She looked up when the lock ticked, and the hour hand was about to point to eleven.

Gu Mochen pushed the door in, she jumped up from the sofa before she had time to put on her shoes and ran to the entrance.

"You're back?" She looked at him timidly, her fingers twitching between her pants, "I've been waiting for you." ”

Gu Mochen saw the tears on her face at a glance, and her heart was stabbed.

"Ever cried?"

She covered her face with her hands: "I thought I wouldn't see you until I left." ”

He twisted his eyebrows, looking at Tan Man in front of him with slightly red eyes and like a frightened bird, he suddenly regretted it, he was indeed a little too much for her today, but at this moment, he couldn't say anything.

His silence made Tan Man suddenly a little powerless, and her attitude of not being angry was the most hurtful, when she tried to compromise and show goodwill, if the other party deliberately avoided it, then no amount of patience would be consumed.

Tan Man sighed, decided to take the initiative again, and reached out to hug his waist: "Today's matter, it's me who is wrong, I have betrayed your trust, I'm sorry, you scolded me, yelled at me, be angry with me, don't stop talking, don't ignore me, you are like this, I will be afraid." ”

When she thought she was going to be disappointed again, he finally hugged herself.

After a long silence, his voice was a little rough: "I'm sorry to make you scared, not in the future." ”

His breath hit her hair deeply, and the words "I'm sorry for scaring you" made her tears burst into tears.

At night, the two people who had eased down lay quietly on the bed, the quiet moonlight shining through the gaps in the curtains, and everything in the room was looming.

Tan Man was buried in his chest, and he didn't feel sleepy at all.

"Where have you been all day today?"

"Office!"

She looked up at him in surprise, and soon, she smiled.

"Gu Mochen, after today, I realized that I was more afraid of losing you than I imagined." She moved and leaned closer to him, "I'm really happy to hear you say that you want to take me to meet your friend, I love you, I only love you, and the one I care about the most in my heart is you, so don't worry about Zhang Jiakai's affairs anymore, in the future, I won't hide this kind of thing from you." ”

I thought that he would kiss her emotionally and respond to her confession, but Gu Mochen didn't, he kept his original posture motionless, his breathing was deep and shallow, and his expression was still calm and indifferent.

A trace of loss passed through the bottom of her heart, and she frowned slightly: "Are you still angry?" ”

After a moment of silence, he lowered his head and looked at her: "Manman, don't get involved in their family's affairs anymore, okay, I don't like it, just like I don't like you renting there, although it's a bit overbearing, but this time, can you compromise for me?" ”

"Just because he liked me?" She was puzzled, "I know you're not such a stingy person, for some other reason, right?" ”

"I'm such a stingy person, I want you to be completely mine, always on my side, and never leave me."

"I am, am I not yours now?!" She was a little excited, "I don't understand, why don't you react so violently to other people, but Zhang Jiakai, when I discussed Qiao Sen's matter with you, you were very rational and generous, it stands to reason that Qiao Sen's pursuit of me is much more enthusiastic than Zhang Jiakai." ”

He took a deep breath, let go of her, got up from the bed and walked to the window to stand, his crisp back was a little lonely, but it exuded a kind of coldness that rejected people.

Tan Man also sat up from the bed, twisted his eyebrows, hugged his knees, and locked his eyes firmly on his back,

"What's the matter, right, tell me, otherwise, how can you convince myself not to care about a terminally ill friend?"

The room fell into a long silence again, and after a long time, Gu Mochen turned around and walked back towards her:

"Do you remember what I told you about my mother?"

She nodded.

"Xue Yuelan, it's my mother!" His voice was calm, but his eyes were complicated.

This news was so shocking that his brain looked at him as if he had been hit with a sledgehammer......

This night, Tan Man had a long dream, but in the end, he was interrupted by the toss of the man next to the pillow.

Tan Man was made numb by him, and his consciousness was a little confused.

This trip back, too many things happened, drunk, temper tantrum, back to Suzhou, three or four days, except for the one in the bathroom, they didn't do it again, it was originally the age of dry firewood, plus more than a month of separation, even if there were many things in his heart, Gu Mochen still couldn't suppress the most primitive desire.

Tan Man turned around, and the moment he saw his deep black eyes, he suddenly remembered what happened last night, and he was unconsciously distracted.

He buried his head in kissing and gnawing on her, and suddenly felt her slightly stiff body, a little unhappy: "Don't think about things at this time." ”

Tan Man was a little embarrassed, but seeing the dissatisfaction in his eyes, he couldn't help laughing: "Lawyer Gu, so impatient?" ”

"Aren't you too?"

The two of them were tired of being in bed all morning, again and again, Gu Mochen seemed to be not enough, and kept occupying her, until Tan Man begged for mercy, Gu Mochen reluctantly ended hastily.

After taking care of himself, Tan Man went out of the room, there was no one outside, there were three dishes and one soup left on the table, and there was a note: I took Xiaobei to the park, don't worry.

Tan Man waved at him with a note: "Fortunately, Aunt Chen took Xiaobei out, otherwise it would be too bad to be heard." ”

Gu Mochen, who was refreshed after taking a shower, walked over from the room, took the note and glanced at it, and said with a smile: "It's all from here, Aunt Chen understands, so she took Xiaobei out." ”

She gave him a blank look and took the dish into the kitchen and heated it up.

Gu Mochen walked over, wrapped his arms around her waist from behind her, and played a scoundrel like a child: "I don't want you to go, this month is like staying up for a year." ”

After eating, they were almost ready to go to the airport, and when he said this, Tan Man's emotions also came up: "I don't want to leave either, but it's not for a living." ”

"I can afford to raise you." He whispered in her ear, "Don't go. ”

Tan Man chuckled: "Now I know that I can't bear it, and I was left at home alone all day yesterday." ”

"Regret not being at the beginning."

"Well, knowing that mistakes can be corrected, and good is great." She touched his hair with her backhand, smiled and comforted, "Hold on for a month, and I will come back during the Dragon Boat Festival." ”

Hot dishes, back at the table, Gu Mochen was probably hungry, and he ate with relish, Tan Man glanced at him thoughtfully: "Uh...... It will make you unhappy, but I still want to ......."

Gu Mochen directly interrupted her: "Manman, didn't we all talk about it last night?!" ”

She opened her mouth slightly, hesitated for two seconds, and closed it.

She finally understood why Gu Mochen insisted on moving out so much when she came back this time, and she reacted so fiercely in the face of Zhang Jiakai's matter, Aunt Lan was Gu Mochen's mother, until now, she still found it difficult to accept. Aunt Lan was so good to a person like herself, how desperate she was back then, so that she could ruthlessly abandon her biological son.

She wanted to defend Aunt Lan, but she couldn't, thinking that Gu Mochen was so desperate and painful in her dream that night, "Mom", perhaps, Aunt Lan was really wrong back then. has been silent for more than 20 years, regardless of it, but now when her son is sick and needs herself, she comes to the door, and it is estimated that it is difficult to accept it.

Tan Man glanced at the silent man opposite, she knew that in addition to resentment, he was actually struggling in his heart.

Transferring the punishment of his mother to Zhang Jiakai is not easy for people like Gu Mochen, but now he needs a little time.

She sighed, "Well, I'm good to keep quiet on this matter. ”

"As a girlfriend, shouldn't you be on the same side as me?" He raised his eyebrows, his face sinking a little.

She thought for a while and said sincerely: "As a qualified girlfriend, I should actually advise you, but I know that you don't want to listen now, and you can't listen to it, and I can't be by your side after five hours, so, in order not to make things worse, I can only endure it now and passively choose to be silent." ”

"Heh, it's really a passive silence, just ask you a word, and I'll say all the thoughts in my heart." He smiled disdainfully, "You only see Zhang Jiakai lying on the hospital bed now, but you don't see how I have been injured in the past twenty years because I was abandoned by my mother, and my body and heart were sick!" ”

Tan Man got up, sat next to him around the dining table, and hugged him sideways: "I know, I know that your journey of growth must be very difficult, but I know even more that you are not feeling good now, you are not a ruthless person, on the one hand, a mother who has abandoned and hurt you, and on the other hand, a life that has entered the countdown, you are also struggling in your heart, right?" ”

Leaning on his left arm, she continued, "There can be many ways to punish, but I don't want you to choose the one that will leave you with regrets. ”

……

The days when I returned to Guangzhou alone were as calm as ever, as if the things that happened during this small holiday were like a dream.

and Gu Mochen, as before, the constant WeChat every day, the good night every night, but there is a forbidden area in the topic.

During the Dragon Boat Festival, Tan Man went back. After obtaining Gu Mochen's consent in advance, she went to the hospital to visit Zhang Jiakai, the side effects of chemotherapy made him thinner and paler than before, leaning on the hospital bed and wearing a hat, probably his hair also fell out, so that no one could see it.

A month ago, the bone marrow match with Zhang Jiakai unexpectedly failed, and he was weakening day by day while waiting for the right bone marrow.

On the day she went to the hospital, she told Xue Yuelan that she already knew about the matter between her and Gu Mochen, Xue Yuelan looked painful and guilty, and took all the fault on herself, saying that all this was retribution, Tan Man looked at this helpless mother, but she couldn't do anything.