I talked to myself, trying to stop my ears from listening around with the sounds I had made, and I spoke to myself, breaking the fear of the night:

"I am the most diligent person in the world, and I am the first person to get up in the world, and our Chinese class teacher said: the early bird has insects, and the stupid bird flies first and enters the forest early. God, then look at me, you must remember me, don't remember the wrong name, my name is Liu Zijun, I am the earliest female student, I should be the first in the township this year, for sure...

God please, I must be the first place, otherwise my grandma and the so-called parents in the distance will not let me continue to study...

That's right, as long as I concentrate, as long as I listen to the teacher well, concentrate on studying for the exam, and don't want anything else, I will definitely still be the first... God, I don't dare tell anyone, I can only tell you, last Friday after school, the boy who was second in our grade, second only to me, stuffed me with a letter so seriously. His name is Zhong Hongfei, and in the letter he said that he likes me, he said that he thinks about me every day before going to bed, and he also said that he wants to hold my hand and go to school and leave school together.

Oh my God, we're going home once a week, and we're not on the way...

He asked me to give him an answer on Monday, and he said that he wanted to take me with him to the back of school in the morning to study together...

I—Shall I hand it over to the class teacher? I don't know what to do anymore...

The reading recess in the back mountain is obviously discovered by me first. When I first moved into the school last year, I found out that I was following a hare when I was running by myself in the morning, and I found that there was a wall in the corner of the school dormitory building that was cracked, not only to drill a rabbit, but also to drill a person out. I saw in the distance that the whole mountain was the proudest champion tree, I was so bold for the first time, I got out, I found that there was a path to follow, and they all went up to the bottom of that tree, that tree was so big, I couldn't hold it either. There is also a small pit under the tree, surrounded on three sides by adobe, as if it was a haven specially made by man. But it seems to be abandoned, and from then on, I would always get up 20 minutes earlier than my dormitory classmates and go straight to that recess to read a little more. Coincidentally, one day a few months later, I went over, Zhong Pengfei, and he was also there. We said hello and started to read each other, but my voice was much lower than usual because he read better than I did, and it was still Mandarin. Later, when I went there several times and found that he was there, my voice became quieter and quieter, and I felt a sense of loss that someone had taken over the territory, and then I rarely went again.

He must have written such a letter on purpose, he wanted to distract me and pull me off the first place! But he's very good-looking, and he doesn't look bad at all, unlike the bad embryo sitting in the back row...

That bad boy, I don't know where he learned to be a hooligan, that day when I was washing dishes in the water tower, he deliberately whistled at me and reached out and touched my breasts... I didn't react at the time, and when I did, he pulled his hand away, but I was terrified, and the enamel jar fell into the sink with a 'clang', knocking off several pieces of white porcelain, and the bastard whistled and laughed and walked away, and I almost cried on the spot, and he was so sure that I wouldn't say anything? …

Yes, I won't say anything about it, I'm here, and there is only one thing, which is to read the book obediently.

Zhong Hongfei and the bad ruffian are not all the way, when he passed by that day, he saw me stunned in shame, and he helped me pick up the enamel jar that was almost washed away with the trough water.

He was also very generous, he gave me a few new homework books, during that time I was worried that I couldn't afford to buy a book, and the reverse side of the book was full of me...

He also brought me boiling water many times, and helped me beat rice and steamed buns several times...

He's such a nice guy, and he helped me with another thing last month that I was embarrassed about.

Last month, it was a few days after the start of the second year of junior high school, everyone went to breakfast after the morning self-study, I felt that my butt was sitting on a wet stool when I got up, slimy, I screamed in surprise, I didn't know what happened at the time, I was a little surprised.

At that time, fortunately, there was still Zhong Hongfei in the back row, he got up and came to my side, wiped the stool with his hand, and brushed his fingers, and suddenly I saw his white face flushing. I looked at the faint blood on his fingers in amazement, and then at his long eyelashes, and I was a little dazed.

As for him, he actually took off his jacket and taught me how to pull up two sleeves and tie them around my waist, he looked down at me strangely, and explained to me: "It's okay, don't move, the Chinese teacher should still be in the office next to me, I'll call her, don't move first." ”

Our Chinese teacher's surname is Gao, she is a normal graduate who only came to our school to teach last year, she is so amazing, she has a respectable profession at a young age, she can not only earn her own money, she is also the most beautiful and gentle of all the female teachers in the school, and she is also the only one who can teach texts in Mandarin. She can not only teach us Chinese, but also very good at singing, last night self-study she sang a song "When I Wake Up", the melody and lyrics are so beautiful. It is said that our PE teacher and physics teacher are secretly pursuing her, although the physics teacher is not as good-looking as the PE teacher, but I especially hope that he can win, because our PE teacher is not a good person, he once took advantage of the students' inattention, touched... Forget it, I'll be able to see our Chinese teacher soon, I have seen her more times this year than I have seen my biological mother since I was born, she is the second best adult to me besides my grandmother...

By the way, that day, Zhong Hongfei came as soon as he called the Chinese teacher, and she told me about it that day: menstruation.

She said that when girls reach the age of teenagers, they will bleed, and after such a menarche, there will be a few more days of blood on this day of the month in the future, which is a symbol of the maturity of girls, and they can fall in love, get married, and have children, until they are forty or fifty years old, they will stop...

And I've always lived with my grandmother, who is very old and has never told me these things, and I don't know that there are such things. I used to go to my uncle's house to take advantage of the toilet and found that there was blood in the toilet of my uncle's house. I've also had nightmares about it.

After listening to the teacher's words, I suddenly became enlightened, but when I heard the word love, I immediately blushed.

After all, there is a male classmate next to him.

However, he was quite understanding, and after listening to the teacher's guidance, he turned around and left.

That day, my Chinese teacher took me to the school's only outlet to buy a roll of toilet paper and a pack of sanitary napkins, but my living expenses were not enough for me to afford them, so she paid for them herself. The pack of sanitary napkins was 20, and there was a roll of snow-white toilet paper, which cost her a total of two cents. That was the first time I used toilet paper, and I had to prepare a roll in the future, and at that time I thought that toilet paper was so white and soft, and I used to wipe my butt with my homework book. Before that, when I didn't go to school or have a paper, my grandmother and I used all the leaves of the plane tree...

To the toilet, there are a lot of girls in line, the toilet is roofed, a layer of **, rain leakage in rainy days, ventilation in winter, a total of 10 pits lying there side by side, smelly, flies and maggots are flying all over the ground in summer, everyone try to avoid it carefully, try not to step on it, for fear of stepping on their white belly, the belly inside the content will splash on the shoes.

When it was my turn to go to the pit, I pulled out my sanitary napkin and didn't know what to do with it. At that time, I looked down and blushed, thinking that there seemed to be a girl staring at me, so I didn't bother to look closely at the instructions on the sanitary napkin, compared the pattern, tore open a strip, put it in the crotch of my pants, quickly wiped it with toilet paper, got up and lifted my pants and left.

Later, I found out that the first time I used a sanitary napkin, I was upside down, and my lower body was uncomfortable for several days.

Zhong Hongfei didn't seem to play basketball much in the past few days at noon and evening self-study, and I saw him frequently pick up the public hot water bottle next to the podium and go to the boiler room to get hot water for everyone. During that time, every time I held the hot enamel cup, the hot water slowly flowed into my limbs, and my whole body sweated, and the cold pickles pickled by my grandmother and the cold rice at school in my stomach were warm like porridge.

The boiling water made my heart tremble in my stomach.

At that time, I gradually had some hidden thoughts.