CHAPTER XV

"Quacks. When you want to talk to whom. but no one listened. Isn't it going to be uncomfortable?"

The quack nodded. I asked him again, "When you think of someone. But I don't see it. Only the time I can miss. Isn't it going to be uncomfortable?"

The quack nodded. I patted him on the head: "This is loneliness......"

The quack doctor looked at me as if he didn't understand. Ask me, "What about you now?" Is it lonely?"

I shook my head: "I can't tell. Human feelings are too complicated. Maybe it's lonely. The person I love is not around. Not in sight. But back to the capital. I can't be with him either. It's lonely here. I'm afraid I'll still be lonely when I go back."

The quack doctor asked me puzzled, "You love him. He loves you too. It's good that you and the fourth master are together."

I laughed, "It's so easy. Quack. Oh people. It's not that simple. It's not love. We can be together......"

The quack doctor sighed and shook his head, "You humans are so complicated."

I took advantage of his lack of attention. He grabbed his tail again: "Wait until you understand human feelings. You're evolutionary."

The quack screamed and shook me off. Then he quickly hid his tail. Indignantly yelled at me, "You bad woman."

I stuck my tongue out at him, "Hey. You're not going to do any spells."

The quack shook his head. I'm upset: "You're a goblin. How can you not know spells?"

The quack doctor shouted angrily, "The goblins don't necessarily have to return to spells. I didn't learn how it could be."

I looked at him puzzled: "Then how did you cultivate into 'Jing'."

The quack lowered his eyes: "I...... I don't know...... At that time. Live with an immortal. He gave me a lot of good food. And then it slowly became like this~ Later. And he was gone......"

He said. Loneliness is abnormal. I've never seen a quack like this. Impressions. He's always been dressed in red.' Flowers' branches are spreading. It seems that one person is already extraordinarily lively. Such quacks at this time. It makes me feel very distressed.

Obviously he lived for more than a thousand years. I thought he was just a kid who didn't know anything. Helpless and pitiful. I don't even understand my loneliness. I don't know if I'm lost.

I held out my hand.' Touch' his head: "Little quack. Later. I'm your relative. You see. I don't have any family here. You have no other relatives in this world. It's good for us to be companions."

Quacks raise their heads. There was a glitter of anticipation in his eyes: "Really."

I smiled and nodded, "Really."

The quack put his arm around me happily: "Great."

That's great...... It's just a word. can make a person so happy. I put my arms around him. Hands stroking his long hair. Such a simple person. No. It should be said that . Such a simple fox.

All of a sudden, my heart was playful. Grab him by the tail: "Why don't you be my pet. I've always loved 'hairy' furry animals. You cute white fox. It's so much to my appetite."

The quack fried 'Mao' angrily: "Ah. Don't don't don't. I'm Snow Fox-sama. I'm a quack doctor. Don't touch my tail indiscriminately."

I laughed so hard that the 'flowers' and branches trembled: "Hahaha...... You look like this. Get rid of a fried 'hair' alive."

"Fried 'hairy' suffered. That's something." The quack tilted his head to look at me.

I forced a smile. Pretending to be deep: "Hmm. This is a very serious question. You'll understand when you're older."

"I'm over a thousand years old. You haven't grown up. Stinky girl."

I shook my head, "I've grown up. You see. As a person. I don't live more than a few decades. I'm already in my twenties in the Qing Dynasty. How could it be that he hadn't grown up yet. It's you. A little goblin 'elf', your long eternal life. When will I be considered an adult?"

"Eternal life......" quack meditates on the word. Suddenly lost: "Yes. The long eternal life. When is the head......

"Hey. Don't do this. How many people can't live forever? You're so 'flowery'. Take your time in this world."

The quack puffed out his face and nodded. He said to me, "Go up and sleep. Let's start packing up tomorrow and get ready to go back."

I shook my head: "No rush. I want to wait until the death day of the Queen Mother is over before leaving."

"Then it's almost the New Year."

"Hmm......" I sighed, "Maybe I'll leave after the New Year. Who knows...... Wait a minute. I want to spend more time with her......"

The quack looked at me. There was a bit of distress written in his eyes: "You girl. It is said that the decision to kill in recent years has not been merciless. Why is it still such a soft heart. You look like this. How do you survive in the palace?"

I pouted, "That's it. It's been 10 years. It won't be so bad after that."

His slightly cool fingertips gently pressed against the red lotus in the center of my eyebrows: "This red lotus. It's getting more and more like it grows out of your skin."

"Yes......" I sighed, "You say. Will they meet?"

The quack shook his head: "I don't know. But. Does it still matter?"

"It's too. They each had their own wishes. Maybe. Everything in this life doesn't matter......"

Me to the end. I didn't pack up my things and go back according to the holy decree or the fourth master's will.

Hui'er asked me when . I said I wanted to spend more time with my grandmother. She nodded obediently. Since then, I will no longer mention the matter of returning to Beijing.

Summer passes. The autumn wind rises. Fallen leaves everywhere. Heavy Snow Flying ......

Winter is coming. That day in December. In the morning, before dawn, I got up and bathed in incense. Copying the scriptures. All day. I'm all in the house and copying it safely. Nothing else was done. Nothing at all.

In the evening. Lan Yue knocked on the 'door': "Gege. It's been a whole day. Eat something."

I'm holding the pen. Finish writing the last word. He let out a sigh: "Lan Yue. Prepare the food and drinks. I'm going to see Grandmother."

Lan Yue pushed open the 'door': "Gege. It's icy and snowy. You're going to catch a cold."

I shook my head. Look at the moonlight reflected in the snow outside the house. A dazzling brightness: "No. She'll protect me."

I wore a bright red 'colored' 'Meng' robe. Dressed in a pure white fox fur cloak. No one followed. I carried the food box to the queen mother's mausoleum.

I'll set the dishes and drinks. Just sat in the snow: "Imperial grandmother. I'm here to accompany you. past today. I'm afraid I'll really have to go back. Let's be honest. I don't want to go back. I want to be with you like that. Zunhua is actually 'pretty good'. You see. It's so peaceful here. There weren't that many fights. Get away from the hustle and bustle. But I'm not going. It doesn't seem to work anymore. After all. There's a lot of work waiting for me there."

I drank a glass of spirits: "Imperial Grandmother. If you are in. What would you want me to do. It's going back. Or stay with you. I am tired. I don't care about anything. But is that okay? What you entrusted me with when you left. I understand what you mean. But can I do it......"

I took out two small gold seals from my bosom. When the Queen Mother was seriously ill. Quietly 'handed over' to me. It was one of the most important seals in the harem. The Queen's Phoenix Seal. and the queen mother's phoenix seal. What she meant. It was after she was gone. Let me take care of the harem. What she meant. It is the new emperor who will ascend the throne in the future. Let me put this thing to good use.

But can I really do it? This decade. I'm kind of a battler. All the way. It's like a little mermaid with two 'legs'. Step by step like a knife in the heart. Look back at yourself along the way. I could see the blood stains every step of the way......

Get back. Return to the Royal Palace. Even if I really put aside the Dark Guard. Will I be at peace? No...... How can it be. In that square sky. There is no peace at all.

But I won't go back. What should the fourth master do. What should I do with Brother Thirteen......

I can't let go of much. That's why I'm so tired now......

I looked up at the bright moon in the sky: "Imperial grandmother. Are you watching me from heaven. If I go back. Will you still protect me?"

How could anyone respond to me. I laughed self-deprecatingly. No more muffled. smiled and said to the spiritual seat: "Imperial grandmother. I'll dance for you. Dance on the prairie. It's good to dance a song."

Last time I danced this dance. Or forty-seven years on the steppe. That. I am wearing the royal blue 'color' and 'Meng' ancient robe given to me by the Queen Mother. Under the moonlight. Dance around a campfire.

Today. I'm dressed in red. Dancing only for this grandmother who loves me the most......

"Hong Yan. on the sky. Pairs are lined up. JIANG Shui Chang. Autumn grass yellow. The sound of the piano on the grassland is sad. Swan goose. To the south. Fly over the reeds and 'swing'. Where are the geese going? In my heart is the hometown of the north. The sky is vast. Where are the geese going? In my heart is the hometown of the north. Swan goose. North Return. Take my thoughts with you. Singing far away. The piano trembles. The prairie is warm in spring. Swan goose. To the sky. How far away is the sky. Drink dry. Fill it up again. If you don't get drunk tonight, you won't pay it back. Drink dry. Fill it up again. If you don't get drunk tonight, you won't return."

Tears slipped down her eyes. With the rotation. Bend over. Leaping. Sprinkled on thick snow. Smashed out small tear stains. The face is stung by the cold wind. But I won't stop. Just singing and dancing.

Until a big jump. Slip under your feet. Fall to the ground. The pain and the cold snow thorns 'provoked' me to finally cry out loud. I was thoroughly vented. venting the pain in his heart......

"'Jade'......" a familiar voice came. With this sound. I was taken into a warm embrace.

"Fourth brother......" this familiar voice. Familiar breath. Familiar warmth. Except for him. Who else could it be.

The fourth master hugged me tightly in his arms: "You stupid child. Why do you sit in the snow like this? What should I do if I catch a cold?"

I wept silently. Shaking his head in his arms: "Fourth brother. I miss you so much......"

"I miss you too......"

The fourth master picked me up. Pick up the cloak I still have by my side and drape it over me. Just go back.

His footsteps were steady on the snow. Make a "crunch" sound. Under such a moon 'color'. His grim countenance. It shows a warmth that makes me feel extremely relieved. I put my arms around his neck: "Fourth brother. Do you remember. I got drunk for the first time in your house. That. It's also the color of the moon that is shining like this."

The fourth master nodded: "You girl. Drunk that day. Holding me and crying all the time. I cried so much that I couldn't help it. In the end, I can only hold you tightly. I'm afraid you'll be wronged again."

"You liked me then."

The fourth master doesn't speak. His face was a little red. I 'pumped' my nose. He smiled and asked, "Fourth brother. At that time. I'm only thirteen years old. You actually like a child. No wonder you spoil Nian 'Jade' Yao. When she marries you. I'm only thirteen years old."

The fourth master frowned: "Don't mess around. I don't like children."

"Who believes......"

The fourth master stopped. Looking down at me: "You're different. Say it yourself. When have you ever been like a child? If it weren't for the fact that you're too young. I have long ago begged the Emperor Ama to marry you to me. Where did it 'get' to be what it is today?"

He finished. And he kept walking. I muttered, "Why do you cry every time you don't have a shape. will be seen by the fourth brother...... That year it was also in the Imperial Palace. I cried like no other. Fourth brother. You don't dislike me."

"Don't dislike it. I just feel sorry for you."

I curled up in his arms. Whispered: "Fourth brother. Do you remember. Returned from the palace that year. Drinking in my house. I'm drunk. I told you something later. I don't even remember......"

"Didn't say anything."

"Why didn't the fourth brother tell me."

"When you're old. When he was still leaning in my arms. If still remember to ask me. I'll tell you."

"By that time. You must have forgotten what I said......"

The fourth master bowed his head. Look at me. So seriously: "No. Every word you've ever spoken. I'll always remember it."

The fourth master just hugged me and walked back. Lan Yue looked at the snow on my body that had not yet melted. Anxiously shouted: "My good character. What's wrong with you?"

The fourth master whispered, "It's nothing. Just fell. Let's go boil hot water."

Lan Yue nodded: "The hot water has been prepared for a long time. Fourth Master, you can take Gege in and bake the fire first." She said. Turn around and go to the side room. As he walked, he shouted, "Harleen. Harleen. Prepare a hot bath for Gege."

The fourth master carried me into the house. Untie my cloak. And he took off my snow-soaked robe with his own hands. Pull over the quilt and wrap me up. Holding in his arms: "Is it cold?"

I shook my head. I was about to say something. I heard Hui'er shouting, "Auntie. Auntie."

Hui'er ran in. Saw me. But he suddenly stopped. Tilting his head and looking at it suspiciously. That's when I remembered. I'm still in the arms of the fourth master. Break away. Stretched out his hand at Hui'er: "Hui'er. Come on."

Hui'er threw herself into my arms. Wrapping his arms around my neck: "Auntie, auntie. I haven't seen you for a day."

I patted her on the back, "Hui'er hasn't slept yet."

"Hui'er misses her aunt......" she was aggrieved. Poor baba makes my heart ache.

I hurried to kiss her forehead. He held her in his arms and coaxed: "Good Hui'er. Aunt coaxes you to sleep. Is it good?"

Hui'er didn't speak. Instead, he looked at the fourth master and asked, "Auntie. Who is he?"

I smiled and said, "Hui'er. This is your fourth uncle. The fourth uncle is the best with you. is the best best brother. Fourth Uncle I love you."

"Fourth uncle." Hui'er tilted her head: "When I was young. Did the fourth uncle still hug me?"

The fourth master reached out and pinched Hui'er's face: "Yes. Do you remember?"

Hui'er shook her head: "I don't remember. But I think. Not too strange." She said. Yawned.

I patted her. Coaxed softly: "Good boy. Sleep."

Hui'er's eyelids sank. But he still stubbornly said: "Don't sleep ......"

"Good baby. Go to sleep...... Go to sleep. Oh my little darling. Go to sleep. Go to sleep. My good baby." I sang a lullaby. Sleepy Hui'er pouted in my arms. I fell asleep. I'm holding Hui'er. The fourth master hugged me. It seems to be an ordinary family of three. On such a snowy night. In the warmth of home.

The fourth master gently kissed my hair. I leaned on his shoulder. Looking at Hui'er's delicate sleeping face in my arms.

Lan Yue and Harleen prepared hot water. I gently entrusted Hui'er to Harleen: "You carry her back to her room. Wrap it in my fox fur cloak. Don't catch the wind."

Harleen smiled and nodded, "Don't worry, princess."

Lan Yue walked over and said with a smile, "Gege. The water is ready. Take a bath. The slave and maid went outside and waited."

Before I could speak. The fourth master has already opened his mouth: "It's cold outside. Don't wait. Go down and rest. It's just that the king is here."

"Yes. The slave and maid are gone." Lan Yue smiled and nodded. Look up at me. The eyes are full of smiles that can't be hidden.

I was ashamed and angry. Spat her: "You girl. Who's your master?"

The fourth master hugged me: "Good. Don't make a fuss."

Lan Yue left the room. I had an awkward quarrel with the fourth master: "Fourth brother. How can you always let them see me laughing. How can I be my master?"

The fourth master smiled and hugged me: "Good. Don't make a fuss. Where will they look at your jokes? They are so faithful to you. Hurry up and take a bath. You're cold. Don't rush to soak in hot water. I'm going to get sick tomorrow."

He said. And he unbuttoned my undergarment. I was ashamed and annoyed: "I'll do it myself."

"Good. Don't move."

He took off my underwear.' Revealing the pale pink belly pocket inside me. His fingers flickered. And he untied the strap of his belly pocket. Just walked back from outside. His fingers were still cold. Inadvertently touching my skin. Makes me shiver.

"Is it cold?" He asked me.

I looked up at him. His expression was so gentle. But there was a flame in his eyes that was beginning to burn. I shook my head. Biting his 'lip' and not speaking.

His cold fingers brushed my lips: "Good. Don't bite." He said. Stripped of the last of my clothes. Holding me so ashamed that I didn't dare to lift my face. Sent me into the tub. Let me sit in the tub. He was standing behind me. Help me slowly spread my hair.

Look at me blushing with shame. He smiled: "Shy what. It's not like I haven't seen it."

"Why are you so thick-skinned. Aren't you shy?"

The fourth master lowered his head and 'kissed' my forehead: "Why should I be shy. It's you. Too shy to make sense. Come. Give me a smile."

The fourth master really annoyed me like this. I simply took the water and splashed it in his face: "Let you be so ashamed again. Bad guys."

"Stinky girl. How dare you do that?" The fourth master glared at me and said.