I've been chatting with N just now.,It's estimated that I'm going to sleep a little late tonight.,It's almost ten o'clock now.。 N estimated that she was in a bad mood, saying that her family put pressure on her and made her very annoyed. I chatted with her for a while, and finally she told me how to like someone, how to confess, just like AH once told me, and finally came to a conclusion, we are more suitable to be friends, you just treat me as your buddy, good brother is good. I know I don't have any chances, I just want to try to like her, and I don't know if this idea came from the bottom of my heart, after all, people have male tickets and she hasn't been able to let him go. Even if she chooses between her family and the male ticket, she will have a new pursuit if she chooses her family. She joked that her mother would find her a fit to marry her, anyway, my fellow didn't seem to have a chance, and I didn't have any wrong thoughts, let alone wishful thinking. I asked her, feelings and love will disappear, right? She replied yes, as time goes on, if you like it, you will not see it, and wishful thinking will get tired after a long time. Because I don't like it or wishful thinking all the time!

In the evening, JJ sent me a message, and it seemed that he had reached a reconciliation with his husband, and I blessed it. She was working the night shift and hadn't eaten much dinner, was a little hungry, and wanted to have a snack etc. She gave me the address, and I picked out some snacks for her in Jingdong Mall, hoping to like it. I haven't given snacks to girls before, and I don't know what they like to eat, so I choose them randomly. She is the kind of girl who is big and straightforward, she wants to eat snacks and asks me directly, I really don't treat my brother as an outsider, I am happy to feel the feeling of being needed again, very down-to-earth, very proud and fulfilled! After buying snacks, tell her that she is happy like a child, it turns out that we adults are bored and lonely, because a pack of small snacks can be happy for a long time, if only happiness was so simple!

Before getting off work today, AH suddenly sent me a message that I don't need to bring her breakfast tomorrow, I thought I was wrong, I realized that she may really no longer need me in the future, she doesn't need me to bring breakfast to her, and she hasn't had time to grieve yet. I just want to ask why I took a leave of absence, is there something that is convenient for me to tell me? After a while she replied to me that she would go to the hospital tomorrow for a check-up. I'll admit I panicked, a little scared. Deep down, I don't seem to have let go of my love for AH, and I've always worried about her. She had said before that there was something strange about her body, but she hadn't noticed it, and I thought it was the case. I asked if someone would accompany you tomorrow, but I wanted to ask if the money was enough, but I didn't say it. I'm just saying I'm going to be worried about you, and I'm going to let me know when I'm done. She said lightly that it was okay, don't worry, and she said thank you again. I said you must not be polite to me, and she replied okay.

Today's overtime is also because of the preparation of the planning meeting.,It's over at half past five.,N sent me a WeChat message to ask me if I got off work.,I guessed that something was wrong.。 Calling me to dinner, saying that AH was waiting for me at the door. I said I'll finish it right away, go change and wait. When I finished changing my clothes and went out to get my fingerprints and was ready to go out, I received a WeChat message again, you ride directly to your old comrades-in-arms, we are waiting for you in the restaurant. I thought that last time it was AH to treat me, today I must treat the two of them to a meal, otherwise it will be very ungentlemanly, I always feel sorry for AH. When I arrived, AH had already ordered food, I said that the two beauties had been waiting for a long time, today I have a treat and I can't rob it, a look at AH's mobile phone payment code shows that the payment is complete, I don't have a chance to show myself this time. Today is also three dishes, fried edamame, yellow eel and a pork belly bar, AH said that the dishes she ordered are all she likes to eat, I said it's okay, I've never been picky. This time it seems to be dozens of dollars more expensive than the last time, and this is the second time we have eaten together, and AH took the initiative to treat us.

During the dinner, N and I chatted about some of the customs and customs in my hometown, there are different menus for ordering dishes, beans are fried with skin, etc., and there are many dishes that are not known here, but when I said a Sichuan dish, "ants on the tree", AH immediately replied that it was vermicelli, and I added minced meat vermicelli, and I also like to eat it. AH is in a really good mood today, it's because of the relationship between today's exams, and finally there is no pressure to read books all the time. She said that we can go to your house on the weekend and we will make our own vermicelli to eat, but unfortunately I can't do it, I want to try N's craftsmanship, and N is also modest and says that he can't do it or something. AH likes fruit and N likes snacks, I will stock up a little on these two days, this weekend is no accident I will have a day off, if AH comes back from home on Saturday and has time, we will fulfill the agreement on the weekend and have dinner at my house. AH asked if he wanted to come early in the morning and cook all three meals a day, and N said that he would work overtime for two hours on weekends and be late, which didn't matter. I said that I would be bored if I had nothing to do at home, so I said that we would watch TV together, play cards and play games, etc. N doesn't seem to like today's dishes or deliberately lose weight and don't eat much, AH tastes light and keeps calling during the meal, the dishes are cold, she is still eating in the end, I will go home, they don't read tonight, they should go back to the dormitory directly!

N asked me if I was home, I said I had just arrived and watered the flowers at home, and she said that the fireworks she had just seen were beautiful, and I missed the lack of eyes. We talked about raising flowers, I raised a lot of words, she said that she raised mint is very good, I like the taste of mint, can repel mosquitoes and relieve itching, she said to bring a pot to me when she comes back to the house, I said yes, I have raised several pots of mint to die before this time to try it.

By the way, I changed the ticket to go home today, and N is the same train, more coincidentally in a carriage, and in a sleeper, I am the upper berth and she is the lower berth, this may be the tacit understanding and fate between the fellows, but I got off in Tianshui, she got off in Lanzhou, four or five hours later than me. I said just be a companion, I'll carry your luggage for you or something, and bring more fruit snacks to eat on the train. N because of the opposition of the family, has been struggling with the relationship with the male vote whether to continue to wait, she said why to find a partner, to get married, to start a family, etc., how good it is to be single for a lifetime, at this moment we coincide. I didn't know how to comfort her and make her feel better, so I chatted with her for a long time, and finally I didn't know that she had forgotten her unhappiness and troubles, anyway, I had suddenly become enlightened, I couldn't try to like her anymore, she made it clear that we were good buddies, and it was best to be friends, and I was suddenly relieved, there was no pressure without expectations and ideas, and I couldn't put pressure on others, and of course I couldn't put unnecessary pressure on myself.

At that time, she asked me if I had someone I liked, and I did hesitate, in fact, I wanted to say that I have always liked your roommate AH, but I still didn't say it. N said that I was forced by other boys and would take care of people, and I chose to believe it, which was also what AH had told me before. You are very good at taking care of people, and you don't put words into action. The process of getting along is also the process of learning, I think we are not her, she should be someone you like. I know I mean she and her roommate AH. N said to me, then you confess to her after you are sure of your feelings for her, and she will not reject you if she has feelings for you, so it is not wishful thinking. I said that likes and feelings would disappear, and I was afraid of disappointment because some likes were long gone. I like to be restrained, right? If you are sure of your heart, you will do it, if you don't fail, what if you succeed, suddenly she changed her words, we may be more suitable to be friends, you can put me in the column of your brothers. I know this is a tactful refusal, I'm not really a confession, it's just a temptation, after all, I can't give people inexplicable pressure when they have a male ticket, sometimes care and care can become a burden, and I'm only slowly realizing it now.

I overheard the conversation between N and AH today, they are all reading, they should all leave the city of Bengbu, it's just a matter of time, they also advised me to take the exam or something, I have a chance before the age of thirty-five, I said that I have already pulled down, and nine times out of ten I will stay here for the rest of my life. Sometimes it's sad to think about it, I once liked the people I always liked or were ready to like, they had to leave themselves, leave the city, and I had never had the courage to choose to leave, I admit that I lived without a purpose, far less than them. I will probably cherish the opportunity to spend time with them in the future, and do my best to take care of and help them, these are all things that seem to be very simple and do not require too much thought. Do it and cherish it, I will care and cherish them. Although N told me that I should not easily say anything that I care about or cherish to girls other than my girlfriend in the future. I said that I don't have a female ticket, and I may never have it in the future, who will I tell it to? She replied to me mischievously, and then she stayed with it, and it was the end of the long chat trip.

Tomorrow AH will take leave to go to the hospital for a physical examination, I am really worried about her, I don't know if there is a big thing. I kept the agreement and didn't take the initiative to add her WeChat, and I couldn't contact her again. I'm afraid that I won't be able to control it tomorrow and then add her WeChat, I just want to know the results of her examination, it turns out that I haven't let go of AH, I've been deceiving myself. I don't need to bring breakfast to AH tomorrow, I should not be comfortable, I should start directly from the east gate of the community, and I will not have breakfast here in the community. It's been a long time since I've eaten a fried bun, so let's eat it tomorrow! I hope that everything goes well with the AH check-up, nothing serious, good night!