The last time Sonin saw Qin Dachuan was two days later.

By the time she arrived, she was no longer a good person.

His bright eyes were covered with a thick layer of dust, and when he saw Soning, he raised the corners of his mouth, "You're here." ”

Soning held back his emotions and responded to him.

He reached out to her, and she hurried to hold it, and the moment it touched the skin, she could even feel the temperature of that hand slowly dropping.

It's getting colder.

Qin Dachuan's gaze was a little sloppy, and his voice was already almost inaudible and faint, "In the future...... Still have fun. ”

Soning nodded vigorously: "Okay." ”

"Man cannot live in the past, he must go forward, go ......forward," he said, looking at Tao Delirium, and each of them vomited with great difficulty, "You too." ”

"Yes."

Tao Yu patted his arm, with a smile on his face, different from the usual polite smile, this time it was completely sincere and sincere.

"Don't worry, I'm fine."

Qin Dachuan's expression stretched, and he seemed to be really relieved.

Sheng Fang sat next to him, still at peace, and he asked, "What about me?" Lao Qin, what do you want to say to me? ”

Qin Dachuan smiled and raised his hand to touch the top of his hair, his hand twitching uncontrollably.

He looked at him like an elder, pampering and loving, "You......"

"Ah, me."

"Your words......," he mustered up his strength before he spoke again, "just remember to go to your uncle's grave every year." ”

“……”

Sheng Fang's originally built psychological defense line suddenly collapsed. His emotions were in his chest and throat, and his whole body was full of pain.

He didn't know how much courage and strength it took to pull out a smile that was more ugly than crying at the corner of his mouth.

"No problem, I'm sure to get the job done."

"It's okay, don't be afraid......" Qin Dachuan clenched his hand and comforted. Suddenly remembering another thing, he moved his gaze to Sonin, "By the way, I want a pine tree, I want a pine tree......

"Remember, Pines." Soning's voice trembled.

"Okay." His whole body relaxed, and the movement of his lips was already very small, "Then ......"

"Goodbye."

Last minute.

He said goodbye to everyone, except that he didn't talk to Tao Yu again, he just looked at him like that until his eyes were out of focus.

None of them left a single point.

On the day Qin Dachuan left, the sun was shining and covered the entire room.

The breeze blew in through the window, and he followed it and never looked back.

—

Soning handed the ashes to Tao Yu, and he thanked him and said nothing else.

He was silent and cold like a sculpture, and the little vitality he once had was taken away along with Yuan Dachuan's death.

Sonin didn't know what to say to comfort a bereaved loved one.

In fact, since the day she met them, she had never seen Tao Yu show any overly sad emotions, including the day Qin Dachuan left, he was very calm.

But it is often this silent pain that is the most deadly.

It gnawed away at his body and mind little by little, night and day, until he became an empty shell, and then slowly consumed and died.

This is almost a predictable outcome, but nothing can be done about it.

Since he promised that Qin Dachuan would live, no matter what posture he took, he would support it.

"Mr. Tao, mourn."

Tao Yu nodded.

Soning continued, "Qin Dachuan hopes that you can plant his ashes in the yard, so that you can see the sun and see the ...... every day" She paused, remembering that day he stopped when he said this, she hesitated, "See you." ”

She thought, what Yuan Dachuan didn't have an outlet for, that's it.

I don't know if that's a consolation.

When Tao Yu heard this, his posture was stunned.

His fingers holding the urn trembled, and he spoke with a deep hoarseness, "Thank you for telling me this." ”

He turned and left.

Sonin stood there for a long time until the man disappeared from sight......

——

Since the day Qin Dachuan left, Sheng Fang has never come.

Today, his family said goodbye to him, and he did not appear.

When Sonin returned to the office, he called him, but no one answered.

After thinking about it, I decided to take a look.

When she arrived at the place, she heard the tinkling music in the room through the door, and she raised her hand and knocked on the door, and it took a long time to open.

It was a fresh face who opened the door, and Soning leaned in to look inside.

The man asked, "Who are you looking for?" ”

The music is loud, his pitch is also high, and his tone is not very good.

Soning: "Is it served?" ”

The man sighed, probably thinking it was his own, and said hello with a smile on his face, and then dodged to let her in.

Soning glanced at the door, there were about a dozen people, men and women, drinking and eating.

Sheng Fang sat slumped on the sofa in front of him, with his long legs on the table, his head up, swallowing the clouds.

From time to time, I talk to the people next to me, and I seem to be in a good mood.

The person who opened the door for her shouted at him, "Sheng Shao, you're here." ”

Sheng Fang raised his eyelids, and met Soning's gaze, he smiled and beckoned to her, "Come and sit." ”

Sonin stepped over a few steps, but he didn't sit down, he stood in front of him, and only spoke in a deep voice.

"Your uncle's business has been dealt with."

Sheng Fang sighed and replied nonchalantly, "Got it." ”

Then, without asking anything else, he reached for his glass and drank the brown liquid inside, "No wine?" Bring wine to Lao Tzu! ”

Sonnin took a nearby bottle of wine, filled it with a glass, and put it back in its place.

Sheng Fang lowered his eyes and looked at it, and snorted, "Have a drink with me." ”

He pushed the glass of wine towards Soning, who looked at him with a complicated expression and didn't touch the wine.

"Don't give face, Xiao Suo?"

Sonin frowned, "I'm not here to drink with you. ”

"Oh?" Sheng Fang looked at her.

She looked cold, with indescribable emotions mixed between her eyebrows, and a touch of disdain and disgust in her eyes.

Apparently against him.

Sheng Fang suddenly felt the urge to pinch her flat, and he beckoned, "Come here." ”

Soning stepped back without a trace, he stood up, and with a long arm, he grabbed the back of her neck and brought the person to him, and the two of them were almost close together.

Soning subconsciously broke free of his hand, and someone next to him sneered lowly.

Blooming: "Fuck off!" ”

He clasped Soning tightly, looking at her with misty eyes, he leaned over to her, and his breath slowly sprayed, "It's not the right time for you to come." ”

"I shouldn't have come."

Soning reached out and took something out of his bag and held it in front of Sheng Fang, "Mr. Tao asked me to hand it over to you." ”

It is a silver chain, and the pendant is in the shape of a feather.

Sheng Fang's gaze swept over, and he didn't pause to look away, but the hand holding Sounin let go, as if he had lost interest.

"I don't want it, you give it back to him."

Sonin just looked at him like that, "Go and pay it back yourself." ”

As soon as she said that as soon as she let go of her hand, the chain fell straight down, and he caught it with one hand, and it did not reach the ground......

"What are you talking about?" She said.

Sheng Fang was stunned in place, and did not move.

He spread out his hand, and the necklace lay quietly in the palm of his hand, with a Y engraved in the lower right corner of the feather pendant.

This was given to Yuan Dachuan by him for many years.

I didn't expect that one day it would be like this in his hands.

He closed his hand, not wanting to look at it again, but the necklace suddenly turned into a hot iron, burning his flesh and bones in the palm of his hand......

It's always been deep in my heart.

The music in the room suddenly became louder, and Sheng Fang stood there, and he only curled the corners of his lips at first, and finally became a heartless laugh.

"It's all for Lao Tzu!"

The whole room suddenly boiled, restless like an apocalyptic.

—

When Soning went downstairs, he bought a few beers and a bag of peanuts from the commissary.

She opened a can and took a sip with her head up, a rich bitterness spreading in her mouth.

She hadn't drunk in years, but today she wanted to get drunk.

In fact, isn't that how life is?

Keep saying goodbye to people, and then try to live.

This is a truth that she has long understood.

She thought that she was insensitive, and she could accept it calmly no matter what kind of life and death she faced, but ......

In the end, it's still not enough to practice.

The words that Yuan Dachuan said before his death were repeated over and over again.

"If you can't live in the past, you have to go forward, go forward."

Soning's eyes were swollen and painful and almost burst, and she squashed a beer can and threw it out.

It landed on the ground, and the room clanged, and after a few seconds the silence of a pool of stagnant water was restored.

Moving forward?

There's no road.