Yu's mother prefers her younger brother Yu Xiaowei, and Yu Fangfang has known it since she was a child. Because Yu's mother has no brothers except for six sisters. My grandmother didn't have a son, so she suffered a lot of idleness in those days. My grandmother also used to exchange her daughter for someone else's son, but my grandfather stopped her. After my grandfather died, the family had no pillars, and life plummeted, especially when there were five unmarried daughters in the family. The eldest aunt and second aunt who have already married, because they have no grandfather and no brothers, are also troubled by their mother-in-law's family in every way, and they are angry and return to their parents' house. Looking at her daughter's bruised arm, she could only wipe her tears with her daughter: "If you have a brother, you will definitely be angry, mother, I didn't do anything good in my last life, and the sons I gave birth to died early, so my daughter suffered with it, and my mother is sorry for you." Later, the eldest aunt and the second aunt were wronged, but they only endured it by themselves, and no longer told their grandmother, so that their grandmother was sad. Yu's mother, who had no grandfather and no brothers, and the other six sisters were very competitive, although the married family had a bad life at first, but the aunts insisted on turning this poor life into a rich life, and finally let the people in the village give a thumbs up. They all envy that although their grandmother has no son, she is better off than anyone who has a son, and it is better to have a daughter. But the strong aunts have a weakness, that is, they are very partial to their sons.

In Fangfang's house, the first bowl of rice every time he eats is his younger brother Yu Xiaowei's, and the delicious and delicious food must be the first to be eaten by Yu Xiaowei. Yu Xiaowei can play freely, while Yu Fangfang must wash the dishes and wash the pots and clean up the house after eating. Yu Fangfang resisted many times, but each time it ended with a tragic beating. For this reason, Yu Fangfang not only formed a stubborn and rebellious character since she was a child, but also made her relationship with Yu Xiaowei the same. In junior high school, Yu Fangfang became even more rebellious, and her relationship with her younger brother and mother dropped to a freezing point. Once, because Yu Fangfang was late from school in the afternoon and did not go to the dairy farm to buy milk, Yu's mother immediately reprimanded Yu Fangfang. Yu Fangfang was angry, and ran to scold Yu Xiaowei, Yu's mother saw that her baby son was being bullied, and immediately took a broom to beat Yu Fangfang, and Yu Fangfang, who was beaten, was anxious, and ran to the police station near their home to call the police to arrest her mother. This made Yu's mother cry for a while, her daughter was older, her wings were hard, and she was lawless. Since then, Yu's mother has been even more disgusted with Fangfang, and her relatives and friends have said that Yu Fangfang is useless. Once cousin Wang Juan asked Yu Fangfang coldly: "You beat the sixth aunt." Yu Fangfang, who was angry, almost vomited blood.

Because of these, Yu Fangfang didn't get along with boys in school, and hated boys to the core. The boys in the class are not easy to provoke Yu Fangfang. It wasn't until the third year of junior high school that a boy named Zhou Yu came to the class. Zhou Yu is different from other boys in the class, he always speaks gently and politely to girls, and he is loved by many girls after coming to the class for a week.

The first time Zhou Yu talked to Yu Fangfang was to borrow lyrics from Yu Fangfang. At that time, Yu Fangfang's biggest hobby was copying lyrics, especially when she felt lonely after a quarrel with her mother, she would use copying lyrics to alleviate this mood. So Yu Fangfang's lyrics book has the most songs. It was a winter afternoon, and after the first self-study class in the afternoon, most of the students went to go freely. Yu Fangfang was lying on the table and was thinking about the quarrel with her mother at noon, suspecting that she might not be her mother's child to be treated differently, thinking of this, Yu Fangfang burst into tears. At this moment, a gentle and nice male voice sounded: "Hello Yu Fangfang, I heard from my classmates that your lyrics book is very complete, can you borrow me to copy the lyrics?" In the past, as long as a boy borrowed something from her, Yu Fangfang might not have raised her head and refused directly, not to mention that she was in a super bad mood today. But that day, for the first time, she did not refuse. It may be that gentle voice that warmed her heart and made her raise her head without wiping her tears. When she raised her head, she was greeted by a pair of smiling and sincere faces, and it was the first time for Yu Fangfang to look at a boy so seriously, and she actually blushed her face. Yu Fangfang hurriedly took out her lyrics book and gave it to Zhou Yu. This made Zhou Yu suddenly a popular figure in the class. Zhou Yu was the first boy to borrow Yu Fangfang's lyrics, which was completely impossible before.

Later, Zhou Yu changed places with others and sat in Yu Fangfang's group and became a member of Yu Fangfang's group. Every time Yu Fangfang checked the texts and memorized concepts, Zhou Yu always dragged on last, just to be alone with Yu Fangfang. Yu Fangfang knew that Zhou Yu liked herself, and she also knew that she liked Zhou Yu, but because of her hatred and resistance to boys for so many years, Yu Fangfang didn't know how to get along with this boy. Only every time I checked the text, Yu Fangfang lowered her head and listened, Zhou Yu carried it, sometimes Zhou Yu suddenly stopped, Yu Fangfang looked up at him, and always saw him looking at himself with a gentle smile, at this time Yu Fangfang's heart was as sweet as eating honey, and Zhou Yu smiled and looked at each other.

The class held a New Year's Day party, and Zhou Yu deliberately engaged in a program of drawing New Year's cards. The whole class prepared greeting cards and numbered them. At the end of the New Year's Day party, each student drew a number, and then took the number to the class president to get the greeting card to which the number belonged. That day, Yu Fangfang got Zhou Yu's, Zhou Yu got Yu Fangfang's, and Yu Fangfang understood that there were not so many coincidences in this world. I was secretly happy in my heart. Zhou Yu is excellent, Yu Fangfang knows, and other girls also know. Later, a girl from a primary grade came to Zhou Yu, and Wan Qing, who was closest to Yu Fangfang, also told Yu Fangfang that Zhou Yu was chasing her.

Yu Fangfang was born with a sense of insecurity. Yu Fangfang didn't want to embarrass herself, and she didn't give Zhou Yu a chance to explain, so she didn't get along with Zhou Yu from then on, making Zhou Yu at a loss. This first love also died unexpectedly.

Many years later, Yu Fangfang couldn't help but feel sad when she thought of this relationship. Because her mother favored her son, Yu Fangfang hated Yu Xiaowei and hated all boys. There is also a prejudice against boys. also developed a sense of distrust for Zhou Yu. Emotionally, Yu Fangfang has a serious sense of insecurity, which is more obvious in her later life.

went to high school, although Yu Fangfang was no longer in the same boat as boys, she still got along with boys coldly, and the boys in the class called her Ice Beauty behind her back. The teacher also transferred a few male tables to her, but in the end, she was scared away by Yu Fangfang's cold expression and fierce eyes.

When she was in college, although Yu Fangfang slowly eliminated her dislike for boys, she never took the initiative to communicate with boys. However, when a boy takes the initiative to talk to her, she can also talk and laugh with others. It's a big improvement from before. But the relationship with his younger brother Yu Xiaowei is still strained. After going to college, Yu's mother would often call Yu Fangfang to ask for warmth, whether she suddenly left her and went to school so far away, she still had a lot of worries in her heart. Yu Fangfang was a little alienated from her mother.

After the college entrance examination results came out, Yu Fangfang's exam was not very ideal, after coming out of the Internet café, it was obviously a hot summer, but Yu Fangfang felt cold all over her body, and she needed to wear a down jacket to resist the cold that soaked into the bone marrow. Yu Fangfang was walking on the street in a trance, and bumped into her cousin Song Rong head-on. Song Rong grabbed Yu Fangfang and said, "Aunt Sixth is looking for Xiaowei again, have you seen Xiaowei?" ”

Yu Fangfang shook her head and said she didn't know.

Song Rong saw that Yu Fangfang's face was sallow, her expression was in a trance, and her hands were extremely cold. Hurriedly called the sixth aunt and told Yu Fangfang's situation.

Unexpectedly, the sixth aunt didn't care about Yu Fangfang at all, but said: "You hurry up to the sixth aunt to find Xiaowei, Xiaowei is very serious, if you don't do well in the exam this time, you can take the exam next time, he must not have anything to do, if he has something, I won't be able to live." Yu Fangfang is a big-hearted person, leave her alone, nothing can happen to her. If something happens to her, I'll have less of a burden. Because the mobile phone was turned on speakerphone, hearing the sixth aunt say this, Song Rong looked at Yu Fangfang embarrassedly, Yu Fangfang smiled at Song Rong when she heard this and said, "It's okay, sister." Go find Xiaowei. Hasn't my mom always been like this, I'm used to it. ”

Song Rong always knew that the sixth aunt didn't like Yu Fangfang, but she didn't expect it to be such a dislike.

Yu Fangfang knew that if her grades were not good, she would be taken by Yu's mother to attend a local normal college with no tuition fees. is to follow the path that her mother has chosen for her. Actually, it's good to be a teacher. But at that time, Yu Fangfang only thought about leaving this home, and the farther away the better. Later, she spent a lot of effort to fill in a foreign school, although she was slapped by Yu's mother in front of outsiders. But he finally got his wish and stayed away from that home. Yu Fangfang thought that it would be better if she left that home, but the endless loneliness and loneliness always accompanied her, and her heart was like a rootless duckweed, floating around.

Yu Fangfang knew that she had always longed for family affection in her heart, but she had always been like an outsider to that person.