After eating and paying the bill, Xia Yao and I couldn't wait to escape from the noisy restaurant. Xitang Town is actually very small, and it is only because of Xitang Ancient Town that it has a sense of existence. The rain has stopped, and it is rare to see the moon and the Milky Way clearly visible tonight. Xia Yao and I stepped in the moonlight. Xia Yao jumped with her hands behind her back, and I followed behind to look at this girl who didn't belong to me, feeling sad for a while, and couldn't help but light a cigarette again.

"Xiao Chenzi, do you know why I liked you before? After all, you're so ugly. ”

"Maybe it's because I'm good, being ugly just enough to set off your beauty!"

"Is it okay to be serious? You're always in a good position. In the past, you were indeed a talented person and an idealist, so you were always very romantic, and you also liked to create a lot of surprises for me, and I could know a lot of strange things with you, and my days with you were new and happy. ”

"Hahahaha, I can't imagine that I still have this role. But didn't I bring you the painful life that I brought you? ”

"I like your literature, but I also hate your so-called literature. For example, you can give up going to class in order to sing on the street corner, you can skip class and go to the cinema for the so-called movie feelings, and you will also smoke uncontrollably when you can't write, crying and laughing like an epileptic maniac. ”

"Am I that unbearable?"

"You see, you don't recognize your own shortcomings right now. Idealistic people always have some unrealistic ideas, so you are very good at using intuition to understand the world and emotions to make judgments about the world. You are an out-and-out idealist, and idealism is an ideological tendency that is higher than reality and can adjust reality, so you always take advantage of the excitement and return home. You and I have been preparing for a long trip, but because you suddenly lost interest, we were forced to stop, you can sleep in the street with a few so-called wandering singers all night long, you can ride a bicycle in the rain and ride a bicycle to see me regardless of the danger, you think I will be moved, and I only think you are naïve, you are too easy to be subjectively judged to dominate your own flesh. Your sudden sadness, your stubbornness, your unwarning emotional ups and downs, your suspiciousness, your extreme insecurity, your crankiness, and your lack of progress have all become the accumulation of my later disappointment in you. Xia Yao didn't look back, I followed quietly without saying a word.

"It's not that I don't understand the reality of other people's mouths, I just don't believe that things can only be the way they are. There will always be people who do such and such good or bad things for the sake of profit and laziness, and some people will excuse themselves and make excuses, saying that the reality is like this, and they will change themselves if they are powerless to change the world. They shook their heads at the status quo and threw themselves into the pitch-black sewage, without hesitation. Looking at this dark world, I still believe that there is such a thing as white and clean in the world. I understand all the truths of reality, and I understand them more thoroughly than many people, and I know that the cruel part of the world is bought by many people at a lot of cost. But I still don't stop yearning for beautiful things, and walking towards a bright place. I said to Xia Yao's back, and Xia Yao didn't look back or speak for a long time.

"Xiao Chenzi, do you still like to sing? It's been a long time since I've heard you sing. ”

"I like it, I like it, but I smoke too much, and my voice is no longer suitable for singing."

"Can you sing for me, like before."

"I try to sing as well as I can."

I have always liked to sing, but I always don't learn the skills and FLOW in the song, and I am naturally casual and crazy:

You always talk about your ups and downs like a novel with no ending

Also like you, like your tired life

But who doesn't wake up from a dream and become even more lost

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye to the past

Isn't it so persistent

Ideals are broken

Is it after being ridiculed

It's just as free

Isn't it the same as it used to be

Like a shackle

It's not worth mentioning, it's not worth thinking about

Occasionally, too, it is contrived

………………

Leaving the north of the old city, I thought that Xia Yao and I were going to part ways, I went back to the "Sky City", and she went back to her hotel. "Xiao Chenzi, let me tell you, I didn't know the place where I came to Xitang, so I called you the first moment I came, and the safety of the little woman's life will be left to you." Xia Yao was aggrieved for a while, and I had to take her back to "Sky City". When they returned to the "Sky City", Lu Chenyang, Luo Ben, Qiao Bing'er, Ye Wei and others were singing in the inn hall, Lin Jiage and Shen Jihao were lovers, and they should have entered the gentle township a long time ago.

I led Xia Yao in, and a group of people looked up in unison. Lu Chenyang put down his guitar and shouted at me: "Little brother, yes, if you don't see you in the afternoon, you will bring a girl." Then a crowd of people started to laugh. I said angrily: "Go, go, go, don't talk nonsense, this is my friend, I just met in Xitang." I didn't dare to tell Robben and them about my relationship with Xia Yao, after all, my ex-boyfriend and ex-girlfriend still have an unclear relationship, and it's really unbelievable to say it.

"Hello everyone, my name is Xia Yao, and I am a friend of Xiao Chenzi." Xia Yao introduced herself like a little daughter-in-law behind my back. The people in the inn smiled and politely at Xia Yao,

"Brother Robben, is there still a room in the inn? She didn't seem to have a place to live. I looked at Xia Yao, who was squirming and pinching, and my head was big for a while, so I asked Robben.

"Yan'er, is there any room in the inn?" Robben looked at the pregnant woman gently.

"It seems that there are none, there are still a few during the day, but they have been booked by guests two hours ago." Yan'er looked at Robben with embarrassment and guilt on her face.

"Oh, it's okay, it's really not good, you can rest with Ye Wei for one night. Tomorrow there will be guests leaving to vacate the room. Robben said with a smile.

"Little sister, you can sleep with your sister." Ye Wei looked at Xia Yao and nodded and smiled at her.

"Thank you, sister, but I can sleep with Xiao Chenzi." Xia Yao blinked and said,

"How can this work?" I asked rhetorically.

"What's wrong, it's not like I haven't slept before." Xia Yao muttered quietly behind me, but she looked down on the few musicians who were sitting with their ears, and a group of people looked at me and laughed evilly, and I could only smile back with a red face.

Immediately, I pulled Xia Yao and ran to the "painting" on the second floor of the "Sky City". Opening the door of the room, Xia Yao exclaimed: "Wow, this room is too good, it must be very expensive, Xiao Chenzi has become rich, but he can't live in luxury." "This room was arranged for me by Robben for free, and he will get married in two days." I replied angrily, maybe in her eyes I was a big spender. "These paintings are also beautiful. Cashier Robben, Robben? Is it the innkeeper downstairs? Xia Yao asked incredulously. Yes, he used to be an artist, but unfortunately he is also bowing to life, and in two days it will be his wedding. Okay, you wash yourself, I'll go down and play with them for a while, and I'll be back later." With that, I went downstairs. Xia Yao let out an extremely reluctant "oh".

The people downstairs left one after another and returned to the room, Shen Yan'er packed up the accounts and returned to the room, and the inn hung up a sign saying that it was closed. Robben sat on the stone steps in the doorway and smoked a cigarette. I walked over and lit a cigarette and sat down next to Robben.

"That girl is good, you kid, you hooked up at noon." Robben said half-jokingly.

"Actually, she's not my friend, she's my ex-girlfriend." I smoked a cigarette and could only shake my head helplessly in reply.

"Ex-girlfriend? Your ex-girlfriend is still willing to see you, and she is willing to sleep in a room with you, your ex-girlfriend is a little, uh, it's hard to say. Robben frowned, took a drag on his cigarette, and after a pause he held back a word.

"Actually, she's not the casual person you think. She was very strange, she didn't want to sleep in the same bed with others, she felt awkward even in the same room, even with her mother and sister, and later when she was with me, she slept with me. I smoked a cigarette, as if recalling scenes from my past with her in bed.

"How did you separate?" Robben asked.

"Alas, it's hard to put into words, and I don't want to mention those torturous years." I smoked, exhaled heavy smoke rings, and didn't speak again.

"It's not too early, let's go to bed." Robben took the last puff of his cigarette and went back to the store and went to a small room.

Robben held a quilt in the small room and handed it to me, saying: "Go to sleep, of course you kid still sleep on the sofa, after all, lonely men and widows are in the same room, I am afraid that you can't help it, give other girls the respect and love they deserve."

"Don't worry, although I am wolf-hearted, at least I still know etiquette and shame." I took the quilt and went back to "Paintings".

Xia Yao had already washed up and was lying on the bed with all kinds of Douyin videos, I glanced at her, threw the quilt on the sofa and went to the bathroom to wash. When I came out, Xia Yao was still brushing Douyin, I simply turned off the light, and went to fall asleep on the sofa without words.

"Xiao Chenzi, aren't you coming to bed?" Xia Yao asked cautiously.

"Although I'm not a gentleman, I'm definitely not the villain you imagined, the atmosphere is already scorching when lonely men and widows are in the same room, what kind of body does it become to sleep in the same bed." I pretended to be righteous and awe-inspiring and scolded Xia Yao.

"You weren't like that before, you used to be like a hungry wolf." Xia Yao muttered with disdain.

"Sleep! Xia Yao. Xia Yao's words reminded me of some years when I didn't want to mention it again, so I turned off my phone and slept on my back. Only the sound of me and Xia Yao's breathing was left in the room.

"Xiao Chenzi, did you really sleep?" For a long time, Xia Yao broke the silence and asked tentatively.

"Sleep."

There was no word all night.

Sleepless nights.