Chapter 165: Afraid
Situ Mo knew that she couldn't avoid this, she raised her hand and swept her hair, cleared her throat and said seriously, "I know that you spoil me and want me to live happily under your protection, but I want to prove myself by my own efforts and strength, I don't want one day I succeed, and others still point to me and say that I rely on unspoken rules to get to the top." β
"So what?" Gong Zhanchuan raised his eyebrows, gritted his teeth, and swept a trace of yin owl under his eyes, "Are you putting yourself in this situation?" Do you know what kind of public opinion will be triggered after such a message is issued? β
"I don't care what public opinion it will cause...... Situ Mo snorted sourly from the corners of his eyes, "I just want to be myself, I can't live so comfortably behind me, I can't be so selfish, I can't do it!" β
As she spoke, a trace of pain flashed under her eyes, "I thought about ignoring the past, never remembering it again, it is this ostrich mentality that causes me to be hurt again and again......"
Recalling the experience of the past few months, recalling Fu Zhilei's cruel eyes, and the eyes full of hatred that have been haunting her in the past few months, she is really uneasy.
"I'm not going to let you get hurt again, so I'll leave it all to me, okay?" Gong Zhanchuan said softly.
"No, that's the only thing I can do to Yunxi...... I have only now realized that it turns out that it is not to endure to stop the war, but to make yourself stronger, and I don't want to be a burden to you. β
As he spoke, Situ Mo leaned his head against his strong chest, "Maybe this process will be difficult, but with you, Rui Rui, and grandma supporting me, I will definitely be fine." β
Gong Zhanchuan cupped her face and looked at her seriously, "So, in fact, you have already remembered it and recovered your memory, right?" β
A wry smile rose at the corner of Situ Mo's mouth, "Why can't I escape your eyes......"
"When?"
"From the last time Rui Rui was kidnapped...... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hide it from you......"
The last time the little milk bag was kidnapped, she was pushed down the stairs by the middle-aged man, and the fear in her heart rose to the highest point at that time, and her brain boomed, and she instantly remembered that noon seven years ago......
That situation, I'm afraid Situ Mo will never forget it for the rest of his life, the fear and horror, the fear that his heart seems to jump out, the helplessness that he has clearly grasped, but he still can't stop the tragedy.
Situ Mo was afraid of losing, she was so scared that she couldn't bear it at all! This is also when she worked in the restaurant before, she has always been alone and not close to her colleagues, she is obviously very kind, and she never cares about tiredness and hardship at work, but she has no friends.
The temperament shown is cold, and she doesn't like to interact with people, and her colleagues thought that because she had just been released from prison, she had a more eccentric personality, or she was more inferior and didn't like to deal with people.
Actually, not, because she felt that without possession, there would be no loss, no hope, no despair, and the pain of seven years ago, she could not bear it a second time.
She is not so strong, and she can live after being released from prison, also for her grandmother.
"Do you remember our past? Do you remember everything? β
Gong Zhanchuan's eyes showed a hint of expectation, during her amnesia, he had taken her to City A and the secret base that belonged to the two of them, so ......
Situ Mo looked at him with some puzzlement, "What? β
Catching a glimpse of the incomprehension and confusion in her eyes, Gong Zhanchuan's eyes were gloomy, and he raised his hand to touch her soft hair, "Mo'er...... I often have an urge to pinch you, and she's right, you're really my calamity. β
His tone was full of helplessness, deep pampering and pity, Situ Mo looked up at him, his bright eyes flashed, "She? Who? β
"The point of this sentence is obviously that I want to pinch you." Gong Zhanchuan had a helpless smile in the corner of his eyes.
Situ Mo pretended to frown, and a bright smile rose at the corner of his mouth, "I think this is not only not the point, but also negligible. β
"Huh?" Gong Zhanchuan raised an eyebrow.
"Because I know you're reluctant, including this time, you won't be angry, will you?" Situ Mo sat up straight and looked at him seriously, his eyes full of supplication and expectation.
Hearing this, a hint of gloom flashed in Gong Zhanchuan's eyes, and he sighed slightly, "So, what do you want to do without me?" β
"After recovering my memory, I thought about it a lot, and I found that maybe only in this way can I protect myself, protect my grandmother, and not let you worry about me, I'm sorry ......"
Fu Zhilei was extremely afraid of her stepping into the entertainment industry from the beginning, she was unsteady and apprehensive in her heart, Situ Mo understood in her heart, but she once thought that if she was indifferent, she would be calm, even if she couldn't go back to the past with Fu Zhilei, at least the well water would not interfere with the river water.
Unexpectedly, she ignored the ugly side of human nature, Fu Zhilei has reached today's status, Situ Mo is the biggest threat to her, reminding her of the past every minute.
The proud Fu Zhilei, the vain Fu Zhilei, only allows herself to stand high above the clouds Fu Zhilei...... There is no such obstacle allowed, so she does everything she can to remove the obstacle.
Therefore, amnesia may be a protective barrier for Situ Mo, right?
It wasn't until the day of the car accident, recalling Mo Yihan's gloomy tone, that Situ Mo realized how naΓ―ve and stupid his original thoughts were! How could she have a glimmer of hope for someone whose humanity had been extinguished?
In this way, not only did she put her grandmother in a dangerous situation, but even she couldn't take care of herself, which often made Gong Zhanchuan worried.
What's more, this is unfair to Yunxi, I'm afraid she can't rest in peace under Jiuquan, right?
Thinking about it, Situ Moyu raised his eyes to look at him, and suddenly said, "Why do you never ask me why I was imprisoned back then?" β
Hearing this, Gong Zhanchuan's body instantly felt a chill to the bone, his slender eyes narrowed slightly, and his voice suddenly became cold, "Why do you ask?" β
"Why don't you ask?" Situ Mo said eagerly, "How many times have I wanted to tell you, but I can't open my mouth, and you, why don't you ask?" β
"Didn't you already say that?" Gong Zhanchuan's eyebrows were slightly raised, and his clear eyebrows were slightly raised.
Situ Mo recalled that when he signed the contract, he seemed to have said it?
"But ......"
Suddenly, she didn't want to talk anymore, and she became more and more determined in her thoughts. Even if Gong Zhanchuan doesn't mind not caring about her unbearable past, she can't do it herself.
She didn't want to be accused that Gong Zhanchuan's wife was a murderer when she stood by Gong Zhanchuan's side, and she didn't want Rui Rui to be scolded that his mommy had been in prison.
She couldn't, because ...... She loves this man, and she cherishes the happiness of the present.