Chapter 72: The Mask of Love
Today, Zhuo Lefeng didn't wait for Liu Jingjing to get off work, he left at the end of the day, and he didn't agree to Le Zeying's request to call him to eat and drink together, because Zhuo Lefeng was going to see Yu Feina.
I haven't seen him for two days, but Yu Feina's information has never been broken with Zhuo Lefeng, in addition to the process of exchanging psychological counseling, Yu Feina also knew that Zhuo Lefeng was injured, and when she saw a limping man walking into the store, Yu Feina was really distressed, and hurriedly stepped forward to check, and greeted softly with the posture of a little woman.
Zhuo Lefeng responded: "It's okay, a little problem is no big deal!" How about we have a meal and watch a movie together in the evening! ”
"Okay!" Yu Feina smiled happily, all this was the arrangement she wanted!
Her mind was already clear, Zhuo Lefeng suddenly broke into her life, and knew everything about her, she had become interested in this man, and then had feelings. She felt that Zhuo Lefeng also had a good impression of her, otherwise why would she always be close to herself and always accompany her to make her happy. Yu Feina felt that there was only a layer of window paper between the two of them, and as long as they pierced, they could hold hands.
Romantic dinner, warm movies, everything made Yu Feina feel that this is dating, this is love, except for Zhuo Lefeng who did not confess, or spoke thoroughly. She was waiting for that sentence, but she waited for the movie to end, Zhuo Lefeng sent her home, and the words of expectation never came out of the man's mouth.
If they don't say it, they don't know for sure, so in what capacity will they be in contact tomorrow? Yu Feina's mind was full of Zhuo Lefeng's shadow, and she didn't want to experience the days when she hadn't seen Zhuo Lefeng for two days again.
"Do you like me?" couldn't hold back her heart, and before parting, Yu Feina finally broke the balance first.
Zhuo Lefeng actually guessed Yu Feina's heart, but he didn't expect Yu Feina to say it at this moment. After a moment of silence, Zhuo Lefeng gently stroked the pretty face, and the shadow of another person flashed in his mind, and that shadow flickered far and near, lingering.
Looking at Zhuo Lefeng in a daze, Yu Feina was curious: "What's wrong with you?" Is this question difficult for you to answer? ”
Zhuo Lefeng shook his head: "It's not difficult to answer, but I can't answer you now!" ”
"Why?" Yu Feina's eyes were slightly red, and her inquiring eyes were searching for answers, "I can feel that you like me, but why are you afraid to go one step further with me?" Zhuo Lefeng, could it be that you have other secrets, or do you have other women? ”
"Don't guess!"
"Why can't I guess!" Yu Feina said angrily, "Could it be that the purpose of your approach to me is only because of my brother? ”
This sentence made Zhuo Lefeng hurriedly clear up: "I can't answer you now, because I haven't completely let go of someone in my heart!" ”
"So, it's still because of a woman!" Yu Feina bit her red lip lightly, her eyes were shining, and after smiling slightly, she nodded at Zhuo Lefeng and turned to leave.
If you completely abandon a woman after using it, is Zhuo Lefeng a scumbag? The answer to this question couldn't be more obvious! If Zhuo Lefeng really did this, in his heart, how was he different from Jiang Junyan? He did approach Yu Feina with the purpose of approaching Yu Youtai, and because he wanted to complete the goal, he deliberately made Yu Feina feel his care and sense of security, which allowed Yu Feina to get out of Fregley's delusional syndrome. Now Yu Feina has developed a real good impression of Zhuo Lefeng under his step-by-step operation, at this time Zhuo Lefeng wants to break up the relationship with her, so what is Zhuo Lefeng?
"So you're finally confused about feelings! Oh, this question is really tricky for you, because you have not been good at dealing with emotional problems! On the back mountain, Hu Chuguang made a kind joke in the face of the tangled students, and he also reminded, "But don't forget your identity!" ”
"Of course I haven't forgotten who I am, but I can't ignore Yu Feina's eyes! It would be cruel if I refused outright, but if I accepted ......"
"If you accept? Zhuo Lefeng, in fact, you already have the answer in your heart, you just want me to give you a step! ”
"No, Lao Hu, I'm just ......"
"Alright, don't say it! You're not my first undercover agent, so I'm well aware that undercover agents tend to have real feelings for their goals when they are on missions. This is why, during the undercover training, the instructor will repeatedly remind the undercover officers not to be affected by the undercover mask personality and lose their true selves. The vast majority of undercover agents distinguish between personality masks. But there are also people who carry out tasks after surviving with masks, and in the end they can't take off the masks, causing them to forget what they were like at the beginning. Zhuo Lefeng, I don't want you to forget who you are, of course, I also need to make you understand that if you want the mission to continue to go smoothly, many times, damage and disguise will accompany you! ”
The word personality mask comes from the Greek word for a mask worn to enable an actor to play a particular role in a play. From the perspective of psychoanalysis, the Swiss psychologist Carl Jung believes that every individual has a personality mask, and if the individual cannot distinguish the personality mask from the real self, it will cause cognitive confusion. After all, the personality mask becomes a mask for controlling the individual's true personality and repeatedly exerts influence on the individual's true personality.
Hu Chuguang's expression is actually already warning Zhuo Lefeng not to forget his position, but at the same time, he is also explaining a cruel reality to Zhuo Lefeng.
"Do you want me to continue to use Yu Fina?" Zhuo Lefeng felt cold all over, "Because in order to get close to Yu Youtai, I can't make Yu Feina resist me!" ”
"Compared with Tan Feifei, Yu Feina is more difficult for you to refuse, because Yu Feina is more beautiful, more gentle, and can have a lot of common language with you, in fact, you already like Yu Feina! I didn't stop you from continuing to like her! ”
"But you just told me so much!"
"Falling in love with Yu Fei Na is not contradictory to making you not forget your identity! Zhuo Lefeng, you are an extremely smart person, but often when dealing with emotional problems, you are too immature, and you often mess with yourself! At this point, you really have to learn more from Jiang Junyan! ”
"And him?" Zhuo Lefeng frowned, "Why do you want to compare me to him!" ”
Hu Chuguang said: "You and him actually have a lot in common. It's just that you don't want to admit it! ”
"No way, I'm me, he's him! I'll never be able to get along with him! ”
"Is it because of that woman? So keep you holding a grudge against him all the time! ”
Zhuo Lefeng stared at each other and questioned, "Have you investigated me?" ”
"Before using an undercover agent, knowing his roots is a basic operation! I'm sure I'll look into you, you should be able to imagine that! But you shouldn't have expected that I only learned a lot about you from Jiang Junyan's mouth! Before Jiang Junyan came out of the detention center, I went to him and chatted with him for a long time, especially about the festival between you! At first, he was reluctant to say more, but in the end, he gave me face as a teacher and told me some inside information! That's when I realized that that woman really had a profound impact on you, and that she was the only woman you had ever seriously loved. ”
"Enough! Stop it! Zhuo Lefeng looked manic after interrupting, "Jiang Junyan, that bastard is full of nonsense, what objective evaluation can he say!" ”
"I don't know if he's objective or not, but I know that you haven't come out of that shadow! Even if you really like Yu Feina now, you will never be able to step out of her shadow! Hu Chuguang stepped forward, approached and put it in Zhuo Lefeng's ear and said, "I'm not an emotional expert, but I've often heard people say that if you want to get out of a relationship, the best way is to start another relationship, but it is often difficult for people with shadows to start a new relationship." You are very lucky, you first met Tan Feifei, and then met Yu Feina! Tan Feifei shook your thoughts, and Yu Feina really touched your heart! I am your upline, your teacher and friend. In addition to work, I will also care about your personal issues! So I want to say to you, if you really like it, be bold and love, but don't forget my previous warning! ”
"Old Hu ......" Zhuo Lefeng's throat was a little dry, and he didn't know how to express some words.
Men often don't need to say much, they know each other's intentions with one look and one action! Hu Chuguang didn't need Zhuo Lefeng to explain, he knew that Zhuo Lefeng wanted to thank himself! An online sister who can make his undercover agents boldly love the target person, which is very unconventional in itself, if he doesn't really care about Zhuo Lefeng, Hu Chuguang doesn't need to say this.
Lao Hu's words are already very clear, and then it depends on how Zhuo Lefeng chooses himself!
It has been four years since that incident, and in four years, in addition to Zhuo Lefeng's hatred for Jiang Junyan, he misses her! But after all, Zhuo Lefeng has to have his own new life.
Zhuo Lefeng hadn't been back to his rental house for a long time, but he wanted to come here tonight to spend the night! There was a chest in his closet, and the lock on it hadn't been opened for a long time.
Zhuo Lefeng looked at it for a long time, and finally took out a key from the side!
Open the lock, but Zhuo Lefeng didn't dare to open the box immediately! After hesitating again and again, he took a deep breath before he opened the box suddenly! There was a mobile phone, a few college textbooks, some small gifts, small handicrafts, and a watch and sunglasses!
Zhuo Lefeng's eyes were slightly red, and his hand slowly caressed these objects, as if he was paying tribute to the past. In those textbooks, there are lovely hand-drawn illustrations with text and playful dialogues that show the joy of the man and the woman and the warmth of love. It was a beautiful picture of their love on campus, whenever she was bored in class, she would always write and draw in a book, and always amused Zhuo Lefeng in this way.
The phone was turned on, and Zhuo Lefeng opened the gallery! A photo of a beautiful girl appeared inside, followed by a group photo of a girl snuggling in Zhuo Lefeng's arms. Zhuo Lefeng flipped through them one by one, and it was about the memories of the two of them.
Unconsciously, tears flowed from the corners of Zhuo Lefeng's eyes, and those memories seemed to be just yesterday, but the end of the memories was gray.
He remembered that the weather was fine that day, but the woman's complexion was no longer good. Women can only freeze there forever, lie there, and never pay attention to this world! And the culprit of all this is Jiang Junyan!