Xi Ruo stopped crying, and listened to him quietly with red eyes: "When they gave birth to me, they had great courage, thinking of betting that their children would not have ALS, but unfortunately I was diagnosed by the doctor as soon as I was born, but these did not affect me at the time, I went to school happily with Zile, that is, my childhood sweetheart, her parents and my parents were close friends, and then soon after entering elementary school, my mother died of a worse condition, and then my father was also hit hard, The illness also worsened and passed away, none of them lived past the age of forty, and then my parents' friends raised me, and somehow the news spread that I had ALS at school, and my classmates avoided me like a plague, only Zile still accompanied me every day, always holding my hand······ Sometimes it always feels like my mother, she and I are as close as a biological brother and sister, but she and I are not related by blood, in junior high school, the four of us drove outside to play, and then there was a car accident, because I was in the back seat with Zile, I protected her in the corner at the moment of the rollover, and we survived, but her parents were ······ After that day, she rarely had contact with the outside world, and she didn't go to school, but it was nothing, with me, she wouldn't be wronged, no adults, the family lost its source of income, and I went to Zile's relatives, but some said they had no money, and some didn't see it at all, and there was nothing left at home for a while, and we were both hungry, she gave me the last bread, I let her eat, she didn't want to, we were entangled like this for a long time, and finally divided the bread equally······"

When Xi Ruo heard this, he asked softly: "I remember that the government has a relief ······."

"Yes, of course there is," Li Kewen smiled bitterly, "But what's the use of that song for a few hundred gold?" There are also some charitable organizations that want to fund us, but the condition is that we are allowed to take pictures, take a few photos of us showing gratitude and accepting the funding with a humble smile, I don't want my dignity and Zile to be insulted, so I decisively sold the house left by my parents, and I would occasionally go back to live in her house before, completely moved out and lived in her house, and sold 500,000 gold, and then I used this as a basis, and slowly learned to buy stocks, invest, and now I live a worry-free life······"

"Kewen, that ······ Do you blame your parents? Xi Ruo wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes and asked.

"How could I blame them?" Li Kewen smiled gently, his gaze became very soft, "On the contrary, I am very grateful to them, the deep and pure love between them, I can feel it now, my father is from the imperial capital of the north, my mother is from the south, they fell in love unexpectedly, a postman handed my mother's letter wrong, so my father began to write to my mother, and gradually both of them learned about each other's condition, and for a while they were wondering whether to love each other, because the ending is unavoidably sad, But my father wrote a poem to my mother, and then they were together, and soon they got married, and with me - the flowers will eventually wither, the leaves will eventually wither, and the world will eventually enter reincarnation, but what does it matter to us whether the world is destroyed or not? Since we love each other in this life, why should we care about the past life and the next life······"

"Xiruo, they brought me into this world, although my life is short, I can still feel the beauty of the world, and the beauty is around me," Li Kewen stared into her eyes, "Remember when I told you what I think is the meaning of life - holding hands with the girl I like, kissing the mouth, snuggling together, and thinking about marriage in the future, but my short life does not allow me to get this meaning, so I thought I wanted other people to get the meaning of life, so I joined' Forward Tech's organization, because I want to make the world a better place, not the way it is now, people are numb and fanatical, obeying the imperial government like slaves, and everyone has the right to pursue a happy and beautiful life! And not for the sake of those who are in the upper echelons! ”

"Shameful ······" Her eyes were already full of tears, Li Kewen hugged her tightly again, "I also hope that you can also live happily, in my heart, you are a beautiful girl, I don't want you to be like that, it is my honor to meet you······"

"Kewen," Xi Ruo broke free from his arms and held back tears, "Don't say it, the scenery hasn't been seen yet, I still want to see it!" ”

Li Kewen was slightly stunned, and smiled softly: "Okay, let's continue to see the scenery······"

Walking into the Scarborough Market, there were more people coming and going, Xi Ruo kept holding Li Kewen's hand, refusing to let go, and then she saw an old grandmother selling flowers, many of which she couldn't name, so she turned her head and whispered to Li Kewen: "Kewen, I want to buy a few flowers, can I?" ”

"Of course, as long as you like." Li Kewen said with a smile.

Xi Ruo let go of his hand, walked to the old grandmother and asked her for the names of those flowers, Li Kewen looked around and saw a gray-haired old man sitting on the street, his expression was indifferent, his eyes were misty, as if he did not belong to this world.

Li Kewen walked up to him: "Old man, can I sit down next to you?" ”

"Of course, young man," the old man smiled kindly, "please be seated." ”

Li Kewen sat down and looked at Xi Ruo, who seemed to be trying to pin flowers to her hair under the guidance of her grandmother, and looked much happier.

"Child," asked the old man suddenly, "is she your lover?" ”

Li Kewen hesitated: "She is my friend." ”

"How can a friend of the opposite sex hold hands," said the old man with a smile, "don't be shy." ”

"She and I are really not a couple," Li Kewen was a little helpless, "I ······ with her." Can't be together······"

"Why? The family doesn't allow it? The old man asked a little mischievously.

"Not so much······ "It's just that my country will not allow such a beautiful thing to exist in the world, and I think that if I want to change all this, I have to send her to a safe place." ”

The old man was silent for a while, and a subtle golden light flashed in his pupils: "Do you believe that there is a god in this world?" ”

"God?" Li Kewen was stunned for a moment, "If it refers to a righteous force that transcends all forces, I don't think it exists." ”

"Why?"

"If God really exists," Li Kewen's voice became low, "those so-called leaders above should have been eliminated a long time ago, but they didn't, so there is no such God." ”

"Why do you hate those leaders so much?" The old man was a little puzzled.

"They want to enslave everyone except their upper echelons," Li Kewen said, "they are hypocritical, they have no one in their eyes, they use the excuse of inspection, they actually look for pleasure everywhere, they shake hands with civilians with the attitude of charity, to hypocritically show that they love the people, the environment is deteriorating, they can falsify data to deceive themselves, they also call on people to fight for the country, in fact, they fight for their rotten life, they use to control public opinion, control cultural transmission, They want to destroy the good things in this world and make people more ignorant and unconditionally obedient to them, and they all deserve to die! ”

The old man sighed: "Child, do you want to be a god?" ”

"Become a god?" Li Kewen shook his head, "No, I don't want to." ”

"If you become a god, then you can have the power to sanction those leaders, why wouldn't you?" The old man was even more puzzled.

"In fact, in my opinion, if there really is such a thing as a god, then they must be the saddest creatures in the world," Li Kewen said softly, "Although we mortals cannot live forever and have seven emotions and six desires, we can grow old with the people we love deeply, with gray hair, and watch the flowers bloom and fall together, but those gods can't help it, if they don't have seven emotions and six desires, then they are no different from machines, if they have seven emotions and six desires, then they must have a girl or boy in love." However, their eternal life will also become a curse at this time, so that they will live forever and can only watch the people they love die, so I say ······" Li Kewen looked at Xi Ruo, she was smiling happily, her face bloomed with a beautiful flush, and there were unknown gorgeous flowers pinned to her head, "God is the saddest thing in the world." ”

"Child, you have a different opinion than others," said the old man, "and others are too late to become gods, but you say that gods are sad creatures." ”

"Probably because I don't live long, and I see things from a different angle," Li Kewen shrugged, "This is the dialectics of science." ”

The old man nodded and smiled: "Okay, I think if there are more people like you in this world, I think the so-called leaders above can't control their thoughts at all." ”

"By the way, old man," Li Kewen suddenly remembered a question, "You shouldn't have thought control on your side, right?" ”

"Where can we take care of our poor country?" The old man said, "Son, that girl seems to like you very much, and you must cherish it!" ”

At this time, Li Kewen smelled a faint fragrance of flowers, he turned his head, and saw Xi Ruozheng smiling and looking at himself, those things just now didn't seem to have happened, she said softly: "Kewen, can you put this flower on me?" She handed a white flower to Li Kewen, who had seen it, and it was the calla lily on the field just now.

Li Kewen wanted to make her happy: "Of course. Then he carefully tried to pin the flower to her already tied hair, and after a long time before he barely pinned it, he brushed the hair on his cheeks, and his face turned crimson: "Kewen, am I good-looking?" ”

Li Kewen was stunned for a while, and said a little dumbfounded: "Good looking······" It's really good-looking, Li Kewen doesn't know what words to use to describe it, the word "beautiful" seems too vulgar, maybe "beautiful like a blooming orchid" is appropriate, right?

Xi Ruo smiled shyly, then she approached Li Kewen's face, closed her eyes, Li Kewen stood there motionless, for a long time, he gently hugged her, and did not kiss her: "Xi Ruo, let's go back, it's been a few days." ”

Xi Ruo gently broke free from his arms, and his eyes were red: "Oh······"