The joys and sorrows of people are only similar on the surface, but there are their own obscurities behind them.

If you are willing to peel off the fog and bypass the obstacles to see, you will find that Liu Shitong does not have a garden with flowers in her heart, she only has an endless and lifeless swamp secret realm.

Her father, who is currently the owner of the largest bathing city in the city center, wants wind and rain in the gray area of society, so no one dares to mess with her father, and no one dares to mess with Liu Shitong in the know.

But when she was a child, her father was just a ruffian hooligan with no pennies, empty skin, and able to talk well.

On the other hand, her mother, who came from a scholarly family, was quite beautiful when she was young, gentle in temperament, loved calligraphy and painting, had a serious unit, and had a smooth sail in the first half of her life.

In this life, it is so strange that it seems that light and shadow must be evenly distributed.

The people who couldn't be beaten with eight poles met each other, and their fates began to be entangled repeatedly.

Perhaps accustomed to seeing beautiful and positive sunshine, it is easy to be attracted to the different dark system, her mother is like a moth to a fire and falls madly in love with her father, completely ignoring the opposition of her family, and willingly falls in love.

Why is a woman in love so stupid, she hasn't learned how to love herself well, so she throws everything into each other's lives, as if she wants to redeem and influence this lost prodigal.

People always advise the girls: If you are not favored and blessed by your family, you will not be happy for a long time if you break with your family.

But things in the world can't be explained clearly, you have countless examples to prove it, and there are countless counterexamples to refute.

It's just a big gamble, win or lose, five-five-five.

Unfortunately, however, she lost.

The newlywed Yan'er had sweetness, and soon, Liu Shitong was born in the world.

Her mother spent a lot of effort in cultivating Shitong, and sent her to learn to paint since she was a child, teaching her to look at beauty and discover beauty.

Gradually, little by little, her father showed signs that he was not very satisfied with the status quo, and he was tired of the elegant Shitong's mother, and there were more rumors outside.

A weak woman is always easy to move herself, in order to save his father's heart, her mother desperately had a second child at the cost of losing her job, so Liu Shitong had a younger brother.

Whether you can stabilize your relationship is not necessarily, at least a family of four is complete.

Shitong and her brother are nearly 5 years apart, she didn't understand why there was more of this, and when she was a child, she might secretly pinch the chubby meat on her brother's thighs, thinking that her brother was born to share favors with herself.

However, after she studied and became sensible, as an older sister, she was full of love and love for her smart and lovely brother under the blood connection, even if her brother splashed paint on his paintings, he was not willing to get angry.

My younger brother loves my sister very much, and the "sister is long and sister is short" on his lips, he has to follow Liu Shitong wherever he goes, and he can't drive away.

It was a summer, my younger brother was 5 years old, and Liu Shitong was 10 years old.

The sky was cloudless, full of clear blue, and the cicadas chirped one after another, just an ordinary day.

It was hot, Shitong didn't want to paint, she couldn't sit still, and frolicked with a group of children in the small garden of the courtyard downstairs around a sculptural water feature.

The younger brother had to jump around after him, and accidentally fell into the water under the push, although it was only not deeper than the waist, the child was still frightened and cried.

Shitong had to coax his younger brother to go home and change his clothes, but he was really bored, so he took his younger brother to wander around and walked to the bank of the river in the city, that is, near a piece of water in the southward direction of the G Middle Wetland Park.

You can swim in that water, and in the summer, there are many adults and children.

But from that day on, my younger brother never followed Shitong behind him, and he never took his sister's hand home again.

There was no wind, no haze, no thunder, no silence, everything was still so bright and dazzling, the sky was still clean and blue, and the ordinary people had to exist step by step.

When a real tragedy happens, there is no artistic foreshadowing, but the eyes of the parties no longer know what beauty is, and from then on, black and white have lost their color.

She trembled and was in great grief as she cried, and no one cared that she was just a child who needed comfort and protection.

The departure of the younger brother broke the pillars that finally maintained the family, and Shitong's father left their mother and daughter without looking back, and whether to divorce or not is just a name, and it is no longer important.

When it was extremely gloomy, Shitong's mother would not be able to hold on, she took a special medicine, but fortunately she was found and rescued in time, and when she woke up, she remembered that she still had Shitong crying.

It's often things that change people, and people can't change things.

The changes in the family reversed Shitong's temperament.

Manic, sensitive, restless, depressed, hateful, and easily counter-to-tat.

Until she heard the accusation from her elders: "You are really so bad, you killed your brother." ”

The black hole hidden in the depths of her heart that she had been avoiding and not daring to think deeply was suddenly revealed, oh, it was her, how could she forget? It was she who took her brother to that place, and she was the culprit.

The first time I fell into the water, it was clearly a hint from the Grim Reaper, why didn't I understand it at that time?

She is irrefutable.

The guilt will not go away, and the sorrow will not pass.

Shitong's body seemed to have two people living in it, struggling and contradictory, and a voice kept saying to her: "You have to be strong, you have to protect your mother, she is the only one left." ”

The other sarcastically said, "Your mother is the only one left, and it's not because of you, so it's better for you to end yourself and apologize to her." ”

Like her mother at that time, she couldn't get out of her own demons, like a swamp that had to pull her down.

When she was sober, she remembered that her mother had said "to live well for her younger brother" when she hugged her and cried, and knew that her liberation could not replace her brother, and it would only make her mother experience pain again.

But what about when you are not sober?

During that time, his father was unscrupulously mixing in society, using all kinds of sideways to make money, and blatantly using the power of other women to have his own new career development.

is still financially concerned about the relationship between father and daughter, and has not been treated materially, just spending money to raise her and send her into G.

Liu Shitong, who entered junior high school, was very restrained and low-key, and she could have studied calmly.

Once, she was unintentionally thrown into a gang fight outside the school, she participated, she beat someone, she found that the fight can make her happy, and it can also release demonic emotions, anyway, her dad can throw money at her.

The more she mingled, the more indulgent she became, she learned to drink, she learned to smoke.

Oh, she thought, this is the life she is fit for, messy, violent, messy, after all, she has her dissolute father's blood flowing.

All she could promise was to try not to do so in front of her mother.

But there is no impermeable wall, the elders of the family probably heard about it, and there were also sharp voices to reprimand, dissatisfied with her current situation, and even more dissatisfied with his father, saying that the upper beam is not right and the lower beam is crooked, it is a daughter who is such a bastard, if the boy is still there, it will be repaid!

It's nothing to scold her, but what she hears is scolding her innocent brother, just the harm of this sentence has the power to shoot thousands of arrows.

The sinking Liu Shitong herself didn't know what was wrong with her, it was the first time she ran away from home, she didn't mean to hurt her poor mother, she didn't know where she was going, she just wanted to wander, as if she didn't like this, she couldn't prove that she was a lonely ghost who didn't accept it, otherwise why didn't Hades take her younger brother away?

She had a place to stay, and her friends, though they seemed to others, were fox friends.

Hateful people must have pity, who is not behind her who is not a "fox friend and dog friend" in other people's mouths?

Some of them have gambling rooms at home, and their fathers or mothers are immersed in gambling and playing cards, and no one cares about them, so they can do it for a few days and nights, and they don't even know if their children are at home;

Yes, their fathers were abducted and deceived, squatted in prison, and since he was a child, he was shackled as the son of a sinner, and he was ridiculed all the way to grow up, so he destroyed himself and showed them;

Yes, they have seen a lot of domestic violence, and they can also learn from the same example, relying on robbery and bullying among students to make money and waste their time;

……

Not without surprise, these young souls who are gradually depraved have one thing in common, that is, the family is discordant, and they have not succeeded in crossing themselves.

There are also children with a better family environment, in their school days, some can also eat both black and white, but when it is really time to fight in a group or steal and bully, these people will never play, because their upbringing since childhood does not allow them to corrupt the style, and they are not forced to the extent of breaking the net with each other's "friends in the fight", in the final analysis, this is just the excitement they seek when they are young and frivolous.

Shitong got acquainted with such a rich second generation, and he gave Shitong a short dream of peace.

It was a very pure relationship, just leading Shitong to run barefoot on the wide grass, chasing the wind and flying kites, and when she found that Shitong could draw, she encouraged her to continue painting.

However, the dream was short-lived, and before he could dissipate, he withdrew and his family moved out of the city.

His presence made Shitong pick up the brush again, as if she could calm down a little when painting, but she no longer touched the color, only painted black and white.

She wished that she would have another way to live, that in another world, she would be free.