Ten years ago, Song Pingsheng was occasionally so tired that he fell asleep completely in the car, and when he arrived at school, after He Yi reminded him, he stretched his waist, looked at her and smiled, his eyes were full of water.

It was like enjoying a pleasant sleep, with a satisfied smile on the corner of his mouth.

At that time, He Yi found out that in fact, the real Song Ping lived a very tired and tired life, whether it was in the eyes of his classmates, he was gentle and gentle, or Shen Qianqiu and Ji Hengzhi in the eyes of the hippie smile, he was used to the play of lips and teeth, or he took care of her as a sister without hesitation. Song Pingsheng always maintained his usual vitality and positive state in his life, but no one ever realized how tired he was living.

Ten years ago it was, and ten years later, he's even more so.

Therefore, everything Song Pingsheng has, whether it is a successful life or a good popularity, he is worth having, because he takes his dreams seriously, treats his attitude towards life, chooses to face difficulties in the face of difficulties, always catches up when his opponents are slack, and in the face of competitors, he always has a way to put himself on the advantageous side.

His success is by no means accidental, only He Yi knows that everything he has comes from his small steps, even from his meticulous thinking, and his refusal to give up.

He always sees himself as God, and he must solve one thing easily, but this thought causes him to live more tired than anyone else.

The man in front of him frowned slightly, with a slight sweat on his forehead, as if he was struggling to escape from a nightmare, from hell on earth, and from a ghostly monster.

Song Pingsheng always loves to have nightmares when she sleeps, this is a habit that she slowly discovered, Song Pingsheng ten years ago, would not be as panicked as now, even if he dreamed of cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods, he would not be so frightened.

There seemed to be a nightmare surrounding him, and she didn't know what this nightmare was. She didn't know what had happened to him all these years, as if the boy was gone, leaving only a shell full of pain.

He Yan held his hand tightly, wanting to give him even a hint of security.

She used her actions to show him that even if the world is unpredictable, there are countless natural disasters, and inadvertent accidents will always wait at the next intersection, but she doesn't care about these, no matter what, she will stay by his side, even if it is the end of the world, she will stay with him.

Song Pingsheng just woke up from a dream, opened his eyes sleepily, and after seeing the familiar face in front of him, he sighed softly, got up to hold his forehead, and called softly: "Xiao Gardenia." ”

The voice was a little hoarse and dull, but it still did not lose its former gentleness.

He Yi wiped the sweat on his forehead, poured him a cup of hot white water and handed it to him, "Drink some water and moisten your throat." ”

Song Pingsheng put down his hands, took the glass, took a sip lightly, and then put it on the coffee table. As if he hadn't come out of the nightmare yet, he stared at the glass without blinking, as if he had been hooked alive.

He Yi stroked his hand and gently rubbed his palm, and his palm was warm and passed to her hand one by one.

Suddenly, Song Pingsheng's body stiffened, and he was stunned for a few seconds before he came back to his senses, and squeezed out a smile towards He Yi, "I'm fine." Scares you? ”

He Yi shook his head, approached him, touched his forehead, and slowly closed his eyes, "Pingsheng, we are already together, if you are willing to let me share it with you, you can tell me that if you always hide it in your heart, you will be sick." ”

Song Pingsheng was silent.

He Yi opened his eyes and continued, "I know, you have always had an empty place in your heart, I can't squeeze it in, you would rather let the wound become inflamed than receive treatment, you would rather carry it alone, and you don't want someone to share it with you, but in your life, can you change a little bit for me, even if it's just a little bit." ”

"Since you have decided that I am the one who will spend the rest of your life with you, then we should be more honest with each other and support each other. So can you try to open your heart a little bit and try to put me in the right place? I don't know what caused you to be like this, I don't know what kind of story happened between you, I don't know what kind of concept letting go is for you, and I don't know if letting go can be your end in the future. Life is too short, can we try hard to forget the past? If memories are painful, why bury them forever? ”

"In the future, we will have an ordinary life, I don't expect you to give me vigorous love, let alone you pour all the tenderness into me, I only hope that you can give me even a little bit of security, so that I can clearly understand that my persistence can be rewarded, my persistence is not wrong, I love you is the right choice, can you ...... Give me that sense of security. ”

Song Pingsheng listened like this, and listened to it for a long, long time. He stood naked in front of her, without reservation. The deepest scar in my heart seemed to be reopened at this moment, and it was bleeding dripping with blood.

He never thought that he would become like this, and when he used to avoid smoking and drinking, he even saw others addicted to it, and there was a sneer in his heart.

Obviously a living person, with his own thoughts, as long as the brain is clear, he can still control it, why do those people indulge in tobacco and alcohol and can't extricate themselves for a long time?

He was an unbeliever.

But now he felt that cigarettes could cure his unhappiness, and it seemed that with just one puff of cigarettes, all the pain would disappear. The paralyzed self of alcohol, because he doesn't want to make himself so sober, once he is sober, he will always be unable to control the thought of all kinds of pictures.

There is joy and there is pain.

He is unwilling to face it, he is unwilling to face the facts that have happened, he is always running away, wanting to be a coward, but the reality is always the opposite, not only can he never escape, but he makes himself covered with scars.

Because he had experienced it, he didn't want his little gardenia to go through the same kind of pain as him.

An excellent student in the eyes of teachers, a gentle and kind student in the eyes of classmates, a brother who is righteous in the eyes of friends, and a well-behaved and self-disciplined son in the eyes of parents. All the way has been smooth, successful in his studies, successful in his career, handsome in appearance, gentle in personality, everyone envies him, envies him for being born with a golden key, and even more envy that he has a harmonious family and has the capital that others can talk about after dinner.

In the eyes of others, he lived as a light, but this light always shines on others, and the light can never take care of everything, so his heart is dark, gradually, he lost himself like this, he doesn't even know what is left in life except for three meals a day, staying up late to catch up with the draft?

No one can see through his heart from his appearance, but He Yi can, she even knows that there is a scar in her heart, and she knows that the position in her heart can only be reserved for another person, but she is with him without hesitation.

She said she was willing to spend the rest of her life with him.

During this period of time, because she was by his side, he no longer needed cigarettes and alcohol. How many nights, I couldn't sleep all night, and the dream was the shadow of that person, and what I couldn't get rid of was the heartbeat of the first encounter, and the unforgettable parting.

Because of Beryl, he completely lost himself and lost the light he had.

He always thinks that he has the ability to do it easily, and solving problems is always thunderous and vigorous, and he will never drag the mud and water, but he didn't expect that how many years of successful life would end up in love.

Others can't understand his pain, kind people will say that he is infatuated, and people full of malice will call him a fool everywhere, stupid enough to collapse for a woman, even if he sacrifices his own future.

He was indeed a fool, and he did not want to be a fool willingly.

But emotional things, how can it be so easy to say and break it, and how can he say that he really doesn't want to miss it if he doesn't want to do it, he only hopes that time can dilute everything, give him a new life, and let him have the courage to move forward.

Song Pingsheng looked at her eyes, and the words that had already slid to his mouth couldn't go on.

These days, I have been trying to open my heart, trying to be by her side, doing everything with my heart, and giving her all the sense of security.

He is getting closer to her step by step, trying to create the atmosphere she likes, create the life she yearns for, and also try to imagine their future life.

At least now, he's drawn into his future.

"Gardenia, wait for me, I need time." He closed his eyes, but finally mustered up the courage to say it.

He knew that he didn't have the qualifications to ask for others, and you knew that all this was the result of his own making, and that there was no reason for others to help him.

"Okay." He Yi nodded, "I'll give you time, if you need a month, I'll give you a month, if you need a year, I'll give you a year, if you need twenty years, thirty years, forty years, I'm willing to give it, even if it's a lifetime." ”

Life is short, being able to be by his side is already her greatest luxury, she doesn't dare to ask for anything anymore, she just wants to spend her life quietly like this.

A life is so short, the world is so big, how many people are divided and united every day, how many people are destined to be together, and even some people are still facing the missing that they shouldn't have, and spend their lives in frustration, and some people get the future they shouldn't have and spend their lives in pain.

She can't miss Song Pingsheng, and she believes that being with Song Pingsheng is not a promise.

No matter how many years, she is willing to wait, as long as he is still by her side, waiting for her forever. She believes that time will dilute everything, dilute everything without a trace, even if it will leave a shallow scar in the end, so that he will remember that scar for the rest of his life, it doesn't matter, just a scar, as long as he can be by his side, he can create countless possibilities.

At least that's what she thinks now.