In this world, if there is no exchange of interests, or love entanglement, who will really focus on staring at other people's every move, and who will be so curious about the true face of others?

If you take yourself too seriously, so heavy that you think you are enough to fall from the other person's eyes to the other person's heart, it is most likely self-inflicted and self-cocooning. Turning yourself into a marionette, making what you do and what you don't do seems to meet other people's requirements and meet other people's definitions.

Painstakingly directing and acting in a play, when the song is over, the audience will immediately let go of it, and the people on the stage will regret to find that they are singing alone and stupidly from beginning to end, is this worth it or not?

It's a pity that no one will talk to Hua Lin about these truths, her record book has come to an end, in addition to setting off turbulent waves in her daily life, her classmates are still reading and studying in and out of class at sunrise and sunset.

Ge Taisheng knew that he must have played an unpleasant role, and anyway, Hua Lone's sudden and long-lasting secret self-injury occurred after his chance encounter with her father.

In fact, his psychological journey is very pure, he thinks that there is this love between him and Hua Lone, and when Hua Lone is falling, he has to turn the tide and pull her.

Hua Lin has a classmate named Lin Shuyu.

My father was a long-distance truck driver, and he was away from home for several days in a row after a single business.

This made Hua Lin really envious, the tense father-daughter relationship made her have nowhere to escape, and she thought how good it would be if her father was not a short-distance driver and also went to run long distances.

Everyone has something sad, you can't see it, it doesn't mean that others don't, it's just that the sad point is different.

What Hua Lin longed for was what Lin Shuyu didn't want the most.

Running long-distance freight is a very hard and dangerous thing, not to mention the stars and the moon, the spirit needs to be highly concentrated to ensure the safety of driving, every time you get out of the car, it involves the heart of Shu Yu.

Maybe it's because of the profession; Maybe it's because of the incompatibility of the personality, before going to junior high school, Shu Yu's parents divorced, and the adults think that the child is still young and doesn't understand anything, and won't tell the child the real reason.

Fortunately, Shu Yu's father loves Shu Yu very much, and he is reluctant to fight, not willing to scold, and always feels guilty that he did not give his daughter better company.

When he was out in the car, Shu Yu was placed at his aunt's or grandmother's house, every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, his aunt; Two-four-six-seven, grandma.

Fortunately, this big family is full of warmth, and they all do their best to take care of her, Shu Yu did not send people to the trouble under the fence, but was very independent, she learned to take care of herself, at least learned to cook, consciously read and learn not to worry about her family, she is pure and strong, sensible and beautiful.

That day, Shu Yu and Hua Lin were chatting about their respective fathers' drives, and Shu Yu said that she wanted her father to be like Hua Lone's father, how good it would be to run short distances.

The two little girls were sighing with emotion, and Ge Taisheng, who was stunned, interjected and said to Hua Lian, "I saw your father some time ago." ”

Hearing him say that he saw his father, even if it was a title, Hua Lin was as nervous as if he was facing a great enemy, and like a frightened bird, he put away his smile and asked unnaturally, "Where?" ”

"Your dad is waiting for business, several times, your dad asked you how you were at school, and he wasn't afraid to tell you, I had something to say anyway."

It turned out to be you!

Hua Lin looked at Ge Taisheng's eyes and was about to burst into flames.

She also wondered how they could suddenly look at the money in that drawer, and overhear them talking about her affairs in the room, and there was a secret from someone who had stabbed him in the back!

In a sense, no matter whether the method used is right or not, Hua Lin should indeed thank him, whether it is about the financial loss of his family, or his continuous abduction and almost falling into the abyss, it is the role of Ge Taisheng, a great hero, that makes this matter have an end, wrong is wrong, Hua Lin has to endure it. What's more, Ge Taisheng didn't know what the nature of the problem was behind this.

Hua Lin didn't want to talk about it anymore, and then think about it.

After the East Window incident, even she looked down on herself and couldn't forgive herself, and she had already been overwhelmed by the belated sense of justice in her body.

In a long life, this is just a short journey, and there are many unfinished scenery and roads that have not been walked, but I am young and confused, and I don't know where to go.

The class teacher is accustomed to knocking on the student's desk in the morning reading class and leading the student to the back door of the classroom for face-to-face and one-on-one questioning.

Usually such a communication scene will not be because of anything good.

In full view of everyone, the head teacher walked to Hua Lone's desk.

In just a few steps, each step seems to be stepping on the tip of a needle.

She thought that it would be good if she could turn into tiny ants and crawl on the ground, so that she could hide her shame and shame without knowing it.

“…… Recently, teachers in several subjects have reported to me that you are not in a good state, you are distracted in class, and you often can't answer questions by name. Especially English and mathematics, look at it, in this exam, how much is the difference between your scores and Chen Shuhao and Ge Taisheng, confused and listless, how can you deserve the title of class leader in this state? What, do you want me to be replaced? ”

Seeing that the flowers were silent, the head teacher sighed.

She has her own worries, and after teaching for so many years, what she is most afraid of is that the girl in the flower season will go astray, attract bees and butterflies to spend her thoughts elsewhere, and thus ruin her future.

She couldn't push too hard, so she softened her tone and said bitterly: "You are a good boy, otherwise the teacher would not have named you to come to our class back then." At your age, nothing is more important than reading, take your heart back and don't do foolish things. ”

Although the head teacher misjudged the matter, it did not affect the admission that this was a teacher's concern, regret and encouragement for his students.

The teachers still want to save the child.

The young English teacher lent Hua Lin a grammar book, originally wanting to make a standard board for Hua Lian, go to Xinhua Bookstore to buy a copy and come back, and make up the grammar in a solid way.

But before he could say anything, Dad stopped impatiently.

"Do you have some other idea to ask for money? The teacher doesn't call others, but only calls you to buy a book? You don't even play drafts when you deceive people, I think you don't want to read this book at all, and learn how to be a person first. ”

I was so frightened that I didn't dare to argue anymore, so I had to make a stroke in private, seize the time to copy part of the content of the book as much as I copied, and then return the book to the teacher respectfully.

The older and more senior math teacher was direct and strong, without any discussion, and with a few words of understatement, he told Hua Lin to go to her house every Saturday and Sunday morning to make up for the lessons.

At first, I thought it was a small stove specially opened for myself.

I only learned that there were also classmates from other classes, two hours each time, mostly some solid coursework training, nothing special, repeatedly doing questions and lectures, and practicing the basic skills well.

Hua Lin wants to perform well through her own efforts, correct her study and life to the right track, and then ease the relationship with her parents.

A few days later, a set of magazines ordered by the school arrived-"Times Youth".

This is not an extracurricular book for everyone, it is public property, once a month, two at a time, it is a periodical. This book was collected by the representatives of each class at the Academic Affairs Office, and it should be kept by a special person and borrowed by everyone.

There are not as many youthful ignorant stories as "Flower Season and Rainy Season", nor does it have the chicken soup for the soul of "Bosom Friend" and "Yilin", "Youth of the Times" has a clear point of view, focusing not only on contemporary current affairs and politics, but also on the spiritual home of young people.

Interestingly, if you can travel to many, many years later, you will know that there is an explosive news in the entertainment industry, "Peking University genius Sa Beining and international superstar Zhang Ziyi have an open relationship!" ”

Don't be surprised, the foreshadowing for this scene has already been written in "Times Youth". In the issue with Sa Beining as the cover, the process of Sa Beining's growth was recorded in detail, and a paragraph was left in it, which told the story of Sa Beining's love for Zhang Ziyi with a little ridicule.

It was a kind of luck that the dream of that youth could be realized at a certain stage of life. Regardless of whether the final ending is unclear or not, it is not in vain that obsessive time.

Hua Lin liked the magazine so much that she wanted to stay.

She has always had a deep desire for books. What's more, this time she was so close to her, and she didn't belong to anyone else.

She and Chen were the magazine's supervisors appointed by the teacher.

After receiving two books, they quickly read each one and then exchanged for another.

Jeremy Chan has his own considerations.

His time is mostly devoted to his studies, ensuring that his grades are far ahead of everyone else. Books, for him, frankly, just read it. But he didn't want to bother managing the borrowing of his classmates. Who borrowed the book, did he return the book regularly, and lost the book? How annoying is this every day?

So he took the initiative to find Hua Lin and proposed, "It's better for us to keep this book in our own hands and put it away, it's better to have more than one thing." If someone comes to ask, borrow it, and don't take it out if no one asks, otherwise it will be difficult to explain if you lose it. ”

Hua Lonely couldn't ask for it, and took advantage of his position to finally have a set of his own extracurricular books.

After reading the articles in the book, Hua Lin had an idea in her heart, she has been praised for her good writing since she was a child, and she has also won an essay award, so she can try to submit if she is not sure.

What does she want to write day and night?

pondered and pondered for a long time, and not a word fell.

Why do some students scratch their ears and cheeks when they write essays, it turns out that they have no experience. This is not a question of whether there is literary talent, it is different from the essay contest of the fourth and fifth grades, focusing on topics such as I love my motherland, and the number of words is only a few hundred, or different from the essay questions behind each Chinese exam.

To put it another way, this "Beat Generation" is really pitiful, it has not caught up with the good times of the new era of network data in the 21st century, no matter who can slowly speak and write on the Internet, relatively speaking, the platform and threshold are particularly free, giving enough room for experience.

At that time, it was not easy to contribute, only a submission address, you don't know whether the other party really received it, and even if it did, it may not give you any guidance, so that you can understand whether your ability is a little bit worse or tens of millions of points.

Information is not very developed, TV can not watch more, for a little student who has no thoughts, no stories, no insight and no experience, the selection of materials is a big level, which is tantamount to being difficult to cook without rice for a clever woman, and it is difficult to fly into the sky.

During recess activities, Lin Shuyu asked her how she was doing.

When the other male students next to him heard that Hua Lin was going to write an article and submit it to the editorial department, they were excited and said, "This can be a try." Aren't you pretty good at writing essays? If you don't want to soar into the sky, it's better to sign me a famous writer now. As he spoke, he pushed the notebook in his hand over.

"Practice your handwriting well." Lin Shuyu threw his notebook back.

This male classmate is also a strange person.,I didn't practice the words well when I was a child.,Now I'm in junior high school and I'm still learning to write block letters.。 The head teacher dug him up at the class meeting. No matter what kind of homework, more or less, he can restrain his impatience and insist on writing in block letters. No, it's practiced all the time.

"Don't drop my notebook, the ink hasn't dried yet."

Hua Lonely said wistfully, "No story, no story... If someone can give me a story, I can definitely polish it, I'm good at writing. ”

When the boy heard this, he was slightly disgusted, and looked at Hua Lin and told the truth, "You are too inferior, you want others to give you stories, what kind of writer are you?" I think you'll be able to forget it before it's too late. Read more books, read more newspapers, and daydream less. ”

Lin Shuyu looked at Hua Lone, she was not a bad student, and she admitted in her heart that what this person said was not unreasonable.

Writing itself needs inspiration, needs the support of materials, is the accumulation of daily life, with her and Hua Lin approaching, after the gradual deepening of understanding, she thinks that Hua Lin is actually a very simple child, has not seen anything in the world, may be a little self-sufficient, but she wants to say that there are a few people in this class who have this courage, what a manifestation of what a motivation, try it and a lot of meat, she is still willing to encourage good friends.

So he glared at the boy a few times, and said angrily: "I think you can't eat grapes and say that grapes are sour." Write your block letters well, and rewrite them badly. ”

There is no meaning to argue, but the two of them will find this aura very interesting when they talk and talk, and Lin Shuyu almost crushes him.

No matter how strict the guard is, there will always be a branch between the boy and the girl, and the small flower that is not easy to notice when the stars fall.

In the end, she adapted various imitations and adaptations of Hua Lone, and made an extremely ordinary, layerless, and non-earthy novel story.

In her opinion, it was not easy, and then, with Lin Shuyu's financial support, she mailed it to the address in the book.

She waited, waited, waited, waited, so jerky and boring words became a distant faint light in her current life, illuminating her path, trying to find her lost pride.