Leaving work in the afternoon is the happiest time for men and women. A large group of men who had washed and put on their clothes carried buckets and resisted fishing gear and ran to the moat to fish. The women put on clean clothes and sat in the courtyard of the shed, talking homely, and the young people rode on the cool road.

After his introduction, I chatted with some recent college graduates on the construction site about speculation, and left some energy to play basketball with them after work, bragging, and living a free life.

The construction site, which was in full swing during the day, fell silent in the setting sun. At this time, Wang Zisong would also go to the commissary to buy a pack of five yuan at the front door, a bottle of liquor for four yuan, and a bag of peanuts to sit on the side of the road, blowing the evening breeze, and he didn't play with his mobile phone, drinking a sip of liquor, smoking a cigarette, and looking into the distance.

When the fishing men came back, when the city was noisy in the distance, and when the young people returned to the shed noisily, Wang Zisong also carried the remaining half bottle of liquor, and returned to the workers' dormitory with his left foot deep and his right foot shallow and fell asleep.

He said: "I always look at my phone in a daze, and I can't sleep at night, so it's easy to fall asleep after drinking a little wine, but I don't dare to drink too much, after all, I have to get up and go to work the next day."

My only advantage is that I talk a lot, and I can talk to anyone, so I became friends with Wang Zisong.

The more I communicated and understood, the more I found that Wang Zisong was a simple and simple man who was not good at words, but had the dream of a beast-like motorcycle rider in his heart.

Until one day, the construction site finally finished a project and fell into a break for a while. Workers can also get a long-lost rest. In the evening, when the rain stopped, Wang Zisong called me and said, "Hey, Xiao Chen, let's go, please eat barbecue!"

So Wang Zisong and I went to a barbecue restaurant not far from the construction site.

Wang Zisong went to order, and the guy in the store brought a case of beer and two bottles of Niulanshan. Wang Zisong sat down with me after ordering, and he threw the big front door of five yuan on the table and said, "Smoke casually, although the smoke is not good, but it tastes great and is full of strength!"

I said, "I remember that many years ago, the front door was only two yuan, and it has changed so much, and now it is five yuan!"

Wang Zisong looked at a child playing alone in the distance and said, "Yes, the changes are really big, and the changes in this society are great!"

The barbecue was brought to the table by the guy, and Wang Zisong said, "Just order it and start eating!" He said as he picked up the wine from the ground. Skillfully biting it open with his teeth, he handed it to me, and I reached out to take it, waiting for him to pick up his bullpen mountain and clink glasses with him. So the two of them drank back and forth and became dizzy.

Wang Zisong began to get drunk, his face was flushed, and the green tendons on his neck burst out. With the strength of the wine, I asked, "Zisong, why don't you usually like to talk?"

Wang Zisong flipped through the barbecue on the table and said: "Why don't you speak, you see I'm not talking to you, usually the construction site is so tired, how can I have the energy to speak, in order to make some money a day, I have to put half my life on the steel pipe of the construction site!" Anyway, you kid, what are you doing at the construction site when you are studying? ”

I laughed and said, "I'm here for the money."

"You said that you are open-minded, I advise you to go back and study hard!" Wang Zisong handed me a cigarette and said.

"I'll tell you the truth, I'm still a student, but I'm bored at home during the holidays, so I came out to work. You don't say it, the construction site is a little tired, but you make more money than the factory hotel! ”

"Hahaha, if it weren't for the money made on the construction site, who would want to work tirelessly every day!" Wang Zisong's joking tone became deep and melancholy.

"Life is always like this, it's not up to anyone, you're for your children, right?"

Hearing the word child, Wang Zisong suddenly fell silent and stopped speaking, picked up the liquor and poured a few sips. My face was blue, and I looked at a certain barbecue on the table and didn't speak, I understood that I had spoken inappropriately, and I was embarrassed and hesitated.

Wang Zisong suddenly smiled bitterly, then picked up the wine and clinked glasses with me, and said: "Yes, for a hard-working child who has no mother and can only rely on grandma!"

I didn't speak, so I naturally understood that Wang Zisong had something to say. I picked up the bottle and clinked glasses with him.

"I always have hope for life, so it always perfunctory to me again and again. If it weren't for my wife's begging, I wouldn't have come to work at the construction site. When I was in Sichuan, I had a job that did not enter the stream, except for going to work every day, I got off work, took the bus, ate breakfast of three yuan, and kept a salary of two or three thousand a month, and my life was not distempered. However, my father had liver cancer, and just like that, ordinary days began to become my nightmare! I'm overwhelmed by the drastic changes. The savings of the parents at home were exhausted in ten days, and since then they have not dared to eat meat, smoke the cheapest, dare not buy toys for children, dare not look at the clothes that their wives want, and finally, the salary of 3,000 yuan can no longer support the operation of the family, so they simply came to the construction site, thousands more a month, but ............" Wang Zisong said and hugged the wine bottle and laughed, his smile looked terrible in the dim light of the barbecue restaurant. The corners of his mouth were elongated, revealing his crooked teeth covered with smoke and dirt, his eyes were wide open, like a mental patient who wanted to eat people, and the hoarse laughter came directly from his throat, and he touched the position of his heart, and his fingers were unreasonably bent. This is a manifestation of human helplessness in the face of extreme grief.

It rained in late autumn, and the night began to fall again, and the drizzle fell on the table. Wang Zisong took a few more sips of liquor, there were obviously tears churning in the corners of his eyes, and he obviously had no intention of leaving.

People, the more they grow up, the more they can't cry, especially men, they can grit their teeth and pretend to be hard in the case of broken bones and bleeding, if an old man cries, it is conceivable that what he encountered has become the last straw that overwhelmed him. I have always been an emotional person, so I simply accompanied Wang Zisong.

Since I was a child, I have known such a saying: "If you don't know the suffering of others, don't persuade others to be kind!"

I searched my head for comforting words. On second thought, I felt that it was ridiculous to use the few years of education I had to comfort a man who was crawling around in society.

So I picked up the cigarette that had been soaked in the rain and handed it to him, and he took it, and the lighter finally burned a hole in the dark night several times and lit the cigarette.

Wang Zisong laughed for a long time, and suddenly opened the conversation box and said: "Isn't love just a kind of flavoring for people now, if you don't like this taste, you can start the next one casually." Maybe after going through a lot, there will be no waves in my heart, anyway, I have experienced it, crying until the dark days, and at first I thought that it was my fault that I didn't have the ability to give others a good life, and I wanted to desperately grab it, desperately change, until a woman who had been with me for many years was naked in someone else's bed. At that moment, I was furious, and I even tried to kill the dog man and woman, but the woman said something 'I follow you, Wang Zisong, what else do I have, I dare not buy the clothes I see, I dare not touch the bags I see, your father's liver cancer is a bottomless pit at all, why should I follow you, you poor bastard who is useless!'" 'To be honest, Haidilao eats a meal, buys a pair of shoes, buys a set of clothes, and drinks a cup of milk tea, I don't have a month's salary, I don't blame her for the material, I really only blame myself for not having the ability! ”

"I finally know why you hate scantily clad women!" I toasted a glass of wine to Lao Du.

"Later, I ate more and more lightly, smoked cheaper and cheaper, drank more and more alcohol, treated people more and more tolerantly, and learned to tolerate without losing my temper. I also began to be afraid to hear anything related to my illness, and my greatest wish became that my family was healthy. I would rather spend nine-tenths of the time having my last meal with my father under the gentle light than I couldn't wait for a promotion and a raise, but even though I was bleeding and sweating on the construction site, I still couldn't fill my father's bottomless pit, and my father left in May this year! Wang Zisong told the story with a smile, and I listened in silence.

This is the case in this world, at this moment, Wang Zisong is sad and sad here, saying that there is no money, but there are people in the distant city who are throwing money everywhere, singing every night, so happy!

A stray dog ran out of a dark corner in the distance, its fur hanging together. He came to the table and walked around, and he didn't bark, Wang Zisong saw it, picked up a few skewers of barbecue and threw them on the ground, the stray dogs also ate them, and Wang Zisong also laughed.

I don't know what kind of clothes the pet dogs in the distant cities are wearing and how expensive the dog food is. Later, Wang Zisong settled the account, touched the wet cigarette, and we hobbled back to the shed.

Later, I left the construction site and returned to school, Wang Zisong and Fa Xiao sent me to the station, still handed me a five-yuan big front door, squatting at the train station after smoking, looking at Wang Zisong's incompatible dress with this city, I suddenly remembered a passage from "Daydreamer": "Go and go, go where you want to go, go to China, go to see the giant pandas, see the three red pandas, if you are hungry, go to some delicious places, go to three-star hotels, go to eat those foods that people yearn for, go to eat fried flower oysters, drink its juice, Go make friends with interesting people, go to a friend's wedding, you can lose yourself and find yourself again, go to Los Angeles, go to the Lakers play, go to that store that only you know! ”

Not long after returning to Guizhou, Bai Boning looked at his circle of friends, and a red Suzuki locomotive appeared very suddenly in his circle of friends, with the text: Sold at a low price! Because the red double happiness of seven yuan and five is eight yuan a pack.

I was stunned for a moment, thinking of the day I resigned from the construction site and he helped me pack my things, and before leaving, he told me: "Life is very difficult, live hard." ”

Perhaps, he may have known that one day he would reconcile with the world, but on that day, would he reconcile with himself or the world first?