Chapter 416: The Secret of the Heart (Wuhan Day9)
"Why are you looking at me like that?" Ai Mo was uncomfortable being looked at by An Ge, since the morning came, An Ju looked at her like this, the meaning in her eyes and the obvious magnetic field emanating from her whole body, how could Ai Mo not know what she meant.
"I'll see if you can bear to tell me later, but it seems that my place in your heart has been replaced, and I waited all night for your news last night! As a result, I came early this morning to see if you have anything to share with me, but there is still none, which is really sad. An Ying looked hurt, Ai Mo knew that she was joking, but she could only cooperate.
"You can't be replaced by anyone in my heart, it's just that I never thought things would develop like this, and I wasn't ready to change, so I always felt like I was being pushed away."
"So, did you tell him your secret?"
Ai Mo nodded.
"It's okay, it's okay." An Ju patted her chest exaggeratedly, looking relieved, which made Ai Mo a little confused.
"I thought you little girl was still hiding this! But now, I can tell you very clearly that you are not being pushed by others, but by your own heart, otherwise, no one but yourself will reveal the secrets of the past to another person. Since you have told him, it proves that in your heart, he has become a special being. I really don't know if Qiming knows the meaning of this, I really want to talk to him! ”
"Don't!" Ai Mo hurriedly grabbed the hand that An Cheng almost stretched out to Ling Bao, but saw An Ju winking at him mischievously, obviously, he was teasing her again.
"Wow!" Ai Mo was a little weak, but An Yang smiled happily.
"I'm really happy for you." Anju's eyes were bent, and her joy was like a wave, infecting the moxa with the magnetic field.
"Xiao Ai, do you know? I never expected someone to show up with someone you trust so much, you're kind to everyone around you, but I know that that's what you want people to be nice to you. There is nothing wrong with this, the interaction between people is a process of giving and receiving, but love is a little different. ”
Ai Mo looked at An Xu's concerned and caring eyes, and nodded, this look was the same as when Mu Qiming looked at her yesterday and talked about those past events.
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"I have a secret that has been hidden in my heart for a long time, and in this world, there are only two people who know this secret, one is Zhu Yi and the other is Dr. Chu. I am really grateful to them, the ones who saved me from the abyss and the ones who helped me overcome my fears and get back into a normal life. ”
Mu Qiming remembered the doctor he saw at Ai Mo's house that day, he didn't look like a doctor at all, but it should be the doctor Chu that Ai Mo said, no wonder, An Cheng would let him rush over and trust his judgment so much.
Turning up the heater in the car, Mu Qiming asked, "I know that the past is a scar that you dare not touch, but if I can, I hope to be able to be a listener." ”
"I also wanted to tell you, but I have been hesitant and didn't have the courage to take that step. It's not that I don't trust you, it's just that when the words come to my mouth, I can't say anything. Ai Mo looked at Mu Qiming in embarrassment, and then stretched out his hand to the warm wind blowing.
The late autumn night was still a little cold, and it was only after the warm breeze blew on the moxa foam that I realized that it was a little cold.
A piece of clothing was draped over Aimo's body, and a pair of hands pulled her shirt together.
"Turn on the heater, instead of feeling hot for a while, you might as well dress first."
Ai Mo pursed her lips, and her clothes were still hot, which warmed her up a lot, and she had a lot of desire to talk in her heart.
"When I was a child, I was actually just like all the kids, if not better than many kids. They all say that I am very well-behaved, and since I was a child, I will feel sorry for people's faces, because I laugh when others laugh, and I cry more than them when others are wronged. ”
Ai Mo smiled, recalling the memories of her few births before the age of six, which were the best memories of her childhood.
"It's just that I have a strange disease, a disease that everyone is afraid of." Ai Mo's smile gradually faded, and he uncovered the scar with his own hands, even after so many years, it still hurts people's hearts.
Mu Qiming held Ai Mo's hand, and Ai Mo looked up at him and gave him a bitter smile.
"For this disease, my family took me for a check-up, and later I lost face and went to see a psychiatrist, but my illness was more serious, and I began to lose control, sometimes I couldn't control myself, and the family made more chaos. After a long time, they didn't care about me, not to mention, I also made them lose face in front of everyone. ”
If you want to talk about the beginning of the earth-shaking situation, you can't fail to mention the so-called college banquet held by Aimo's father in order to ask for help. When a six-year-old child goes to elementary school, what kind of education does it count? It was just an excuse, and although it had an unexpected result, it also made Aimo's parents completely disappointed in her.
Momo took a deep breath, licked his somewhat dry lips and continued: "Since then, I have been just a person, it was difficult and uncomfortable at first, but after a long time, I got used to it. When I meet someone who bothers me, I will avoid it, and if I can't dodge, I will fight with someone, maybe my talent for scattering is still learned at that time! ”
Mu Qiming looked at this self-calm girl with some unbearability, he knew about her abandonment, but he didn't know how much pain and suffering she experienced before being abandoned.
"You're not sick, it's just that you're more sensitive to the outside world and more susceptible to influences than anyone else." Mu Qiming wanted to listen to Ai Mo speak slowly, but he couldn't help but interrupt, and couldn't bear to let her continue to struggle in her memories.
"If you guessed it, I knew that you must have felt it. However, my sixth sense doesn't work, and all my senses come from an ability like mind reading, but unfortunately it's not mind reading after all. I studied psychology, but it was only scratching the surface, not to understand others, but to ensure that I could be myself. Because all my perceptions and judgments do not come from the mind, but from the influence of the outside world on me, I can be disturbed by the magnetic field, interfered by anyone's magnetic field, and become like them. They laugh, so I laugh, they cry, so I cry, they get angry, so I get angry! I am like an instrument that resonates with them, like a mirror, and I even wonder if I have a self or not, and whether I am alive for more than ten years! ”
Ai Mo said, a little hysterical, her flushed face, her constant wheezing voice, her trembling body and voice all proved how much effort she had to exert at this moment to suppress the panic and despair in her heart, which came from the depths of her heart that had never been cleared.