Chapter 191: Deliberate
Or maybe it's as if he's accepted that everything is a thing of the past and that it's not worth caring about.
"It's me who should apologize, I broke your thing, I should find a way to restore it to its original state, is your depression also because of her death?"
Although Tang Manman had already guessed, he still couldn't help but ask for verification.
Sure enough, Xu Yinlong nodded.
"Since Xiaoyu left me, for me, I have lost the only person in the world who understands me, and I used to want to leave with her."
"But every time I think about my commitment to her, I can't bear to leave this world because I don't want her to disappoint me."
Xu Yinlong raised his head and looked at Tang Manman's gaze seriously, but his gaze was full of tenderness, which made Tang Manman a little uncomfortable.
"Actually, as early as the first time I saw you, I had already made up my mind, I must make you better, I will never let you endure the torture of depression."
Tang Manman heard that there was something in Xu Yinlong's words, so he looked puzzled.
"Why? Why was it so sure when you first met me? Tang Manman hesitated.
But soon, Xu Yinlong put a photo in front of her.
All the questions were answered.
Tang Manman looked at the photo of Xu Yinlong and Xiaoyu in the photo, and there was a little shadow of Xiaoyu on her face.
Perhaps this is the reason why Xu Yinlong has a different attitude towards her.
"You think I look a lot like her, so you think I'm her stand-in, right?" Tang Manman suddenly realized that all Xu Yinlong's previous kindness to himself and all his understanding of himself was because he regarded her as Xiaoyu's shadow.
This didn't have any impact on Tang Manman, but she didn't want Xu Yinlong to continue to deceive herself.
Since Xiaoyu has left this world, it proves that Xiaoyu will never come back.
And she is Tang Manman, not a stand-in for anyone, and definitely not Xiaoyu.
"Although the two of you look alike, there is an essential difference between the two of you, and I didn't confuse it." Xu Yinlong's faint words were full of deep meaning.
Tang Manman looked at the photo in his hand.
She thought of Tang Xi, who had left her, maybe she and Xu Yinlong really shared the same disease.
"Actually, you may not know that I originally had a twin sister, she and I looked exactly the same, we have been dependent on each other since childhood, and we have always been together."
"The person who was standing in front of you should have been her, not me."
Tang Manman's tone was full of loss, Tang Xi also left her world, no matter how much she missed Tang Xi, Tang Xi would not appear.
"I never thought that there would be people in this world who are as miserable as me." Hearing Tang Manman's words, Xu Yinlong's tone was full of surprise.
But this is just right, maybe he can warm up with Tang Manman.
Tang Manman smiled and returned the photo to Xu Yinlong.
"I understand that you have been missing Xiaoyu in your heart, maybe you will never be able to forget her in your life, but I still have to say the most cliché words, please mourn."
"And Xiaoyu has left this world, if she is still alive, she must not want to see you like this today, you still have to be strong as soon as possible."
Tang Manman comforted Xu Yinlong, she could understand Xu Yinlong's pain at this moment, just like when she had just lost Tang Xi.
Xu Yinlong's pain gave her a sense of empathy.
Xu Yinlong took the photo handed over by Tang Manman, raised his head, and saw Tang Manman's concerned gaze, which made him feel warm.
"I'm sorry, Manman, I always used you as a stand-in for Xiaoyu, and from the moment I first met you, I wanted to take good care of you."
"That's why I'm quietly following you, hoping to show up in time when you need me."
Xu Yinlong generously admitted that his so-called chance encounter with Tang Manman during this period of time was actually just his ulterior motives.
When he saw Tang Manman, he had already regarded Tang Manman as the second Xiaoyu.
And in essence, he felt that there might be a new development between him and Tang Manman.
Tang Manman heard Xu Yinlong's sincere words, and smiled faintly, "I know, I understand all your feelings now, so don't worry, I won't blame you for what happened today." ”
"But I also hope that you can slowly come out of the shadow of the past, and we can accompany each other and heal each other's hearts together."
Tang Manman gently patted Xu Yinlong's shoulder.
She desperately wanted to get her healed as soon as possible, and she didn't want to endure such mental torture anymore.
So she felt that Xu Yinlong should also look forward to getting better as soon as possible.
But what Tang Manman didn't know was that as early as a few months ago, Xu Yinlong had been secretly planning their encounter.
As early as a few months ago, Xu Yinlong had heard of the name Tang Manman, and had also seen Tang Manman's photos.
Perhaps from that moment on, Xu Yinlong had already decided to approach Tang Manman.
Xu Yinlong got up and left Tang Manman's dormitory, and the memories of a few months ago came to his mind.
At that time, he was tormented by severe depression, and as her cousin, Feng Yanshi also called to ask for warmth.
He heard Tang Manman's name from Feng Yanshi's mouth, and he kept this name in his heart, he looked up information about Tang Manman on the Internet, and saw Tang Manman's appearance.
The moment he saw Tang Manman's photo, he regarded Tang Manman as Xiaoyu.
So he desperately hoped that he could see Tang Manman as soon as possible.
Soon he also learned that when Tang Manman came to the mountains to teach, he happened to meet Gu Mian's plan to go into the mountains to shoot a movie.
So he recommended himself, hoping that Gu Mian could give him a chance.
But Gu Mian also knew that he was suffering from severe depression, so Gu Mian was full of worries.
It's just that this movie is very difficult to shoot, so Gu Mian can't think about it so much, so he let Xu Yinlong stay in the crew and give him the opportunity to meet Tang Manman.
After this active conversation with Xu Yinlong, Tang Manman slowly realized that if he didn't cure his condition as soon as possible, her condition would become more and more serious.
So Tang Manman decided not to run away anymore, maybe she had to leave her job temporarily.
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