Chapter 438: I Miss You More
Mu Shihuan vaguely guessed something when she saw the flowers in his hand from afar, but she didn't expect him to say it so directly, directly killing all the possibilities she would avoid.
It also seems to be in line with his usual temperament.
He stared at her with heavy eyes, as if waiting for her answer.
Mu Shihuan didn't answer.
Li Jingyan is not surprised.
"Start chasing you again," he looked at her steadily, not giving her the possibility of escape, "the first two times we started between us were not pure enough, this time, we start again." ”
Mu Shihuan's heart trembled slightly.
She looked at him and suddenly remembered a lot, but she couldn't see anything exactly what it was.
Their first acquaintance was undercover time, even if she could feel it, she believed that they really liked each other at that time, but that liking was mixed with a lot of others after all.
led to a metamorphosis, which led to the later tragedy.
Later, they both lost their memories and reunited, she insisted on marrying him, even at the cost of persecution, the relationship was stiff at that time, he hated himself so much, and then she disappeared after an accident.
When they met again, she forgot about him twice, but she still liked him again, even if he was so annoying at that time.
He probably fell in love with her too.
It's just that the second encounter is always mixed with others, and separation is inevitable, but no one expected it to be in such an almost tragic way.
After that, she returned to him, wanting a divorce and revenge, but he held on to her.
And then ......
In just a moment, Mu Shihuan thought a lot, and finally her eyes fell on the bouquet of flowers in his arms, she moved her lips, and she was still speechless.
She didn't know what she could say.
"It has nothing to do with the minister." Suddenly, a sentence fell.
Mu Shihuan's eyelids jumped and he raised his head.
The two looked at each other.
Li Jingyan looked at her and confessed everything: "You heard it that night, right?" ”
Mu Shihuan bit his lip unconsciously.
"I don't want to hide it from you, I do have something to do with Xiaochen, but I don't want to give him a complete home and pursue you and be with you again, just because I want to be with you."
"Mu Shihuan." He called her name.
Inexplicably, Mu Shihuan's heartbeat suddenly accelerated, and she vaguely felt that she could guess what he wanted to say next, and at this moment she habitually wanted to escape.
"You ......"
"I always love you."
The voices of the two sounded at the same time.
She hesitated, he was firm.
Mu Shihuan froze in place.
wanted to hug her into his arms, and was impulsive, but in the end Li Jingyan restrained himself.
"Because I love you, I want to be with you, nothing else," he looked into her eyes, "I tried to let go like this, as you want and no longer force it, but I found that in fact, I can't do it, maybe I can do it for a day, two days and a month, but we have been entangled for so many years, if we can do it, we will do it a long time ago." ”
His throat rolled, and his voice was a lot hoarse: "Xiao Chen asked me that night, why didn't you give up on finding him for so long, but you had to give up." ”
There are inexplicable emotions flowing in his chest, maybe it is sour or something else, Mu Shihuan can't tell it.
"He's right, why should I give up on you?"
The drizzle was misty, and through the hazy mist, the faces of both of them seemed to be a little vaguely invisible.
Li Jingyan's throat gradually became hard: "I can't let it go." ”
Because he can't let go, because he always loves her, he still wants to be with her.
"No, I can't
When it comes to fulfilling you, I can't watch you with other men in the future, Mu Shihuan, I'm selfish. "One of the reasons why I want to make up for what we used to be is that." ”
He said all the words, showed his intentions, and also gave her unasked doubts in disguise, and did not make her cranky, and told everything frankly.
Then, the choice is in her hands.
Wrong.
In fact, he didn't give her a choice, he was always strong in his bones, he just informed his attitude, whether she refused or agreed, he would pursue her in his way.
For a while, Mu Shihuan felt indescribable in his heart.
She was speechless.
The quilt was handed to her again.
"For you."
It is a bouquet of yellow roses, and the flower language of yellow roses is to apologize.
Mu Shihuan didn't answer, and his hands kept in this posture.
"Are you pushing me?" She still made a sound.
It's muffled, and it's hidden at the bottom that no one can notice, but Li Jingyan just found it.
He knew her.
"No," he said in a dumb voice, "if you don't like it, don't do it, I won't force you again, this time chase you the way you like, if you don't like it, you tell me, I'll change." ”
Mu Shihuan looked straight at him when he heard this.
As if thinking of something, Li Jingyan turned around and took out something from the back seat of the car and handed it to her at the same time: "This is what you liked to eat in the past, try it, it doesn't matter if you don't like it." ”
When he said in the past, he was referring to the days when he was undercover.
At the moment of seeing the packaging, Mu Shihuan's guess was also confirmed.
"I don't want it," and for some reason, she suddenly lost her temper, very inexplicably indescribable, maybe it was a grievance, maybe something else, "I don't want it." ”
Li Jingyan kept looking at her, paying attention to her expression, and was not unhappy when he heard the words, and even the corners of his mouth couldn't help but hook slightly.
"Okay, then don't." He followed her words.
Mu Shihuan looked at her, and he also looked at him.
He straightened up, looked into her eyes, and the words were clear: "I'm serious." ”
"Shi Huan, give me another chance," the hand holding the flower unconsciously exerted force, he said, "I won't let you cry again, I won't make you sad again, I won't leave you behind, I won't let you bear everything alone, I will be by your side, whenever you need me." ”
Mu Shihuan suddenly didn't want to look into his eyes anymore, and she turned her face away.
Li Jingyan didn't force it anymore in the end.
"It's still raining, go inside, don't catch a cold." He whispered.
Mu Shihuan still didn't look at him, but just asked, "Does Xiaochen know that you are coming?" ”
"I didn't tell him."
"He misses you so much."
"I miss you more."
The voice stopped abruptly, Mu Shihuan couldn't speak anymore, and didn't know how to respond.
Li Jingyan calmly changed the subject: "Is he taking a nap?" If not, I'll see him and leave. ”
"I asked Aunt Yang to take him ......"
Mu Shihuan wanted to say that he would bring the minister over, but now it is raining, but it is impossible to let Li Jingyan enter this gate instead.
Li Jingyan took over the words thoughtfully and made a decision for her: "I won't go in, I'll talk to him here for a while." ”
Mu Shihuan pursed his lips: "Hmm." ”
She subconsciously wanted to take out her mobile phone to call Xiaochen, but realized that she didn't bring her mobile phone.
"I'll call him." Realizing something, Li Jingyan said for her, took the gift and flowers together in one hand, and took out his mobile phone with the other hand and dialed Xiao Chen's phone
Speech.
The phone was connected very quickly, and the distance between the two was not too far, so Mu Shihuan could hear Xiao Chen's voice.
Surprised, happy.
And Li Jingyan's voice did not have the indifference of the past, but a little warmth.
Soon, Xiaochen was sent by Aunt Yang.
"Daddy!" Xiao Chen ran directly in front of Li Jingyan, originally wanting to fall into his arms, but seeing that it was inconvenient for him to hold things.
"Dad, when did you come back?" He asked urgently.
After Aunt Yang sent it over, she went back first.
Mu Shihuan also wanted to leave.
"Would you like to sit in the car for a while?" Li Jingyan caught a glimpse of her movements and asked.
When Xiao Chen heard this, he immediately said: "Mom, it's raining outside, I'll carry you, let's get in the car and sit for a while, okay?" I'll talk to my dad for a while, and we'll go home, okay? ”
As he spoke, Li Jingyan had already opened the car door.
"Ten minutes." He whispered, his eyes not hiding the anticipation.
Mu Shihuan looked at him for two seconds and finally agreed.
"Okay."
Then, she saw Li Jingyan smile, the smile was very shallow, but she saw it.
She looked away.
Soon, the three of them got into the car, and the driver was very discerning and put down the baffle early.
Mu Shihuan sat on the side of the car, did not deliberately listen to what the father and son said and did not join their topic, but always looked outside.
But even if they lowered their voices, the words still got into her ears.
In fact, there is nothing special, it is nothing more than Li Jingyan asked how he was doing and what he had done, Xiao Chen returned to what he had learned these days with great interest, and asked him if he had worked a business trip and so on.
The warmth permeated the father and son.
Not more, no less, Li Jingyan said that ten minutes is really just ten minutes.
The minister was very reluctant.
Li Jingyan touched his head and said, "I'll come to see you and my mother next week." ”
Xiao Chen's eyes, which had been a little dim, suddenly became very bright, and he was overflowing with joy: "Really? ”
"Really, Daddy doesn't lie to you."
Xiao Chen was even happier.
"Retractor! Daddy, let's pull the hook! He happily held out his hand.
"Okay." Li Jingyan pulled the hook with him.
"Mom," Xiao Chen subconsciously turned his head to look at Mu Shihuan and said, "Do you want to hook up with Dad too, Dad said to come to see us next week." ”
Xiaochen talked to her, and Mu Shihuan had to turn back.
But she refused: "No, you can just pull the hook with your father." ”
Although he refused, Xiao Chen was not unhappy because of this, and he was very keenly aware of the subtle differences between his mother and father.
He was delighted.
"Good!" He nodded.
"Let's go back." Li Jingyan said and pushed open the car door and took the lead in getting out of the car to play an umbrella.
The minister got out of the car, and Mu Shihuan followed.
Neither she nor the minister got caught in the rain, because most of the umbrella was tilted to her side.
"Go in, and I'll leave when you get in." Li Jingyan looked at Mu Shihuan and said.
He handed her her umbrella.
Mu Shihuan took it and didn't have too much eye contact with him.
"See you next week, Dad." The minister waved his hand.
"See you next week, listen to your mother." Although it was in response to Xiao Chen, his gaze always fell on Mu Shihuan's face.
Mu Shihuan knew, but still didn't look at him.
When she opened her umbrella and took the minister to leave, she looked up and saw ......