"Lin Tian, I drank too much again, my heart is still small, how many times have I told you, pay attention at home, don't you get drunk, don't you understand?"

"You take care of me, my life has been ruined by you, can't you drink some wine?"

Syllable!

The man named Lin Tian blushed, his voice was loud and smelling of alcohol, as if he was angry, and slapped the woman next to him.

The woman covered her face and mouth again, not daring to scream. She looked at the man in front of her in disappointment, picked up the pillow on the bed, and turned away.

At that time, Ning Xin was only five years old and had just remembered. Woken up by his father's voice in a daze, he hugged his beloved rabbit doll and ran to his parents' bedroom.

The little girl stared blankly at what was happening inside through the hidden door, and opened her mouth, but she couldn't make any sound.

The woman holding the pillow came out of the bedroom and saw Ning Xin holding the doll, her eyes flickering. He immediately squatted down, looked into the little girl's eyes, and said with a smile:

"Xinxin hasn't slept yet, come, mom will send you back to your room."

After saying that, without waiting for the girl to answer, he took her hand and went back to the room.

"Mom, is Daddy still Daddy? I want my dad to sleep with me. ”

The little girl hugged her mother's body on the bed, and she could see that she was very clingy to her father. With a little fear and expectation in his tone, he said in a milky voice.

"Dad seems to have changed today, and he has become a terrible person."

Hearing this, the woman hurriedly patted the little girl on the back and said softly:

"Well, mom will sleep with you... Father... Don't love... We.. Don't believe it... A man's mouth. ”

Ning Xin's eye bags gradually sank, and she heard her mother's voice in a daze, and fell asleep intermittently.

Ning Xin's father, Lin Tian, is an online writer who writes novels that are basically read by few people and earn a meager income. Ning Xin's maternal grandfather ran a private hospital in the local area, and there was an endless stream of people who saw him every day. After graduating, her mother worked in her father's hospital, where she worked carefully and carefully, and within a few years she was promoted to the head of surgery.

Lin Tian is from the Chinese department, while Ning Xin's mother is a clinical medicine. The two fell in love in college, made a private lifelong commitment, and prepared to get married after graduating from college. But because of the opposition of the woman's family, she thought that the man's family was not worthy of her, and resolutely refused to marry the two.

In the end, the two should have made up their minds, the woman's 'accidental' pregnancy, and threatened with death, and the parents agreed, but the condition was that Lin Tian must join the Ning family, and they wanted her to renew the incense for the Ning family with this one daughter.

The man finally agreed, and the two gave birth to Ning Xin not long after they got married.

Lin Tian continued to write his novels, staying at home all day, occasionally going out to meet his so-called literary friends, and relying on the woman to make a living.

Sometimes liking doesn't mean it's suitable, and life will always be the last straw that crushes young couples who don't have a common language.

The contradiction between the two gradually deepened, and the woman began to dislike Lin Tian as a wreck, who only knew code words all day long, and never took a penny from home.

And Lin Tian was annoyed by what she said, so he went out to drink alone, and when he came back, he went crazy.

"Don't trust men, especially those who talk flatteringly, they are devils behind their backs."

Whenever Ning Xin's mother and Lin Tian got angry, they would pull their daughter back to the room and complain to her.

Ning Xin always nodded at this time, silently hugged her mother, and did not speak.

She still likes her father, who always has a sense of security on his back, and never seems to get tired with her. When Ning Xin was a child, her favorite thing was to go to the amusement park with her father, holding his big hand, arguing to play this and that, and her mother always stopped Ning Xin, for fear that she would be hurt. But her father touched Ning Xin's little head and persuaded her mother with a smile, but finally had to reluctantly agree.

At that time, Ning Xin was very happy, cute, cheerful and generous, leading a group of friends to play in the community every day, and one day saw a shy and lonely little sister, so he encouraged her to integrate in.

Childhood was really beautiful, with parents, friends, troubles for some reason, and happiness for some reason. Ning Xin thought that it would be nice if time could stop there forever.

But somehow, the relationship between Mom and Dad seems to have changed, the family is more noisy than before, Mom is more tantrum than before, Dad drinks more times, and when he comes back, he seems to be a different person.

Slowly, Ning Xin didn't want her father to be at home every day. Other people's fathers are always very busy, she often sees Wang Yang's father next door coming back at night, his wife always prepares meals and waits for him there, Wang Yang also says every day that his father has no time to accompany him.

But Ning Xin is very envious, other fathers are very careerly, and they can make others proudly say that their father is very busy, and his father just takes him at home every day and waits to be counted down by his mother.

Finally one day, Ning Xin couldn't help it anymore and ran to her father's usual code study.

Half a bottle of liquor was put on the table, and Dad's face was a little red, and his facial features were a little distorted, not like Dad.

"Dad... You, can you go out and find a job? ”

The girl's voice was timid, and her eyes were slightly evasive.

Lin Tian's eyes were confused, he glanced at his daughter, still tapping on the keyboard, and said:

"What's the matter, it was fine before, why did you suddenly talk about this."

"I envy Wang Yang." The girl's voice was still low, her fingers intertwined.

The hand that was writing stopped, Lin Tian turned his head to look at his daughter, and said with some excitement:

"Your mother has changed, even you have changed, how many times do you want me to say that writing novels can make money!"

"But you've never taken a penny from your family!"

Ning Xin suddenly raised his head, pressed the power plug down, and looked at Lin Tian with blazing eyes.

Airplanes!

The computer screen suddenly went black, Lin Tian was stunned, blinking, and a little incredulous.

"You've let me down so much!" With a red neck, Lin Tian glared at Ning Xin.

Ning Xin was not afraid, and still looked at his father.

Syllable!

A bright red five-finger print appeared on his face, Ning Xin gritted his teeth, didn't let himself cry, turned his head and walked out, without looking at his father.

Since then, Ning Xin has never spoken to Lin Tian.

......

Later, when she went to high school, Ning Xin lived in a dormitory, which was able to free herself from the oppressive atmosphere at home.

When everyone else was secretly calling home to complain, Ning Xin looked indifferent, but was more relaxed than before.

She is still as cheerful and lively as before, and she is very popular.

It's just that she has never given a good face to men, especially men who are interesting to her.

I was promoted to the second year of high school in this way, met a few familiar classmates, met He Xiaoye, and thought it was good.

However, even she didn't notice it herself, and began to care about that person.

It was a pre-class speech, Ning Xin had never noticed this boy before, just had the impression that he was an introverted boy.

But that boy actually excused Chubby in front of so many people in class, although it was a recording, Ning Xin felt that he was a very courageous boy.

can be regarded as helping He Xiaoye, so he slowly began to pay attention to him.

was caught by the old class by going over the wall together, and went to the Internet café to open the black together. Gradually, I learned that this is a very honest person, with his own ideas, simple, and interesting.

This person is slowly growing up. And myself, it seems that nothing has changed.

Until his birthday, he read the song "King Lanling" at the class meeting, and Ning Xin was shocked.

Unlike the general recitation, there is a rhythm, a rhyme, and a tone and a frustration.

But I can't tell what the sound is.

But no matter what, I can't forget that day, on the podium, the boy's face was red, with a little stubbornness, and he read it aloud.

It's stupid, but I always feel like I've seen it somewhere.

It's like, the quarrel with my dad that day, it's sad, and it seems like I want to prove something.

In any case, that's what I envisioned, what I didn't need to hide, what I really looked like.