I sat on my bed in the rental house and lit a cigarette to try to ease my anxiety.

But it wasn't until one cigarette was finished that I lit another one, and the cycle went on and on.

At the age of 21, I stayed in Zhengzhong City with my girlfriend Chen Nan after graduation, but three months later, I didn't even have a serious job.

It's her birthday in three days, and I can't afford to buy her birthday present.

I stood up and walked to the window, trying to get some fresh air, only to find that the whole city was functioning in an orderly manner.

Workers on steel and mud tiles, white-collar workers in office buildings, and even the subway running underground all make the city look cold.

As a new first-tier city, Zhengzhong City carries the dreams of many young people, but as everyone knows, in this city with low wages and high consumption, sometimes even a bowl of braised noodles may not be able to afford it.

"Ding-dong."

The mobile phone rang, and it was WeChat from my friend Li Xiang.

"Hao Shuai, I have something I want to tell you, don't be angry, that, just now I saw Chen Nan being put into a BMW car by a man's arms."

"You fart, Chen Nan and I don't know about others, don't you kid know, how many models we have in school, I haven't broken up when you broke up, I haven't broken up yet......"

I have been in a relationship with Chen Nan for three years, so I won't believe what Li Xiang said at all.

"Hao Shuai, didn't I say you, can it be the same as the school now, tell me about you, how long have you been in Zhengzhong, it's been three months, have you made any money, anyway, that's it, as for what to do next, it's up to you."

After listening to Li Xiang's voice, I suddenly chuckled in my heart.

Li Xiang and I were in a dormitory in school, and after graduation, I went back to Zhengzhong to find a public institution by relying on his father, and haunted between major hotels and hotels all day long.

Could it be that Chen Nan is ......

Thinking of this, I picked up my mobile phone and made a call to Chen Nan, but the other party was on the phone.

It was obvious that Chen Nan hung up on me.

Just a week ago, she told me that she had found a job as a product anchor for a media company.

At that time, I was very happy, but now that I think about it, Chen Nan, who has been looking for two months, has not found a job, how can he suddenly be willing to be an anchor, there must be something wrong here?

......

This year's spring came exceptionally late.

The weather in Zhengzhong in April was still gloomy, and it was drizzling, which added a touch of coolness to the already low temperature.

I rode a shared bicycle at the fastest speed, shuttling through the streets of the high-tech zone, and because of the speed, it attracted a lot of abuse from passers-by.

But I didn't pay attention to it at all, at this time in my heart, I just wanted to see Chen Nan and ask what's going on, if I really want to break up, I won't force it, but what I can't accept the most is that she treats me as a spare tire.

At twelve o'clock in the afternoon, I stood on the road opposite the e-commerce science and technology park in the high-tech zone, staring at the door with my eyes.

Suddenly, my eyes focused on Chen Nan in the crowd.

She is dressed very innocently today, wearing a pale yellow dress, fluffy hair, and a pair of small white shoes, at first glance, she knows that she is a recent college graduate.

Just as I was about to take a step and ask what was going on, a BMW slowly stopped, and I quickly retracted and looked over again.

I saw my favorite girlfriend have a smile on her face that I've never seen before, and randomly pulled the car door and got into the passenger seat of another man.

And so, like a clown, I watched the car drive away in front of me.

For some reason, a wave of anger suddenly rose in my heart, and I even imagined in my mind that the woman I loved was lying in the arms of other men.

One afternoon, I walked on the street like a stray dog, from the Central Plains District to the South Third Ring Road, and from the South Third Ring Road to Chen Nan's dormitory.

At first, we lived together, but we moved out as soon as she got a job.

At the beginning, I said that the company was in charge, but now I am standing downstairs in Chen Nan's dormitory, and I always feel like a fool.

Maybe now she is enjoying high-end red wine with other men in a high-end hotel.

I lit a cigarette to calm my emotions, I knew that I really owed Chen Nan, so I decided to make things clear if I saw her for a while, and if I really wanted to break up, I would never waste her time.

"Hao Shuai."

A cigarette, a familiar voice sounded from behind me.

Turning his head, it was Chen Nan.

"Brush."

Before I could speak, Chen Nan rushed over in two steps and hugged me: "You still know that you came to see me, I have been thinking about you every day for a while, I know that you are looking for a job, and I dare not disturb you." ”

Suddenly, my heart that was as hard as a stone before was instantly melted by Chen Nan's simple words.

But this time, I didn't, and I knew she might have said something similar to another man an hour ago.

So I pushed her away, looked at the cheek that had fascinated me, and said, "It's nine o'clock, and you don't get off work?" ”

"Yes, you also know that our company is an anchor company, and we usually get off work late."

"Chen Nan, let me ask you, are you hiding something from me?"

I don't have time to think about it that much, I just want to figure out the answer as soon as possible.

Chen Nan may have realized something, frowned tightly and said in a daze: "What can I hide from you, no, what do you mean?" ”

"I didn't mean anything, I just saw you get into a BMW with a man today......"

Before I could finish speaking, Chen Nan was obviously a little impatient, she stared at my eyes and said, "Hao Shuai, if you come to see me, I am very happy, but if you have nothing to do, I advise you to go back quickly." ”

"What's going on with the BMW......"

"What's going on?"

Chen Nan's tone was a little tough: "That's my boss's car, what's wrong with me going out with my boss to do something, Hao Shuai, you are really enough, doubt me, I tell you, I am too lazy to take care of you, you said that you don't have a job every day, what do you think about, you have this time to look for a job than to think about it here." ”

Speaking of this, Chen Nan took a deep breath, and then looked at me again: "Okay, I've been working for a day, and I'm too lazy to take care of you, so you can leave quickly." ”

Looking at Chen Nan's back, I fell into deep thought, why she faced me so calmly, as if none of this had happened.

Is it really that I am overthinking?