He seemed to suddenly have a sense of anger, and said angrily: "Liu Zijun, I'm not crazy, I like you." ”

He pressed hard against my shoulders and pressed my legs.

I kicked hard, my shoulders ached, and my legs trembled violently.

Suddenly, that year, that autumn, the deepest memories of the brain burst out. They were all squeezing against my brain. On the way to the White Horse Temple, I was not afraid. But in such a quiet environment, I suddenly began to be afraid like the last rainy night, began to struggle, and began to shout desperately: "Huaming..."

I bit the back of his hand hard. Maybe the original atmosphere was too quiet, so silent that it was like that autumn night.

Hua Zheng didn't expect my reaction to be so intense, seeing the look of fear in my eyes, staring at the blood stains that were gradually spilling on the back of his hand, he was suddenly stunned above me.

I closed my eyes and threw all my strength on him.

He looked at me stunned, with a hint of desperation, into my eyes. Suddenly he burst into tears, he looked me in the eye, slowly got up from me, helped me cover the quilt, and he sat down on the floor and slapped himself.

He said: "Liu Zijun, don't be afraid, it's just me, I'm too impulsive..." The air froze for a long time. He said: "Actually, Liu Zijun, I lied. I didn't just see you at the Fu Family Mansion this morning. Last night at the White Horse Temple, it was me, you and the eldest brother who went to pick you up. ”

"At that time, I was angry to see you and your eldest brother in disheveled clothes..... No, you never know how angry I am. By the way, I was so angry that I beat Fu Huaming. ”

"But my brother insisted that you two were innocent. He said, He doesn't love you. He also said that he allowed me to play fair with him. Zijun, don't be afraid, I'm calm. I'm not in a hurry, I'm not in a hurry, I'll take my time, we can take our time, I'll wait for you. ”

I shook my head and said, "No way." I'm going to go to Hua Ming to ask for clarification. I got up, scooped up a suit from the hanger next to the bed, wrapped myself tightly in a silkworm chrysalis, and walked out of his bedroom.

The door was not closed. The moment I went out, I was struck by lightning.

At the door, there was a man standing, I don't know how long he had been there.

He looked at me and said, "Zijun, are you awake, do you feel okay?" ”

I suddenly felt the heavens and the earth spin.

The moment I lost consciousness, I thought: Hua Ming, how long have you been standing? What are you laughing at? What you said to me before, saying that you understand me better than Hua Zheng, is it all a joke? Didn't you accompany me to my grandmother's grave to burn paper? That Spring Festival, we were in that hotel, and you made me so happy.

Even though we are so close in the White Horse Temple, you still don't want me?

Dizziness and nausea hit together.

I suddenly remembered that in the past, I had struggled with how to take that step countless times. But he used his hands every time.

He doesn't love me... Yes, he doesn't love me... Because, he never really wanted me.

He was so good to me, he took advantage of me, but he was outside the door, watching me being bullied.

He doesn't want me. Never wanted to really ask for me. Is it because I'm no longer pure? 8 years ago.

About 8 years ago, about what he knew about 8 years ago, what was it like? I had many, many questions to ask him, too many questions to count. At that moment, I suddenly found in despair that I couldn't ask, and I couldn't do anything about it.

It's getting darker and darker in front of me.

When I woke up again, there was no one around me.

There was still red nanmu furniture in front of me, and when I looked at it, I was still lying on the bed in the guest room upstairs of the Fu Family Mansion.

I fumbled, got up slowly, still wrapped in the suit hanging next to me, and curled up out of bed, barefoot to find the escalator downstairs.

Let's go back to school first, and get out of this place first. When I am calm and calm, my current self is not suitable to speak. The emotion in my heart made my mouth tremble and my teeth stumble. Even if Hua Ming is here, I don't know if my brain can still ask him every question fluently.

The time that has passed in front of me seems to be unreal. It's time to go back to school, and only school, only those thick books, is where I can calm down.

I can't make any sound with my bare feet. When I tiptoed past the room next to an escalator, I vaguely heard Hua Ming's voice coming from the room, and Hua Zheng inside.

The door was not closed. It wasn't very light, but I ended up walking by the door.

Hua Ming, how much do you know? I want to know, every single thing you know. Hua Ming, in the past days, you always appeared when I was most desperate, and I could see that you loved me. I don't know why, you're always crueler to me than you think? Is it because of the Montebella? Is it because of me 8 years ago? I stood barefoot in front of the door, listening to the voices and imagining the expressions inside.

Hua Ming's voice seemed to be deliberately low, he should be looking at Hua Zheng, well, he seemed to be shaking his head.

He seemed to be holding back his anger, but in the end, he still couldn't hold back, and said with a hint of annoyance: "Fu Huazheng! I've only been relieved for a morning, and look, what have you done? I thought you knew the measure! ”

Hua Zheng didn't seem to think so, he retorted with a smile: "Fu Huaming, why are you murdering me?" You take one step and look at the person who takes ten steps, when it comes to Zijun, you are not qualified to serve me. Especially this mess in the White Horse Temple this time, you are not qualified to teach me a lesson! Didn't you say in the morning that I could play fair? Didn't you say that nothing really happened to you? To be honest, I don't know if I should believe you if anything happened to you. She's a fool, and now her mind is full of you, you really hurt her! ”

Hua Ming continued: "Fu Huazheng, do you think what I said in the morning was very casual? Now I'm going to talk to you about me. Fu Huazheng, do you think I have no selfish intentions for her? I didn't want to protect her, I didn't want her to stay with me. Even if—just keep looking at each other, and live until old age and death—"

Fu Huaming's tone suddenly dropped suddenly, he seemed to be shaking his head, and his breath withered: "But-I have a secret." Fu Huazheng, do you know? A secret that's hard to tell. But, now, I don't plan to hide it from you. ”

Hearing the word secret, Hua Zheng's voice didn't seem to be as good as Fang Cai, and he hurriedly asked Hua Ming: "What secret?"

Hua Ming said: "A secret I don't want to tell. To tell you this secret, you have to start with an earlier secret. Fu Huazheng, I'm not sure, what will happen to you after listening. However, I hope you can treat her like you did after listening to it. Fu Huazheng, although I can't give her happiness at present, it doesn't mean that I can't give her happiness in my lifetime. ”

Hua Zheng's eyes widened and said, "Big brother? What are you talking about? Why don't I understand? What do you mean by these inexplicable words? ”

Hua Ming said: "Do you also want to know, who were the people in the White Horse Temple last night?" ”

Hua Zheng said: "You can think of it when you move your toes, the group of people in the White Horse Temple is a whole family, and it is Wan Baozhu's divorce..."

Hua Ming said lightly: "It's Wanjia, but it's not all." Fu Huazheng, let me tell you that story. ”

In that bedroom, Hua Ming's always beautiful and high-spirited voice was suddenly dyed with a desolate and distant mournful color.

It was as if he was digging and restoring a mural, telling a story about the ruins that were blurred by the wind and sand.

I remained motionless outside the door, and my thoughts drifted to the Huai River of memory and to the deep distance with his voice.