Chapter Ninety-Five: Sinners
The summer wind gently falls on your face, telling you the secret of autumn, Hu Hansheng stood under the seventeen umbrellas, listening to him tell the story of the dog, the dog does not like to laugh, he is always wooden, never dares to look at other people's eyes, but he has the brightest eyes in the child, he is always cautious, no one dares to approach.
But such a timid person saved his life, and in the most stupid way, he exchanged his life for his life.
Seventeen never thought of him, he regarded Chinese New Year's Eve every year as his birthday, since the dog's life and death, every year's birthday wish is to dream of him, he just wants to say thank you to him, call his name once, or hug him for the last time, but no, but he has never dreamed, it has been eleven years now, probably the dog is not playing very happy in the sky, I don't want him to think about him.
Dog Sheng is a fool, a mute, a child, is his original intention to remain kind, otherwise, as early as a long time ago, he had the greatest malice to the world, how lucky to meet such a person in this life.
Hu Hansheng smiled and listened quietly, as if he was also experiencing the life of a dog, but the life of a dog was so painful, and he, who was a father, was the beginning of his misfortune.
"Doesn't it mean that parents in the world don't love their children?" Seventeen caught a bamboo leaf, threw him away, looked at the bamboo leaf buried in the ground, somehow remembered his little lady, and couldn't help but feel a sense of grievance in his heart, "What kind of people are the dog's parents?" "I don't know if I'm asking or talking to myself.
After hearing this, Hu Hansheng walked into the rain, took off his official hat and put it on the stone on the side, as if he had no intention of saying, "Gousheng's mother is probably the person who loves him the most in the world, and Gousheng's father" He paused for a moment, straightened his robe, and said: "He is the person who hates him in the world." ”
That's because he is not yet Lord Shangshu, he is just an ordinary person, and even he is happier than most men, his parents are still alive, only one wife, his wife is gentle, they have a good relationship, I originally thought that his parents are in good health, he and his wife are a couple for a lifetime, and life is very good.
Soon after, his wife had joy, which for them, this is simply a gift from God, he is not in good health, and suffers from asthma, originally thought that this life can no longer think of family happiness, but did not expect God to give them such a great reward, he felt that he must have accumulated virtue in his previous life, so let him have a child, so since his wife was pregnant, he burned incense every day to pray for blessings, his parents began to eat vegetarian, the family looked forward to the arrival of this child day and night, so that his life was complete.
But life in the world, will not be perfect, he is stubborn, does not know how to be flexible, offended people in the officialdom without knowing it, his career has not been smooth, the house leaks and rains overnight, his parents are sick, it was just his mother who suffered from a small cold, and then his father broke his leg for no reason, he didn't believe it, and later went to check, only to know that it was the person he offended in the officialdom.
It seems that he should be a person who is in the court, but he didn't know where to learn the three indiscriminate methods, and found a thug outside to break his father's leg, and repeatedly intercepted his father and beat him, his father was old, and he was beaten down several times, and he fell ill.
Because his wife and mother were inconvenient, he didn't want to cause trouble, and apologized with a smile, although he didn't feel that he was at fault, the man accepted his thanks, broke one of his legs, and the person was a higher rank than him, and he was the secretary of the Ministry of Rites at the time, he was helpless, and he was beaten by this stick for the rest of his life, and he became a cripple.
However, his compromise did not lead to a good ending to the story, his father died that night, the doctor came to investigate, and did not find any problems, he was unwilling, he clearly heard his father keep shouting pain, he had just been lame, his heart was full of resentment, somehow, he hid from his mother to find a coroner to perform the autopsy, and sure enough, his father's lungs were pierced by ribs, and it was no longer the same.
He looked at the scene in front of him, very frightened, but he didn't know what to do, and then his mother found out about it, and always resented him, and because of the depression in his heart, the little wind and cold dragged on for half a month, and he went quietly at night, that is, his wife was eight months pregnant, and his child was about to be born.
At that time, he had already given up on himself and drank every day, but he would still wash it every day and go to the Bodhisattva to petition, and his only hope at that time was the child in his wife's womb.
At that time, his wife was not happy, and the doctor said that she had a knot in her heart, and the pregnant person was always uneasy. But he didn't care at the time, and kept immersed in his emotions.
Because of his emotional instability, he sometimes hurt his wife, but she never blamed him and comforted her every day. Tired of him, because he was in a bad mood, it was his wife who handled his parents' funeral for her, and he drank every day except drinking, thinking that he had killed his parents.
One night, he suddenly heard a thin cry from his pillow, and turned to find that his wife was crying in her dream.
He suddenly woke up, it turned out that he had ignored her too much, and since then, he has not drunk again, but has been single-minded. All on his wife and his unborn child.
But it seems that the Bodhisattva thinks he is not pious enough, and God plays a series of jokes with him.
On the day the child was born, there was a lot of bleeding, and the midwife said that she couldn't save it, so she could only save one.
He panicked at the moment, his brain was blank, he felt that the sky was about to fall, he didn't speak, he didn't know what to choose, this was probably the only child in his life, and it was already a miracle that he had a child in his body.
The midwife kept urging, but he still didn't know how to choose. In a trance, his wife's voice came from the room, "Lang Jun! ”
Hearing her voice, he kicked the door open and entered, regardless of his secular etiquette. He saw his wife lying in a sweat with a pale face, she was still smiling, but she was struggling to laugh, she had no strength at the moment, and she was hanging from the bowl of ginseng soup she drank.
"Lang Jun!" He took her hand and said with a smile, "I want to leave you a baby." ”
The midwife has been urging, whether to keep the big or the small has been a problem since ancient times, and his wife has been this bad person. I made the decision for him. He said to the midwife. Please. I must save this child for me.
He was silent, maybe because he was afraid, maybe he had planned to do so in his heart, he was kicked out of the factory, and his brain went blank when he stood outside the door.
Much later. He heard the sound of the baby crying, and he didn't know why, but he didn't have the joy of being a father and son, and his heart was empty, as if he was the only one left in the world, wandering alone in this world.
And he's a sinner.