I have been very anxious and annoyed for the past two days, I should be overwhelmed and confused about the future, what am I going to do in the future? Or what can I do? I don't think it's useful to have a diploma now, I have a bachelor's degree in business economics and a graduate degree in public policy management in Hong Kong, but are these two diplomas really useful for me?

Economics is good, you can go anywhere, but in fact, you can do anything, you can't do anything, and you don't know what to do, and public policy management is even more incomprehensible.

Yesterday, when I played the king, I met a college classmate, I should say that I was a college roommate, and so on to open the voice, hearing his voice, I felt unusually cordial, as if I suddenly returned to the narrow dormitory, the bustling eight-person room, the university is really very happy, carefree four years, although my junior and senior years are preparing for the graduate school entrance examination, but in fact it is not so tired, or the pressure on my heart is not so great.

At that time, the postgraduate entrance examination was just a postgraduate entrance examination, and I did not think about the two years to take the postgraduate examination, if I failed, what would happen? I also didn't think about what would happen if I failed? But the moment the results came out, at that moment, all the pressure came over in one go, and I couldn't support it all at once.

Friends say that I am very happy, but in fact, my happiness is really based on my ignorance, carefree, and I don't think much about anything, and this premise is also that my parents gave me a good living environment, so that I really don't have to worry about eating and drinking, and I don't have to worry about anything.

After knowing the graduate school entrance examination scores, I was confused, looking for a job to take the civil service exam, and seeking graduate opportunities in Hong Kong, fortunately, two years of graduate school preparation let me meet the minimum requirements of English, plus the university, in fact, the experience is quite rich, so I went to Hong Kong graduate school, graduate school in the first half of the year I should have returned to that semi-carefree state, at least in school is really happy, really comfortable, but now in the second half of the year, there are still a few months, should graduate in May, and then I have to look for a job, but I am not ready, Or maybe I don't want to be ready.

Whenever I was confused, I missed my undergraduate life even more, when everyone was so stupid and naïve, and even when I had time, I could lie in the dormitory all day, lying on the bed and looking at my phone, I felt very satisfied. But now I'm not satisfied.

Although I still have time to stay in bed all day, I can feel not satisfaction, only emptiness and irritability, I don't know what I am going to do. I don't know what I want to do. But I had to do something, so I turned my attention to finance, after all, I will definitely go to a commercial company in the future, and look at a bunch of people at station B with great interest, or boss? Introduce the experience and buy some basic financial courses on the official account. I even found some original English financial enlightenment books, but I was completely ill and rushed to the doctor, because I didn't know what I could do at this stage.

Dad always said that when you don't know what to do, you should first solidify your studies, which is the most basic, and only after laying a good foundation can you do something else. Of course, this foundation is the most important, but I really don't know if my foundation is really useful. I want to test him right away, put it into practice right away, because I feel that the knowledge I have is nothing but good use, just common sense that everyone knows.

Of course, it may also be due to my major, after studying economics, I feel that macro and micro are too simple, and everyone knows it. After learning about public policy management, I feel that basic policy analysis, isn't that everyone knowing? Of course, my relatives and friends will tell me that not everyone knows these majors, and there is a specialization in the art industry, and others have not studied it, so they definitely don't know, but how do I know if others know it? My heart is empty, and who can verify it? Anyway, it's tangled, very confused.

Yesterday I was home alone, I was very entangled, I couldn't understand my future, and suddenly my girlfriend told me that the love apartment was on the air for five, after all, it was my own youth, and I saw it all night long. It's not that it's too good-looking, but I really can't sleep, I thought that watching the scene comedy of the love apartment would make me more relaxed, after all, they were a group of young people who were very happy before, and although they are still very happy now, they have seen the helplessness of real life.

Zeng Xiaoxian and Hu Yifei have achieved positive results, but Zeng Xiaoxian because of his work, night radio host, his performance is too dismal, and the organization gave him a chance to go to the Alxa Desert to practice, although it was Lisa who was deceived and coaxed to go, but I feel that this is indeed Zeng Xiaoxian's own decision, his night radio station really has no future, he is married, it is impossible to continue to stay in that position, he also has to think about the future, and going to Alxa can be regarded as choosing hard training.

Ziqiao, Chen Meijia also became, Meijia was pregnant with a child, Lu Ziqiao turned from a wanderer to a super attractive good man, because he really has no education, no work experience, no professional knowledge, he went to the roadside to sell skin care products, to shoot hair growth lotion advertisements, to do it, a series of jobs that can be done by individuals, but they are very faceless, very faceless jobs, he used to pay the most attention to image, and now he is fighting for this part for life.

Zhang Wei is still insisting on his career as a lawyer, but the economic pressure has not let him breathe.

They are the happiest group of people, and now they are also forced to this part by the pressure of life, after many years, I also looked at the junior high school students in the love apartment from the beginning? Or a high school student? Turned into a person who is about to graduate school,,?

I'm just a person, after all, I don't think I can do anything, I don't know how long this state will last, but in this confused mood, I really can't do anything.

Life is really hard! No wonder people always miss the college years, because this time in college is really a time to live for yourself, there are no parents and teachers to force you to study, and there are relatively sufficient living expenses, so that you can do something you like, and the test results don't matter, as long as you pass the grade, you can still get by, you don't have to think about anything in your body and mind, you don't even have to think about studying, it is really a time to eat and wait for death, or let go of yourself.

When I say college is not a derogatory term, I want to describe the 100% carefree days that I believe will never happen again.

I always feel like I've been making money for work, raising children, and supporting my parents all my life, anyway, thinking about all kinds of things, a lot of things I don't think about at all when I was a student.

Perhaps, civil service is a better choice for me, I don't have to worry about being fired, I am admitted, even if I am not motivated, I can eat and drink, but I don't know if choosing the path of civil service proves that I am afraid, I retreat.

I don't know if I'm the person who really doesn't want to think too much, or I don't have the ability to think too much, at least now that I think too much, I'm going to be annoyed, and I don't want to be annoyed.

I used to think that my future life would be very simple, commuting regularly, not working overtime, not going to socializing, not going to banquets, not going to KTV, because I really don't like these, even if I spend more time with my wife to watch TV series, I think it is more worthwhile.

What kind of personal contacts, you help me, I help you, what relationship maintenance, these are all important factors leading to success, but I really hate these things, because they annoy me, and I don't want to remember too many people, maybe because I grew up watching anime and comics, I always feel that the protagonist has so many good friends around him, just a few people are enough, others may be very powerful, maybe what resources, maybe how can they be? But there's no need to know them all, isn't it good to live so simply?

But I feel that this is my laziness, everyone likes a simple life, and I am not the only one, but a simple life is to lower my expectations for the future.

If you don't think about so many things, if you don't connect with others, how can you make more money, how can you maintain your simple life? When your child has his own ideas, he wants to do something of his own, can you afford his plan with this simple life?

My dad used to be in Jiangxi, the director of a tertiary hospital, how comfortable and beautiful he was, and now he is the director of an ordinary hospital in Shenzhen, and he has to be angry, why is he willing to give up life in Jiangxi? Didn't you come here for me? For, give me more, for when I want to do something? He can help me, he is so that I have more development opportunities, but I have always wanted to live a so-called simple life, this simple life, that must be based on my father's accumulation for me.

Now in Shenzhen, the family has a car and a house, how many years can I struggle less, or I don't have to struggle at all, just like my mother said, I am a security guard in my own community, just earn a meal, of course I can do this, isn't this the so-called simple life? But is this simple life really peaceful? Just possessing your parents for free, sacrificing your parents' comfort in exchange for a simple life, are you really embarrassed to lick your face and accept it?

So I can't settle down, I have to struggle, to accept the things I don't like, maybe in today's words, it's to jump out of my comfort zone, my comfort zone is really too big.

Finding a job casually, commuting to and from work on time, and being happy with your wife and children, the so-called simple life is irresponsible for the future, and it is a kind of behavior that gnaws at the old book. My parents are willing to move from Jiangxi to Shenzhen, from the top three to the second class, from university professors to professional accountants, they gave up the comfortable life in the second-tier cities to come to the first-tier cities to work hard, and have already worked hard, I absolutely can't accept all this happily.

Write to the end, I should be relieved, this one should be written, more than an hour, I wrote it in one breath, and I cried in the middle, but I feel that I am writing and writing to release the entanglement and depression in my heart, simple life, really beautiful, but make yourself comfortable, will only lag behind, the future will definitely be lower than the class that my parents gave me, since my parents for my future, I can put down comfort to fight, I am for myself, what can I not fight? This is a dialogue between myself and myself, I untied the knot for myself, it feels pretty good, thank you China Literature for having such a platform for everyone to write, I really wrote what I thought, it is much more comfortable to write, keep up the good work!