In the basketball game, he still wanted to take her with him, but it seems that there is no way to achieve it.

Xinrou has been in a state of emptiness for the last few days, and I don't know why she is a little afraid of socializing with people.

She submitted a lot of resumes on mobile recruitment apps, but when there were many recruiters calling for interviews, she was always nervous and didn't even know what to say......

In the next few days, as long as I heard the phone ringing, I always felt a trembling in my heart.

It's too difficult to find a job, not because the process of finding a job is difficult, but because she can't face the fear in her heart, and when she faces the questions asked by the recruiter, she always has infinite fear in her heart.

To be precise, she has a deep sense of inferiority in her heart.

Whenever this inferiority complex appears, she always has no way to make herself calm, and even when she hears those phones ringing, she has a state of not wanting to answer.

But she has no way to retreat, she can't get a job if she doesn't answer the phone, she can't make money without a job, and she can't send it home.....

She was about to be driven crazy by this state, but the people around her didn't feel like this, and they still lived a worry-free life every day, she envied that kind of life, but she couldn't have it.

Calls from home are also always coming.

"Have you ever found a job? Don't you really think about your mother's illness? ”

She doesn't want to answer any phone calls right now, not only from the recruiter, but also at home....

"Looking, not found yet"

She could only reply like this, and there was no way they could understand the fear of the phone.

"Your mother's illness is getting worse and worse, she was diagnosed with a mental illness a few days ago, we can't delay any longer, we must hurry up the treatment, now we can rely on you alone in our family, do you want to watch your mother become a mental illness from now on?"

These words at home are like a threat to me, a threat that I can't put down.

Maybe if he had been firmly chosen at the age of nine, he would not have become so hesitant by now, a child who has been deeply hurt has a different heart from ordinary people.

She sometimes has a terrible idea that she ignores the affairs of her family, but she will always be soft-hearted, and she can only live a life of contradiction between forcing herself and liberating herself.

"I know, I'll try to find a job"

"The daughter of the village chief's family is much more competitive than you, and they all live in a big city, why are you not as good as others? She can bring back so many good things for the family casually, but you can't even pay your mother's medical bills, what a shame it will be for our family to say it."

Sure enough, they could only think of themselves at such a time, as if they had never thought of their own situation, and Xinrou was not so disappointed in her heart once or twice.

If the daughter of the village chief's family had suffered such a situation in the first place, would she have been firmly chosen? Xinrou wanted to ask, but didn't.

"I see," Xinrou said.

There is no hope for this call, only that it can be hung up sooner.

Looking at the mess around her, Xinrou didn't know her situation very well, why she was so far away from the original place, but she still had to suffer from the same situation as before.

Doesn't there be any turning point for the better in any way? But my brother said that as long as you try to stay in this city, everything will be fine, but why haven't you seen a glimmer of hope until now......

"You only talk to us every time, in fact you don't do it, remember your sister who lived across the street from our house when you were young, she was also in your city, and she mixed quite well, if you really can't find it, you can go to her"

The sister who lives opposite, Xinrou of course remembers that she always followed her when she was a child, and she was a very close sister, but so many years have passed, and she has lived here alone for so long, can some things go back to the past?

Xinrou is not sure about this.

"Okay, I know, I still have something to hang up here first" Xinrou finally took the initiative to hang up the phone.

But after a few more days, I still haven't found a job, why is it so difficult for me as a novice?

If you really go to that sister, what should you say in the opening sentence? Say it's been a long time, or do you want to ask someone to help you do things as soon as you come up?

It's been so long, even if you still remember that there was such a person when you were a child, why would you stand up to help now? Is it really good that everyone has their own life and disturbs other people's lives for no reason?

Xinrou didn't plan to go to her, the first point was that she didn't want her to see her current situation, and the second point was that she didn't want to be tied up in the present because of the past, because everything would change in the future.

But the people around their own age, they are now carefree, and they don't have to think about these problems at all, why should they bear all the burdens of the family under great pressure and work hard to move forward?

Maybe if he had been firmly chosen at the age of nine, he wouldn't have raised such a question.

It is said that the psychological wounds suffered as a child will take a lifetime to heal......

"Xinrou, your phone rang, why didn't you answer the phone?" Malt said.

Xinrou realized that when did she become insensitive to her phone calls, or did she deliberately block this voice in her heart, no one can know the nervousness she felt during the interview, and no one can know how helpless she was during the interview, yes, she is such a pathetic person, so sad that she can't help herself.

I have been longing for the appearance of a person, a pool of stagnant water that can drive my life, but from another point of view, maybe no one likes such a person, everyone likes not to be healthy, sunny and positive, who would like a person who is depressed every day.

"Well, thank you!" Xinrou said.

Malt heard the phone ring for a long time, but she was still indifferent, the phone showed an unfamiliar number, she had been on the phone lately, what the hell was going on.

"Why don't you pick it up?" Malt asked

Xinrou smiled reluctantly, her eyes becoming more hollow.

"Oh, nothing"

Malt found that she was always weird during this time, sometimes talking to herself, sometimes that kind of look made people feel that there was no way to understand, she was not such a person before.

"Xinrou, if you have anything, you can tell me, if there is anything you need my help with, I can do my best to help you," Mai said with concern.

When Xinrou heard this answer, although it was a little heartwarming, she could still feel the faint gap between the two people, obviously they were the same age, but she couldn't say such things to others at all.

"Don't worry, I don't have anything to do, if there is, I can solve it myself, thank you for your kindness."

Malt didn't hear her inner voice, and since she didn't want to say it, there was no need to continue asking.

"But no matter what, we also have to live a good life, I will invite you to dinner in a few days" When Mai thought of this, his heart was always happy, this was the first time to bring senior Mangni to the dormitory meeting, to be honest, I was a little nervous, and I had some expectations.

"Okay, I'll definitely participate" Xinrou is like a talking machine without any emotion.

There seem to be two rituals between him and Senior Mangni, the first ceremony is to have a meal with the people in their dormitory, and the second ceremony is to have a meal with the people in his dormitory.

No matter which of these two ceremonies is extremely exciting, is this a group of relatives and friends?

I really envy those girls who can be generous when they get along with boys, Malt doesn't know how to get along with boys, and those who used to stay by his side with a dead face were all beaten back by his own coldness, and now they are different.

If I could, I would like to call some sisters to discuss how to get along with my boyfriend's friends, but I can only blame the sisters in the dormitory for not having much experience.

"Invite us to dinner? Do you also bring a senior with mangni? Wang Er immediately ran over.

When it comes to eating, she is always the most active one.

"Of course, I just hope you don't embarrass him then," Mai said.

"We just have the heart to embarrass him, and we don't have the courage to be thieves! That's a talented man in our computer science department, who dares to embarrass him, not to mention that I don't want to be beaten up by you" Wang Er is still very clear about this.

"Even if you see it clearly, but don't let the atmosphere be cold when the time comes, you know, I'm also the first time in my life, more or less inexperienced, you must not expose my old bottom and black history! Otherwise, I will definitely fight with you when I come back" Malt emphasized the most important thing first, don't talk about their black history in the dormitory at the dinner table, and then give yourself a bug in the heart of Senior Mangni, the perfect image is formed, then this meal is too meaningless!

Wang Er smiled heartily, and had a plan.

"You... What does this smile mean? Malt was a little scared, "If we don't go to dinner, you don't go" She was really unknown.

"How is this possible? We're sisters, and we'll have to ask questions when the time comes, so it's hard to embarrass him."

Did you hear that right? She wants to make it difficult for senior Mangni, isn't this a big knife in front of Guan Gong?

"You... Are you sure you want to do this? ”

"Of course, although I can't compare to Senior Mangni in my studies, I can win in some brain teasers."

"Brain teasers?"

"Have you ever heard of the boyfriend survival test?"

"What's that?"

"You'll know when the time comes, we have to help you verify whether Senior Mangni is sincere to you, don't forget us, but your most loyal sisters"

But the more I heard her say this, the more bottomless Malt's heart became, anyway, don't expose your black history anyway, otherwise there will be no way to gain a foothold in front of Senior Mangni in the future!

"Then you look at me then, don't say anything, otherwise it will seem that our IQ is very low," Mai said.

"Don't worry, don't worry, I'm the most measured in this matter, and there will be no problem in handing it over to me" Wang Er looked confident.