Jin Xiaoshao woke up three or four days later, and he was not completely awake when he said he was awake, he was confused, and he fell asleep again after saying a few words.

Doctors say it's a recovery phase.

The most she said to Rong Sheng when she woke up was: "Don't tell my godfather." ”

Tao Yu knew it, and he must be desperate.

The other sentence is: "You and Uncle Chen are not allowed to go." ”

In fact, from the time Shen Sangmin gave her the first injection, she knew that she couldn't run, she had become like this, and she couldn't let them take risks anymore.

Besides, Rong Sheng has other suspicions now, and if he acts rashly, he will really get in.

Rong Sheng promised one by one, "Don't tell anyone, don't worry." ”

Jin Xiaoxiao patted him, and his voice was weak: "The young man can do things, I believe you." ”

In addition to being asleep, her body would still twitch unconsciously during the time when she was barely awake, and those things strongly invaded her nervous system, and she couldn't control herself.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, Jin Xiaoshao's spirit was much better.

Call everyone one by one to greet the New Year.

She practiced for two or three hours in advance, carefully considering every sentence and every tone and tone, for fear of being heard out of something inappropriate.

As soon as the bell rang at twelve o'clock, she first said to Rong Sheng, "Happy New Year." ”

Rong Sheng tugged at the corners of his lips and smiled loudly, "Happy New Year, little whistle." ”

Jin Xiaoxiao also smiled and asked, "Is this tone natural?" ”

"Very good, full of energy."

She asked Rong Sheng to dial Soning's phone first, she is pregnant now, and it is not good for her to worry about being stimulated or something, so she also concealed it.

Sonin picked it up, and there was a lot of joy over there.

Jin Xiaoxuan: "Sister, happy New Year!" ”

Her voice was raised a little, and she was also infected by the atmosphere on Soning's end.

Soning replied, and then complained a little, "Originally, we came to celebrate the New Year together, but your eldest brother didn't say that you were going abroad for the New Year." ”

"Well, yes, haven't I ever been abroad, the second brother took me to see it."

"Okay, forgive me, pay attention to safety outside~"

"Yes." She gasped twice, "Take good care of my godson, I hope I will be there when he is born." ”

Soning sizzled: "How can you still hope for it? You have to be there! ”

Jin Xiaoshao: ......

Her smile stiffened on her lips and she mumbled, "Yes, definitely." ”

I hung up the phone, a little tired, and leaned on the side of the bed to ease up.

Rong Sheng held the person in his arms, fed her saliva, and motioned for her to rest first, she smiled helplessly: "Just say a few words, no, Jin Ye is not used like this now?" ”

She raised her small fist and tensed her arm in an attempt to show her strength, only to hold it up for a few seconds before slumping limply down on his lap.

She looked at the hand in a daze, trembling slightly.

Rong Sheng's nose was sore, and he held her hand and clasped her fingers. He held it hard, as if it were a comfort or a reminder of some sense of presence.

Jin Xiaoshao clenched her fists, in fact, no matter how hard she used, she knew that she couldn't hold it tightly.

This is a fact that she could not accept, but had to accept.

She's scrapped.

There's no going back.

The last call was to Tao Yu, and it was nothing special, a simple hello, there seemed to be a lot of people on his side, bustling.

In previous years, he spent the New Year alone, guarding the small pine tree. This year, my heart may have opened up a bit, and it will be more lively.

Jin Xiaoshao could even hear some familiar voices, each of which seemed familiar, but out of reach.

Before hanging up the phone, she said, "Godfather, if you still want to find someone, it's okay...... Uncle Okawa won't blame you. ”

I always felt that he was going to get along with others, how miserable Qin Dachuan was. Now that I think about it, those who are alive will live better, and those who are no longer will be more at ease.

Tao Yu paused, "Stinky boy, dare to arrange me?" ”

Jin Xiaoxiao: "Don't dare, don't dare, I'm not afraid that you will become an old man, and the market should be bad." ”

Tao Delirium: ......

"Can you return the New Year's money I just transferred?"

Jin Xiaoxiao laughed exaggeratedly: "No." ”

—

The fireworks in the early morning are like five-colored fire snakes in the dark night sky, scurrying up and down, and it is very lively.

Jin Xiaoshao lay on the pillow, looking sideways at the window, her eyes were a little hollow, just looking at it motionlessly.

The light was reflected in her eyes, and it was incomparably gorgeous.

But in a moment, it became a gloom again.

She turned her eyes to look at Rong Sheng, "It's a pity that you haven't eaten my cooking yet." ”

Rong Sheng pretended to be surprised, "You can also cook?" ”

Jin Xiaoxiao sneered, and was a little proud, "After living for more than 20 years, what I'm best at is fighting and cooking, you love sweet and sour food, right?" I made sweet and sour loin sweet and sour fish a must. ”

Rong Sheng's heart was sour, "How do you know that I love sweet and sour?" ”

"What do you say?" She pulled her lips and smiled.

"I want to hear from you."

"I like you, I rare you, I pester you, and I want to please the experience you have accumulated over the years."

"Jin Xiaoshao, when did you start liking me?"

She was a little embarrassed, "I tried against you at the first time, and even thought about how I would support my family in the future." ”

Rong Sheng raised his hand and wiped the corners of his eyes, steady, and said in a joking tone: "I don't give up." ”

"Each other, each other."

"Then you get better quickly, I don't pick my mouth, I'll eat whatever you do."

"Okay."

Jin Xiaoxiao grinned, his face became more and more pale, but he still squeezed out a little smile, "I'm not better, right?" ”

Rong Sheng's heart seemed to be clenched fiercely, and his vocal cords couldn't make a sound at all, only a deep silent whimper.

He swallowed hard, trying to speak as lightly as possible: "It's going to be fine, I promise." ”

Jin Xiaoshao raised his hand with difficulty, touched his face, and pinched it hard, but in fact, there was no pain at all.

"You're a big-eyed ...... You're going to lie, huh? ”

Rong Sheng shook his head, pressed her palm to his cheek, and covered his eyes again.

Those forbearing, overwhelmed emotions turned into a touch of coldness at this moment, fell into Jin Xiaoshao's palm, and then became extremely hot again.

"You ......" she panicked a little, "don't cry, I'll tease you......"

As soon as Rong Sheng heard her speak, the guilt in his heart was like a wave, and it was stacked on top of each other, leaving behind what little sense and strength he had.

"I'm sorry Jin Xiaoshao, really...... Very, very sorry ......"

Jin Xiaoshao looked at him in a daze, she knew very well why he said such a thing, from the time she was kidnapped, she knew that Rong Sheng would definitely feel guilty and blame herself.

And things have developed to this point, so bad that he has lost everyone's control, he has been torn apart by pain and remorse, and he has suffered far more than she has suffered in this matter.

Jin Xiaoshao had no doubt that if he had a choice, he would rather lie here now.

But no.

It's just ...... Because of her relationship, she fell into such a huge miserable situation, and he couldn't get over this hurdle no matter what.

She stretched out her other hand and touched his head, her voice weak with a rare coquettishness, "Rong Sheng, second brother Rong...... I forgive you. ”

I forgive you.

These five words were like a powerful bomb, silently thrown into his heart, and exploded all his mental defenses.

He should be blamed, abused, grudged, and executed by Ling Chi, not ...... Forgiven.

Sheng Fang said that he was Jin Xiaoshao at the age of seventeen or eighteen years old. Therefore she unconditionally liked him, flattered, forgiven...... Everything, everything.

But in the end, she lost everything because of him.

That's what hurts him the most.

"If I ......," the corners of Jin Xiaoshao's lips twitched, "Don't take revenge, don't be hard." ”

Rong Sheng was stunned for a moment, and his eyes froze: "What are you talking about......"

"You know what I'm talking about." The smile on the corner of her lips was faint, and she opened her mouth with a begging voice, "Second brother, I treasure you so much, I'm sorry to disappoint me, right?" ”

“…………”

—

The next day, on the first day of the Lunar New Year, Chen Huai came to the hospital and brought two dumplings.

Jin Xiaoshao ate four or five for face, and the consequence was that he began to vomit more than once he finished eating. She looked at the things that came in and sparsely came out, and felt sorry for a while.

"What a waste."

Chen Huai swallowed the breath in his chest and waved his big hand: "It's okay, you have money, make it." ”

Jin Xiaoshao gave a thumbs up, "Atmosphere!" ”

Rong Sheng rinsed her mouth with water, cleaned up the vomit without saying a word, and then took it out and threw it away.

At the moment of going out, Jin Xiaoshao made a request to Chen Huai and sent her out of S City.

Chen Huai: ......

"Are you crazy? What's the situation now, you actually want to go? He subconsciously glanced at the door and lowered his voice, "You don't want to drag Rong Sheng down, do you?" ”

Jin Xiaoxuan sneered and shook his head: "Do I have such a relationship?" Consciousness is not as high as that. ”

Chen Huai: ......

"Then why?"

"Uncle Chen, I'm going to die." Her tone was as relaxed as possible, "Even if you don't die, do you know what it will be like in the future?" I've seen many, many people who are controlled by contraband, not to mention dignity, people can't count. ”

"No, it's not that negative, don't ......"

"Do you think there's any need to comfort me like that?" She saw that she already knew a lot.

"......" Chen Huai bowed his head a little weakly, this is indeed comfort, but if you don't say that, what else can you say?

"I can't rule out that there will be successful drug rehabilitation, how small is that chance, I don't need to popularize it for you." She paused, glanced at the door, and her voice was a little hurried, "Uncle Chen, I can't live like that, I can't be like that." ”

"But what can you do if I send you away!? You won't want to ......" A layer of cold sweat broke out on his forehead, and he didn't dare to say the rest of the words.

Jin Xiaoshao said for him: "Suicide? I won't. I'll stick with it until ...... The day I can't hold on. ”

And this inhuman process, she can't let anyone see it, especially Rong Sheng.

To put it bluntly, there is a bit of dignity in dying to die.

Chen Huai's lips trembled, and he said with some bitterness: "Little Jin Ye is still so embarrassed. ”

She smiled.

"Uncle Chen, I just have such a wish, if you don't help me, I have no one to ask for." A thick mist slid down the corners of her eyes in her eye sockets.

He looked calm, without any sadness or indignation.

Nothing.

Chen Huai closed his eyes and seemed to have a very difficult decision to make.

"I promise you."

—

On the day Jin Xiaoshao left S City, it rained heavily for half a day.

Chen Huai said, "God is probably sorry for you. ”

She got goosebumps, "You just said you cried for me." ”

The original atmosphere of sadness and relatives was mostly melted away by her, Chen Huai's heart was sour, and he stretched out his arms, "Give me a hug?" ”

"Give, full." Then she threw herself into his arms and hugged him very hard.

If you say goodbye, I'm afraid there will be no chance to meet again.

"Find someone who knows how cold and what is hot...... Live a good life, my Uncle Chen is fine. ”

Chen Huai snorted, "Okay, I promise to complete the task." ”

The radio began to shout for boarding, Jin Xiaoshao broke out of his embrace, reached out and put his hand on the handle of the trolley, "Then goodbye?" ”

"Goodbye."

She turned, walking slowly, but straight, and walked towards the gate step by step.

"Whistle!" Chen Huai called out to her, "Do you hate Rong Sheng?" ”

Jin Xiaoshao paused, "Don't hate." After speaking, he opened his mouth, "I will always love him." ”

After saying that, he didn't stop there.

Chen Huai looked at the lonely thin figure, disappeared into the crowd, and disappeared into the boarding passage after a while.

His chest was filled with reluctance and pain, Jin Xiaoshao's smile and smile, every time he fought with him, he was engraved in his heart one by one.

He pulled his lips with difficulty, and smiled exaggeratedly and wantonly, as if he had been touched by some nerves.

There is no such person anymore.

Never again.

—

Jin Xiaoshao sat by the window, and the plane slowly left the ground after a while.

Her eyes were blurred with mist, and she looked down on it for the last time with her limited vision.

The plane was getting farther and farther away from the ground, and she suddenly had a great sense of longing and reluctance, and this force manipulated her to stand up, intending to flee......

As soon as I turned around, I saw someone next to me who didn't know when he was seated.

He raised his hand to hold the silver-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, and raised his eyes to look at her: "Where do you want to run, can you take me one?" ”

“……”

—

Soon after.

The Shen family in S City fell, all kinds of collusion inside and outside the black industry were exposed, Shen's father stepped down, and Shen Sangmin was wanted because he was involved in several major cases.

I don't know if it's good or what, it's like the world has evaporated, but I haven't found half a figure.

Within a week, he was found dead in a dilapidated factory.

The autopsy results said it was an overdose of contraband.

I heard that the death was terrible.

—

Afterward.

Chen Huai closed the investigation institute and went to Zhao San's welfare home by chance to serve as a consultant.

The kind that doesn't charge money.

The days are ordinary, not good or bad.

He would often go to the arcade and buy a basket of coins, but after a while, he would lose interest, and then sit like that for a long time.

There will still be all kinds of women who come to talk to him, but no one will suddenly appear again to help him out.

Every time there is an Internet celebrity restaurant, he has to try it, remember which dish is delicious and which dish should be lightning avoided......

He couldn't say why he did it, but it seemed that if he did, he had a little hope.

Until these restaurants opened one after another, yellow, and yellow......

He still hadn't waited for the person who had come to eat with him.

He hadn't heard from them for a long time.

Are they okay? She, is she okay?

Is she still there?

Chen Huai didn't dare to think deeply, he thought that no news might be good news. He thought, how can no news be good news?

He should face it.

He couldn't sleep most of the night, and when he closed his eyes, he was the tiny body tied to the chair, convulsed in pain.

But he couldn't save her.

How could he not save her?

—

Many years later, Chen Huai doesn't remember how many years it was. One day when the wind was good, he was standing on a street corner, the sun shining and shaking his eyes.

Through the blinding light, her silhouette gradually became clear. She looked at him, smiling brighter than the sun that day, and after a moment she moved her lips in a clear voice.

"Uncle Chen."

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