The girl wrapped herself tightly with a sheet, leaving no gaps, that is, even the head was covered with the girl.

The girl chose to use this evasive method - throwing the pastries in the trash, turning off the lights, and plunging herself into darkness.

It's like an ostrich burying its head in a dangerous situation.

In this way, the girl wants to alleviate or even dispel the desire for food.

The girl was buried in the sheets, anxious, and kept admonishing herself, so that her desires and instincts could gradually calm down, and let them return to the deepest part of their bodies, and once again be hidden.

This method seems to work, after all, the hardest thing for a girl is really just the moment when she makes a choice.

When the two were really dormant, the girl suddenly felt the stuffiness, and she couldn't breathe fresh air.

The girl cautiously poked her head out, but still tugged at the sheet.

The girl still imprisoned her body with the sheet, and she refused to let her guard down for a moment for fear that everything that had just happened would come back again.

The girl closed her eyes tightly, trying to get herself to sleep as soon as possible.

In this slow and long night, except for the sound of the electric fan, the rest was very quiet, and the girl could clearly hear her own soft and slow heartbeat.

She had just gotten rid of her strong and violent desires and instincts, and her body was already extremely tired.

But the girl's brain was still confused, as if it had been twisted into a twist. The girl's brain was still sluggish, and she didn't receive signals to relax, and she was still in a state of high concentration.

This made the girl can't help but think about it.

The girl only felt as if she had done a hard day's work or fought a difficult battle, and her body was weightless and weak. It's as if it's going to disappear soon.

The girl sought comfort and protection by gently wrapping her arms around her shoulders.

But the girl could only touch the front and back two bones, which were the girl's collarbone and shoulder blade. These two bones are just symbolically holding a bit of flesh and skin.

The girl touched the raised butterfly bone on her back again, and couldn't help but feel stunned, and suddenly became in a trance.

She began to feel that she was no longer herself, that she had become a different person.

It sounds like a strange idea.

The girl felt that the person who was touching her now was not herself, a stranger, or also a non-existent, an illusion.

But the girl thinks that maybe everything is the other way around, but in fact, the girl herself is the empty person.

The girl's thoughts were disorganized, her senses were blurred, and her body was fluttering, as if she were on a cloud.

She gently pinched the little bit of flesh on her bones, and there was too much confusion.

"Am I still myself?"

"What has become of me now?"

"Is this still a normal person for me now?"

"And what was I like in the past?"

"Am I going to live like this forever?"

"But I just want to be a "skinny girl", why did I become the way I am now? ”

"Am I doing something wrong again? But where did it go wrong? ”

……

The girl kept questioning herself in the bottom of her heart, praying for her answer.

In fact, these questions have been asked by the girl countless times in the middle of the night, countless times, and she has tirelessly questioned herself.

But the girl never replied to herself, telling herself the corresponding answer.

In fact, the girl discovered it early and knew the truth, but it was a secret buried in the darkest place in the girl's heart, which could not be faced calmly.

Sometimes even the girls themselves are very vague and forget the secret.

In fact, the girl has always wanted to end this as soon as possible.

Girls no longer want to stand on the scales every day to look at the numbers, to become the binders of weight, numbers; I don't want to measure the weight of food and calculate his calories all the time; I don't want to suffer from gains and losses every day, and I am afraid that I will become fat again.

The girl didn't want to do this at all, she didn't want to live in this form at all.

It's too painful, too painful......

The girl just wants to eat well, eat the food she wants to eat, just want to be happy every day, and not worry about her weight.

The girl just wants to live like a normal person.

But the girl knew that she had no way to do it, and she could never do it.

The girl didn't have the courage to do this, she knew that she couldn't bear the consequences of doing so, and it was worse than death for the girl.

In fact, by now, everything is already clear.

It's the girl herself who doesn't want to let go of herself, she never gives herself a chance to let go, so naturally she can't turn back.

The girl was thinking wildly, thinking about how she lived in this world in the past, and how she lived now, but the girl didn't dare to think about her future.

She was so scared, afraid that she would still be alive like this in the future.

Then there is no future.

The girl just thought about it, thought about it, and fell asleep.