Outside the terrace, where the figure sits slender.

Li Yan's heart that was suddenly lifted was finally put down, and he was soon hung up again.

Unspeakable emotions spread, and she stared at Shi Huan's back.

After a long time, she lifted the quilt and got out of bed, walked over slowly, sat down beside her, and held her hand.

Cold, Mu Shihuan, who was immersed in his own world, seemed to be disturbed, and his body tensed up for the first time, and only then did he relax when he realized that it was Li Yan.

She didn't speak, and neither did Li Yan.

It was already early in the morning, everything was silent, the night was thick, and the faint moonlight shrouded it in a little softness.

Li Yan looked at the moon, and finally his eyes fell on the person next to him.

"Shi Huan, let's talk." She whispered.

The moment the words fell, she clearly felt that her body, which had just returned to normal, was a little tense again.

It's like repulsion.

But this time, she didn't give her a chance to escape.

"I won't treat you as a patient," Li Yan's gaze fell into the distance through her slender figure, "I won't be careful if I think you're sick, be careful about your physical and mental condition." ”

She squeezed Shi Huan's hand.

"You don't want to, and you don't like me to treat you like a patient, do you?" She reminded, "You also said something similar, Shi Huan, do you remember?" ”

Mu Shihuan's eyelashes suddenly fluttered uncontrollably.

She, of course, remembers.

She wanted to speak, but for some reason, she suddenly felt as if something was blocking her throat.

It's so uncomfortable that I can't make a sound.

Li Yan still looked at her in the end.

As far as the eye can see, she has lost a lot of weight, not just on the surface.

Although she couldn't bear it, she had to be ruthless, she knew that some things couldn't be postponed again and again.

"I didn't mention it abroad, I didn't ask, and it was even before now," she looked at her and said, "But Shi Huan, if I don't mention it, it doesn't mean that I don't know, it doesn't mean that these things don't exist, and they can be erased without a trace." ”

"And you can't get over it at all."

I didn't say it explicitly, but both of them understood that they were talking about the child and her psychological condition.

Mu Shihuan's hand held by her trembled faintly, and even her breathing became a little rapid uncontrollably.

She was tempted to turn down the topic.

But......

"I asked the doctor," seeing her evasion, Li Yan forced her to confront, "your pregnancy. Low ketones, signs of threatened miscarriage, early need to protect the fetus, and your mood and psychological condition are problematic. ”

Mu Shihuan's breathing became more and more rapid, and gradually became heavy.

Li Yan stared at her ruthlessly: "The doctor said that there is a good chance that the child does not have it, even if it is ...... Li Jingyan was by your side at the time, and the child may not be able to stay. ”

"Click-"

A tear fell with Mu Shihuan's bowing head and dripped on the back of Li Yan's hand.

Li Yan's grip on her hand tightened.

"You're weird, aren't you? Blame him for not consulting you, sending you away on his own initiative, blame him for letting you get pregnant in that situation, blame him for not allowing them to tell you anything about him, cut off your sources of information, and make you know nothing. ”

Every time he said a word, Mu Shihuan's body seemed to be a little tighter.

Li Yan felt clear.

"You blame him even more for not showing up when you actually need him, not even hearing his voice. You think you hate him, but in fact, in your heart, you once expected him to appear. ”

"Times

Huan, am I right? ”

Silence shrouded, only Li Yan's voice was clear, and the words were exceptionally clear, clearly drifting into Mu Shihuan's ears.

It's even more ...... It landed on her heart.

Mu Shihuan didn't want to admit it, but it seemed that he had to admit that Yanyan was right.

Tintooth silently bit her lip hard, and she didn't want to make a sound.

"You blame him, but you blame yourself even more, you didn't let the child be safe, you didn't leave the child, you need to look forward to the child, the child is your hope."

The force with which she bit her lip seemed to be much heavier.

Li Yan couldn't bear it for her, so she could only comfort her as much as possible and let her know that she was by her side.

A strand of her hair fell out, and Li Yan didn't pull it behind her ear for her.

She just asked, "But Shi Huan, do you want to blame yourself for how long you have to hide yourself all the time?" Do you want to let yourself live in guilt and pain all the time? Are you sure you want to punish yourself like this? ”

Mu Shihuan still didn't speak, but his chest rose and fell even more.

Li Yan's heart is very blocked and very uncomfortable.

She endured: "I haven't been able to get out, the situation has always been bad, what will happen in the future, have you thought about it?" After a pause, she spat out the rest of the words, "You'll only lose more." ”

Another tear suddenly fell.

Li Yan looked at it and couldn't help but not wipe her: "The child you were undercover back then is still missing, maybe in a corner of this world, or ...... There is no definite news for a day, and there is hope, isn't it? ”

The kid back then......

In an instant, Mu Shihuan had difficulty breathing, her eyes were hot, and she was sour and ready to move, as if she was going to devour her.

Li Yan felt her mood change.

As long as there can be changes, I'm afraid to keep pushing myself.

Stretching out his other hand to wrap her, Li Yan said the next words: "What happened back then, child, what happened to Yu Linshang, what happened in the past six months......

"These are the explanations that Li Jingyan needs to give you, I can't tell you, I don't want to hide it from you, except that I really don't know clearly, this is fundamentally a problem that needs to be solved between you and Li Jingyan."

Her hands were cold, and Li Yan warmed her up.

Mu Shihuan still didn't speak.

She didn't know what she was, whether she was running away or not daring to face it, or if her psychological problems were so serious that she excluded the outside world.

Yes, she knew, there was something wrong with her psyche.

She knew that Yanyan had a point, she knew ......

But no matter how much she knew, she still couldn't convince herself.

She didn't say a word, but Li Yan knew her, and no one knew each other better than them.

After a short silence, Li Yan changed the topic again and did not give her a chance to dodge again: "Do you still love Li Jingyan?" ”

The voice is soft.

Mu Shihuan's breathing suddenly stopped, and then he lost his rhythm.

She opened her mouth, wanting to say that she didn't love her, and even had the urge to deny that she had just mentioned that she blamed him, and she didn't seem to want to admit everything about Li Jingyan.

However......

Li Yan's gaze always looked at her gently.

"Shi Huan," she said gently but firmly, "Or, let go completely, as you said, Jiangcheng has nothing to do with you from now on, you start anew, start a new life, as long as you want, everything will slowly get better." ”

But the premise of her willingness is that she does not reject treatment.

She needs to see a psychiatrist.

Li Yan understands, Mu Shihuan doesn't understand.

Her fingers trembled.

Li Yan clasped her hand again and gave her silent comfort.

She continued: "If you can't let go, if you still love him to this day, then get back together and give each other a chance." ”

"I don't love him......" Mu Shihuan finally made a difficult sound.

Li Yan was silent.

"If you don't love, why do you have expectations, if you don't love, why blame him and blame yourself?" She asked rhetorically, hitting the nail on the head, "If you don't love it, why don't you even want to see his face." ”

"I ......"

"It's not a shame to admit that you're still in love with him, and it's not a sin."

The sourness silently becomes intense.

Li Yan said in a gentle tone: "What happened when you were undercover back then, standing in your respective positions at that time, you thought that the other party was an enemy, but in fact, no one was wrong, and then everything was an accident and a man-made, you know it very well, aren't you?" ”

Reaching out, she hugged her.

"Later, you reunited, the problem between him and Mu Nuan, and then you disappeared and lost your memory and returned to meet again, all of them, I believe he can give you an explanation, I don't comment on this period."

"After you had an accident for a year, your life and death are unknown, and it cannot be denied that the accident is largely due to his reasons, no matter how Yu Linshang calculates and arranges, it is an indisputable fact that he did not protect you, I will not say anything for him."

"As for now, I won't help him defend himself, he is the only one who can explain to you, I can't, Tang Yu can't, except for Li Jingyan, no one can be more qualified."

Li Yan paused: "Of course, the premise is that you still want an explanation, an explanation." ”

She let go of her.

"Shi Huan, do you understand what I mean?" She asked, staring at her.

Mu Shihuan moved his lips, and his chest was extremely uncomfortable.

Li Yan sighed silently.

"No matter what decision you make, I will always support you, except that you choose to run away." She solemnly broke her face and let her look at herself, "Do you know that you are sick, and what kind of illness is it, do you want to continue to run away?" ”

She knows it too.

Shi Huan already has a tendency to depression, or to be precise, more than a tendency, which has already begun.

And what can help her is that she no longer runs away, and secondly, the doctor.

And also...... Li Jingyan.

Li Jingyan has long been a knot in her heart, whether it is this time or before.

"Shi Huan, I hope you're okay," Li Yan got up, turned to squat down in front of her, and gently wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with her fingertips, "Let's see a doctor and forget about the unhappy, okay?" ”

"Mu Shihuan shouldn't be the current Mu Shihuan, she knows what she wants, she is very brave, she won't run away, even if she wants to hide and heal, she won't give up on herself, because she is Mu Shihuan." Li Yan said softly.

After saying this, she didn't say anything more.

Time flows quietly.

After a while, Mu Shihuan slowly raised his eyes, and his eyes were already red.

Li Yan got up, pulled her up, led her back to the bedroom, half-gently and half-forcefully let her lie back on the bed, and helped her cover the quilt.

"I'll go sleep next door, it won't affect you, you think about it carefully, and give me an answer tomorrow morning." As she spoke, she turned the lights to the lowest level again.

The Shi family originally prepared a guest room for her, which was next door, but she couldn't rest assured that she slept with Shi Huan, but now she thought that she should give Shi Huan space and time to let her think clearly.

She walked out and closed the door.

Silence shrouded.

In the huge bedroom, only Mu Shihuan was left.