She chose a position close to the atrium and sat down, and last time it was the same angle, and she could see the whole mural very clearly. What attracted her the most was not the majestic and eye-catching flower beast, not the four fat magpies, but a pair of women close to the top. The pair of women exhaled fairy breath and looked down at her from top to bottom, their figures mostly obscured by abstract lines, recognizable only by their twin heads. If you look closely, you can see that the face of the one on the top is slightly thin, the eyelids are more slender, and the expression is slightly indifferent, and the line below is more rounded, and the corner of the eye is slanted at the woman who looks like her, as if she is distracted by another self. Last time, she was attracted to this pair of women and asked the boss where they came from, and the boss said that it was a pair of sisters, and sure enough.

She always felt that her sister lived in her body, and when she was young, she had such a fantasy when she watched the Japanese manga "Nana", and she did not think that this was an only child with loneliness syndrome. Maybe she never identified with herself on the surface, she seemed to be a well-behaved and sensible girl, she preferred that she could be brave and rebellious, she longed for it since she was a child, but never dared, and then she reached a reconciliation with herself, she believed that there was a sister living in her body, with a side that was diametrically opposed to herself, and that was enough.

She is well-behaved and sensible, she fell in love at the age when she should be in love, got married at the age when she should get married, and was ready to have a child at the age when she should have children. She and her husband visited the restaurant when they were trying to get pregnant, and he said that finding a shop called "Magpie" might bring them good luck. Sure enough, within a season, she was pregnant. She felt relieved, for a moment, she felt that she had almost completed most of the important tasks that she should complete as a well-behaved and sensible woman, she felt that being a mother would not let her age, but the life of punching in made her unable to be younger.

After three months of prenatal checkup, she was arranged to do the first B-ultrasound, the black-and-white contrast of the size of a rubber stamp gave her her first acquaintance with her child, which was a great gift from God, but God was also very good at pranks, and did not forget to give her a price at the same time, close to the child, the doctor found a tumor. The doctor calmly comforted her, although she hadn't taken it out yet, but judging from the size of the tumor, it looked like a benign one, because the tumor was larger than a three-month-old child, and the chance of a large and good type was also greater, and she couldn't laugh in the face of great luck for the first time. The doctor advised her to remove the child, and the surgery to remove the tumor would definitely affect the child's growth and development. She refused.

She knew that the doctor's advice always had a tendency to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and she felt that there was no other way out, but she needed to take a certain risk, and she gambled on other possibilities for the outline of the edge of the side on the imaging chart, and from that day on, she called out the brave sister in her body. She went to many hospitals, hung up the most difficult expert number, and got the same advice every time, so that the relatives around her began to accept the reality one by one. Her husband first persuaded her to give up the child and let her concentrate on solving the tumor. The mother-in-law openly and secretly advised her not to mention the tumor to others, thinking that it would cause ambiguity if it was not good. Mother felt most sorry for her, took her back to her parents' house, mother and daughter hugged and cried, she remembered what her mother said in her ear: forget it this time, there will be a chance in the future, mother has to take care of you first, we can't take this risk.

Less than thirty years old, she tasted despair for the first time. Despair is not just a matter of life and death, it may just be a sense of emptiness that cannot find a way out, and when this emptiness is magnified endlessly, you are like facing the abyss.

She hid in the house alone, refused to communicate, and searched for the uninvited guest in the womb over and over again on Baidu - teratoma. She remembered that her mother-in-law heard this term for the first time, and she was so frightened that she forgot to manage her expression, and she couldn't help but remind her through her son that she should not make a public statement. When she went to the hospital in a hurry, and when she asked her classmates and colleagues about the hospital, every time she blurted out this word, she would be met with resentful eyes from her mother-in-law, and she once wondered if she had a disgraceful illness.

After moving back to her parents' home, she collected a lot of information about the disease. Miraculously, the cause of this tumor is still uncertain in the medical community, and it is said that it belongs to the native tissue left behind after the embryo is formed in the mother's body, and it is more like a conceptual "twin" that has no chance to evolve and cannot complete development. I don't know if it was because of this, she suddenly felt less afraid, and was inexplicably full of confidence, feeling that she could see the child born. Her childhood hallucinations seemed to be working again, she didn't feel that the tumor was a conceptual twin that she had conceived, she felt more like another doppelganger of herself, the sibling she didn't have the chance to see—she was at risk from existing, because she was naturally rebellious, because she refused to obey. She was guarding their common child at the moment, and she wouldn't hurt him in the slightest.

She transforms into another self in the room before she got married, she opens her phone's address book, starts to call from the position of "A", seeks a way out, and when she reaches the rank of "X", she finally finds a lifeline. Her straw was a male classmate, which completely angered her mother-in-law. She ignored the uncomfortable-sounding words, and from then on firmly regarded the male classmate as her benefactor, without his help, she would not have been able to give birth to a healthy and lively child more than half a year later. This child, born in her thoughts, was born in the insistence of only one person left. In addition to being grateful to her benefactor, only she knows that she is also grateful to the twin sister hidden in her body. On the day the child was born, she was taken out, and she looked at her doppelganger and shed tears with mixed feelings. was replaced, she knew that the former self had been completely replaced, and from then on she could calmly be a brave and rebellious woman.

A year later, she often came to this "magpie" restaurant alone, chose the position of the atrium to sit down, and at this time, she was once again single. She looked at the twin sisters in the painting in front of her, as if she were a world away. The conjoined head reminded her of the word that hurt her the most - deformity. Sickness doesn't make people twisted, it only makes people stronger. Isn't the truly terrible and hurtful deformity the human heart? She was freed, and now when she looks at these two sisters, she is so natural and comfortable.