Then, he said, "You didn't mean to, your seat is over there, and the water dispenser is over there." I really can't find any reason to believe why you're going this way. Could it be that the brain is not normal? ”

Look, what I just said, isn't someone going to clean her up now? All we need to do is watch a good show.

"Alright, let's get to our seats, let's start class. It is said that every inch of time is an inch of gold, and we should make the most of the time in the morning. The teacher came from outside the door.

Then, the sound of reading in the classroom sounded.

Then he came up to me and asked what was going on. I don't want to make things too serious and say it's okay.

Actually, I just don't want everyone to worry, I'm afraid that the teacher will call my parents to come to school, I'm afraid to see their disappointed expressions, and I don't want to see their distressed expressions.

I know they're already working hard, and I should be sensible and can't cause them trouble.

The world has almost formed a theorem: "The more incompetent people are, the more they like to 'bully the weak and fear the hard.'" The more cowardly the person, the more he will have to pay. "It's timeless.

Just like me, didn't I pay the price?

They escalate from verbal aggression to physical violence.

I lived carefully every day and often cried in the dark. I've learned to be sensible, happy, and unhappy not to bother others. But I couldn't find joy anymore.

I can't hold on anymore! I often wonder the meaning of my coming into this world, to survive the calamity?

I desperately wanted to escape from this world, but the world was so big, and there was no place for me. Thousands of homes are brightly lit, but none of them are lit for me. Millions of smiles on their faces, not one of them because of me.

Hehe, it's not so much that I'm alive as I'm dead.

The thought of "suicide" has come to my mind more than countless times.

On this day, I couldn't help it. I told myself that I didn't want anything, that I didn't care about anything, that it didn't matter what the consequences were.

I said to them in a loud voice, "Don't you hate me, don't you want me dead?" I say to you, I will fulfill you. If I can't forget it in this life, don't let any of you think about it. ”

I want all of you to live in guilt all your lives.

Coming to the lake at night, I wanted to jump in so I could be relieved. Never again, don't be so tired.

I moved closer to it.

Just as I was about to jump, I hesitated again. If I die, what will happen to my parents, they will die of sadness.

I didn't know what to do, so I hugged my head and cried on the ground.

"Why did I come to this world, why am I different from others, why is fate so unfair."

"Each of us came into this world for a reason, maybe for someone, maybe to experience life. It's just that yours happens to be bitter, and other people's happens to be sweet. In fact, what you get is the same, it's all life.

Only if you change your mindset, you will find out. Bitter or sweet. Bitterness can make your willpower stronger, and sweetness can make you perpetuate all the good things in this world. A voice that suddenly appeared

"But why is mine suffering?"

"The first half of life is bitter, maybe it's for the sweetness of the second half of life"

I don't know how long it has been, but I can only hear the wind howling, the shadows of the trees swaying on the surface of the lake, and the petals falling on my hands.

Since then, I've changed, I've become more aloof, I've learned to protect myself, and they don't dare to bully me casually. Superficial interpersonal relationships are getting better and better.

I'm also a sophomore in high school, and a lot has happened in the intervening years.

For example: "My dear father died, and my gentle mother became irritable. ”

On weekends, as usual. Take a walk back home.

The difference is that I saved someone on the way. I'm still as kind as ever, except that I didn't protect it with sharp teeth to make it worthless. And now, everything is different.

I won't be sad for a long time because of someone else's words or two, and I won't be wronged by others.

Those who hate and like me have dissipated with the wind like a cloud of smoke.

When I walked near my home, I heard my mother and my brother arguing. This is no longer surprising.

I had to believe: "Mother she has changed, not as beautiful and gentle as before, and the years have left traces on her." ”

I still love her more than ever.

I knew very well that she loved all of us, but she was not good at expressing it.

What I still can't believe is that my father actually listened to other people's rumors and betrayed his wife who had been with him for 20 years.

With a good face, he couldn't stand the blow of life and committed suicide by taking medicine. I watched him leave, and he said to his mother, "I regret it, I can't give up on you, and I can't give up on our children." "It's not pitiful.

However, there is no regret medicine, in life, one wrong step will be one wrong step. It's like what teachers often say: "If the process is wrong, the result will be wrong." ”