I have to go on with my life.

In the past years, in the long and narrow period of my most helpless time, didn't I have no him?

Didn't I live my life strongly?

I just need to continue to be stubborn and love my life as I did when I was 13 years old – ignore the scars and act as if nothing happened.

I actually didn't see how Hua Ming led that lucky girl away.

Hua Zheng sat with me on the edge of the pool, and I didn't hear a word of what was said in my ear at first.

I nibbled on it to myself, just wanting to grab the sweetness right away.

One, two, three...

When I picked up the fourth, it was suddenly snatched from my hands.

It rolled down to its feet, gurgling like a snowball, and in a few strokes it was covered in a thick layer of dirt.

I suddenly looked up, and the sound of hot summer insects instantly poured into my ears, stimulating my eardrums.

The clear face in front of him was dyed with pink anger. There are also some unwillingness that I don't want to understand.

Hua Zheng looked at me sideways and said:

"Zijun, do you care so much about my brother?"

"My brother doesn't seem to have been with you as long as I have been with you, right? When did he become so important to you? ”

"No matter how sad you are, he can't see it, let your spirit dissolve and collapse here, he can't see it..."

"Look, I said a long time ago, it's better for you to find Hua Ming than to find me, but you don't listen..."

"National Highway 107, is that where you used to be? Hua Ming said that you didn't have any relationship, so are you still lost your soul like this? ”

"Aren't you going to talk to me? If you feel sad, you can use me as a trash can to pour out bitter water. You can even scold me as a big brother..."

"Reluctant to scold him? In fact, it is not recommended that you scold him. Besides, I've always called myself a gentleman, if you really scold, I really don't know if I should go along with you..."

"Liu Zijun, look at me, I'm Fu Huazheng. Think about it, from your freshman year to now, I'm the one who has been following you and running after you, haven't you noticed? ”

"Here in Luoyang, shouldn't we know each other first?"

"Liu Zijun, I've known each other for two years, and my heart has been moving with you for two years. Although you were just dropped by the big brother, it was beating intricately next to you, and even with some emotion. You see, Hua Ming has said: He is not in love with you. It's time for you to wake up, right? ”

"Liu Zijun, you may not know that in the past two years, I have woken up every morning, lay down at night, or walked or stopped, how many times have I held my mobile phone and hovered on your number and hesitated, whether to call you, whether to say a few words to you, even if it is good to listen to your breathing..."

It is false to say that you are not moved. But at that moment, my eyes were already stung with tears, and I looked up and asked him silently, "Hua Zheng, tell me, is what Hua Ming said true?" Are they really going to get engaged? ”

His eyebrows picked up the texture of the Sichuan character, and he urged his voice to be angry and heavy: "Liu Zijun! I've been talking about it for a long time, are you still thinking about my brother? You're still thinking about him..."

"What do you want me to say about you? What am I going to do with you..."

He spoke in a deep tone about the bloody facts, but they were also the reality.

He said, "Big brother, he didn't lie to you just now. On May Day, several family elders gathered in Yingtai, Zhongnanhai, and decided on their marriage. This year's National Day coincides with the 10th anniversary of the 10th year, and the marriage of the two families is the best birthday gift that several families can offer for the 60th birthday of the motherland. It is also the established dignity and face of several large families. After the military parade on the 11th, they will transfer to the West Diaoyutai to hold an unprecedented engagement ceremony in front of all the big families. This is what they call family inheritance: the combination of excellent genes from several large families to continue the prosperity of the extended family. Look, my biological parents' deformed love is destined to be a tragedy. They should have known at the beginning of their encounter that they would never be tolerated by the family. You must ask: why does the love of the second uncle and the second aunt exist? Partly because that relationship was an accident that several families couldn't guard against, but, more importantly- Second Uncle He was lucky that he was not chosen as a family member. ”

"Insiders of several families will not allow a second accident to happen. Do you think you still have a chance?

He didn't see that I was right, and said in a low voice, "I didn't want to be so cruel..."

He was silent.

And I, the pregnant water in my eye sockets spread like a stream rushing out, along the corners of my eyes, to my lips. The last one trickled down my neck.

They are the right people to match. It turns out that no matter what era, there is a so-called difference between the doors.

And I, from beginning to end, was nothing more than a weed in the countryside.

Swaying with the wind, floating with the water, that's all.

I once pretentiously thought: as long as I work hard, I will become a towering tree.

As long as you work hard, you will be able to easily live in the sunshine one day. can be bold to chase their love. I was even stupid enough to think that those unbearable pasts were completely over.

In a society where everyone is equal, in a society where ideas are progressive, no one cares about my past.

It's just naïve.

I woke up like a big dream, but I felt like I had lost my soul, "I see, that's it." It turns out that not only Hua Ming, but for you and people like you, I can't do it after all. ”

"The one who can come together with you can be the Ten Thousand Jewels. Even Li Baozhu and Wang Baozhu will never be a person like me..."

Because, I have secrets. If one day, that secret is accidentally revealed, it will undoubtedly be a landbreak.

Hua Zheng shook his head and laughed at himself: "There is no such thing as 'us'. I'm different. Hua Ming and I are different after all, and I was born an exception. In the eyes of the family, I was much lighter than the second uncle at that time. ”

I abruptly said, "But, I'm an exception. You will never understand. ”

Growing up alone in the dark, struggling to adulthood in despair. Eventually, I looked like a normal person.

From a distant mountain village to this city. I tried to pretend to be a normal person who didn't have anything.

I have spared my life, had nightmares, been greedy for life, and feared death.

I cried, hurt, and despaired desperately. Desperately laughed, lived, and bloomed.

The life that I have fought for in those years can't just be in vain.

Yes, life can't just be left at that.

I want to live. I want to live stronger.

I gulped down a mouthful of the pulp, just as I was breathless, coughed, and poured in the scorching summer air, stinging in my trachea.

I coughed up the flesh and coughed up tears. He helped me pat my back, I raised my arm to stop him, shook my head, smiled at him and said, "Ahem, Hua Zheng, thank you for telling me this." Fortunately, Fu Huazheng, you are just friends. Good seniors and good friends I met in college. Actually, I still have a lot of good friends, and they should be not far away, and they should find me in a moment. ”

"You go, I want to be quiet here."

"Don't worry. I'm actually a very greedy person who is afraid of death. In this world, my life is a God-given life. Although fate has not been very kind to me, I still want to be kind to life, because I haven't lived enough. You go, I'll think about me and your brother. However, I want to be alone and make up my mind by the way. ”

Hua Zheng shook his head, he said that he wouldn't bother me, so he simply sat next to me.