The same is true of the painting in Ji Liancheng's house, all the rattans are struggling, and if they don't pay attention to it, they really think that they have broken through the darkness. But not at all, they are still in the dark......

I don't know much about your paintings, but I just said how I felt after appreciating them, and I felt that your paintings were looking for the energy of life. ”

Guan Qi's gaze seemed to be shocked, "Everyone thought that my paintings were inspirational, full of struggle against bondage, and full of life power. Even if you are in a desperate situation, you are trying to find life and never give up. You are the first to say that my paintings are full of despair. ”

"Ah, that's right." Lin Zhi found that her paintings could indeed be interpreted as she meant them.

"I really don't understand art, so I said that your paintings are all desperate, so it turns out that I misunderstood."

"No, you're right!" Guan Qi said suddenly.

Lin Zhi was stunned!

What did she say?

Guan Qi seemed to have found a soulmate, and she was a little excited, and even her voice trembled a little.

"You're right...... My paintings are all filled with despair, and there is nothing inspirational at all. They look like they're trying to survive, but they're not, they're desperate because they never touch the hope of survival. They tried their best, but they couldn't reach it. So they're all full of the most vigorous vitality, actually...... That's just the last bloom of life. ”

Lin Zhi looked at her in shock, are these paintings alluding to herself?

She just couldn't find any hope of living, so she committed suicide?

Didn't she have a child, and weren't the child the driving force for her to live?

"Why do you want to give them that meaning?" Lin Zhi asked rhetorically, "Miss Guan, don't blame me for talking nonsense...... Can't you find the motivation to survive? ”

"You said before that my paintings are all about looking for the energy of life." Guan Qi replied, "Your description is very accurate, they are indeed looking for the energy of life." ”

Lin Zhi's reaction was quick and continued to ask, "So you're also looking for life energy?" ”

Guan Qi didn't answer, but his expression was very desolate, even desperate.

She suddenly released her sorrow, because she was seen through and could no longer hide it.

"Yes, I don't know what the meaning of life is. I don't know how I can live like this day in and day out, I don't know what can reactivate my depleted heart. I can't find the motivation and direction, and I can't break through myself, I feel that it's really not interesting to be alive. ”

"......" Lin Zhi looked at her even more shocked.

She guessed correctly, she was replaced with severe depression!

"Miss Guan, I think you're too tired, why don't you put down your creation first and rest for a while."

Guan Qi shook his head with a smile, his eyes were barren, "It's useless, in the past five years, I have tried all kinds of methods, but I can't find the motivation to live."

I've been to a lot of places, I've done a lot of things, I'm constantly doing good deeds, doing extreme sports, working hard to improve myself, and constantly creating...... Unfortunately, it all didn't work.

No matter what I do, my life is only ignited for a short period of time. When I'm done, I'm still going back to the way I was, and I still don't have any will to survive. And even ......"

Speaking of this, Guan Qi looked at her and said, "In order to survive, I also deliberately conceived this new life." ”