tell......

The last sentence is comparable to sarcasm.

Mu Shihuan listened, only to feel that every cell in her body was laughing at her.

"You're wrong, I can't tell," she looked at him, laughing self-deprecatingly, "where can I tell, and if I can, how can I be deceived by you?" Once or twice, don't you just take me for a fool? ”

Her eyes were already scarlet, and she looked terrifying.

"Don't think about it," she said with great restraint, forcing herself to be calm, "there is no need to recover any so-called missing memories, even if what you say is true, it is just my stupidity." ”

She stared at his eyes, word by word: "Because of stupidity, when you were Lu Ye, I was used by you and deceived by you, in your story, you refused first and then again, you dare to say, not to use me to get the news you want?" ”

She didn't give him a chance to refute at all.

"Because of stupidity, when you are Li Jingyan, I am still deceived by you again and again, used by you, and almost died because of it, you see, how can there be so many coincidences, isn't it?"

She gave him all his words back.

She had already decided about it.

No matter how much she says, it's useless, Li Jingyan knows better than anyone else, not to mention that she is emotionally unstable at the moment.

But after all, I can't help it.

"What you did before, you are trying to force me to divorce, you and I know it, Mu Shihuan, now I don't disagree," he said, "As long as it's not Yu Linshang, I won't object." ”

These words penetrated into Mu Shihuan's ears word for word.

She didn't want to listen.

She just wanted to go against him, so she scoffed: "You object, is it useful?" ”

The eyes are facing each other.

One is hateful, the other is dark and gloomy.

Mu Shihuan didn't want to stay any longer.

She's leaving.

With this in mind, she turned and walked away without hesitation.

Finally, my feet can move.

"It's too late, I'll let you go back in the first and second years of high school," Li Jingyan said as he looked at her back, forcefully blocking her words before she could speak, "Or, I'll send you." ”

Mu Shihuan bit his lip and didn't say a word.

Li Jingyan half-closed his eyes, pursed the corners of his lips, and his words were hoarse: "At nine o'clock tomorrow morning, I will wait for you at the Civil Affairs Bureau to sign the divorce." ”

……

The wind was chilling.

Li Jingyan watched Mu Shihuan get into the car, watched the car start, and finally couldn't see it again.

Tang Yu is still there.

Getting out of his car, he extinguished the cigarette butt and asked hoarsely, "With her...... How's it going? ”

Li Jingyan didn't answer, just asked, "Is there any smoke?" ”

Tang Yu was stunned.

Finally, in silence, he took out the cigarette case from his trouser pocket and took out two, one for each person.

Ignite.

The flames jumped, but there was little warmth to speak of.

Li Jingyan took a breath, his eyes were still in the distance, and he couldn't take it back no matter what.

"I told her," he said lightly, looking calm, "what she wanted to know, what I hid from her, I told her all about our past." ”

Nicotine has long been irritating.

He smoked one cigarette after another, allowing the smoke to blur his face: "She hates me, whether it was before, or now, perhaps, she will always hate me, and there will be no day of reconciliation." ”

Every word, very calm.

However, Tang Yu heard other meanings from it.

"Reluctantly?" He asked in a dumb voice, "Then what if you keep her by your side, even if you hate her for the rest of your life?" ”

Li Jingyan paused.

Suddenly, he pulled his lips: "Reluctant." ”

seems to answer, but Tang Yu knows that he is by no means the same person as himself-

Li Jingyan was not reluctant to let her go, but reluctant to let her suffer.

……

The night is getting deeper and deeper.

Like a walking corpse all the way, Mu Shihuan returned to the apartment.

Li Yan was already waiting at the door.

"Shi Huan!" Seeing her appear expressionlessly, Li Yan walked quickly to her and grabbed her hand, worrying beyond words, "What's wrong with you?" ”

Mu Shihuan's eyelashes trembled.

"It's fine." She said calmly.

How could Li Yan believe it?

"It's Li Jingyan who informed me, I'm afraid that something will happen to you," she confessed, and at the same time tough, "Don't let me go, I'll stay with you tonight, I won't force you if you don't want to talk, I won't bother you." ”

"Shi Huan, let me stay with you, okay?"

Mu Shihuan opened her mouth, and finally, she nodded.

"Okay."

The two entered the apartment.

"Yanyan," Mu Shihuan lowered his eyes and said, "I want to take a bath, give me some time, okay?" ”

Li Yan only felt that his heart seemed to be grabbed by something, and it hurt very much.

In my impression, from the realization to the present, Shi Huan has never spoken like this, let alone looked so vulnerable.

"Okay." That's all she can say.

Letting go of her hand, Li Yan watched her straighten her back and walk to the bathroom step by step.

She stood where she was, unmoved for a long time.

……

Mu Shihuan entered the bathroom.

She stared at the bathtub, her eyes unblinking.

There was rejection, panic, and fear in her heart, and even her nerves tensed up at the first sight of the bathtub.

Don't dare to approach.

However, there was another voice in her heart.

She's going to take a bath, she's going to give it a try.

She thought, she shouldn't be afraid, why should she be afraid, how can she have a weakness?

Water only.

It won't drown, it won't kill her like the icy river.

She had to overcome.

Perhaps, if she overcomes, she will be able to remember the memories of the past.

With this in mind, she approached step by step until she reached the bathtub and stood still.

Bending over, she released the water.

Very hot water.

She thought that as long as it was hot enough, it wouldn't be cold.

Little by little, she watched the bathtub go from empty to full, and finally the water was about to overflow.

Mu Shihuan turned off the faucet.

The heat emerges and there are ripples on the water.

Mu Shihuan's breathing tightened, and his body became stiff uncontrollably.

I want to escape.

But she didn't allow herself to do that.

She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and began to undress, then stepped into the tub with her feet raised.

The water was actually a little hot, but she couldn't notice it.

The body immediately gushed out with rejection, but she forced herself not to allow herself to retreat.

She stepped in and lay down.

The water went up to his neck, his hands clutched the edge of the bathtub, Mu Shihuan closed his eyes again, not allowing himself to open them, forcing himself to feel the next thing.

Her body was stiff, all her nerves were tense, and the blood seemed to stop flowing, replaced by bursts of indescribable rampage.

clamoring to rush out.

That thing, like a demon, was laughing at her and trying to devour her.

Mu Shihuan closed his eyes tightly, his fingers on the edge of the bathtub had already retorted, and his breathing was even shorter.

Here it comes.

The memories of the fear she had rejected came, and they drowned her like the rising tide of the sea.

Mu Shihuan wanted to scream, but she couldn't make a sound.

The feeling of suffocation was also getting stronger, and she breathed heavily.

Uncomfortable.

It's like dying.

But she can't die, she can't, she still has so much to do.

Her memories, her past, her father's death, Master's little brother, divorce, and ......

Too much.

One by one, one by one.

Mu Shihuan repeatedly told himself that he could not be defeated.

However, Li Jingyan's face suddenly appeared in her mind, and it became clearer and clearer.

All the past, sweet, bitter, tormented, all came to mind, including the story he told tonight.

"Click-"

A tear fell on the surface of the water and was quickly mixed.

After that, the tears burst and I couldn't control it anymore.

Drop after drop.

obviously didn't want to cry, and he couldn't cry, but Mu Shihuan just couldn't help it.

The strength of the hand holding the bathtub gradually loosened, and in the end, even Mu Shihuan herself couldn't realize what time it was, she cried silently, and the sadness in her chest couldn't be resolved.

She restrained and endured, but she couldn't resist the impact she received tonight.

Why......

Her eyes were hazy with tears, and her mind went blank.

Only the devastating discomfort hit her wave after wave.

Outside the restrooms.

Li Yan stood there and waited for a long time, but she couldn't hear the sound inside, but she had a very strong feeling, and Shi Huan was crying.

The emotions seemed to empathize, and Li Yan only felt that he was about to lose his breath.

"Hum—"

There was a bang, and the phone vibrate.

She restrained, took out her mobile phone, and found that it was Tang Yu's text message, and wanted to delete it directly, but she couldn't tell why, she still clicked on it.

"Looking at Mu Shihuan, she knows some things from the past, her emotions may be wrong, take care of her."

Nothing else.

Li Yan put away his phone and didn't reply.

She looked at the closed bathroom door, worried.

……

Nanshan Villa.

The living room is still brightly lit and there is no trace of popularity.

Li Jingyan sat on the sofa, in the ashtray, with a pile of cigarette butts, and he still had a cigarette between his fingers, smoking one after another.

There was not a trace of superfluous expression on his face, as if he didn't care about anything.

The smoke actually added a bit of sadness to him.

That night he sat in the drawing-room, without closing his eyes, without sleeping.

……

Following.

A warmer day in winter, the weather was nice, the sun was shining and the sky was blue.

Li Jingyan, who hadn't slept all night, took a shower, shaved his beard, changed into a high-end custom suit, took the required documents, and instructed Gao Yi to drive to the Civil Affairs Bureau.

Fifteen minutes before nine o'clock, the black Bentley stopped on the road opposite the Civil Affairs Bureau.

At the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau, Mu Shihuan was already standing there.

They are going to get divorced, and there will be no legal intimacy after that.