Her eyes were red, as if she had secretly cried inside.

She didn't hide it, but looked straight at herself.

In an instant, Li Jingyan felt like his heart was being clenched, and the indescribable pain spread.

She is obviously different from last night, she has become calm, and when she calms down, she is really resolute and ruthless, as if she can ruthlessly leave everything behind the next moment, and she will not regret it if she doesn't look back.

Li Jingyan stared at her, her eyes gradually darkening.

In the middle of the night, the Adam's apple rolled, and he wanted to speak.

"You're persecuting me." Husky words interrupted him.

The atmosphere changed silently and instantaneously.

With only one sentence, Li Jingyan's face was tense.

Mu Shihuan looked up at him, never looked away for half a minute, and did not blink, even if there was sourness in his eyes all the time.

"Push me, persecute me," she said, "silently cut off all contact, and silently reappeared in front of me, and said sorry to me, that I needed to forgive." ”

She looked calm.

"Li Jingyan," she finally called out his name, which could still stir off other emotions after so much time, "Don't you think you're selfish?" ”

The two of them reflected each other in their eyes, and they only had each other.

Li Jingyan's breath sank.

Mu Shihuan suddenly pulled his lips, and even a very shallow smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "If there is anything else, wouldn't it be that you have to leave without a sound and cut off all news?" ”

"Then, when the matter is resolved again, you will appear in front of me in a good manner, say sorry to me, and say to me, you love me, again and again...... What did you take me for? ”

Although it was calm, although I thought a lot before I came out, my mood still changed after all, and some resentment quietly overflowed.

"Or maybe you'll say it won't happen again," she laid out all the possibilities, "you'll say you're capable of protecting me, you'll say it's for my good, but it's ......"

She paused.

looked straight at him, at this moment, she did not deliberately hide her emotions, but showed the truest side at this time.

No more pretending, no more duplicity.

"Aren't you tired?" Softly, she asked.

Time seemed to stop for a moment, and as her words came out, even the things that flowed through the air changed.

"I'm tired, I'm going to be tired." Li Jingyan heard her say.

Word by word, very light, but with an exhaustion that is hard to ignore.

"I'm really tired."

The distance between the two is still very close, and there has been no change, but the two hearts seem to be far, far away, as if they will never be together again in this life.

Li Jingyan's eyes sank little by little at a speed visible to the naked eye.

In the end, dark as ink.

Mu Shihuan's eyelashes blinked slightly.

She continued: "Now, every word, I say it comes from the heart. Being with you really makes me so tired, whether it's the undercover period you are talking about, or when we are in a relationship as husband and wife, or ...... Right now. ”

"Very tired, very tired."

As if to confirm her words, after saying this, her expression inevitably revealed a bit of tiredness that she had never felt before.

It was a burnout for him, for the relationship between him and her.

is also afraid of rejection, unwilling to touch again, because if you don't touch it, you won't be tired, and you won't be afraid.

The man in front of him remained silent.

Mu Shihuan didn't care, and she wouldn't care, in her selfish heart, she was

If you are willing, let her take advantage of the courage at this moment not to escape, make everything clear, and cut off everything that should not exist.

It's time for a break.

"You always disrespected me," she said, "just like when I came back to divorce you, you forced me like now, threatened me, what to spend the last four days with you, what to love me......"

"Do you really love me?"

Something was rolling in her throat, Li Jingyan stared at her, and asked in a dumb voice: "Do you think you love it?" ”

To love, or not to love......

Mu Shihuan nodded: "You love me." ”

She doesn't deny his affection, if he doesn't love, with his former status, what kind of woman he wants, why waste time on her, if he doesn't love, how can there be all kinds of things in the future.

If he didn't love her, he wouldn't ignore sending her away, and he would face the danger of Yu Linshang alone.

If you don't love......

Suddenly, Mu Shihuan found that he seemed to be able to tell a lot of moments and details of his love for her.

He loved her.

Maybe the misunderstanding before falling into the river made her doubt shaken, but she still believed that he loved her.

Once upon a time, now and now.

But......

"You don't respect me and won't love me." She whispered the rest of the words.

It's not that I don't love, but I don't know how to love.

Li Jingyan understood what she meant.

The words he wanted to explain seemed to be unspeakable, and there seemed to be no need to say them, he just stared at her, and asked in a dumb voice for a moment: "What else?" What else do you want to say? ”

He knew what she wanted to say, and he believed it, and she knew he knew.

"Your love is too selfish," as he wished, Mu Shihuan told him very clearly, "At first, you were for the company, but then you may be guilty, and now you want to start again......"

"Li Jingyan, I'm not as selfish as you."

As if he was very tired, Mu Shihuan paused for a while.

"It's too tiring to get along with you, since the accident, it's always been this feeling, you know that I reject you and don't want to see you, but you still appear in front of me, isn't it selfish?"

She breathed a sigh of relief and didn't hide it.

"Last night," the focus of her eyes dissipated for a moment, and she said the most sincere words, "I know, you won't believe what I said last night, you think I hate you, and you think I love you." ”

"I thought you'd give up when I said that, but it's like...... Things didn't go the way I thought they would. ”

The eyelashes trembled, and the chaos vanished, and Qingming took its place.

She looked at his face, low, but not without firmness, and said, "Yes, you guessed it, I hate you, and I still love you a little, and I don't have enough time, and I can't completely dislove you." ”

She confessed that she still loved him.

I thought it would be difficult and uncomfortable to say it, but it didn't seem to be as difficult as I imagined to say it, but I was relieved that I no longer had to blame myself for running away.

Approximately, escaping is the most useless thing.

"Only time is enough." She added.

Only with enough time can she forget about her relationship with him, let go completely, and never love him again.

Li Jingyan could hear every word of her clearly, and thought that she would be happy and relieved to hear that she still had herself in her heart, but it turned out that she didn't.

On the contrary, the chest sank even more.

Her honesty was nothing more than to push him further and end up with him.

"What else?" He heard his own hoarse voice, the words tense.

“

And ......"

Suddenly, something else seemed to have pierced the tip of his heart, and it hurt a little, Mu Shihuan restrained himself, met his eyes, and said, "There is still ......"

But that sentence was stuck in his throat, but he didn't have the courage to say it for a long time.

So she forced herself to look at him, to think back to the past.

Then......

"You got me pregnant twice, we were, had two children, but neither was there." She looked at him, but finally got the words out of her mouth.

Children are the last thing she wants to talk about.

But in order to end up with him, she would rather expose her scars.

Even if it comes at the cost of blood.

The chest was very tight, even if he was mentally prepared, the feeling of stuffiness still swept through his body, Mu Shihuan forced himself not to retreat, and said the rest of the words: "Do you think, this is ...... Can we still be together? Are you going to force me to be with you again? ”

It seemed that it was a little difficult to breathe, and she breathed a soft sigh of relief in front of him, trying to suppress the discomfort.

"Even if I still love you, I don't know how to love you, how to go back to the original just like you and want to be with you."

Her fingertips trembled slightly, and she subconsciously wanted to blink, but she couldn't help it.

"The hurt you gave me in the past is not a word of sorry that can be erased, if you don't show up, I will be completely fine and be able to face the past calmly, but you appeared, your appearance, I ...... Don't want to. ”

I don't know when the hand that was clenched into a fist was released, she looked into his eyes and asked softly, "Why bother me, make me sad, make me not know how to face it." ”

As far as the eye could see, his good-looking thin lips seemed to be pursed into a straight line.

He is also exercising restraint.

Mu Shihuan was in a trance: "Last night, I dreamed of you, and your past, including our children, because I knew that I couldn't let go, so I didn't want to lie to myself anymore, so I told you this." ”

She knew that he had been taking care of him all night last night.

But she didn't want it.

"Li Jingyan," her eyes blinked, she looked at him again, and weakly spat out her last words, "I don't want to go back to the past, I don't want to love you, I don't want to be with you, I want to live a new life." ”

"Leave me alone."

"Ding-dong-"

As she uttered her last word, the doorbell rang just in time.

It shouldn't be Li Yan.

Then, only Shi Tingzhou or Jiang Wen remained.

Li Jingyan still looked at her, but Mu Shihuan didn't look at him again, endured the last bit of discomfort, turned sideways, and slowly wanted to walk in the direction of the door.

arm, was grabbed by him.

Mu Shihuan stopped and didn't look at him.

"Just beg, I'm begging you, let me go." She just said that, and then brushed his hand away.

She left, and he didn't stop her.

After a while, a man's voice was faintly heard outside.

Sometimes there are weeks in the court, and there are also Jiang Wen.

Soon, the voice became clearer.

Li Jingyan looked up, his gaze sweeping over the bedroom.

There seemed to be a scent of hers in the air, and he stood in silence for a few seconds, before finally lifting his feet and leaving.

Shi Ting Zhou just sat down on the sofa and was about to say something, when he heard the sound and thought it was Li Yan, he didn't turn his head.

Unexpectedly, the footsteps were not right, and the breath was not right.

It's clearly a man.

He frowned, straightened up, and turned his head.

At just one glance, his face was not good.