Because I had to prepare for this afternoon's interview, I didn't have any thoughts about code words, and even the 1,000 words that had been coded were revised several times, and the result was that 500 words were deleted. So, I'll have to postpone the update until nine o'clock tonight.

I don't know why, all of a sudden, I feel a little melancholy in the middle of the night, probably because I am alone and there are no relatives or friends around to accompany me. It's also possible that people who write novels are a little sullen and sentimental, haha.

But with a dream, many people's first thought is to use up the blood in their bodies to make it happen. Maybe some people choose to give up when they just start; Maybe some people, halfway on the road of dreams, will be forced to compromise with reality for some reason; Even some people have come to the end of their dreams, only to find that what they have done is so ridiculous.

is like the four masters and apprentices in "The Legend of Wukong", who fought for their ideals, but wore a golden hoop and lost his memory; Tang Seng who was reincarnated because he contradicted the Buddha; There is also Zhu Bajie, who was named a "trumped-up" crime and was demoted to all those who were reincarnated as pigs; And that was just to save the Queen Mother, and threw the glass cup, but in the end, the Queen Mother who was furious because the glass cup was broken and was demoted to a river demon The sand monk.

And I was also troubled by my dreams, until I just came out of college more than a year ago, between dreams and reality, I chose to follow the arrangement of my family, and entered a company to do a certain operation. To be honest, if you have a little interest in something, even if you have a little interest, you can do it, and I forced myself to do the job of operations to find out what interests me. However, in the end, I still felt that I was not suitable for the job.

It's not that I can't find the bright spots, but because the company gave me a personal feeling that it was like completely squeezing employees, even if it was pre-employment training, it was also called "this is to let you think alone, and when you think about it, it's all your own thing".

Should all human beings be "born knowing" something?

Some people must think, "Why can everyone else do it, and you are here to talk and talk?" Aren't others doing so well through acquired efforts? You're a stupid X. ”

All I could say was, "I'm sorry, I'll give you back this sentence as it is." ”

I don't know what my life will be like after that. Is the dream come true? Or is it reality? But I want to work hard for my dreams, and there is hardly any real reason for them, and I believe that the same is true of those who strive for their dreams.

still remembers a sentence in "The Legend of Wukong": "This world, I have been here, I have fought, I have loved deeply, I don't care about the ending." ”

Some people are stubborn, some people face it, and some people laugh right. I can't foresee my future, and I can't change my past, but the choice I make will be to prevent myself from recalling the past deeds in my old age, and finally I can only sigh and say to my children and grandchildren who may be playing with some kind of high-tech products next to me: "In my life, there is nothing that can make me proud." ”

Finally, I would like to conclude this article by quoting a sentence that Guiguzi said.

"In this world, there are only two kinds of people who have no delusions, one is the dead and the other is the man of God. We are neither, so why should we control this delusion? ”

(November 5, 2019, 1:13 a.m., pen down, meditative.) ）