Sometimes, when I accidentally know something, I realize that what I care about is so ridiculous.

If there is a place for the heart to confide, it will not be so sad, and if there is a place for tears to vent, it will not be so hopeless.

Leng Yanshuo couldn't describe his mood at the moment, even if Ina didn't come back with the drug test report, he felt that he had been taking drugs.

During this time, he was busy with the company's affairs, completely ignoring the changes in his body, and deliberately blocking the feeling of being driven by drug addiction.

Li Chen could see that he was really unaware, and he could also feel his helplessness and collapse.

People are like that, after you have experienced a series of bad things, you always think that God should be fair, and it is time for some good fortune. However, it backfired. Bad luck followed one after another, and after a few critical hits, Leng Yanshuo's finally firm heart collapsed.

From the beginning, he had low self-esteem, he always prepared for the worst, and was prepared for Li Luo to leave him.

He knew that he was not worthy of Li Luo, he thought that the events of a few years ago had passed, but now he had made the same mistake again, what should he do?

Is it really as Li Chen said, let Li Luo go free?

Now Leng Yanshuo has no way to think calmly, his brain is a mess of porridge, and his thoughts are tightly entangled like ten thousand strings.

Although the bell must be tied to the bell, he has no idea who the person who tied the bell is and where to find it.

Li Chen arranged the food brought by Chu Xiao on the small table, and placed the spoon and chopsticks in front of Leng Yanshuo. But the man on the hospital bed had no appetite at all, his face was like a dead gray, his eyes were without a torch, and he leaned on it so stupidly.

"Eat something, what's the use of starving yourself to death?" Li Chen pushed the porridge bowl forward and motioned for him to hurry up and eat.

Leng Yanshuo shook his head expressionlessly, he didn't want to eat.

"If you want to die, don't die in front of me, if you don't eat, I'll hide Li Luo, so that you can't find it in your life."

Sure enough, Li Chen's threat was useful, Leng Yanshuo stared at Li Chen with red eyes, and had to raise his weak arm to finish the light porridge.

A bowl of green vegetable porridge is fragrant, but he tastes like chewing wax.

……

Laboratory.

On the way here, Ina pleaded and called the professor who had helped Leng Yanshuo get off drugs. He had long since retired, left a secret prescription and lived in the countryside with his wife, and since then he has lived a happy idyllic life.

Chu Xiao had been sitting at the door of the laboratory, his face was very ugly, and he stared at the situation in the fully transparent and closed laboratory without saying a word.

Ina stood in the corner of the lab, where the professor and several assistants separated the ingredients of the drug.

It took almost an hour for the results to come in.

The elderly professor walked out, Ina supported him, Chu Xiao swallowed nervously when he saw them come out, and the two big hands unconsciously stirred together.

"Hmm...... This medicine does contain drugs, but it's useless to tell you, take me to meet him. ”

The professor took off the white coat on his body and the mask on his face, and walked to the door of the institute step by step, ignoring Ina's inquiry, while Chu Xiao followed honestly without saying a word.

When they arrived at the hospital, Li Chen hadn't left yet, and they didn't know what the two of them had talked about during the time they left.

As soon as Chu Xiao entered, he couldn't help but moisten his eyes when he saw his good brother, and quickly turned his back and stood on the edge of the balcony, he didn't know how to face Leng Yanshuo.

Looking at Chu Xiao's reaction, Leng Yanshuo understood it in a flash, and a smile came out of his nose, ready to accept it calmly.

"What's wrong with you?" The elderly professor stood by the bed, looking at the pale man with some concern.

Although he has only existed as his doctor for so many years, he always feels that Leng Yanshuo is very pitiful and will care about him like an elder. The professor has devoted his energy and time to the laboratory all his life, so he has no children, so he naturally regards Leng Yanshuo as his son.

"It's a little bit of a wound, it's fine." Leng Yanshuo's pale thin lips curled a reassuring arc, and motioned for Ina to move a stool for the professor.

"I've seen your medicine, ahem...... Why so careless? This is a new type of drug, which is addictive and unprecedented, and it is difficult to detect it even if you go to drug rehabilitation centers and hospitals. I have to say...... This poison maker is very cunning, you have been using this medicine for a long time, right? "After all, the professor is old, and in a hurry, he has a cough again.

"It's not a long time, about half a year."

Ina saw the professor coughing and immediately poured him a glass of warm water, and the professor took the cup and took a small sip, carefully holding it in the palm of her hand.

"That's right, ahem...... Calculate that the time is about the same, and you will feel weaker and weaker in the future. Forcibly quitting it will gradually drain your essence, unless you keep it in a state of snorting all the time, its sequelae are very large, you should consider it carefully. ”

The professor changed his harshness towards Ina and looked at Leng Yanshuo's eyes with kindness and kindness.

I haven't seen the professor for a year, and this is the case, Leng Yanshuo is also very grateful for his help over the years, and his attitude towards him is different from others.

"I'll quit, I'll try."

"Take your time, don't be in a hurry, this drug can't be in a hurry, if you don't want me to send a white-haired person to a black-haired person, don't miss it for a year or two."

The professor persuaded him bitterly, hoping that Leng Yanshuo would not be in a hurry to quit drugs, but would first take care of his body, and it would not be too late to endure the torment when he could bear it.

"Don't worry." Leng Yanshuo smiled bitterly.

Ina called for the professor to be sent away, and returned to the ward, standing in front of Leng Yanshuo's bed with her head down, waiting for his reprimand.

"You scold me, it's all because I didn't take a good look at them, so I let someone take advantage of the opportunity, and I have already asked someone to investigate."

Leng Yanshuo looked at Ina who blamed herself, a little helpless, what was the use of blaming her, it was a foregone conclusion.

"Forget it, you and Chu Xiao go out to eat."

"......" Ina bit her lower lip and shook her head fiercely, tears thrown out of her eyes.

Chu Xiao sighed and turned around, seeing that Ina was very depressed here, and she was not suitable to stay here to take care of her, so he found a reason to let her leave and investigate why drugs were mixed in the medicine.

Ina covered her mouth and whimpered and rushed out of the door, it was indeed difficult for her to face Leng Yanshuo, so she took this opportunity to stay by herself for a while.

Seeing Ina leaving, Li Chen also got up and tidied up the folds on his coat, and before leaving, he said another word to Leng Yanshuo to let him think about what he said before.

There were only Leng Yanshuo and Chu Xiao left in the ward, and Chu Xiao sat next to Leng Yanshuo and adjusted the speed of the drip.

"What did he make you think about?"

"What else can it be, break up with Li Luo." Leng Yanshuo shook his head with a self-deprecating smile, lying on the soft pillow and staring blankly at the ceiling.

"So what do you think? Do you want to tell her? Chu Xiao frowned.

"Of course, I'll have to tell her in person. The day after tomorrow, I was discharged from the hospital and returned to China on the same day. ”

Chu Xiao originally didn't have much energy, but when he heard him say that he was discharged from the hospital the day after tomorrow, he was immediately unhappy, and his voice was slightly raised, "Crazy!" You're a gunshot wound and you're not skinbroken! ”

Leng Yanshuo disagreed, in the past, he was injured and simply rested for two or three days before returning to work.

"Don't talk nonsense, Li Luo is still waiting for me at home."

"You're a ...... Oops, I don't care about you anymore! Chu Xiao knew that he couldn't persuade Leng Yanshuo who had made a decision, he was willing to toss it.

Chu Xiao took the food that had already been cold one by one, just like Leng Yanshuo, he didn't know the taste.

Leng Yanshuo became depressed again, but this time he was exceptionally calm. Maybe it's because of his experience, this time he didn't panic so much, it was like he had the flu again, and he got used to it.

For a moment, he still felt that Li Luo would still accept him like this, maybe Li Luo would be by his side to tide over the difficulties, and maybe she would dislike herself.

He's dirty, dirty again.

The blow of relapse is too great, but he can't collapse yet, he has to endure going back to see her, even if he breaks up, he has to make it clear face-to-face.

He was a little disappointed when he first learned the news.

disappointed why he didn't die in that desolate and remote place that day, he didn't even know how to open his mouth to Li Luo, such an unbearable situation even he couldn't accept himself, let alone Li Luo.

Suddenly, he felt despair, and the surging fear overflowed every drop of blood.