I barely managed to calm down, trying to control my voice not to tremble, and I persuaded him: "Zhang Zijun, if you talk about the past, you have indeed harassed me several times, and slandered me so much on the radio... We are all adults, we have to think about right and wrong before doing anything, if a person makes a mistake, of course you have to bear the consequences, you have already paid the price, I hope you don't get obsessed..."

A flash of lightning pierced the dark and rainy night, and the sky above the campus seemed to be rotten a hole, and the water of the heavenly river poured down from the hole like a flood.

Followed by the thunderous sound of "click-", completely tearing apart the dark night.

After the thunder, I heard him say firmly: "Liu Zijun, I just talked too much nonsense with you at the beginning, and I didn't get any benefits." It's always been me who was too fucking kind, and I didn't fall for you, so I was pitted by you and Fu Huazheng, the dog man and woman! It's useless for you to say it today! I'm going to get it back from you tonight, with all the money I have..."

My pupils dilated, and my heart contracted violently, as if it was about to burst out of my throat. Since Zhang Zijun was blocking the staircase, my first reaction was to run back and run to the computer room!

Before Zhang Zijun stretched out his hand to grab my arm, I instantly threw away the sneakers and umbrella I was carrying, turned around and ran, at that time, I was still barefoot, trying to control myself not to fall, I ran towards the door of the classroom in the computer room!

A string of chuckles came from behind him:

"Hehehe, Liu Zijun, do you think you can run away? I'm not tonight. When you beg me, I, Zhang Zijun, am not considered a man..."

At that moment, I thought for the first time how nice it would be if I were deaf. If I were deaf, those foul words would not irritate my heart, nor would they deepen my fear and cowardice at that moment.

Deep down, 13 years old, that was strong. On a violent autumn night, the tumor planted at that time suddenly exploded and festered...

My bare feet seemed to be entangled and blocked by the breath of fear, I mechanically moved the soles of my feet, and warned myself as I ran: Liu Zijun, you have to be calm, you have to be calm, you have to be calm...

At that moment, I only had two things on me: my phone and my keys.

Liu Zijun, do you want to get your phone first, or do you want to get the keys first?

Choosing a mobile phone? It's so late, even if I can get through to Hua Zheng's phone, will he be able to arrive soon? …

As for the keys, there are three keys on the body: the classroom, the newly moved dormitory, and the old dormitory.

But all three of them are the same style, and the length and color of the key are exactly the same.

Don't worry about it for now, buy time, as long as I can get into the computer room, I should be able to drag on for a while. Once in the computer room, it's never too late to call again!

I quickly pulled out the key, and in an instant, I prayed to God: God, I will use the luck of the rest of my life to exchange you for a chance—please let me open the door in front of me in one go.

God, please, let me succeed the first time...

But I inserted the key accurately. After entering the cylinder - a few turns - it finally failed to open the door in front of it....

Sometimes, fate is so cruel. In fact, you can't blame God, because God is not merciful, in fact, "he" is not ruthless, "he" is just a little cold.

"Heaven and earth are unkind, and all things are dogs", the original meaning of this sentence has never been to scold God for being unkind; It is actually saying: Heaven and earth are allowed to grow freely.

God "he" has no time to take care of everything in the world, "he" has always been just a cold bystander.

"He" disdains to sharpen anyone, nor does he disdain to treat anyone well.

Yes, God is such a cold bystander, "he" has always been an emotionless cold bystander in the most terrifying, dark, and painful moments of my life.

The first key, I failed. However, Zhang Zijun's footsteps behind him were getting closer and closer, and I didn't dare to indulge in the failure in front of me, so I quickly switched, took out the second one, and was just about to insert the new key head-

Suddenly, I had a pain in my scalp.

Yes, at that moment, my hair was pulled back by Zhang Zijun fiercely...

Suddenly, the memory went back to 13 years old.

On that autumn night when I was 13 years old, I wanted to run away, but the extreme fear made my legs tremble, and I suddenly fell on the roadside ridge so incompetently.

Behind my back, the man was on his knees behind my legs...

In the depths of memory, all the darkness and unbearable, the pain and despair, like thousands of wild beasts rushing out of the cage of memory and rampage towards my head...

At that moment, I couldn't make a sound in my throat, yes, at that moment, I lost my voice.

No matter how much I opened my mouth, I couldn't shout for help.

The extreme fear of the scene in the past, the grief and indignation of fate, and the pain of all this behind it, made me fall into the great vortex of despair.

At that moment, I felt like I was going to die, and I forgot how to struggle.

At that moment, I was thinking, as a girl, I just want to live well, why is it so difficult?

In this world, there are so many girls, and many of them can be accompanied and loved by their parents from childhood to adulthood; Many of them are surrounded and cared for by relatives; Some of them are even born with everything...

And I, growing up, just wanted to live.

But the truth is, I was covered in scars and nightmares. I studied hard, desperately trying to forget, trying to bury the past...

I live so carefully, but God can be cruel and watch again and again, and even play thunderstorms to cover up for the wicked and help the wicked destroy me...

Why? God, why let everything happen again, and for what?

I can't figure it out...

I, a complete materialist, even have to doubt that people really have a past and a present life.

Moreover, in my previous life, I must have committed some heinous crime...

Otherwise, God would not be so baring his teeth and claws to "cheer" with thunder on the side...

I suppressed myself, controlled myself, and tried to forget the past. I was, I tried so hard to live well...

Moreover, I found a new purpose for myself in life.

I'm fighting for this goal right now, and I'm finally no longer holding the plow and looking backwards....

Who can save me?

Who will save me?

This time, am I really going to finish?

In despair, I found that I could speak up.

I hissed and let out a cry that seemed to burst my own eardrums.

The shout, accompanied by summer thunder and lightning, accompanied by pouring rain, completely tore apart the dark night sky.

Lightning in the sky above the campus, tearing out a desperate power grid...

Help me—

I lay on the ground in front of the door, tears streaming down my face.

In desperation, my fingers clawed at the metal by the door, my hair still being pulled back.

Zhang Zijun, just kneeling on my lap...

In order not to hurt my scalp too much, my neck leaned back hard, my body was extremely twisted, and the pain in my knee hit. The legs kept shaking, obviously wet. In the hot summer, my whole body instantly lost the temperature it should have.