Chapter Twenty-Six: I Want to Love This World
"That can be used after the clause person and thing..."
On the podium, the English teacher is talking about the use of definite clauses. Zhu Tianyi put the English book on the table, and pressed a math workbook underneath, secretly making up the homework there, the next class redeemed the math class, he hadn't written it yet, so he could only make up it in the English class.
Touching his arm slightly, Bai Hao whispered.
"The subordinate sentence is the point, why don't you listen to it before you write it."
"It's useless." Zhu Tian glanced at the blackboard and shook his head. "I've never listened to it in class, it's all self-taught, and it's even more impossible to listen to English like this, and it's all over after class."
Also, Bai Wei responded in his heart and continued to listen to the lecture facing the blackboard. Zhu Tianyi's learning level in the class is considered to be in the middle of the stream, but this class is a quality class, although it is not as good as the Hongzhi class, but the overall score has always been ranked very high in the school, Zhu Tianyi's grades are like a mountain in the eyes of a poor student who relies on a relationship, very high and very high.
It's still far away, Bai Hao smiled bitterly, and his eyes skimmed over Ning Xin in front of him.
With his left hand supporting his chin and his right hand constantly drawing something on the paper, he knew that he hadn't listened to the lecture at a glance.
After a while, Ning Xin put down the pen again and lay directly on the table.
She hasn't recovered yet... White is not good, eyes flickering.
After they came back that night, they tacitly did not publicize the affairs of Ning Xin's family, after all, it was very important for the parties concerned to hear about this kind of thing.
It's been a few days since she came back from Ning Xin's house, and Ning Xin still goes to class as usual every day, but she rarely talks to people, and when others talk to her, they only respond a few words, and the rest of the time stays in her place, either lying on her stomach or being stunned. After that night, even Zhen Tian, who was inseparable, didn't speak to each other now, like strangers.
During this period, Lao Ban talked to her once, but the effect was not much better, it was still like that.
Ding Ding Ding Ding ...
The school bell rang as usual, and with a buzz, the teaching buildings were crowded, accompanied by heavy footsteps, slowly ringing from the building.
As always, Bai Hao finally walked out of the classroom and went to the cafeteria after most of the people left.
Well, today is really unlucky, the usual shop that sells shredded chicken rice is full of people, I haven't eaten it for several days, although I want to eat it, but I looked at the crowd at the door, Bai Hao frowned, turned around to buy the next door selling Wu Dalang baked cakes made quickly, but I have already eaten and wanted to vomit in the store.
The cold wind was blowing, and everyone had already changed into down jackets, as if they would never have an endless task, running around the school one by one.
Phew, spitting out the debris in his throat, and gently kicking the stones under his feet, Bai Hao was a little depressed, and unconsciously walked to the "secret base".
Around the corner not far away, another girl also walked over, she looked at Bai Hao, her eyes were a little surprised, and then she said.
"Ah, what a coincidence, I met here again."
Bai Hao's eyes were stunned, pursed his lips, nodded, and looked at the girl holding the same Wu Dalang baked cake as him in her hand, and pretended to smile bitterly.
"I didn't expect that even the food was just as coincidental."
"Haha." The corners of Lin Xiaoxiang's mouth rose, his eyes narrowed and bent into crescents, and he giggled. "It's a coincidence."
The girl smiled beautifully, it was easy to make people's hearts move, and Bai Hao looked at her smiling expression, and was a little trance for a while.
Never really smiled? The boy bit his lip and fell silent. She liked Lin Xiaoxiang's smile very much, and felt that the smile was very clean and warm.
Even if she admitted it that day, Bai Hao never asked her, even if it was fake, but it did infect herself, whether it was fake or not, Bai Hao was willing to believe her, and believed that Lin Xiaoxiang would tell herself one day.
Even if she didn't tell her, she was my friend.
Thinking of this, the corners of Bai Hao's mouth lifted lightly, and he smiled faintly.
"Hey, what are you doing?" The little hand shook in front of the boy's eyes, and seeing that he was stunned and didn't know what he was thinking, Lin Xiaoxiang looked at him with big eyes and confusion.
"Ahh Bai Hao hurriedly shook his head, looked at her, and then said. "Nothing, just something funny."
Blinking his eyes, his long eyelashes shook slightly, Lin Xiaoxiang nodded lightly, holding the cake in his hand, looking very careful, hesitated for a moment, and then said.
"What's wrong with Ning Xin? You okay? ”
Bai Hao frowned, glanced at the girl, and hesitated.
"It's okay if you can't say it, after all, it's someone else's privacy." Lin Xiaoxiang waved his hand again, immediately lowered his head, and said softly. "It's just that in the past few days, I've been looking at Ningxin's state, and I always feel uneasy."
Pursing his lips, the boy looked at Lin Xiaoxiang's side face, was silent for a while, and still told her everything that happened that day.
"I see..."
After listening, Lin Xiaoxiang nodded, put his right hand against his chin, and said to himself.
"Everyone is very anxious about her current appearance, but this kind of relationship between adults is not something we can interfere with at all."
Bai Hao also nodded, finished the Wu Dalang baked cake in his hand, sat on the high stone next to him, hugged his knees with both hands, looked very helpless, and said in a low voice.
"We can't help her."
Without speaking, Lin Xiaoxiang also sat on the stone, about a person's distance from Bai Hao, eating bread in his hand, quietly looking at the tall willow tree in front of him that was about to wither.
The atmosphere gradually quieted down, and Bai Hao turned his head to glance at the girl, which was a little strange. I was about to reach out and shake it in front of her.
"Ning Xin's current situation, are you familiar with it?" Lin Xiaoxiang said suddenly, still looking ahead.
"Ahh Bai Hao hurriedly retracted his hand, puffed out his mouth, thought for a while, and said. "It's very familiar, it feels like I used to be."
"Do you want to help her?"
"Well, I must have thought about it. But what can I do? Bai Hao lowered his head and said in frustration.
The girl smiled and turned her head, staring at him with bright eyes, as if she could speak.
"Then I'll listen to you a song."
Saying that, Lin Xiaoxiang took out his mobile phone from his pocket, took out the earphones again, plugged the plug into the mobile phone, approached the boy, and stuffed the earbuds on this end into his left ear with one hand, and the other into Bai Hao's right ear.
Feeling the girl's cold hand touching her ears, Bai Hao's face was a little red, and she nodded slightly, not daring to look at the girl, and let her stuff the headphones over.
"This song is called "I Want to Love the World", and it is one of my favorite songs, and I play it every time I am in a bad mood."
Bai Hao nodded, the music in the headphones slowly sounded, and the voice of the girl next to him continued.
"At that time, I thought I read a lot of books, and my emotions were very sensitive, and I was often infected by the writer after reading a book, and my emotions were easy to fluctuate, and if I said something boastful, I was very similar to Lin Daiyu."
"Later, I was desperate for life, and I always felt that everything around me was full of malice towards me, until I met someone who taught me how to face the darkness, even if I couldn't enjoy the light, I had to learn to imagine her, and let me listen to this song. The man also asked me what I thought of Hans Christian Andersen's little match girl? I said that the little girl feels that this society is very cold and cold, there is no human love, let alone warmth and coldness, even the most beloved grandmother has left her, she has no concern for this world, and when she wakes up, she may go to a warm paradise. The man shook his head and said I had misunderstood, and now that I think about it, I was really stupid. ”
Lin Xiaoxiang wore headphones and smiled self-deprecatingly.
"Why?" The music in the headphones was playing, and the other ear was listening to her, very puzzled. "Isn't this how everyone interprets this story?"
"yes, that's what everybody thinks." Lin Xiaoxiang looked at the fallen leaves in front of the willow tree in front of him, and gradually became distracted. "He said that he wanted to know that Hans Christian Andersen was not writing a fairy tale, but his own hatred of this society, and the man also told me not to be affected by other people's books mixed with emotions and affect my judgment, writers are like this, thinking that they know the world very well, so they write their opinions into the book without authorization, and I don't know how many people these emotions have affected and how many people's lives have changed."
"Is that person important to you?" The boy asked softly, looking down.
"yes, we're still in touch." Lin Xiaoxiang replied simply.
The two are very close to each other, sharing a pair of headphones, and from a distance they look like a couple in love. Occasionally, a few people passed by here, just looking here a few more times, and didn't say much, after all, each had their own lives, and everyone didn't take each other to heart.
"This song is written about people who are depressed." The girl didn't look at Bai Bad's expression, she still looked ahead, calm as water, and said. "Those who are depressed do not look any different from usual, only when they are alone, they will feel like water of loneliness, and they will slowly die in silence."
Shiro crossed his hands together and blinked from time to time.
"They don't ask for help easily because the world is terrible in their eyes. However, when they signal that they want to help, they must hold on to it, which may be the only straw that can save them. ”
"I believe that the person who can listen to this song carefully is a warm person, no matter who it is, everyone wants to love the world."
Turning to stare at the girl's side face, Bai Hao was a little stunned, Lin Xiaoxiang's bright eyes looked up at the sky covered by gray, with an expectant expression, she also turned around, looked at the boy with crescent-like eyes, a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, and said slowly.
"Because, after all, there is a home here."
The willow trees nearby were gently swayed by the wind, causing the few yellow leaves on the trees to fall one after another, and the two people under the trees shared a pair of headphones and sat on the stones, as if they no longer felt so bleak.
The boy and Lin Xiaoxiang looked at each other, blinked, as if they realized something, and quickly turned around, scratched their heads, and said.
"Can I listen to it again?"
"Absolutely."
Lin Xiaoxiang narrowed his eyes, looked at the boy's funny behavior with a smile on his face, and pressed the replay button again.
Bai Hao listened quietly, although he only wore one headphone, but there seemed to be nothing else in his ears except music.
At the foot of the eaves, there are rows of crows, densely packed
I don't know how to express my pent-up emotions
Thought about leaving, being there in this way
It's because of those narrations, those gestures, those hurts
Don't want to leave when you say you're still there
Suddenly, I began to look forward to it
Holding the sofa, sleepy eyes, messy hair
When the sun sets, it's you
......
"Thank you."
Slowly taking off the headphones, Bai Wei stood up.
"I just let you listen to a song, I didn't do anything."
Lin Xiaoxiang looked at him with a smile, his crescent-like eyes blinking.
The boy turned to look at her and smiled.
"No matter what the outcome is, I will help Ning Xin."
"If you have any difficulties, just say it, and I will do my best to help."
Lin Xiaoxiang put away his phone and stood up.
Bai Hao nodded, lowered his head again, seemed to think of something, looked at her, and stopped talking.
"What's wrong?" Lin Xiaoxiang looked at him suspiciously.
"I want to ask you to go somewhere after school."
The boy's face was a little red, his lips pursed, and his eyes looked away.
Lin Xiaoxiang opened his eyes wide, looking surprised, and then the corners of his mouth twitched slightly, and he looked at him narrowly.
"Well, but..."
"Don't, don't get me wrong, it's about tranquility."
As if seeing Lin Xiaoxiang's playful expression, Bai Hao hurriedly waved his hand and said.
"Well, I didn't say anything else."
Lin Xiaoxiang covered her mouth and chuckled, looking at the red-faced boy in front of her quite happily.
"Okay, okay, just kidding, hey, don't run so fast..."
Looking at the back of the boy who fled in the wilderness, Lin Xiaoxiang breathed a sigh of relief and hurriedly blew his face with his hand.
Although the weather is getting colder, the temperature of the human body may rise.