Chapter 236: Death Doesn't Leave a Trace on His Heart
Apartment.
The darkness in the room was shrouded, Mu Shihuan didn't turn on the light, his body sat on the ground weakly, his shoulders trembled, crying silently, and he couldn't help himself.
knew that tears would not solve the problem, and would only increase her sadness, but she couldn't control it, her emotions had already been out of control, and she was gradually on the verge of collapse.
Drop after drop, tears seem to be inexhaustible.
Unconsciously, she clutched the clothes on her chest, and the tighter she clenched.
She's so sad.
It was as if the heart was being grabbed and torn by an invisible hand, it was so painful that it was dripping with blood.
In my mind, for a while, it was the truth of being deceived, and for a while, it was the repeated pressure from Gao Zhiman and Uncle Ming, and after a while, it became a picture of Li Jingyan indifferently questioning her last night.
His distrust, his indifferent attitude, and his expressionless words that he agreed to separate, saying that he would not go back to live in Nanshan Villa, and he motioned for the first and second years of high school to let her go......
Frame by frame, scene by scene, all of them stabbed her in the tip of the heart.
So clear, so painful.
Gradually, Mu Shihuan cried so much that she couldn't breathe, and it was difficult to breathe, even so, she still couldn't help but think crankily, thinking about why, everyone was going to lie to her and hide it from her.
Why did Li Jingyan distrust her, why did he marry her in the first place, did he not deny it was his acquiescence, the so-called truth?
Did he ever love her?
No, or rather, did he really like her and take her to heart?
If so, why lie to her and hide it from her, why defend Meng Liang several times, and why ......
Every time he thought about it, Mu Shihuan's heart hurt a little.
Riddled with.
There seemed to be a voice in her heart laughing at her-
"I told you a long time ago that Li Jingyan doesn't like you at all, do you have to be so stupid, lose your heart, and lose a lot, and now you still have to cry for him and feel sorry for him, so reluctant?"
"Li Jingyan doesn't love you."
"He doesn't like you at all, his sweetheart Bai Yueguang is someone else, it has never been you, it was, it is, and it will be in the future, even if you die, it will not leave a trace on his heart."
"He was forced to marry you, he was forced to marry a woman he didn't love, no matter what happened in the future, he wouldn't fall in love, Mu Shihuan, you are completely dead, he doesn't love you."
Sentence by sentence, over and over again, it seems to be engraved on Mu Shihuan's heart, so that she can never forget.
"Woo woo woo ......"
It was so uncomfortable that she finally cried, at first she endured it, but in the end, she cried loudly, her eyes were red and swollen.
She was so thin and small, huddled in a ball, and only by hugging herself could she give a trace of warmth.
I don't know how long it took, and the tears could no longer flow.
She sobbed, looking ahead with teary eyes, but not at all.
In the middle of the night, she tried to stand up, but because her legs had been bent at the knees for too long, her legs were too numb, and she was uncomfortable and suddenly attacked.
Mu Shihuan closed his eyes, and then struggled to stand up again against the wall.
Turning on all the lights throughout the apartment, she began to clean.
Make up the room, wash the bedding, tidy up the bathroom......
She didn't let go of every corner.
But even so, the sadness in her heart still did not decrease, but became more and more, like a sea completely submerging her.
Mu Shihuan suddenly hated himself like this.
That's when the phone rings.
At first, she didn't realize that after all, she hadn't touched her phone for a while, and she almost forgot that it had a mobile phone until the ringtone rang again.
Raising his eyes in a trance, for a moment, Li Jingyan's name came into mind, as well as his face.
Is that him?
knew that it wouldn't be, but at this moment, she still had some expectations in her heart, or rather, extravagant hopes.
Her heart was racing, and she scrambled to her phone to get up.
However......
As great as the expectation, the disappointment is as deep as the disappointment.
Not him.
Just a string of unfamiliar numbers.
A heart sank in a trance, Mu Shihuan felt that the tears were about to flow out again, she hurriedly raised her hand to try to wipe them away, but the tears were still not angry.
The ringing continues, and there is a tendency to stop if you don't answer.
In a daze, Mu Shihuan picked it up.
"Hey......" his voice trembled uncontrollably.
"Miss Mu, here is your takeaway, I'm downstairs in your apartment, can you come down and get it?"
Strange and polite voice.
Mu Shihuan shook his head, opened his mouth and spoke several times, and it took a while before he could barely speak: "...... Sorry, I didn't order takeout, you guys are mistaken, I ...... There is no ......"
It's intermittent and unbearable to listen to.
"Then are you Miss Mushi Huanmu? If yes, then that's right, a young lady surnamed Li ordered it for you. Just as Mu Shihuan was about to hang up, the voice sounded again.
Ms. Lai......
Black......
Mu Shihuan's body froze suddenly.
Be...... Li Yan?
Is that her?
Ten minutes later.
Mu Shihuan went downstairs to get the takeaway, but she was still confused and depressed, even if she was in good spirits.
The takeaway brother glanced at her cautiously, thought about it, and comforted her in a soft voice: "Miss Mu, if you feel uncomfortable, cry, and then take a bath and sleep well, it will be a different day when you wake up tomorrow." Miss Mu, there is nothing that you can't get by, don't be too sad. ”
Mu Shihuan looked up.
"Miss Mu, come on." The takeaway guy smiled and encouraged.
For a while, Mu Shihuan only felt sour and straight to the tip of his nose and eyes.
"Thank you......" she said as she tried to be strong.
"You're welcome Miss Mu, I wish you a pleasant meal."
Mu Shihuan watched the delivery brother leave, and it was not until the figure could no longer be seen that she turned around and went upstairs a little stiffly.
Back at the apartment, she opened the takeout bag.
At a glance, tears seemed to be surging again.
It's desserts and ice cream, all of her favorite flavors.
"Buzz—"
The phone vibrates.
Mu Shihuan hurriedly took it out almost at the same time as she heard it, it was still a string of unfamiliar numbers, but she had a strong premonition that it was Li Yan.
"Hey......" The moment she spoke, the trilling was obvious, and she subconsciously covered her lips.
There was no sound over there.
Full of grievances and sadness, but at this moment, Mu Shihuan couldn't hold back anymore, and almost cried and asked, "Is it you?" Smoke ...... It's you, right? ”
She remembered that the note she gave to Li Yan in WeChat was Yanyan, and she had also contacted her, but there was never a reply.
But today......
"Smoke ......"
"It's me, Shi Huan, I'm sorry, I haven't shown up after hiding for so long, I can't be by your side, I'm sorry ......"
With a gentle and gentle word, Mu Shihuan lost control of his emotions and cried uncontrollably again.
She shook her head violently: "No...... There is no ......"
It seems that there is a lot to say, but for a while, it seems that she can't say anything, and she doesn't need to say it, even if this is the first contact with her only best friend after she has lost her memory, for her, Li Yan's name is only in the mouths of Tang Yu and Li Jingyan, in her address book, but at this moment, she understands very well, and they both understand.
Needless to say, her sadness, Li Yan's helplessness, their best friends have the same heart, no words, she understands her, she understands her.
As if he finally had someone he could rely on, Mu Shihuan burst into tears.
It took a long time for her to stop.
What she didn't know was that on the other end of the phone, Li Yan was distressed, and she was surrounded by uncomfortable things that she had never felt before, even if she met Tang at the beginning...... It's just that, Mu Shihuan never cried in the past.
"Shi Huan ......"
"I'm fine, I'm fine," as if knowing what she was thinking, Mu Shihuan comforted her in turn, and as if she suddenly thought of something, she reminded urgently, "Tang Yu...... He's been looking for you, be careful. He ......"
"I know." The color of his eyes was dark and difficult to distinguish, and his beautiful eyes seemed to be dyed with different emotions, Li Yan restrained and restrained himself before he threw Tang Yu's face out of his mind.
She knew everything, but she still wanted to gamble.
For her, Shi Huan is her only and best friend, they have long been relatives who are not separated from each other, and now Shi Huan is still in a state of amnesia, and she can no longer let her face those discomforts alone.
She has to accompany her, even if she is in danger of being found by Tang Yu.
"Shi Huan, when I arrange it, I'll come to you." Finally made up her mind, she said.
Mu Shihuan was stunned, and after reacting, she shook her head: "Don't, Tang meets him......"
"I won't let him find it," Li Yan interrupted her, saying, "Actually, I followed you before, near the mall, and I knew it...... He sent bodyguards to follow you, are you still with you? ”
Although he only said a surname, Mu Shihuan was still hit hard by a dull pain.
Li Jingyan......
"I don't know......," she said, shaking her head, trying not to cry again.
Feeling her emotional changes, Li Yan was distressed, and comforted softly: "Shi Huan, wait for my call, don't worry about me, I know how to hide." It's you...... Shi Huan, he doesn't deserve to be so sad about you. ”
Mu Shi was in a trance.
Isn't it worth it?
……
The night is getting deeper and deeper.
Nanzhuang.
Xu came to the booth, leaned over and whispered in Tang Yu's ear: "Mr. Tang, Miss Mu's mobile phone is turned on, half an hour ago, she received a phone call, the call is about twenty minutes, it is very likely to be Miss Li." ”
Tang Yu drank for a moment.
"Possibly?" In the dim light, his handsome face was filled with dark shadows, and no one could see what he was thinking.
Xu lowered his head: "I'm sorry, Mr. Tang, our people didn't find Miss Li when they looked for it." ”
Tang Yu tilted his head sharply and drank the wine in the cup.
"She's going to show up," he sneered, his lips full of bitter sarcasm, "I've been hiding for so long and there is no news, and when I heard that Mu Shihuan had an accident, I finally couldn't help it, in the end, I underestimated the relationship between the two of them." Scold. ”
"Mr. Tang......"
Tang Yu didn't speak again, but the fingers pinching the wine glass became harder and harder, and the force was so great that he almost crushed the wine glass, and on the back of his hand, the green tendons jumped faintly.
The first floor is very lively, and there is a fight dance in Nanzhuang tonight.
Tang Yu narrowed his eyes.
A few seconds later, he pulled his phone out of his trouser pocket and dialed a call.
……
Downstairs in the apartment.
The black Bentley stopped quietly for a long time, the window was lowered, the strong smell of smoke wafted out, and a cigarette was between his slender fingers, and a touch of scarlet was clearly extinguished.