A heart was already nervous, and with the blessing of alcohol, it trembled even more.

She trembled through the messages, praying wholeheartedly that she would see even a single word about Weigo......

“…… Pregnant. Jiang Suwan's voice became hoarse, rubbing his head and waiting for the pain to slowly dissipate.

"Finally found it."

She was now seeing a record that made her tears fall straight down.

"I came home from my internship today, and I was already very tired, but Wei Ge still had to take me out for a ride. I wasn't in the mood to go out, so I gave him a few very cold words. I didn't do it right. He didn't say anything, but he never asked me to go for a ride for the night again."

There are also many similar records, all of which are records of his own rejection of Wei Ge, and Wei Ge getting farther and farther away from him.

At that time, I didn't notice it at all.

And for Wei Ge's estrangement, he only felt sadly relaxed, and even happy.

How could he be so stupid, it turned out that his departure had already been foreshadowed.

It's just that I'm too stupid to care about it at all, and I don't want to care.

Slowly, Jiang Suwan put down the mobile phone in his hand and smiled a little desolately.

She reached out to wipe her tears, only to find that they had long since dried up.

"When I was in college, I was still a very inexplicable existence. I don't grasp what I should grasp, and I live a life of facing and escaping day after day. ”

"Yes, life as an intern has brought me unprecedented feelings, I am very nervous, I am afraid that I will not be able to do well."

"But I can't say these things, I don't want to say them."

"I just let them dissolve in my mind, but I can't."

"So I became more and more cold, and I used coldness to hide my inner nervousness, and fear."

"I wanted to change myself, but I was afraid to change myself, and for a long time I fell into self-doubt, sensitivity and anxiety, and I couldn't reach out to others at all."

"I pushed my closest person farther and farther away, and one day he disappeared into my world. I can't find him. ”

And it was his disappearance that became a new turning point, so that I put on my armor and fought invinciously and bravely...... So today, with such achievements as they are now. ”

"But he doesn't want to see me anymore." Jiang Suwan poured the remaining wine from the wine glass into his stomach, and let all the embarrassment and remorse for memories dissolve in this glass of wine.

“…… Sister Wanwan, is this intimate person you are talking about the author of that painting? ”

"The one who painted the portrait of you as a child, right?"

"Hmm...... It's him. Jiang Suwan pushed away the wine glass and pulled her collar, the wine and memories used to be her hot and at a loss.

"What about you? What's a long story? Jiang Suwan stretched out her finger and pointed at Meihui, raising her eyebrows to signal her to start her own topic.

"Ah, my things are boring and boring in comparison."

Mie finished drinking the Coke in the cup and poured herself another glass, the bubbles exploded in her mouth, and then she poured herself another cup into her stomach, and it was so spicy that she hissed.

Seeing that she was about to pour a third glass, Jiang Suwan grabbed her wrist and filled her glass with wine.

"Try drinking this, it's actually okay, drink Coke and get drunk may burst your stomach first."

Meihui showed a somewhat embarrassed expression, and raised her wine glass with a helpless smile: "I didn't expect that I was going to drink now when I said I wouldn't drink!" ”

As he spoke, he took a sip and the conversation opened.

Meihui: "Sister Wanwan, did you have a good relationship with your roommate when you were in college?" ”

Jiang Suwan: "I lived with him when I was in college. ”

Meihui's eyes widened in surprise: "Wow, I didn't expect my late sister to be worthy of being my late sister, so avant-garde." ”

Jiang Suwan nodded nondeniably: "Yes, I only do what I want to do." ”

Jiang Suwan: "Do you have a conflict with your roommate?" ”

Sigh: "Yes, although the roommates are all professionals, it doesn't feel like a world at all." ”

Meihui: "One of them, who has nothing to do every day, spends the money in the family but only knows how to play games in the dormitory, and even applies for national grants. ”

Meihui: "There is another one, I only know how to revolve around a man every day, as if she can't live without a man, she always has to pull me to talk about emotional problems, and she is still angry when she ignores her, so angry that I just want to give her a claw." ”

Meihui: "The last one, people are reasonable, and they also know that they make money by working part-time, although the money they earn is used to buy some inexplicable cosmetics, but they treat their studies like an idiot. I took her with me during my first internship, but I had to ask me about everything, and I didn't do well, but I had to blame me for not teaching her! ”

The more Mie spoke, the more angry she became, and she slammed her chopsticks on the table, "In the end, I'm doing a good job as an intern now, and I've become your secretary, but do you know what they said about me?" They said I got into the company by connections! Bah, my mother made it by herself! A bunch of parasites that only know red eyes! ”

Mie: "That's it, I can't take it anymore, and I'm about to graduate anyway, so I'm thinking about moving out." ”

Meihui: "Although it takes more money to move out, I think that there is a need to go in and out, and as long as I stay away from these declining gods, I will definitely get better and better!" The old lady is not ca

e them! ”

Seeing Meihui say everything on her mind, she looked like she had shaken off all the negative emotions in her whole body - Jiang Su didn't feel a little distressed at night.

A kind child like Meihui has endured too many grievances along the way.

Jiang Suwan took a piece of chopsticks of beef with chopsticks and put it in Meihui's bowl, and sighed.

Jiang Suwan: "Okay, then as a thirty-year-old woman, I have to say something to you, a little girl in her twenties." It's kind of a bit of chatter. ”

Jiang Suwan: "Everyone in this world is different, and they have no way to deal with problems according to the rules and regulations in our world. ”

Jiang Suwan: "Everyone's perception of good and evil is also different, so the feedback in the face of others' kindness is also different. ”

Jiang Xuwan: "So people are very good at making inches, especially some people, if you treat them too well, they will feel that everything you do is taken for granted." ”

Jiang Suwan: "Although the reality is so disappointing, one thing is certain——"

Jiang Xuwan: "No matter what they do to you, it has nothing to do with you, what kind of way they treat you can only prove that he has experienced something to become what he is now." ”

Jiang Suwan: "It has nothing to do with you. ”

"But ......," Mie sighed, and Mie said with a look of suffering, "no matter what, this society shouldn't be like this......

"Grace ......"

"Don't comfort me!" Mie immediately laughed, "It's okay, I know that everything will definitely not go well, life is like this to disappoint you a little bit, anyway, I can't change the world, at least not let myself be changed." ”

Meihui: "You want to tell me this, right? ”

"No, I want to tell you, your hair is stained with hot pot soup hahaha." Jiang Suwan handed over the paper.

Mie shook her head suffocatingly, then went to wipe her hair, "Well, well, I seem to have heard the audience laughing at our daily humor." ”

"Can I gossip?" Jiang Suwan leaned forward slightly, revealing a look of wanting to hear the story.

Meihui nodded: "What's the problem, sister, you say." ”

Jiang Suwan: "Do you have a good relationship with your boyfriend?" When are you going to get married? ”

After all, she is a little girl in love, and when she hears the words about marriage, she will be full of longing and shame.

Meihui: "It's still early...... His job is also in a stable period, and I haven't graduated yet, plus I plan to take the certificate exam and then take the postgraduate exam. ”

Jiang Suwan: "Yes, I'm still young now, so I don't need to rush to get married." ”

Meihui: "Oh no~ Our late fairy wants to start a family?" yes, yes?! ”

Mie: "So...... Yes! yes, the one you mentioned...... It can't be Mr. Xu, right? ”

However, looking back on his boss's attitude towards the president of Xuzhou, he has always been very appropriate - it has to be a little rusty and avoid suspicion.

And according to her description, this person has been away from her for a long time and has been hiding from her.

Then Xuzhou will be excluded.

Mie: "...... It doesn't seem like he's it. ”

Jiang Suwan stretched his waist and wiped his mouth clean: "There are still a lot of dishes, you continue to eat first, I'm a little tired and want to go back to bed to sleep." ”

Jiang Suwan: "Just take the door with you when you go back after eating, you don't have to clean it up, I'll let my aunt clean it tomorrow." ”

……

When Jiang Su woke up at night, it was still very dark, so dark that she couldn't tell whether it was early morning or night.

I took out the phone on the bedside and glanced at it in a daze-

"Uh-huh......?!"

When she saw the above content clearly, her spirit suddenly dawned on her.

She had just woken up, but she quickly crawled away.

She read the message over and over again before she confirmed that it was not a fantasy at all, but a reality that existed.

It was a short text message.

From the second card.

And the second card is the only one she keeps, something from more than a decade ago.

More than 10 years ago, when she left the southern town, she cut off all information, and the card no longer received any information.

And just now, the card received the only text message in years.

"It's snowing."

Ah Late.

He called himself Ah Wan.

That's pretty much the only thing he calls himself......

She tried to calm her emotions and used the phone she was using to call the source of the message—she was afraid that she would be denied access to the second card.

And the main card used now is also a new number that has just been replaced, so it will naturally not be recognized.

"Dut...... Honk...... Toot ......"

However, after all, the senses of fantasy were too sensitive, and in the end the call still became one of the "rejections".

I put down my phone in frustration, and the realism after waking up is only gradually coming up.

It's this full sense of powerlessness again.

She thought about the summer of eighteen more than ten years ago.

At that time, I was always so sad that I cried bitterly in the empty morning, and my emotions came inexplicably.

At that time, I didn't understand the origin of love, but vaguely imagined that the sorrow was related to the distant future. And now she understands that at that time, her heart still perceives her future self, and she will cry sadly on some nights, because her thoughts are really eroding her bones.

"It's really smart." She laughed at herself and bred up to face more reality.

If you can still laugh at yourself, it means that life can still be persevered.

She pricked up her ears and listened outside the door—there was no movement, and it seemed that Mie was gone.

But also, after sleeping for two hours, he must have left a long time ago.

Thinking back to the text message on her phone, Jiang Suwan couldn't help but have more expectations about reality - she planned to go out.

It's true that it's snowing now, but there aren't many snowy cities.

What if he is also in Nanxia City?

Thinking like this, Jiang Suwan put on his clothes and walked out of the door.

……

There are still a lot of people on the streets at night, and everyone seems to have come out to see the snow.

Most of them have companions, couples, or family members, and few are as alone as themselves.

It's definitely hypocritical to say that you don't envy, but it's really okay to say that you're envious.

Maybe the weather is too cold, her self-esteem is too strong, and those vulnerabilities are all dissipated by her own inertia.

Suddenly, a snowflake fell on her eyelashes, and she stopped to pick them - and the moment she touched it, she thought of something that Wei Ge had written in his diary.

[November 5, 2047]

Today is very ordinary, that is, the daffodils bloom by the window, and I am puzzled why the daffodils are blooming at this time. My aunt told me that it would only open in January and February, and I am really surprised to see it now. I remember that she was also very fond of flowers at that time, and once secretly bought a few seeds for her to plant, but they didn't bloom. Then I bought a tree made of small cardboard and sprinkled it with special water to produce white snowflakes......

I've seen a lot of snow in the past few days, but this time I remembered this part.

And as she wished, she gently stepped on the snow and continued to move forward, step by step, stepping into the "creaking" memory.

With no aim, she just walked forward, hoping to see him at some junction.

She could even imagine how she saw him and threw herself into his arms.

It's going to be happy and embarrassing.

The embarrassment will become less and less, but the happiness will increase until it fills her heart.

However, after walking one road after another, except for the snow falling heavier and heavier, she did not meet a single person who stopped for her at any intersection.

Unable to bear it any longer, she crouched down uncomfortably, pretending to wipe the snow from her designer shoes.

These shoes—she thought of the scene when she threw shoes with him outside the concert hall, happy and beautiful.