I was shocked to see the woman in front of me who had similar facial features to me, but who was twice as fat as me, because the woman had come out of a door of light.

"I'm you!" The woman laughed with white teeth.

"Big sister, don't ......"

"I eloped with the gangsters when I was in junior high school." The woman interrupted me, her face suddenly serious

I was stunned.

The woman kindly reminded me: "Just chase you that yellow-haired thug remember?" ”

I covered my face: "Black history, please don't mention it......"

Of course I remember, or rather, it's not a gangster, it's my junior high school crush.

The gangster looks good, and his head-killing Matt style is also pleasing to the eye, but he is at the bottom of his grades, and he is regarded as a negative example by the teacher every day.

I would study quietly, and it was rare to have a crush on someone, and the other party was so dead that he fell in love with me.

Junior high school students don't have much money, so the thugs use the money they save to buy snacks, hairpins, and exercise books for me.

I was ashamed and scared to see what I liked, and the teacher couldn't let us do this, I knew.

Later, the teacher came to talk to the parents, and I was tried separately from him, and after a few days in the dark, he lost a lot of weight, and there was an extra wound on his face that his father drew out with a belt.

He said to me: "I like you, I like you no matter what, you give me a word, if you are willing to accept me, I will take you away, no matter what, I will protect you for the rest of your life." "He was crying when he said this, I wiped his tears and said forget it, I don't want to do this, I want to take the key exam, I want to take the university exam, you let me go."

The woman looked at me sarcastically: "Yo, remember? ”

He ...... Are you okay? "I'm a little hard to talk about.

The woman laughed: "Of course it's okay, we eloped, missed the high school exam, and then the family compromised, we went to a technical school together, and after graduation, we opened a small restaurant, gave birth to two children, he raised me forty pounds, and took me as a treasure, do you say you regret it?" ”

In the light door behind the woman, I saw a clean small restaurant, a middle-aged man in a chef's uniform was handling the ingredients, compared to the youth and handsomeness of the year, although he is now blessed, the corners of his eyebrows and eyes are still gentle, he raised his head and looked at the woman next to me: "Come back and eat quickly, eat so much for breakfast, how can your body eat?" ”

The woman was gone, the light door was gone, and I was stunned.

I was cowardly that time, and I missed the only desperate love in my life, a teenager who loved me so passionately, and I never met it again.

I chose love, I fell into the world's firewood, rice, oil and salt, I asked myself, do you regret it?

Someone tapped me on the shoulder again: "Hey, do you know me?" ”

I looked at the light door behind her: "You are me too?" ”

She was wearing a professional suit, her long hair was coiled behind her head, and she was delicate and capable: "I was the one who didn't skip class in high math class that year." ”

I thought about it for a while before I remembered that I had entered the campus that year with great ambition, but I was discouraged by the lack of adaptation to the professional course, and I skipped class for the first time in high math class because I couldn't understand the Fourier transformation.

"At that time, I didn't skip class, I stayed up all night for several nights to understand the Fourier transformation, and then I fell in love with my major, I went all the way to the doctorate, went to study abroad for two years, and after returning to China, I worked as a project leader in the military research institute."

Women don't like to laugh, and her long-term professional immersion makes her whole temperament seem cold, but no matter what, she is successful, and I can see the light in her eyes.

I sighed, didn't say anything, and the woman was gone.

Another door of light opened, and out came a gray-haired old lady, her demeanor was elegant and calm, and she still looked exquisite in makeup and extraordinary clothes when she was old.

"Which me are you?" I'm weak.

"I was the one who didn't go on a blind date that year." The old lady smiled.

I covered my face and wanted to die, five years after graduation, my family couldn't bear it, forced me to go on a blind date, I went, the other party was about the same as me, and it didn't look spicy, I thought about making do with it, so I agreed to the relationship, pursuing the principle of what age should be done, I married him at the age of 28, gave birth to a child at the age of 29, and then respected each other for many years, and was more polite than friends.

The old lady squinted and recalled: "I didn't go on a blind date that year, because I suddenly felt that I was in this life, why do I have to live according to other people's ideas?" I quit my career that year, I studied English and wrote alone, I relied on the manuscript fee to go all the way and read all the way, I traveled to many countries, met many friends, I was unmarried in my life, but my life was no more barren than anyone else. ”

I am confined to a city, a world, and a family.

I slowly wore out the light in my eyes bit by bit in my life.

I crouched on the ground and wept, and the door of light disappeared and reappeared, and countless of me came out to tell me their stories.

That's the umpteenth time I've had the courage to finally back down

I woke up suddenly, there was a snow-white ceiling in front of me, and a hanging bottle stood next to it, and I looked down at the transparent tube of the hanging bottle, and I saw my loose and deformed hands.

I remembered that I was old, my life had come to an end, I had abandoned all my choices, and I had cowered and steadied all the way until I ran out of oil.

There was no one in the room, so I smiled and struggled to sit up.

I reached out and pulled out the needle, lifted the covers and walked out.

The sun is shining outside the window, and there are all kinds of kites in the sky.

I've been cowardly all my life, love, ideals, freedom...... I gave it all up, and now I'm left with a dying body.

Finally, give me another chance to choose, let me choose my own death.

I smiled and stepped out of the edge of the rooftop.

I screamed and woke up.

I was still in junior high school class, and the yellow-haired thug was secretly stuffing chocolates into my drawer, and he rubbed his hands together in embarrassment.

I reached out and pinched him: "Hey,"

I said, "I like you." ”

"But I want to take the key exam, take the university exam, learn the major I like, make a career, and when I am old, I still want to travel the world, do you want to accompany me?"

The thug nodded stunned, looking cute.

"Then let's get this out of the way first." I threw him a stack of exercise books and rubbed them over his yellow hair.

Fuck it! Lao Tzu wants them all.