Chapter 67: After that, you will be alone
The lantern is very beautiful, floating freely in the direction of the river, you think it is carrying your expectations and finding the way back, but in fact you just drop it and let it wander alone.
Reality is cruel, but it is far from being experienced.
As soon as Zhao Yuanfu put down the lantern in his hand, he heard the voice of the person behind him, the voice was always gentle, and the words he said were not necessarily very gentle.
He said, "When you're done putting this lamp down, it's time to put it down."
Akihara knew his thoughts, but when he suddenly heard him say this, his heart was like he was suddenly pricked by a needle, it hurt a little bit more than usual, it hurt a little bit shallowly, just a little bit, no more, no more, and she really let go.
But if she can let go, why does she insist on it for so many years? Liking him has become her obsession.
Isn't it funny? He avoided her like this, and she still wouldn't let go.
It's actually not funny, she knows in her heart that not only will she not let go, but she will also hold him to death and sink with him.
As if he didn't hear his words, he happily used his hand to pluck the cool river water, trying to make his lantern float farther, "Look, my lamp is the farthest floating!" ”
Before she even had time to make a wish, the lantern went away, just go farther, the farther the better, preferably as far as he could be.
The only thing that can answer her is the excitement around her and his silence, if only the silence had a voice, it wouldn't be so hurtful.
"You always don't say anything, you always want to push me away, but if I don't let go, don't you have no way?" She said playfully, but the tears were just disobedient, and the 'tick' fell into the river twice, and there were no ripples on her face.
A shallow sigh came from behind her, and her heart tightened.
Xiao Yuanjun helped the girl who was squatting on the ground with her back to him, patted her dress, and cut her ears and hair, her eyes were gentle, but there was no love.
The hand that had just stirred the river was cool and cool, and now it was wrapped in his big palm, and it was lingering warmth.
The two walked side by side, their fingers interlocked, this was a wonderful feeling, Zhao Yuan couldn't suppress the excitement in his heart, "I wore a platinum jade lotus dress today, it is very similar to your style, they said it suits me very well, it looks good." ”
"You look good in whatever you wear!"
These words made Zhaoyuan's heart bloom with honey when he heard this, and the knowledge and etiquette from the front, and the gentleness and virtue praised by the elders in the family, were all thrown away by her at this moment, like a child who was happy to get what he liked, holding his hand and jumping forward.
There were too many people, Xiao Yuanjun was afraid that she would fall, so he had to pull the person back hard, "Be good, don't make trouble!" ”
Akihara was taken into his arms by his inertia, and listening to his deep voice and chaotic heartbeat, he suddenly blushed and got up from his arms.
Xiao Yuanjun smiled, this girl looks bold, how can she be like a mimosa, it closes when she touches it, in order to avoid the girl's face from continuing to burn, he had to lead the person forward and said, "Let's go!"
The flower, who was still happy just now, followed him shyly, looking at the hand being held from time to time and smirking.
Along the way, they watched shadow puppet shows, ate candy people, guessed lantern riddles, like lovers and beauties of ordinary people's families, and never let go of their hands from beginning to end.
The two walked side by side, walking through the hustle and bustle is walking through the mortal dust, and walking through this life that belongs to them.
Yes, enough.
At the beginning, Xiao Yu'an and Seventeen knew each other in this alley and became close friends, Yiren also walked side by side with Xiao Yu'an, Seventeen and her also snuggled together, and he also persuaded Xiao Shizi to have compassion and not do soft things in the rain.
Their stories are all on this section of the road, looking back, coming and going, all of them are phantoms, there are him, there are seventeen, there are Xiao Yu'an, there is Mr. Su, there is Jingming, there is Xiaojiao, there is Shan Ce, Li Ruyan, Xie Chen, and Gousheng.
The dog was born on this road and ran to death, but Seventeen was reborn on this alley.
The breeze blew, and it began to rain again, hazy, and covered with a layer of mist, and at the end of the alley, there was a fork in the road, and now they stood here, and they had to start making a choice.
There was a burst of dampness and heat in the palms of the hands, and I wonder whose hands were sweaty, or were they not clenched tightly enough to let the drizzle take advantage of the void?
At least Shohara preferred to believe that it was the latter, and held his hand harder, as if in this way, the road could be longer.
But the obsession can last for a long time, but the stubbornness is very strong, and when you let go of your hands, you will leave nothing but residual warmth.
The drizzle blurred the affection, making it unreal, Xiao Yuanjun gave her a haircut, and gently brushed her palm on her face, just like she comforted her when she was a child.
"Let's go back!"
He didn't say that he wouldn't come back after he went back, but Akihara heard it.
The tears that had been held back all the way came out again, and she was forced to press them in her eyes, but she still smiled, "What if I go back and no one accompanies you?"
This smile is too harsh, and this crying voice is too harsh for him, and for the first time in his life, he feels wronged, "It's okay." ”
The tip of your nose is sour, why do you cry?
Zhao Yuan thought that she was going to be the crown princess in the future, and she couldn't cry casually, so she waved his hand, cleaned up her face indiscriminately, and took a step back.
Since she was a child, this is the first time she has looked at him at eye level, when he was a child, he always squatted, she looked down, and when he grew up, he was the prince, and they always missed it.
"I know that I have liked you since I was a child, I want to be your crown princess, I want to accompany you, I want to stand by your side in a dignified manner, I ask you again, do you really dislike me? Ever since I was a child, I've never had a moment of joy?"
Xiao Yuanjun's tone was cold, and he couldn't see his emotions, "It's just the crown princess, what does it matter if I'm happy or not?"
After hearing this, Zhao Yuan's breath stagnated, and he spoke almost unconsciously, "Then, what if I don't ask you to be happy, and only be your crown princess?"
After speaking, she knew what she had said, but there was no regret medicine in the world, and she really wanted to know the answer.
Xiao Yuanjun didn't expect her to say such a thing, what a proud person she is, why did she say such a thing? His heart was suddenly twisted, and he didn't even notice it, he was more distressed than angry, and his voice trembled, "Zhaoyuan, don't belittle yourself like this." ”
Cheap? It turns out that in his eyes, she is cheapening herself?
Yes, what a proud person she is, between them, they have always been equal, this is what he has always hoped for, and what she has always insisted on, but today, in the end, let him down.
For some reason, the place I saw was full of desolation, and I probably felt that my heart had become a wasteland.
This sentence was cheap, pulling back her last bit of pride, she wiped away her tears, spread her long sleeves, and curtsied her knees and made a big salute, "His Royal Highness Prince Zhaoyuan Xie." ”
Then she resolutely turned away, this was her last self-esteem, and she couldn't let him see her cry.
She is the lord of Zhaoyuan, and her mother told her that there is a princess in the palace who is very pitiful, can't come out to play, can't meet people casually, and asked her to go into the palace to accompany her.
She went, but the palace was not fun at all, the princess's teacher was very strict, and her schoolwork was very boring, she was often punished, she wanted to leave the palace, but the princess was very good to her, and she was really pitiful, she was reluctant, so she stayed in the palace.
But no one played with them, only the prince's brother, who would take them to skip class, take them to fish, climb rockeries, and squat to comfort her when she was punished by the teacher.
Later, he came less and less, and the princess said that he was the crown prince and had a lot of things to be busy with, and she felt that he was very pitiful, and he had to do so many things at such a young age, so she proudly said that he would be his crown princess in the future and help him share the burden.
This happened to be heard by the prince who had just entered the house, he touched her head, and his voice was gentle: "The crown princess has a lot of things to do, let's be your stupid girl!"
She didn't accept it, but she didn't say anything, she swore in her heart that she must let him look at her as she was, so she worked silently for so many years, doing business, being in charge, being a female celebrity, and nothing was left behind, but in the end, she still couldn't get a word of joy from him.
It's false to say that she is not sad, after all, she is the person she liked when she was young, she cried tonight, she is not allowed to cry tomorrow, her makeup must be beautiful, her clothes must be new, and she will be that silly girl.
Xiao Yuanjun looked at the shadow, he had no umbrella, and he had no warmth to give her, only when she turned around, the unstoppable nostalgia and end in her eyes.
The garment suited her well, and it matched him well.
In the future, without her, he will be alone.
She is very good, very suitable to be his crown princess, and he is very happy with her.
It's not cheap, it's a grievance.
But he couldn't tell her all this, so he told you everything.
Say to her again, "See you in the next life." ”
Runyu fell in his eyes, and he accidentally integrated into tears, there was nothing vigorous between them, not even the so-called thin water, he acted like this, but he seemed to be hypocritical.
He kept watching, until the figure disappeared into the rain, and then he spoke, "Qi Zheng." ”
Shen Qizheng didn't know where to jump out, and stood a meter away from him with an expressionless face.
"From now on, I'll be alone."
In the future, without you by my side, I will be alone.
Shen Qizheng listened, suddenly paused, and moved his gaze to the alley, and the sound of rain was in his ears.
Xiao Yuanjun walked back to the starting point from the end of the alley, when they came, they interlocked their fingers, and when they went, he was only accompanied by a drizzle.
He was at the other end of the alley, after a long time, gave her this gift, and also returned a salute to her, his long arms outstretched, his back bent, and his hands were wrong, "Miss Changqing Xie is happy." ”
Since then, he has turned away, resolutely chic, and has never had a little nostalgia.
She can do a lot of things in her life, but he can only do one thing, once this trip is gone, the return is slim, but he can't miss the girl's house.
If there is a fate to meet again in the next life, he will definitely be a disciple of Meng Lang again, stalking and beating the girl, making the girl bored, so he will obey him.
In the future, she was a silly girl, he was a silly girl's father-in-law, laundry and cooking, and the parents were short and lively.
I hope that I will not give birth to this emperor's family in the next life, and my greatest expectation for life is only in firewood, rice, oil and salt.
Sacrifice this life, call for peace and prosperity.